It was finally pitch dark, you were waiting for lining on the van, looking at your watch nervously. You looked like someone about to do a drug transaction, this thought made you giggle a bit. You were looking forward to this trip, and even if inside of you, you couldn't wait to see him. It was exactly what you feared, you fail in love with him, him and his rare but honest smile when he sees you, your checks began to heat up, you shook your head trying to get rid of those thoughts.

- You idiot, you whisper to yourself, looking at the floor.

But the same moment, you felt a breath near your face, you flinch, step backward but you lost your balance, stumble and ended up on your butt. You looked up to see Mickey confuse.

- But… But, I haven't done anything yet, Mickey said disappointed

- Not my fault if you aren't subtle enough, you respond while getting up

- Mickey subtle impossible said Donnie walking out of the shadow with the others

- Maybe she got fortune-telling power by hanging out with us with all this mutation thing, proposed Mickey

- Yeah, I AM WITCH! you said moving your hand as if you were about to cast a spell.

The gang laughs, as you laugh you catch Raphael's eyes. You smile at him with an amused look, which made him blush a bit. You walked toward the car trunk and took out a big storage case.

- So before we leave, I want ALL the weapons, in this case, you said seriously

The fourth brother looked at you with a face asking why.

- *sigh* because if any of you get in a fight and I have to interfere I can survive an internal hemorrhaging longer than if I get stab in the chest by a katana or a say, you explain

At the mention of the name of his weapon, Raphael flinches, the tough of him actually hurting you made him feel bad.

- And it wouldn't be far if only two of you got their weapons so EVERY weapon in this case.

- You are right, here, said Raphael as he gives you all his arsenals under the shocked look of his brother who follows.

After all this, you finally get in the van and left. Surprisingly the boys were pretty silent as you drive, splinter must have told them about the fact that you needed all your concentration while you were driving. It was almost 2 am when you decided to stop at a desert rest area, you didn't feel good, you were really tired and it wasn't safe anymore for you to drive but you couldn't let the turtle drive. You decided to go walk a bit. As you were in your head Raph came to you asking if you were okay. After a couple of minutes, you accepted to rest in the passenger seat as Donnie will drive. About an hour after, you felt a sleep the boy begins to talk and mess around which woke you up but you kept your eyes closed. Mickey decided to make some pun, as the tension was accumulating.

- I, THE MEDIUM, predict a shut up Mickey soon, you said opening your eyes

-I wrote a novel about religious women. The library put it in the nun fiction section. Mickey continue

- SHUT UP MICKEY! the others shouted

- My prediction was true, you exclaim lifting your hand in the air

After all this, you took the wheel back. It was the morning when you arrived at your destination.

- All right guys, first of all, we are seating the camp, you said getting out of the van

- (y/n) can we ask you why are we here? Asked Donnie

- Well, my dear, YOU GUYS ARE HERE TO LEARN HOW TO RELAX, you answered looking around with star in your eyes

They looked at you with concern eyes, you walked to the end of the van and open the car trunk. As you took out a big bag, an idea came to your mind.

- So, guys, do any of you knows how to pitch a tent? You ask throwing the back to Donnie

- No … but I am sure that we won't have any problem, said Leo answered as if he was insulted

- But why aren't you helping us? asked Mickey, where are you going to sleep?

- Well I am sleeping in my own tent, you respond as take out the tent and the shaft

Time Skip

The camp was all done, the boy had done a pretty good job with their tent, of course, they fought a bit, mostly Raph and Leo, and they asked for your help a bit but in end, you were kind of proud of them.

Now it was time to show them the big part of your secret place. You took the boy through a trail who took you to a cliff overlooking a small bay.

- Welcome to my paradise, you said opening your arms to present the lake

Turn back as the boys were looking at the view, you took out your shoes, Raphael turned and flinch when he saw that you were taking your pants off. You catch him looking at you and gave him s smug which made him kind of nervous. You took out your shirt, you were wearing a black one-piece swimsuit, now the fourth brother was looking at you in concern. You walked a bit further.

- HEY MICKEY WANT TO TRY THIS! you shout as you start running like hell toward the cliff and you jump letting out a scream of fun.

