"Liz! Please don't hurt me! Please I'm sorry! Plea.."
Beca was jolted awake by her own recurring nightmare. Her body was thick with a layer of sweat, and her breathing was rapid, but slowly went back to normal when she realised her surroundings.
She glanced at her clock, realising that it was only 6 A.M. but she knew she wouldn't be able to get back to sleep, especially after that nightmare. She got out of bed, and decided to have a shower.
Beca hated taking off her clothes, especially when she had to shower. That was always the one part of her day that she hated, apart from worrying every night that she'll wake up the same way as the previous morning.
After Beca's shower, she would look at herself in the mirror. She would stare at her arms, her legs and her stomach, the places that the scars were on her skin. Everyday she would count them, she would then count the memories, the reminders as to why these scars are on her body. A constant reminder of what happened. These scars would be on her skin forever, just like the memories will stay with her forever. This became part of Beca's daily routine as some may say. She would wake up from her nightmare, have a shower, and stare at her scars in the mirror.
Tears ran down her face. This was until her dad shouted up for her.
"Beca! Can you come downstairs? Sheila and I need to tell you something quickly before we leave!"
"Sure.." Beca cleared her throat so her voice was clear of thick emotion. "Dad! I'll be down in a minute!"
After quickly putting on some clothes and putting on her makeup, she went downstairs only to see bags by the front door. Ben and Sheila whipped their heads around to be met with a sight that was his daughter.
"Beca, I'm going on a business trip and Sheila is coming with me." Ben told Beca.
"That's it? You guys go away every month for a business trip." Beca said in confusion.
Ben sighed "This time it's going to be for three weeks, a month basically."
Beca took time to process this and then came out with, "So you're both going on this trip and leaving me here for a whole month?"
"I'm sorry sweetie, but we will call you every day and we'll be back before you know it." Sheila tried to help with the situation.
"I just don't get why you have to go away for three weeks dad. You've only ever gone away for a week, and I hardly ever see you when you come back because you're busy with work, with Sheila, with everyone and everything but me!" Beca didn't mean to lose her temper, she was just tired and annoyed with her father always going away on business trips and when he comes home, he doesn't see her as often.
Ben groaned in frustration "Beca! That's enough! I do have time for you, have you ever realised that everything I'm doing it's all for you?! Why are you always like this?! You're just as selfish as…"
"That's enough!" Sheila cut Ben off in frustration and anger. "Ben. Don't even think to finish that sentence. Apologise to Beca right now."
"Beca, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean for that, I've just been stressed out with work." Ben apologised and genuinely looked sorry for his actions while Beca was looking anywhere but her father. "I promise you when I get back, we can have a proper holiday. Me, you and Sheila. But for now, I have to go. I love you Beca, more than you know."
Beca seemed at ease but still slightly upset with her dad's words. "I love you too dad. I'll see you when you get back." She gave him a small smile which he returned.
Ben walked out the door carrying the bags he and Sheila had. Just before Sheila left, she went over to Beca.
"I'm sorry for what he said Beca. He didn't mean it. Now, make sure you don't break the house and call if you need anything." Sheila went in for a hug which was rejected by Beca, but Beca felt a pang of guilt afterwards. Sheila gave a small smile to Beca before walking out the door. That was the last time Beca would see them for a month.
With a sigh, Beca walked to school 20 minutes after her dad and Sheila leaving and having breakfast. She put her Beats headphones on and started her 10 minute walk to school which was then interrupted by Jesse.
He was calling her name continuously which she obviously could not hear, but she felt terrified when she felt someone tear off her headphones and the music that flowed into her ears was gone, in an instant. She felt the breath tear from her lungs but was soon brought back to her when she heard a familiar voice come from beside her.
"Hey Beca" Jesse said in a happy tone.
Beca, after getting over her initial shock turned to Jesse and gave him a small smile and a nod.
"Aren't you going to say 'hi' back?" Jesse asked with a slightly lower tone and his brows furrowed, Beca couldn't tell if it was in anger or confusion.
"Oh right, sorry where are my manners" she replied sarcastically, "you alright nerd?" Beca asked with a smirk playing.
His facial expression changed fairly quickly, but only a slight part of his anger was gone, some still remained placed on his face. "You know, my name is Jesse, right? It's not nerd."
Beca rolled her eyes "Yeah I know, but the name kind of suits you."
Jesse then had a smirk of his own "So if you can call me nerd, I can call you my girl?"
Did he really just say that? The one thought that entered her mind.
"Sorry dude, but you're not my type." Beca replied to Jesse.
Jesse brows furrowed again, this time it was definitely in confusion. "I'm not your type?"
"Nope." Beca made the carried out the 'p' sound.
