Dear reader,

Hello, I guess.

This is a project that I start as a way to express all of my experience in life. I wouldn't know what my life would turn out to be. As I'm writing this short introduction, I'm 16 years old. My current state of life isn't as rosy as I would dream ten, five, even two years ago. Everything falls apart, like bricks hit by a stone flung from 10 paces away. This is maybe a Greek tragedy, maybe a romantic story, maybe as well, the best autobiography anyone can ever write.

Most of my friends are no more. Marco is gone, Janna is gone, Brittney is gone. Nobody that I gave my affection to had stayed with me for longer than an intercourse; literal and figurative. Am I just a rube? Someone that they use as a cheap method of releasing tension inside? Is my soul that cheap?

I currently don't have the answer right now.

Enjoy, I guess.

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That was me fourteen years ago. My life is now 180 degrees flipped upside down. I'm now quite successful myself, with a husband and a daughter. All my past sadness is gone, like a writing in the sand, washed away by the ocean of chronos. I stumbled upon this document whilst I was cleaning my hard disk, so might as well finish the whole affair, right?

If I could speculate the answer that I asked years ago, I can say that it depends. We can weigh that element that makes us... us just by looking at life from a different perspective. I used to believe that what I lived through was a torture, a hell. But just recently, by a chat with my husband, steel can't be strong without going through a furnace first, innit?

Look out for more chapters in my life. Maybe... I'll publish it later?

Maybe.

--o--0--o--

This is Naufal speaking. On behalf of Jackie, she assigned us to finish this no-longer-autobiography to be ready to be published by the end of this year. Unfortunately, Allah missed her so much, she was called by him just this January, after a massive crash in the Singapore Grand Prix forces her to go through a persistent vegetative state. All of us, the clerics, Najma and Apollo, Riccardo, Hamilton, Vettel and Horner all sign below as co-authors of Formula One's most celebrated look back in life, personal and professional.

Requiesce in pace, o vos qui dilexit.

Jakarta, 20th March 2037

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