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IM AT THE BEACH WRITING THIS WISHING I WAS HOME IN MY COVERS -.- ANYWHO THIISSS CHAPTER WILL START WITH DEAR OLD EDDY'S POV AND TLK ABOUT THE SUMMER HIS FEELINGS BLAH BLAH BLAH UMMM AND WHY DID BELLA TURN HIM DOWN YOU MAY ASK? WELL YOU'LL NEVER BELIEVE IT SHE.....WELL OK ITS ALLLLL EDDIES FAULT HEHEHEHE BC WE DONT LIKE HIM IM ALL ABOUT ME SOME JASPER XD ANYWHO. BUTTT IM NOT TELLING U WHAT HAPPENED OHH NOO YOU HAVE TO BE PATIENT MY CHILDREN PATIENT XD OK IM HYPER ITS WHAT.. 1AM AND I HAD A DONUT.....AND A MOCAH XD AND I JUST RELISED I GOT A REVIEW!! MY VERY FIRST REVIEW FOR THIS STORY!! IM ALL JUMPS FOR JOY.. YES YOU KNOW YOUR OUT THERE!! XD OK OK OK DONT YELL AT ME IM GETTING ON WITH THE STORY XD!! [[BTW EDDY BOY IS SOOOOO PISSED OFF AND THERES ALOT OF CUSSING BC WHEN HE GETS UPSET HE DOESNT CRYY NOOO HE GETS PISSED AND EVEN SO STAY TUNNED KIDS THIS CHAPTER IS IN YOU A BUMPY RIDE XD !!]]]
EPOV XD!
She didn't say it, she rejected me. Okay you may think I'm being an asshole because I left a girl crying in my car, but you know what? I DONT GIVE A FUCK! I just got my damn heart broken again. I mean I thought after Alice dumped me I wouldn't like anyone else, but then I spent the summer with Bella and my world just fell into place. ANd then we are all getting hot and heaving in my car, my fucking car! I say I love you and she crys, damn crys and tells me oh I'm sorry I can't love you, now let me sit alone in your car and cry. Okay, yes I'm being an asshole, but if you just got your heart broken you would be fucking pissed off, well maybe not but I the sure fuck am!I walk swiftly to the stupid gym and open the damn doors. Jessica, as if waiting for me, skips to my side, grabs my hand like I'm her damn boyfriend, and links our fingers together. I didn't know fuck buddies did that, hmm. I wretch my hand from hers and stomp off toward the rest of the school.
"Yo Eddy! Heads up." I hear Emmett yell. I hear the ball swoop toward me and I reach my hand out, catch it, squeez the fucking life out of it, and then throw it to the ground.
"Um, Edward are you okay?" Little annoying Jessica asks, like its not completely obvisios. Damn idiot.
"No, jessica. I'm not okay. As it's completely fucking obvisious!! I'M FUCKING PISSED OFF!!!" I yell at her, which causes of course stares from admirers, like I could care less right now. Fuck them all. Fuck everyone!
"Oh, Edward I'm so sorry. What happened? If a girl hurt you, I will kill her!" She told me sternly and I just let out a harsh laugh. Crazy bitch.
"It's none of you damn bussiness, so just fuck off." I tell her and walk away. Luckily she doesn't follow me, thank god. But I do hear a set of big feet running after me; Emmett. I sigh and keep walking, not waiting for him to catch up.
"Dude, c'mon tell me what's up. You don't usually yell at girls like that, well girls that you fuck anyways, like that unless you just totally pissed. So tell me whats up." Emmett caught up with me easily. I mean the dude was a damn bear, probably bigger.
"Bella Fucking Swan is what is up. I confess my undying love to the girl and she says, and I quote, 'oh Edward I'm sorry I can't love you so go eat your fucking heart out' so you know what that's exactly what I'm going to do." I seeth thro my teeth and narrow my eyes into slits. Damn I need to calm down. I stop walking and take deep calming breaths, but everytime I get the littlest bit calm, I remember Bella telling me she can't possibly love me and I get pissed all over again. It's not fair to blame the girl, but hey I mean you would think that is every girls dream is for Edward Mason, captian and best of everything, plus hottest guy in school, to confess that he's in love with you. But of course the hotest girl in school shoots you down and crams your heart threw a garbage disposal.
