What If – Chapter 2

Finn and Rachel were sitting awkwardly on Finn's couch. Finn didn't know what to say, and Rachel had seemed to have lost her ability to form words. She was exactly where she wanted to be, but she was panicking. Finn's hands ran up and down his jean clad thighs nervously. "So, do you want something to drink? Are you hungry? I could order a pizza or something." He offered. "A water would be great, and sure. If you're hungry, a pizza is fine with me." Rachel said, just glad that they were saying anything at all. "I'll call and order, I'll be right back with your water." Finn said before disappearing into the kitchen.

'Ok Rachel. Calm down. It's Finn. You have been in love with him for 4 years, and you are the one who told him to bring you here. Stop spazzing out.' Rachel told herself. A few minutes later, Finn returned to the living room with a glass of ice and a bottle of water. "Here ya go." Rachel smiled, and accepted the water. "Thanks. You're house is really beautiful. You're mother has impeccable taste with interior design." Rachel said. Finn just laughed, "Thanks. As long as I have a bed, my tv to watch the games on and my xbox, I don't really pay much attention to what color she paints a wall or what style rug she puts in." Rachel smiled, "Typical guy."

The awkward silence returned, and Rachel was desperate to get them out of this rut. "I'm really glad we got to sing together tonight. I'm sure going to miss our duets in Glee club. You're such a great singer Finn. You really should try to pursue it." Finn shook his head blushing. He had never thought he was good. He knew that Rachel being so great made him appear to be better than he was, but he never really thought he had the talent anywhere near her level. "Thanks, but you're the one who kept us afloat all these years. I would have never stayed in Glee club had you not been in it." He admitted, and Rachel was shocked. He was the most popular guy in school. She was the furthest from that as someone possibly could be. "I don't believe that for a second. Why would I have anything to do with you staying in Glee? You had Puck, Quinn and Santana in there. Not to mention the other guys that joined later from the football team." Finn turned and looked at Rachel, his eyes looking right into hers. "Rachel, high school is over. I spent 4 years wondering what I did wrong, because I never could make you see how much I liked you. Why do you think you never saw me with a girlfriend? All the other guys had girlfriends coming and going, but I didn't. You didn't think that was odd?" Finn asked seriously. Rachel had ALWAYS wondered Finn didn't date girls from Lima, but she really just thought that he was not interested in being in a relationship because he was always so fully committed and focused on sports. "Of course I wondered why. I just thought you cared more about football than girls. Or maybe you were just dating girls from a different school." Rachel admitted.

"Rachel, I didn't date other girls because I wanted to date you. But I was a coward. I knew that you were so focused on getting famous and making it to New York, and that nothing was going to stop you from getting into NYADA. I watched all the guys ask you out over the years. Puck, Sam, Arty, everyone and you always shot them down. That was a little discouraging. I knew that you would do the same with me so I always chickened out when I thought I had finally built up the courage to ask you out."

Rachel sat there silent. She was in shock. First the kiss they shared at Noah's house, and now he was basically telling her that he had wanted her just as much as she had wanted him all these years. "Finn, the reason I shot Sam and Puck and any other guy down was because I was waiting for you. I couldn't see myself with anyone else, because I would do nothing but compare them to you anyway. And they could never measure up." Rachel said, and that was all Finn needed to hear. He scooted closer to her and reached his arm around the back of the couch and onto her shoulders. She gladly moved into his embrace and she licked her lips. She wanted to feel his lips on hers again, and when she saw his eyes begin to close as he leaned in, she did the same. Then BAM, the sparks went off.

Neither were sure how they ended up in their current position, but Rachel placed her hands on Finn's hips as he lay on top of her on the floor next to the fireplace, and pulled his body against hers as much as physically possible. Even through their clothes Rachel swore she could feel Finn's heart beating clear out of his chest. Finn's mouth moved from hers across her jawline and down to her neck. When his lips and tongue touched the spot where her neck met her shoulders, she felt like she was reaching the point of no return. Finn's hand lightly brushed against the side of her breast and Rachel felt a flood of heat spread across her body. "You have no idea how badly I want to just keep doing this all night." Finn whispered into her ear as he nibbled on it. "I feel the same way. This feels so good, but—" Rachel began to say, but the pair were interrupted by the doorbell. Rachel couldn't help but be thankful for the interruption.

"I'll be right back, I'm sure it's the pizza." Finn said, standing up and walking over to open the door. Rachel stood up and straightened her dress before sitting back on the couch where they had started out. Finn came walking towards her with a pizza box and a couple of paper plates. He sat them down on the coffee table and the joined Rachel on the couch.

"Finn" "Rach" they said that the same time. Finn laughed before telling Rachel, "You go ahead." Rachel was terrified of what she was fixing to say. She knew that once she told him this he was going to tell her to get out and probably never hear from him again. That maybe he would think she was being a tease. But she felt strongly about this and she had to speak up before it was too late. "I'm a… uh, I haven't…" She couldn't find the courage to say the words, and then Finn took her hand into his. "You're a virgin." He said. It was a statement, not a question. Rachel looked down, never meeting his gaze and nodding her head 'yes'. "And you don't want to do this tonight… right?" He said, and it only made Rachel tighten up, waiting to hear it. "Rach, we don't have to do anything you don't want to do. And if you're not ready, then that's beyond ok. I know how you feel."