The rest of the walk was awkward like it was yesterday, Beca had nothing to say, and she didn't really want to seem rude by putting on her headphones while walking together to school. She glanced at Jesse who looked like he was thinking a bit too hard. His expression looked angry, annoyed and frustrated.
Once at school, she couldn't avoid Jesse. He looked like he had figured out whatever he was thinking because he changed back into the goofy nerd Beca knew… kind of knew.
"Do you like movies?" The first thing he says to me after what seemed like hours walking in silence together.
"No. They're too predictable. Guy gets the girl, Vadar is Luke's father." Beca trails off.
Jesse's shocked expression says it all. "How can you not like movies? Everybody loves movies, especially The Breakfast Club. That's the best movie in the history of movies." He looked at me with another one of his goofy grins, "We need to watch it some time. How about after school?"
His hopeful smile and pleading eyes makes Beca give in. Despite feeling uneasy about her decision. "Sure, I guess"
"Great. I'll meet you after class in this very spot"
"Okay, I've got to get to class" Beca says, wanting to escape the conversation. "Bye nerd", she calls out over her shoulder to Jesse.
While walking, she met up with Fat Amy and Stacie. They all had the same classes together that day, and always sat next to each other. So I guess you could say Tuesday's weren't that bad.
"So Beca, looks like someone has got a love interest" Stacie exclaimed with a smirk.
Beca rolled her eyes, "No Jesse is just a friend that I tolerate, like you two." She knew that last part would wind her friends up.
Fat Amy then chimed in, "I think actually she had a crush on our new Biology teacher, Miss Beale."
"No I don't, she's my teacher. Another person I have to tolerate." Beca replied with a hint of sarcasm.
Stacie looked at her with confusion, "Since when did you tolerate any teacher Beca?"
"Stacie has got a point there" Fat Amy said winding Beca up as usual.
"I don't like her. She's just my teacher, I'm just her student. Now both of you shut the fuck up so we can get to class before I kill the both of you." Beca replied in a serious tone.
"Looks like Beca needs some lady loving in her life. I think she just needs to get laid, release some of that tension she's carrying. I know this one girl, she'd be perfect f…"
Stacie was cut off by Beca "No I don't need to get laid. I'm fine being single. Plus, I'm not really ready or looking for a relationship."
The girls exchanged nods, they both knew when to draw the line. They know when they've crossed it too, when she begins to bring up her past relationship with Liz. The rest of the walk was a normal daily conversation. It included Stacie bragging about her hook ups, Fat Amy bragging about her different boyfriends, and Beca rolling her eyes at each comment they both make about their lives.
Last lesson of the day. Come on Beca, it's only one hour. You'll be free then. Beca's thoughts raced through her mind. The only problem with this lesson, it was Biology with her teacher that she 'wasn't in love with'.
"You're late" Beca's eyes were met with her teacher's. She said a quick 'sorry' before heading to her seat where she was met with Jesse's eyes making a hole through her head. She ignored it and got her books out from her back while trying to make notes without getting distracted by her redheaded teacher.
She was trying to concentrate, but all she could feel was Jesse looking at her. She only lasted five minutes before snapping at Jesse while earning the attention of her class and her teacher.
"Can you stop staring at me?! It's creeping me out!"
Chloe's head whipped around to see Beca's facial expression looked annoyed and pissed off. "Miss Mitchell, Mr Swanson. What is going on?" She contained her anger and was calm and collected.
"Sorry Miss Beale, nothing is going on" Beca refused to look at her teacher in the eye but was trying to calm down from the anger that was in her veins.
Chloe seemed happy with Beca's response but could still see the anger present in her face.
"Thank you for your apology, but you'll need to stay behind for a detention for being late and shouting in class."
Jesse seemed irritated by this, he wanted to spend time with Beca after school but now she had a detention, and he couldn't understand why Beca would shout at him like that. He didn't think he did anything wrong to her. He didn't stare at her throughout the remainder of the lesson but stole glances every minute, but he was also glaring at his teacher. He was mad at her for giving Beca a detention. Beca noticed this and didn't understand why he was glaring at her. She just thought he was mad at her because they couldn't hang out after school. Beca was kind of happy with this though, she would get away from Jesse (no offence to him) and spend time with her teacher.
The bell rang, signaling that the lesson was over.
Jesse stormed out of the classroom leaving Beca alone. Beca had only just realised that Fat Amy wasn't in her lesson no was Stacie, but then again, Stacie never turns up to Biology, and Fat Amy was probably with one of her 'many boyfriends'.
Beca sighed and just stared at her book while writing some notes from her textbook considering this is usually how all her detentions start and end. She didn't realise someone had sat next to her where Jesse once sat.
