first thanks to Abzibop.x for suggesting to write this second chapter, second thanks to DoubleCaramel for ideas and 3th thanks to kaattee for helping me with this chapter and thanks for reading

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Flashback

"So Zane, why do you want me to be your girlfriend?" Rikki asked.

"I don't know." Zane answered. He wasn't expecting that question.

"What? Then why have you been insisting so much? I thought you were different from the other boys, but you are just like them - a jerk who only wants me for one night!" Rikki said; she was really angry.

They didn't talk to each other until they arrived at Rikki's home.

"I don't want to be only your boyfriend; I want to be your life partner, your best friend - someone who you can trust. I want to be with you in every moment of your life, I want to be the shoulder that you cry on, and I want you to be my partner for the rest of my life." Rikki's mouth dropped open. She couldn't believe what she just heard. But what she didn't know was that what Zane was telling her was only with his mouth and not with his heart. He only said that because he wanted her no matter what.

End of flashback

Rikki remembered that day as she woke up. Everything was fuzzy when she woke up, but after a few minutes passed she started to remember everything. The memories started to appear in her head one after another.

She remembered how lovely Zane used to be with her, she remembered how she let Zane convince her that they should sleep together without protection and she had agreed. Even though she had been so careful with that, then the worst memories started to rush over her head: She remembered being convinced by Zane to go get an abortion and how two days later she woke up with the worst feeling she ever
had; the feeling of dying and blame when she woke up in the hospital.

"So doctor, how is my daughter now?" Terry, Rikki's dad asked.

"Well sir, she is stable now even she though she lost a lot of blood." The doctor said.

"And can you tell me how that happened"

"Well this is common when girls don't take proper care of themselves after a surgery like that, and I think the doctor who did the abortion--"
The doctor was cut off by Terry.

"Wait. Are you telling me that my daughter had an abortion?!" Terry was yelling now.

"Look, sir, I didn't know your daughter didn't tell you, and I'm sorry about that but you have to know that this is not only her fault. You don't know if it was only her decision or if her boyfriend made her do this." The doctor said in Rikki's defense.

Rikki's dad wasn't worried. He was angry, but he wasn't the only one who had heard the doctor. Cleo and Emma were there now, and they were shocked too. Rikki watched through the window and saw her father and friends' reactions. She watched as her dad left the hospital still angry, and she watched her best friends look at her with disappointment and then they left the hospital too. No one came back to the hospital for two days until her dad came for her.

They walked in silence to the taxi that was waiting for them.

"I'm sorry, dad." Rikki said. Her dad turned to see her with his eyes full of anger.

"Don't even try to talk to me." He replied.

"But dad--" Rikki stopped and her dad slapped her. She looked at the ground as tears started rolling down her face. As soon as they arrived at home she went to her bedroom. She hated herself for what she did, and she just wanted to sleep. That was the only way she could do to ease what she was feeling.

"Wake up. You have to go to school." Terry said.

She just looked at him; he had been acting so different the past few days. She didn't want to go to school. She was afraid that everyone in school
would probably know what she did. She didn't want to confront her friends, she didn't want to see Zane, and Lewis… well, he called her a couple of times after what happened. He was the only one who didn't hate her.

Rikki felt a hole in her stomach as she approached to the school's door. She watched as Emma and Cleo passed next to her. They just ignored her, but luckily nobody knew about her.

Rikki felt horrible being alone all the day and as the day passed it was getting worse. She saw Zane holding hands with another girl as he passed in front of her, and he just ignored her. She wanted to burn him; a month hadn't passed and he was with another girl. Rikki decided to try to talk
with the girls.

"Cleo, Emma – wait!"

"What do you want?" Emma asked. They stopped walking.

"Please forgive me! I know what I did was wrong, but I can't stand being without both of you."

"Look, Rikki. We are not going to forgive you, so back off." Cleo said.

"But we share this huge secret – we're best friends!"

"How you dare you say that!" Emma said as she slapped Rikki, "we are not friends anymore. I'm no friend to someone like you." Emma said as she
walked away with Cleo.

Rikki's POV

As I walked home I couldn't stop the tears that were fighting to come out of my eyes. I felt horrible every minute and I wasn't able to handle this
situation anymore. I was used to being a loner, but I couldn't handle the hate from my friends, and I couldn't handle my dad's anger - not anymore. As I entered the house I started to cry even more. I fell on my knees and I couldn't stop sobbing; I just let everything out of me.

"I just want to die, I hate myself!" I said as I stood up I grabbed my bag. Then I saw something that could help. I grabbed a piece of paper - at
least my dad deserved an explanation for what I was going to do. As I finished the letter I grabbed the anti-freeze that my dad used in his motorbike this morning. I knew it was toxic. I knew if someone drank this, they could have a terrible death; a painful one. I deserved to die in the worst way possible. I took a deep breath and drank a big gulp of it, and then I went to my room and lay on my bed waiting for the pain. Suddenly I started to feel drunk. I tried to stand up but I couldn't - I just fell to the ground. My whole body started to shake and I couldn't control it. I went into convulsions and started sweating, then I felt pain in my abdomen the pain was horrible. I held my stomach until I passed out.