"How do you know how I feel? Rachel said, figuring Finn had been with his share of women. But he picked at the lint on a couch pillow before sayin, "I'm a virgin too. And even though I can't think of much else right this moment besides what we were just doing, I don't want to do something too soon. We have both waited this long, it won't kill us to wait a little longer. At least see where this can go."

Rachel smiled, Finn was exactly the guy she had always thought he was. He had a heart bigger than anyone she knew and knowing that he was ok with waiting made her want him even more. "Well, even if we are both ok with waiting, how about we just keep it simple and enjoy this…." Then she leaned in and captured his lips again. Finn kissed her back with everything and the pizza was quickly forgotten as he climbed on top of her on the couch. Hands roamed, but within reason. When Rachel's phone started to buzz, she attempted to ignore it. But after the 3rd attempt to ignore it, Finn sat up. "You should probably answer that." He said with a smile, and out of breath. He was actually thankful for the interruption and opportunity to cool off. Rachel smoothed her shirt and reached for her phone. "Hello? Oh hi Dad. Yes, I'm fine. We came to eat pizza, but then I'll be home. Ok. Ok, love you too. Bye." Rachel hung up and turned to look at Finn. "My dads. They say they know I'm grown, but they still worry." Finn laughed, "Yeah, my mom is the same way. Well, let's eat this cold pizza and then I'll give you a ride to your house."

The truck pulled to a stop in front of Rachel's house. Finn turned off the ignition and looked down at their hands that had been intertwined since the moment they walked out of his house. "I had a great time tonight." He began. "And I know you are leaving for New York at the end of summer, but if it's ok with you… I would love to spend as much time with you until you have to go." Rachel used her free hand and reached up to his chin, turning his face to look at her. "I would love nothing more." She said simply, then they leaned in for a slow, soft kiss. Finn opened the driver door where Rachel slid out and he walked her up to the door. "Call you tomorrow." Finn said with his sweet smile. "I'll be waiting." Rachel said, before she pulled out her key and unlocked the door. Finn stayed standing there until she was completely out of his sight.

Rachel crept up the staircase and into her room, not wanting to wake her sleeping dads. She walked over to her bulletin board and pulled down the photo of her and Finn from when they played Rocky Horror in glee. She fell back onto her bed and stared at Finn's face. So many nights in her high school career she had done this same exact thing, but only now she felt so differently. Because now she knew that Finn felt the same way. It wasn't all just a dream. She got up and went to her dresser to gather some clothes and started to change. Her phone made a sound, letting her know she had a new text. Picking it up she smiled when she saw it was Finn.

-I know we said we would talk tomorrow, but I had to text you to say that I already miss you.

Rachel felt her heart flutter. She loved the way Finn made her feel. She quickly replied.

-I miss you too. I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight, too much going through my mind. Thank you for such a great night.

Finn replied with –And thank you. ;)

Rachel noticed she had several other text messages that she had failed to notice when she was lost in all that was Finn. All from her girlfriends asking how things were going, or congratulating her on finally making a move with Finn. She decided to wait and respond to them tomorrow because she would be up half the night answering questions. She didn't know how she would manage it, but she had to attempt to get some sleep. She only hoped that tomorrow when she wakes she doesn't find out this was all just one really great dream.

Finn walked into his house, picked up the pizza box and cups with a smile on his face. He pushed the swinging door open to the kitchen and jumped at the same time as his step brother. "Kurt! Jesus! What the hell are you doing here? I thought you were staying at Blaine's?" Kurt put the gallon of milk back into the refrigerator and closed it. "I was staying there, but we got into a bit of an argument. One I do not want to talk about. So tell me, what were YOU up to tonight? I noticed the pizza box and the two glasses. So I know you weren't here alone. Who was your guest?" Kurt asked, wiggling his eyebrows.

"That's none of your business." Finn joked. "I'll tell you, if you tell me why you and Blaine got in a fight." He bargained.

"He wanted to have sex…." Kurt said, avoiding eye contact with his brother. "And I wasn't ready."

Finn walked over to Kurt and pulled out a chair to sit next to Kurt at the table. "Hey bro. If he tried to force you into something you just tell me and I'll go over there and—"

"No, no, no. He didn't do anything like that. He just wanted to. And I thought I did too, so we planned this night and it was going perfectly. Only when the time came, I chickened out. I thought I could do it, but I just can't. And Its not because I don't love him, because I love him emensely." Kurt explained. "Hey, I know exactly what you mean. If you're not ready, there's nothing wrong with that. Trust me."

Kurt looked up at Finn for the first time, "Have you… you know… done it yet?" Kurt asked. Finn smiled a small half smile and shook his head, 'no'. "I almost did.. tonight actually, but we stopped. I'm in the same boat you are. Just waiting for the right time." "Ok, I'm dying here. I told you my story, now you have to tell me who this person was that you almost had sex with. Especially since I haven't seen you date anyone and the only person you ever hang out with is Ra….Rachel. Oh my God. It was Rachel!?" Kurt said, covering his mouth with his hand in surprise.