"Beca, are you going to tell me why you really shouted at Jesse?" Chloe asked in a sympathetic voice.
"Why do you want to know? You don't really care, you're just a teacher." Beca deapended.
Chloe seemed shocked by this and replied to her, "Of course I care Beca. I'm not just your teacher, I'm your friend as odd as it sounds. I care about you and every student."
Beca piped up a bit when Chloe told her she cared about her, but she knew it was only as a teacher student way, not in the way she wanted it to be.
When Beca didn't reply to her, she asked her again, "Are you going to tell me why you shouted at Jesse?"
Beca gave in easily, "Jesse has been really weird lately, well ever since I first met him. His expressions keep changing from happy and goofy to angry and annoyed or confused. He sometimes stares at me for a long period of time, it distracts me, but this time, I just snapped at him. I guess it was him, everything with my dad, and with my friends. It was just the final push I guess."
"Beca, if you ever need to talk to me about anything, I'll be here for you. As for Jesse, I could move him to another space if you would like me too, and this seat could be taken by Amy or it could be empty in case you want to be alone or want me to come and sit with you if you have trouble concentrating." Chloe explained to Beca.
Beca smiled for the first time in a long time, "If that's okay?" Chloe's nod of conformation, "Then sure."
Chloe asked if Beca needed help with her work which Beca accepted. They ended up getting distracted from the work when Chloe asked Beca questions about her life, her family and why she was upset which led to Beca telling her the story, minus the part about her friends making fun of the fact she has a crush on her teacher.
"...and I make mixes for fun" Beca exclaimed.
Chloe seemed genuinely interested with Beca, and she couldn't figure out why she wanted to know so much about this mysterious girl. She just liked being with her, and Beca felt the same way, they just didn't know the other one did feel that way.
"What songs have you mixed?" Chloe asked with excitement present in her voice.
Beca smiled and said "Release me and Bulletproof"
"Sounds like a good mix, you'll have to play it for me one day."
"R-really?" Beca questioned in a shocked way.
Chloe nodded her head with a smile planted on her face which made Beca smile back.
They both looked into each other's eyes, both exploring the others. They were both admiring how beautiful the other person was. Beca began leaning in as did Chloe. Their faces inches apart, their breathing becoming rapid. They both closed their eyes, getting closer and closer each second. It felt like hours before Beca felt soft smooth lips covering her own. She felt fireworks going off in her stomach and all around her, Chloe felt the same way. Chloe was the one to deepen the kiss while Beca gladly obliged. They continued making out for what seemed like hours, but was only two minutes before both girls pulled away and rested their foreheads against each other. Both had their eyes closed. Both loving the moment they just shared. Both never wanting to leave this position. Both wanting to forget they were at school…
Chloe pulled away from their position that they were currently in. She couldn't look at Beca. Chloe got up from her chair and started pacing the room, her mind flooding with thoughts what have I just done? I'm a teacher, she's my student. Where have these feelings come from? I'm screwed. Beca was shocked by what had just happened between her and her teacher. She never thought it would happen, but now it has, she feels her feelings growing for her redheaded teacher.
"Chloe?" Beca tried to grab her teacher's attention and attempt to stop her pacing the room.
Chloe looked up and stopped pacing the room to be met with a pair of stormy blue eyes that made her knees feel weak, her stomach exploding. She fell for the one girl she could never be with.
"I'm so sorry Beca. That wasn't meant to happen" Beca's heart sunk at these words. Was it a mistake? Did she not want to kiss me?
Beca asked Chloe in a serious tone "Did you not want to kiss me Chloe?"
All Chloe could do was look at Beca, guilt flooding her face. She just saw pure love and adoration when she looked at Beca. She answered truthfully. "Of course I did Beca. I wanted it so bad. But I'm your teacher, your my student. This" She waved her hand between herself and her teacher, "cannot happen. I'm sorry."
Beca nodded at Chloe, tears threatening to fall from her eyes. Beca couldn't say anything to Chloe without breaking down into tears. She just packed her stuff and was walking past her teacher when she gently grabbed her arm and said to Beca, "I'm sorry Beca, I really am. If things were different then.." Chloe trailed off.
Beca raised her head, looking Chloe in the eyes one more time. Both girls had tears in their eyes, all Beca and Chloe wanted to do was lean in and have one kiss before Beca leaves. But Chloe knew better and gave her a small smile before watching the girl she likes walk out the door.
Beca's walk home was filled with the sounds of her mixes, and her tears still threatening to fall. She made it back home when she saw her phone with a text message she never wanted to read.
Unknown number
16:09pm
I know what you did with Miss Beale.