Nobody's POV

Rikki's dad walked in the house wanting to see his daughter. He couldn't pretend for one more day. The truth was that he wanted to hug her; to say her that he already forgave her, but he thought that this was the way to punish her.

As he entered he saw Rikki's school things laying around and saw a note on the table. He grabbed the note and started to read it.

'Dear dad,
I know that I don't deserve to even talk to you. I know you trusted me and I know I disappointed you. I know why you don't want to forgive me and I
understand, but it is really hard for me not being able to hug you, to kiss you, to tell you how much I love you. I know it would be better if I disappear
from your life. I want to tell you that I'm really sorry; that I want to go back in time and do the things the right way, but it's not possible. I came
to the conclusion that no matter what, that decision will follow me for the rest of my life and I can't handle it. I decided that I don't want to cry anymore. I don't want to feel pain. I just want to be an eagle and fly away. I hope you can forgive me one day.

-Rikki

"What did you do?" Terry said to himself as he ran towards Rikki's room.

At the beach with Lewis and the girls

"Don't insist about this, Lewis. We won't talk to her again." Emma told Lewis.

"But--" Lewis started when Cleo cut him off.

"Lewis, we won't change our minds."

"I know that, and you know what? I realized that Rikki made a big mistake." Lewis said.

"See? We are right." Emma replied.

"No, Emma. What I mean is that Rikki used to say that you were her best friends. But I see she was wrong - you are both just big fakes."

"What?!" They exclaimed.

"Yes, because it's supposed to be that best friends won't turn their backs on their friends who are in trouble. A best friend is the faith that
gives us confidence to live; the one who helps us fight to find a way. Maybe Rikki made the wrong decision, but nobody is perfect." Lewis said as he walked away, heading to Rikki's house.

As Lewis walked in, he heard Terry screaming her name.

"Rikki, wake up! Please don't do this to me." He said, shaking her body.

"Rikki!" Lewis said as he took out his phone and called an ambulance. He was shocked. He never thought Rikki would do something like this, and he never though he could see Rikki like this - helpless, weak. He tried to help her while the ambulance was on its way, but Rikki didn't wake up. Finally the ambulance arrived and Terry went with her.

In the ambulance

"Rikki, honey, please wake up!" Terry said, when suddenly she started to convulse again. He was so scared that his daughter could die at any moment, and the ride to the hospital seemed eternal.

As they entered they took Rikki away from her dad. He wanted to go with her but the doctors didn't let him.

Lewis and Terry were waiting for news when Emma and Cleo arrived.

"What are you doing here?" Lewis said.

"Lewis, this is not the time to fight. And you are right: as friends we have to support her."

"Don't you think it's a bit late to say that?!"As Lewis said that a doctor came out with news.

"Rikki is in a bad condition. When she arrived here she was practically dead. We are doing everything in our power, but we can't promise
anything." The doctor said.

"And what are her chances of surviving?" Lewis asked.

"I give her a 10 % chance."

"Can we see her?" Terry asked.

"No you can't, she is in intensive care, but we are going to inform you about any changes as they happen."

They passed the night there waiting for a miracle. They were almost asleep when the doctor arrived with news.

"She is out of danger now, and luckily she is physically fine."

"What do you mean by 'physically fine'?" Terry questioned.

"Well, your daughter is in a deep depression and she will need therapy to get out of this depressed state."

"Anything to get my daughter better." Terry answered as they stopped in front of Rikki's room. They saw her laying on her side.
"Rikki, honey, I'm really sorry about before. I was really angry but believe me: I will never hate you. You are my daughter; you are the most
important thing in my life." Terry said. But Rikki didn't answer. She didn't move. The only thing she did was let the tears fall from her eyes.

"Rikki please forgive me. I didn't mean what I said yesterday! Forgive me for slapping you, forgive me please?" Emma said but Rikki still didn't
move. Terry put his hand on Emma's shoulder and they started to leave the room when Rikki finally spoke.

"I just wanted to die, I deserve it."

"No, Rikki, don't ever say that again." Cleo said while she held Rikki's hand, "Please forgive us, we promise we won't leave you alone again, but you have to try."

"Look, Rikki. You made a mistake, but you regret it and we forgive you. The most important thing is that God forgave you a long time ago." Lewis said.

Rikki never thought that Lewis could tell her that, because those words helped her a lot.

When she was released from the hospital Rikki received therapy. With time, she was able to get out of her depression and had moved on. She made her life better, but that didn't mean she had forgotten about her baby.

"Mommy, 15 years have passed since that day and I still see that you regret
that decision you made. Please stop suffering. Remember that I love you and
that I'll be waiting for you with hugs and kisses to show you how much I love you."