Dear Mom,

I'm sitting by the fire right now, Grace and Wayne have just left. It was so good to see them again, I missed them, so much. I miss Cho, too, very much. I'm happy they seem to have found their place, a good job, after everything that happened. They deserve it, they deserve stability.
It's nice living here, I've decided. No one knows my past, they don't know why I've chosen this remote place in Washington to live.
But I need the peace, I need the quiet. I need to feel like I know what it's going to happen today, and tomorrow, and next week. I need to come back home at a decent hour, and sleep knowing there won't be any phone calls to wake me up.
With Jane, every day has been a... surprise? Jane. I miss him too, so so much. Despite the fact that he made my life a roller coaster ride in the past 10 years, I loved when the roller coaster ride would bring us up, making us smile.
And, you know what Mom? He managed to find a way to surprise me, again. Just when I thought I would never hear from him anymore, one day I received a letter. And I keep on receiving them, regularly. He writes me about his days, the place he lives, the things I'd love to see there. And he says he misses me.
He signs his letters with "U No Hoo", which makes me smile all the times. So far away, he still manages to make me smile.
I'm happy he reached out to me, to let me know he's ok. I'm keeping all his letters, and reading them makes me feel like I'm still part of his life, and he's still part of mine.
No matter if I will never see him again, he'll always be part of my life.
I think I just need to figure my life out, sooner or later.
For the moment, I'm fine here. I like my quiet days, for now.

But I feel so much better you know, Mom. I really do.
I think about the past a lot, of course. I miss having my team around, I miss the familiar places and the CBI, the coffee in the morning, the donuts Grace used to buy me from time to time. I miss that kind of routine.
But I have faith the future will be good to me. I'm doing my best to put the pieces together. I'm on my own again, I feel like when I first ran away from Chicago. I was alone and unsure what the future would have brought me, but I was hopeful. I feel the same way right now.
I hope wherever you are Mom, you can read this, you can see me, and know I'm ok.
I've talked with Tommy and Annie again last night, and they were just telling me how proud they are, that I'm starting all over again. It made me feel good.
I know I will be ok.

I love you always,
Reese