"Hey, nobody knows. And we aren't hiding it, it's just new. So we are seeing what happens. And you know I have always liked Rachel. I was just too afraid to ask her out. I know now that I wasted a lot of time by not doing that because she liked me just as much." Finn said, feeling like an idiot. "Well I could have told you that. Well me and everyone else that ever spent more than two minutes with the both of you in a room. But as your brother, I have to tell you to be careful Finn. I know Rachel cares about you, but she is leaving in 3 months for new York. And I don't want to see you hurt. Even though Rachel is my friend and I care about her too, you are family so looking out for you first is my job."

Finn nodded, he knew his brother was right. The thought of Rachel leaving ate at him. He didn't want to see her go when he only just got her. But this was still something he was going to take a chance on. "I appreciate you having my back, but Rachel and I are the real deal. So if I get 3 months with her, or longer… it's a risk I'm willing to take. She's the one, Kurt." Kurt sat there silently. He knew that what his brother had said was the truth. He only wished that they had admitted their feelings for each other sooner. "I'm behind you guys 110%. Whatever makes you happy, makes me happy. Well, I'm going to head up to bed. I'm super exhausted." Finn went to his room as well and stripped down to his boxers before crashing out. All he thought about until he fell asleep was Rachel. Although that was nothing new.

The next morning Rachel woke up, did her usual exercise routine before jumping in the shower. She had just gotten dressed in a pair of short blue jean shorts with a pink spaghetti strap tank top. She pulled her hair up into a ponytail and was just about to log onto her online profile to see if anyone had posted any photos from last night when she heard the doorbell. Her father yelled up, "I'll get it" so Rachel continued on. A few seconds later she heard, "Rachel, honey. Your friend is here." Rachel had a puzzled look on her face. She had no idea which friend would be there at 10 in the morning the night after a party. As she reached the bottom of the stairs her guest stepped around the corner, showing himself. "Good morning." Finn said with a smile. He was holding a single while tulip and handed it to Rachel. "I'll leave you two to talk." Her father said, then he walked upstairs. Rachel stepped forward and gave Finn a quick kiss on the cheek. "I'm so happy to see you. What are you doing here?" She asked. "I look terrible."

"You look amazing. And I was hoping to surprise you and take you out to brunch. Maybe a walk at the park before?" He stood there looking like a love sick, terrified little boy. "I would love to. Just let me change." Rachel said. Before she turned to head up the stairs, Finn grabbed her wrist. "No. I love the way you look. Exactly this way." He said, looking up and down her body. Rachel felt a heat wave spread across her as his eyes scanned her. "Ok, well I am at least going to go fix my hair and put on a little make up. Give me 5 minutes." Then she was gone.

Finn killed time looking at all the pictures and awards on the wall of Rachel. One photo she was wearing a light pink leotard with a pink tutu and she looked to be 4-5 years old. Finn smiled. "Oh god, don't look at those. They are horrible." Rachel said as she reappeared. "You were adorable then. Just like now." Finn said, pulling her close to him by her waist. "Ready to go?" She asked, wanting to get out of the house before her parents started asking questions. "Yep. Let's go." Finn said. Rachel ran into her parents room to let them know she was leaving and they were on their way. At the park they were walking side by side. Their hands close but not really touching. They walked, talked and laughed about anything and everything. Once they finished their walk, Finn took Rachel to eat a small little café where they flirted hopelessly the entire time. They both were happier than they could ever remember being, and that made them both excited and scared to death. "What do you want to do now? We could to see a movie, or go to the zoo. Whatever you want." Finn said. "Well, a movie sounds great. But how about renting a movie and watching it your house?" Rachel asked. Finn swallowed hard, "Sure. Yeah. Let's go to the video store and pick something out."

Finn hoped that he would be able to control himself being alone with Rachel again. Maybe they should watch a movie in the living room, because if they watched it in his room he knew that it would be entirely too tempting. They walked into the video store and Finn reached over and grabbed Rachel's hand. She leaned her body into him as they strolled the isles in search of what to watch when they heard, "Well as I live and breathe. Finchell is finally happening." Santana and Brittney came walking up to the pair. "It's new." Rachel said with a shy smile. "Well no shit. We figured as much. I am just glad the two of you pulled your heads out of your asses. Better late than never I guess." Santa said and both Rachel and Finn laughed. "So what movie did the two of you saps pick out?" She asked. "Dear John." Rachel said. "It's one of my all time favorite movies and Finn has never seen it." "Shocker." Santana said with an eye roll. "Ok, well have fun trying to stay awake Frankenteen. We have places to be. Later." "Bye guys." Brittney added.

Rachel didn't care what anyone thought, and even though Santana was rough around the edges, she knew that she loved her and Finn and even if she never would admit it, she knew she was happy for them. "Let's go watch this movie." Finn said and Rachel couldn't be happier.