"Edward man you need to chill. You can't go through school like this. So go somewhere and chill out before the damn bell rings." Emmett tells me calmly and I abide, walking off to the side door where I can walk up to the football field and think about what just happened.
Okay, so I kinda got a little out of control, okay alot out of control. My anger slowly seethes and I'm left with dispair. I feel tears start to burn in my eyes and I slowly blink so they won't slide down my cheeks. I can't cry at school where people will see my red puffy eyes and know I was crying. So I take deep breathes and think about the girl still crying in my car. I mean I should be the one crying, not her. SHE HURT ME! I gave her a chance to be happy with me, I mean she's happy when we have sex so why can't she be happy when I'm her boyfriend and I love her. Wait a minute, did she just use me for sex. No, Bella isn't like that. She's sweet, beautiful, smart, funny, fantasic! Okay now I sound like a love sick boy, which really I am. I sigh and put my head into my hands, while I start to think about the wonderful summer I had with my beautiful Bella. Well she isn't mine anymore..
Three months before [first of summer]
I laugh as she slowly dips her finger into the chocolate malt, then she slowly puts it to her mouth and when I think she is going to lick it off, she whipes it on my nose. I laugh and jump on her, rubbing my nose all over her face.
"Edward stop! Okay okay I give! You win!" she yelled while we were on the sofa, I on top of her.
"Ha! Knew it, I always do." I smirked at her, and she just rolled her eyes at me.
"Edward." She whispered, but that was all it took, because once she whispered my name like that, my lips instantly went to hers while I kissed her deeply letting my tongue run over her perfect lips. She pulled away all to soon, but smiled at me.
"Bella." I sighed and I knew at that instant that I was gone, gone from so far away out of this world into my blissful happiness that only this girl could make.
Our relationship started when we started hanging out at school sometimes and I live just down the street from the girl. Eventually we ended in a summer romance, but all summer romances end.
"Edward, do you think we are moving to fast?" Bella asked me and I saw the worry in her eyes, those gorgess chocolate eyes that I could drown in.
"I think it's okay if we move fast. I mean I'm not going to think no different of you." I brushed her hair back slightly with my finger tips and smiled down at her.
"Okay." she sighed and reached up to pull my head down to hers, so we could carry on our interupted kiss. I pushed my tongue gently into her mouth and moved one hand to cup her cheek while I slid my other hand down to her hip. When she needed to come up for air, I peppered kisses all down her jawline and neck. I sighed with how happy this girl has made me, and lightly sucked on her collar bone while she played with my unruly hair.
"Edward." She whispered, he voice soft with happiness. I stopped to look up at her face.
"Yes?" I asked her and started to wrap one of her curls around my finger lightly, while still gaving into her beautiful eyes.
"How can this work?" She whispered with worry in her eyes, while I on the other hand completely stilled.
"What do you mean?" I asked her, liked I couldn't actually realize why in the would this couldn't work.
"Edward, I mean are we dating? I'm just not going to have sex with you while there's no other relationship between us. I just can't do that." She said softly and I knew it was out of fear more than anything else.
"Bella darling, you have nothing to fear I'm not going anywhere with anybody else. You are my girlfriend and I don't want anyone else." I whispered in her ear, which made her smile that smile that makes my heart warm. I smiled back at her and kissed her forhead.
"Just one more thing. I want to keep us a secret for right now." She said and I quickly shot her a questioning look, but her eyes begged me to agree so I did.
"No one will find out." I said and leaned back down to start up our kissing again.
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That day was one of my favorites because I could actually call Bella mine and I realized I was falling in love with her. Then I thought back to the worst day we had, the day I made her cry.
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July.
She grabbed me roughly and pressed me up again the wall, he lips merging with mine as I tried to push her away. She let go of my lips and trailed kisses down to my neck and suck on the skin right where my pulse was. What the hell was she doing?
