Dear diary, this morning is. . .different. There is change. I can sense it, feel it.I'm awake. For the first time in a long time, I feel completely and undeniably wide awake. For once, I don't regret the day before it begins I welcome the day. . .Because I know. . . I will see him again. For the first time in a long time, I feel good. After i wrote in my diary i walk out the door see aunt Jenna doing her hair once she's sees me she says Do I look adult?

As in respectfully parental I look at her and say Depends on where you're going got a hot date she looks at my like seriously then says Jeremy's parent-teacher conference. Hair up or down? She puts her hair up and i say Sexy stewardess.(did that just come out of my mouth). Then when she puts her hair down i take a good look and say Boozy housewife sending her a wink she just smiles and says Up it is. You're feisty today. Hmmm I am that's something different, I feel good, which is rare. So I've decided to go with it. Fly free, walk on the sunshine, and all that stuff. Where is Jeremy? I respond He left early. Something about getting to wood shop early to finish a birdhouse she says.

I look at her like wow she sure fell for that She pauses and you can see she realizes what I'm thinking. There is no wood shop, is there? She says with a knowing face i look at her and say bingo. i drive to school cause Elena left early with Bonnie ya I'm not a morning person or a school person but hey that's just me and of course my first class is with the devil.

But hey at least Stefan's here...class has started and I'm not paying attention but what else is new anyways instead me and stefan are just staring at each other but know that i think about it that it sounds really weird but who cares he's discovered nearly 5 centuries ago, it hasn't been over Mystic Falls in over 145 years. Now, the comet will be its brightest right after dusk during tomorrow's celebration. Are we bothering you, Mr. Salvatore? Ms. Gilbert? says

Uh oh we've been caught this is super embarrassing and before he can say anything more the bell rings.. yes saved by the Bell. Once me and stefan get out of class he says to me I brought it. And hands me the book ive been asking for ,Told you. A smile comes on my face and i say "Wuthering Heights" by Ellis Bell. You know, I can't believe she didn't use her real name. All the Bronte sisters used pseudonyms. It was the time. Female writers weren't very accepted then he replies. Where did you get it? I ask Uh, it was passed down. Through the family. Stefan says a little awkwardly like like there's more to it but i dont bother cause we all have family issues so i just say Ah. Stefan smiles at me and says I have lots of books. Go ahead. Keep it.

Man i dont like when people do that I feel so bad taking things from people this could of been his moms for all i know so i say Oh, no. I. . .but I would like to read it again. I promise I'll give it smiles at me cause he knows i wont agree to taking it so he says ok. After school I decide to go to the grill with girls but mostly cause Caroline keeps insisting well this should be fun. I walk in with Elena and we run into matt so i ask how vicki's doing They're keeping her overnight to make sure there's no infection, but she should be able to come home tomorrow matt says to us i feel relived and Elena says That's good news smiling at matt

Elena then ask if matt got in touch with his mother but god knows where she is and who she's with i feel really bad for Vicki and matt once there mom left it's like matt took on the part of the parent. Matt's says that he left her a message and she's off iin Virginia Beach with her boyfriend. Figures that's sounds just like her So i give him a reassuring smile and say vicki's lucky to have. Matt smiles and says i know then he tells me and Elena about some missing campers well that's weird so Elena ask what type of animal did Vicki say attacked her. Matt looks hesitant at first but then he says something thought me off guard he said that Vicki said it was a vampire.

My eyes go wide and i say what? Matt replies Yeah, she wakes up last night and mutters "vampire" and then passes out. I didnt know what to say so elena responds OK, that is weird. Matt gives us a look like u dont believe that so then he says I think she was drunk. So what's up with you and the new guy? OOh wow that just took a turn for the worst. Once Elena heard that she took that as her cue to go wow she would leave me I'm so gonna get her for this. I look at matt and can't help but feel pity but i need to let him know so I say Matt, the last thing that I want to do is hurt you.

Matt then says You know, I'm. . .I'm actually gonna go back to the hospital. I want to be there when Vicki wakes up, get the real story about last the heck was that he was the one who brought it up ugh boys can be so confusing. I go sit with the girls and boonie is telling us about what her says keeps telling her Well, I was talking to Grams, and she said the comet is a sign of impending doom. The last time it passed over Mystic Falls, there was lots of death. So much blood and carnage, it created a bed of paranormal activity.

But it would be a real conversation if caroline didn't throw in her side comments Yeah, and then you poured Grams another shot and she told you about the aliens. So then what she says looking at my oh god I thought would forget but for Caroline that's like hoping someone will forget there underwear doesn't happen muchI look at her and say So then nothing. Come on she should know the farthest I've ever gone is making out I've always been the innocent one of the group

Caroline looks at me like ya right and says You and Stefan talked all night? There was no sloppy first kiss or touchy feely of any kind? Nope. We didn't go there i even a handshake? I mean, Theresa we are your friends. Ok? You are supposed to share the smut she says. We just talked for hours I tell her. OK, what is with the blockage? Just jump his bones already! Ok, it's easy. Boy likes girl, girl likes boy, sex! She says. Elena and Bonnie look at her like what the heck. So i just say Profound. But I figured I'd have alittle fun with them so stand up and bonnie says Where are you going? I smile at them and say Caroline right. It is easy. If I sit here long enough, I'll end up talking myself out of it instead of doing what I started the day saying what I was going to do.

