Disclaimer- Sadly hasn't changed. Which means I still don't own Naruto.
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Neon- Welcome to chapter 2, which will hopefully be a bit longer then chapter 1 and maybe even get some reviews this time
Sasuke- Who in the world would review this? Were not even ninja's and I'm not even in the story so far.
Neon- Um actually Sasuke we did get one review already and you were mentioned already
Sasuke- Yea but I am not actually IN the story yet
Neon- So according to you a story is only good when your in it? So does that mean the millions of SasuNaru Yaoi fics out there are all good because you certainly play a big part in those.
Sasuke-Gives death glare……….No comment
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The next day- Local Ramen Stand
Hear I am in the
same dammed situation all over again. Ino looked to her right where
Sakura was busy chatting with Naruto about god knows what. The only
thing prevalent in Ino's mind was her huge desire to just pull
Sakura over to her right now and kiss those beautiful crimson lips.
Ino mentally slapped herself and forced those thoughts out of her
mind. You got lucky yesterday Ino she didn't realize why you were
staring, but you can't risk that happening again. Thoughts like
that will only get you in trouble. You have got to act like you're
supposed to or your going to lose your best friend. She put a fake
smile on her face and started to talk to Sakura about how cute the
new guy in class was, but deep down all she wanted was to kill
herself right then and
there.
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A
few days later - Sakura's House
Sakura lay in her bed looking at photos of the famous model Kurenai as she wondered to herself why it was so wrong that she found her just as attractive as her favorite movie star Uchiha Itachi, who's picture was laying on the desk right next to her. She hated herself when she thought like this, and to her distress she found herself thinking like this more and more. She kept telling herself that she just knew that Kurenai was considered sexy from the male perspective and not that she herself found her sexy but deep down it was hard to hide the truth.
"No!" she screamed as she threw the picture of the model in her hands at the wall in front of her. As the glass frame shattered on the ground she was glad that her family was currently out or she would have had some explaining to do. "I am not gay!" She screamed out loud to no one in particular. The act of saying it aloud upset her even more. The idea of it becoming so prevalent in her mind that she would speak the word that she knew was wrong out loud bothered her deeply.
She tried to calm herself down and use the rationalizations that had helped before. She had kissed guys before, and liked it. She knew that, it had felt right. Sakura knew she was attracted to guys, so why was she having these feelings. She should be dreaming about Sasuke at night not some girl.
So what am I then, was the question she spoke to herself. The only rational answer was that she simply liked both genders but the idea of being bi scared the teenage girl even more then being gay. It would be one thing to not be accepted by normal people, but to be different from even the outcasts would be unbearable. To be bisexual to Sakura was to be accepted by no one, and being accepted was the one desire the teenage girl had.
These thoughts and questions though had been in Sakura's head long
before tonight and she hated herself more and more as everyday she
started to accept the fact that she was bisexual. Why couldn't she
be normal, she only wanted to be attracted to guys, her life would be
so much simpler that way. All Sakura had ever wanted was to just fit
in and if it ever got out that she bi or gay, or what ever it was
that she was, that would never happen. She cursed herself again as
tears began to roll across her checks. Turning to her side she
noticed the picture of her and Ino on her desk. She picked it
up, and soon subconsciously started focusing on the image of Ino. A
few minutes later Sakura realized what she had been doing. The tears
began to stream down harder as she sat the picture face down. To make
her life even worse she now realized she had a crush on her best
friend.
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Same
time- Naruto's House
Naruto sat quietly eating, while Iruka attempted to grill him on all things school related.
While Naruto didn't love Iruka, he did know that unlike his second foster father Iruka really did care for him. More importantly Iruka was the only adult that Naruto trusted at all, and even this trust was minimal. But who could blame a kid for that, that had been through Naruto's life. He had decided yesterday to ask Iruka about his dilemma with Sakura, though now that the time had come for the talk he was less sure about his decision.
As soon as dinner was over Naruto entered the kitchen where Iruka was busy with the dishes. "Iruka can I talk to you about something" Iruka turned around and looked at the boy. "You know, Naruto I really wish you would call me dad." The look Naruto gave Iruka made him drop the subject quickly. "Well what is you want Naruto?"
Naruto sat down in a chair and began to tell Iruka everything. He told him about his feelings for Sakura and why he was afraid to tell her. He explained why he felt he couldn't risk losing a great friend for something that would probably never happen. After finishing his story he looked up at Iruka who appeared to be deep in thought. He got nervous after he didn't reply and instead simply looked at him for a long time. After a moment he began to speak, "Naruto, I think you should...….tell her."