"Tanya get the hell off of me." I pushed at her, but she held her place. She was strong for a girl and I was weak and sore right now, my energy down. He hand skimmed down towards my pants and lingered with my traitor dick harden, which she took it as an invite and I mean what girl wouldn't. She unzipped my pants and pulled my lengh out of my jeans and started stroking me. I couldn't help the groan come out of my mouth, which she took that as a more invitation and got down on her knees. She slowly lick my head then put my whole lengh in her mouth. I groaned and my traitor body of course leaned toward her. While my body was saying yes, my mind was yelling no, but it was like I couldn't control my actions because what happened next I couldn't believe. I reached my hand out and grabbed her head, fisting my hand in her hair, moved her head at a steady pace while my hips thrust me into her mouth. I wasn't thinking and I would take that back if I coud. I moaned and sped up the pace til my orgasim started to come. I was breathing heavily and soon enough I cumed into her mouth, which she swallowed. I leaned against the wall and my mind slowly started to catch up with what I just done.
"Oh fuck." I said and looked down to see Tanya zipping my pants and stood up smirking.
"I knew you couldn't resist me Edward. Now there's more where that came from, heres my number when you want to 'hang out'." She said, trying to be seductive, but really I just wanted to puke all over her face. She kissed my cheek and walked off while I leaned onto the wall and slid down til I was sitting on the floor with my head in my hands, thinking how could I have just done that, when I'm dating Bella.
"Edward.." I heard Bella whisper my name and I look up in horror as I saw her standing in the doorway of my bedroom pain in her beautiful eyes, pain that I caused.
"How could you.." Bella whispered and the tears ran down her cheeks, tears that I caused. I felt my heart rip and I felt myself let the tears strol down my face as well.
"Bella! I'm so sorry. I don't know I could have down that. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to I..." I tried to reach out to her but she flinched back which only made my heart break more. I hurt her. i let those words settle in my brain.
"DOn't touch me after you touched her!" She yelled and turned around to run away, but I couldn't let her go.
"No Bella wait please.." I begged her, but she jerked away from and ran off, crying as she went. I myself was sobbing in the middle of my doorway, leaving the door wide open while I heard Bella run down the stairs. I didn't care who saw me. I just lost my heart, my soul, my other half. I lost bella.
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I came out of that flashback with a flinch. That was the worst day until today, but really I think that one was worst because that is real reason she can't love me. I realize that now. It has been my fault from the start. I mean we finally made up after that, but it wasn't the same as before. I hurt her, I cheated on her and I don't know how to change anything. I want her to trust me like she did before. I want to be the one who makes her happy. I realize the bell has already rang but I don't care. I decide I can't go to class like this, I'm mess because when I was remember that horrible day in my house where my mother let Tanya, not even thinking about it, then let Bella in. That day my world turned into choas, because I lost the most precious thing to me. The day that I really lost Bella.
I feel the water come down slightly form the stormy sky and I sigh. I get up to walk to my car, but remember she is still there crying and I can't bear to see her. So I leave my car there and start the long walk home from Forks High School. As the rain drops decend on my wrecked life, I think back to better times when me and Bella didn't have a care in the world except for each other. Where my life actually made sense because she made all the right pieces fall into all the right places....
EDWARD HAS FLASHBACK IN THIS CHAPTER OF THE SUMMER AND YOU FIND OUT ABOUT WHY BELLA CANT LOVE HIM. SHES ALREADY IN LOVE WITH HIM BUT SHE CANT LOVE HIM BECAUSE HES ALREADY HURT HER ONCE AND SHE HAS NO DOUBT HE WILL DO IT AGAIN... SADLY THIS IS WHERE I ENDED IT BUT HAVE NO FEAR AIDEN ALLMIGHTY IS HERE AND I SHALL MAKE A NEW CHAPTER IN A FEW DAYS BC DAMN I HAVE TO SAY THIS CHAPTER WAS JUST FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC. SORRY FOR MY LANGUAGE IN THIS ONE BTW BUT I MEAN HEYY WHO DONT CUSS LIKE A DIRTY SAILOR WHEN THEY ARE PISSED AT THE WORLD?? I KNOW I DO ALTHO I HIT THINGS TOO ANYWHO PLEASE REVIEW AND TELL ME WHAT YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE THINK!!! MUCH LOVE AIDEN XD