Elena's mouth dropped open if anyone knows me best it's her but before i walk out the door a send a wink her way and she just smiles cause she realized what I did. I get to stefan hose on i knock on the door and it opens a little ok thats not weird maybe i should just go in but then I'm gonna look like some crazy person breaking in ugh whatever so i open the door and call stefan name and then a crow Flys by me out of nowhere what the hell but as soon as i turn around there a older guy in front of me and he's good looking. Hey just cause i like stefan doesn't mean every guy became hideous to me.

But before i looked like a robber i hurry up and say I. . .I'm sorry for barging in. The door was. . .open. Mystery man then loosks at me with a smirk and says You must be Theresa .I'm Damon, Stefan's brother. I look at him and it clicks so i say ohhh so you the brother that stefan doesn't talk to i wonder why?Damon looks at me with that smirk of his and says Well, Stefan's not one to brag. Please, come. I'm sure Stefan will be along any second.I walk deeper into the house with damon guiding me in and as i look around im just thinking i live in a box compared to there house so i just say Wow. This is your living room?

Damon can tell that im just amazed by the house so he says Living room, parlor, Sotheby's auction. It's a little kitschy for my taste. I see why my brother's so smitten. It's about time. For a while there, I never thought he'd get over the last one. Nearly destroyed him.

I sure know how to pick them but something tells me that damon has other motives for telling me this but hey im a curious person so i ask the last one? Damon looks at me like i got her now he replies yeah. Katherine, his girlfriend? Oh, you two haven't had the awkward exes conversation yet. Nope I say but then again its none of my business were not . Well, I'm sure it'll come up now. Or maybe he didn't want to tell you because he didn't want you to think he was on the rebound. We all know how those relationships end damon says ya that was so not an oops no wonder stefan doesn't talk about him I just get this bad feeling from him

You say it like every relationship is doomed to end i say he the responds I'm a fatalist. Hello, Stefan. Without leaving my gaze I turn my head and stefan is walking down the stairs how did he know he was there. Theresa I didn't know you were coming over stefan says without looking at me ummm ok this is weird.. Iknow. I should have called, I just. . . Wanted to bring the book back i say. The damon cuts in and says Oh, don't be silly. You're welcome any time. Isn't she, Stefan? You know, I should break out the family photo albums or some home movies. But. . .I have to warn you. He wasn't always such a looker..

Thank you for stopping by, Theresa. Nice to see you. Stefan says this is so my cue to leave So i say Yeah, I should probably go. It was nice to meet you, Damon. Great meeting you, too, Theresa damon says and he kisses my hand well ok then i go to leave but Stefan is in my way so I say stefan stefan he then moves out of way never breaking contact with damon.i then walk out the house and head home.

Damon:Great gal. Whoo. She's got spunk. You, on the other hand, look pooped. Did you over-exert yourself today? Let me guess. . hospital.

Stefan: Someone had to clean up your mess.

Damon: Well, were you successful? Did the powers of persuasion work? Remember, if you don't feed properly, none of those little tricks work right.

Stefan:How long was Theresa here?

Damon:Were you worried, Stefan? Scared we may be doomed to repeat the past? Isn't that why you play your little game, "I'm a high school human"?

Srefan:I'm not playing any game.

Damon:Of course you are. We both know the closest you'll ever get to humanity is when you rip it open and feed on it.

Stefan:what kind of game are you playing, Damon?

Damon:Guess you'll just have to wait and see, won't you?

He's on the rebound and has raging family issues i say to Jenna and , at least it's an ex-girlfriend. Wait till you date a guy with mommy issues or cheating issues. Or amphetamine issues Jenna says to me. When then hear the door open and I know that's Jeremy probably coming back from seeing vicki. Jenna then says Jeremy? Jeremy, where were you? Jeremy then replies More stoner stories? Look, Jenna, I get it, you were cool. And so that's. . .that's cool. Man this little shit he need to knock it off already he keeps shutting us out and it will only get worse if he doesn't talk to one of us me and him use to so close but I'm snapped out of thought when Jenna says Oh, no, no, no! And throws and apple at jeremy i cant help but laugh and say nice shot!

Elena looks at me and says Theresa! I just say to her sorry mom I'll go to my room now, walking by jermey he says Ow! Why? Why. . .why did you do that? But then I go to my room cause i dont want hear the lectures. I decided to go help bonnie pass out flyers for the comet she keeps telling my that i just keep making up excuse why me and stefan shouldn't date. But i dont know it's so hard for me cause is it the right time but then again when is it ever maybe Bonnie's right

I get back to the town square and Caroline give us candles i see matt and we say hi to each other and he lights me candle i thank him i got to light someone else's candles and i look up and it just happens to be stefan of course it would he then thanks me and we say hi and he starts talking about the comet You know, that comet. . .it's been traveling across space for thousands of years. All alone. I look at him and say Yeah, Bonnie says it's a harbinger of evil.