Naruto was shocked he had expected Iruka to tell him it wasn't worth it. The whole point of this was that he needed encouragement that he was doing the right thing. He never guessed Iruka would be this stupid. Didn't he realize the consequences of what he was suggesting. Didn't he know what would happen if Sakura didn't like him back?
Seeming to ignore the shocked and confused look on his foster child's face Iruka continued. "I know that your afraid to do this Naruto, but I can also tell its causing you a lot of pain keeping this hidden."
"Even if she
rejects you I think you will feel better at least knowing the truth."
Iruka looked up only to see Naruto walking out the door, he called
for him to stop but it was to late, he was already
gone.
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Later
that day-Outside Ino's house
"Where the hell is
Naruto?" Ino said almost yelling the question at Sakura. "I have
already told you a thousand times, I don't know." Sakura spoke
calmly but secretly she was worried about her best friend. He had
never been late before in the three years they had been friends. If
there was one thing she had learned in since Naruto moved into town
it was that he was always freakishly on time. Him being this late
had her quite worried. Deep in thought Sakura, barely heard Ino say
that if they didn't leave now they wouldn't be able to make the
movie. "Are you saying we should leave without him?" Sakura was
surprised to hear Ino suggest this but then realized they had been
waiting for a whole half hour. "Ok Ino we can go, he obviously
isn't coming, and if we wait any it will probably be sold out."
As the pair got up to leave Sakura could not help but wonder what had
happened to Naruto to make him miss spending the day with his two
best friends.
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Later that night- Local public park
Naruto sat crying on a park bench. The fact that he was crying confused him, as he hadn't cried since he was a small child. His life had forced him to harden emotionally at a young age. Having your real parents abandon you for a reason you still don't know, spending your early years in an orphanage. Then having your first faster family die in a car accident on the exact one-year anniversary of them adopting you. Then there was the second foster family with the abusive drunk father who hit both his foster mother and Naruto. Throughout all of that, Naruto had though he lost the ability to cry but here he was crying over some girl.
He had assumed that Iruka would have agreed with him, and given him some confidence that he was making the right choice in not telling Sakura. How could he want me to actually tell her he thought to himself? She must realize there is no way Sakura likes me like that, does he WANT me to lose one of my best friends? Iruka's words wrung in his ears though, and for a brief moment, Naruto once again thought about expressing his feelings to Sakura but his rational brain quickly destroyed any thoughts like that. Even if Sakura would still be friends with him, things would definitely be different. If he told her, there would always be an awkward tension between them when they were alone, and that awkwardness was something Naruto would not be able to stand. Even Ino would probably think of him differently. Naruto couldn't risk that; he had to keep things the way they were no matter how much it hurt him inside. He was not going to lose the first two real friends he had ever had.
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Same
time-At the movie
Sakura knew she should be watching the movie or worrying what had become of her best friend, but as hard as she tried she couldn't. Last nights realizations of her feelings for Ino coupled with her sitting so close right now were causing weird feelings in her body. She glanced at Ino for a second and for a moment she forgot her worries and just admired her friends beautiful body. As her eyes hovered on her friend's breasts though, the inner Sakura screamed for her to stop.
She cursed herself mentally, how sick was she that she was sitting hear staring at her best friends breasts. She had never felt so disgusted with herself in her entire life, and this was caused mostly by the fact that she knew she had felt a sense of peace and calm for those moments she forgot about her worries and just relaxed. What if her friends found out though, or her family or more importantly what if Ino herself found out. She would probably think Sakura was some kind of a freak. She couldn't imagine not seeing Ino ever again which is what she was sure would happen if Ino found out. Sakura hated herself more then ever as she found her eyes turning to look at Ino once again, she new she shouldn't be doing this but her body was once again taking control and she had no real choice.
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It was weird Ino thought to herself, she had sat next to Sakura in movies for years and it had never felt like this. These feeling she was having, though they had only emerged recently were turning this movie into a nightmare. Could she really do this for the rest of her life? Could she really be this close to Sakura all the time and never be able to do or say any of things she so desperately craved to do? These questions raced around her head as she turned to look at Sakura. She had expected to find Sakura intently watching the movie on screen which stared Sakura's favorite movie star Uchiha Itachi, older brother of the Uchiha Sasuke who went to there school but instead found the face of someone who was most definitely not watching the movie. Instead she found Sakura simply looking at her with an almost sense of longing, similar to the look she had given Sakura herself just yesterday. Ino's head snapped forward faster then what she would have thought possible. Was...was Sakura staring at me Ino wondered as she desperately tried to recall how Sakura had looked moments ago. When her mind finally came forth with a clear mental image a realization came to her, she realized Sakura was indeed looking at her in the same way she had looked at Sakura. Only one question was now present in Ino's head, what did that mean?
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Hope you enjoy, if there are reviews then chapter 3 soon!