You feel the water breaking under your weight letting you sink. You felt your body being lifted you begin to swing back on the surface. You broke the surface take a deep breath and open your eyes. The turtles were frozen. Even after two years, they still surprised each time you did sometimes reckless. It made you laugh

- come on guys, don't worry its deep enough, you call swimming away

Then you saw Mickey leaving the edge of the cliff, so you decided to swim way further. It didn't take much time for Mickey to jump screaming one of his punchlines. He took just enough time to come up to make you stress a bit.

- That such a cool move, (y/n) you should have seen Raph's face, he was so scared, Mickey said laughing

- Scared? Of what? , you ask as you watch Donnie jump

- Well you know Raph is afraid of heights, he wished as you watched Leo jump

- no, I didn't, how is he afraid of height he is a ninja who jumps from roof top to roof top, you said confuse

- To be honest, I don't know, he answered, HEY RAPH IT'S YOUR TURN!

Raph was on the edge of the cliff, he looks so anxious

- HEY RAPH, YOU OK? You ask

He looked at you, you couldn't see his eye but you were sure he was scared.

- YEAH I AM GOOD, JUST GONNA …., Raphael respond

- WAIT, RAPH, I'AM COMING, you said swimming to the beach kind of part the lake

Mickey begins to laugh

- Coming, hahaha haha haha

You made a mad eye contact with Leo and Donnie and face palm

- Oh my god, shut up Mickey, you said turning your head toward the beach to hide you awkwardness

You reach the land in a matter of no time, impressing the brothers. You have your lifeguard license so it was not surprising to you. You walked to the cliff but as you walked to the cliff you slip on the rocks and you scrape your knee

- *CURSE WORD *(A/N, if you are lost, go to the notes)

- (y/n) are you ok, Donnie ask

- Yeah, I am ok, you said as you look at your knee who began to bleed, * complain about how dumb you are*

You arrive on the top of the cliff, you meet your red ranger. He looked really uncomfortable.

- Hey you don't look okay, you step forward him

- I guess I can't hide anything from you, can I, he said with a faint smile

You decided to sit next to a three, inviting Raphael to see down next to you

-so tell me, you ask

- Well you know, I am afraid of height… he began hesitating to continue, not daring to look at you, it's the not the height the problem is when I don't see where I am going to lend.

- I see you said look at the horizon

-eh, lucky, you are bleeding, he said pointing the trail of blood coming out of your knee

- Oh it's nothing, you answered wiping the blood with your finger and put it in your mouth

- How can you do that, he asks looking at you

- What? You asked

- How can you don't care this much, you are always so relax-, he was cut

- Me! Always relax, don't make me laugh, you said with a sad look

- What do you mean? He began but when he saw your face darken, hey lucky are you okay

- Yeah huh*sigh* I am this relax because caring too much, thinking too much, always expecting better from you,

- Lucky…?

- Always force you to be better

-lucky!

- you are never enough, and it was destroying me from the inside, and, you suddenly change the tone as you get up, but it's not the case anymore and I am not letting myself down and I won't let you down …

- Uh (y/n) are you okay? He asked

- Yeah oh, by the way, it's been a while since you called me lucky, you said trying to change the subject

- guess you're right…, he said

Raphael didn't know a lot about your past but he quickly realizes he shouldn't push it.

- So you said you were scared only when you couldn't see the ground, right? You ask

- Kind of…

- Well here, you respond as you draw a map of the lake floor

You explain and describe the spot where you lend in detail to make Raphael comfortable.

- So want to try? You ask

- Edh…, he responds

- do you want me to jump with you?

- In fact yeah I'd like, he said rubbing the back of his neck

You smile and extend your arm waiting for his hand. He looked at you, when you were in this mood you were so beautiful it was in those moments he knew why he loved you. He grab your hand and got up.

- Please don't chock because it will get dangerous for me I won't be far enough from the cliff, you said

- ok...

- READY, SET, GO, you shout you both start running and jump

You felt the wind on your skin as you looked in his eyes, holding his. You felt like doing it… as you enter the water without a sound your lips formed the words ``I like you''. You appeared on the surface and the first that happen was Raph asking what you said and regretting your action you deny having said anything and quickly jump to the fact that you made him jump.

It wasn't the time not now you weren't ready for rejection.