Stefan replies I think it's just a ball of. . .snow and ice, trapped on a path that it can't escape. And once every 145 years, it gets to come home. I'm sorry about yesterday. I wasn't myself. You seem to spend a lot of time apologizing i say He looks at me with a knowing look and says Well, I have a lot to apologize for. Yesterday, that wasn't about you, ok? i look into his eyes and say He told me about your ex. Katherine. You could a flash of pain in his eyes maybe evej guilt. What did he say? Stefan ask.. That she broke your heart i respond stefan looks down and says That was a long time ago. When you lose someone, it stays with you, always reminding you of how easy it is to get hurt i say... wow that sounded smart didn't know I had it in my ugh back on track this is a serious moment stefan then looks at me with those eyes that always melt my heart

Theresa...before he can say anymore i say It's OK, Stefan. I get it. You have no idea how much I get it. Complicated brother? Check. Complicated ex? Check. Too complicated to even contemplate dating, double check. It's OK. We met, and we talked, and it was epic, but. . .then the sun came up and reality set in. So. . . I blow out my candle and walk away.

I walk into the grill and here everyone talking about Vicki missing and Tyler being a punk to my brother calling him a pill pusher and Elena shocked as ever i walk over to them before tyler can get in Jeremy's face and i push him and say you need to cut this shit out what you feel good about yourself trying fight someone younger then you... Let's just get one thing straight leave him alone or else i will beat the shit out of you so don't test me and you know i could do it...I learned martial arts and took kick boxing class just in case after I said that everyone got all wide eyed then matt said we should cut it out and help him find Vicki

Before I walk out the door I hear elena giving jermey a lecture i tried to help him and be the one talking to him but he keeps being a little butt so i let Elena do what she does best.

Stefan: Hey.

Matt: Have you seen my sister?

Stefan: No, sorry.

Matt: I can't find her. She's missing.

Stefan: I'll keep an eye out for her.

[Stefan starts to leave.]

Matt: Hey. I saw you at the hospital yesterday.

Stefan: Did you?

Matt: What were you doing there?

Stefan: Visiting.

Matt: Visiting? You know, Theresa and I, we've known each other for a long time. We might not be together right now, but I look out for her. And I'll always look out for her.

I get home and walk up stories i hear noise in jeremts room and call his name i walk in to see Jenna and she says No, it's me, the hypocrite patrol. I look at her down on the floor look around and ask What are you doing? I've become my worst nightmare. The authority figure who has to violate a 15-year-old's privacy. Jackpot. I see the hiding places haven't gotten any more creative she responds. But why now i wonder so i ask What brought this on? Your ass-hat of a history teacher shamed me good yesterday she says alittle pissed.

Ahhhh this makes more sense that's ass I look at her and say You got tannered. Been there..."Discover the impossible, Ms. Sommers." Got it. Thanks. Like I didn't know I was screwing up. Jennas says. Awwww aunt Jenna don't let him get to you he just has no life and thinks his shit don't stink You're not screwing up, I reassure her. Yes, I am. You know why? Because I'm not her. She made everything look so easy. You know, high school, marriage, having you. I can't do it. I'm gonna say or do the wrong thing, and he's gonna get worse, and it's gonna be my fault. It's says i just hug her and say This is just the fear talking. You're a little scared, that's all. We all are... I then think wow I just answered my own problem so i then say have to go do something. But are you going to be ok? She nods her head telling me she's fine

I pull up to the boarding house and stefan answers oh thank god I really didn't want to deal with damon when stefan sees me he seems alittle suprised but the offers for me to come inside but i lead him outside towards the commet. We. We get outside i apologize for coming unannounced but he reassures me it's fine and he's glad i came

I look into this beautiful green eyes ugh Theresa don't drool i then snap out of my daze and say See, the thing is, I got home tonight planning on doing what I always do, write in my diary, like I have been since my mom gave me one when I was 10. It's where I get everything out, everything I'm feeling. It all goes in this little book that I hide on the second shelf behind this really hideous ceramic mermaid. But then I realized that I'd just be writing things that I should probably be telling you. What would you write? He ask... I would write. . ."Dear diary, today I convinced myself it was ok to give up. Don't take risks. Stick with the status quo. No drama, now is just not the time. But my reasons aren't reasons, they're excuses. All I'm doing is hiding from the truth, and the truth is that. . ." I'm scared, Stefan. I'm scared that if I let myself be happy for even one moment that. . .the world's just going to come crashing down, and I. . . don't know if I can survive that. I say thinking back to my parents death

Stefan then looks straight into my eyes like he can see threw my soul and says Do you want to know what I would write? "I met a girl. We talked. It was epic. But then the sun came up and reality set in. Well, this is here." He then starts to lean forward oh my god he's gonna kiss me I'm think what felt like forever i lips finally touched and it just felt right