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Chapter 1 – Deep in thought.

B POV

I slowly watched the snow fall awaiting Edwards return, I hated these days the most when Edward went away hunting. It still hurt when he was away but I'd never tell him that. I had enough to take my mind off it since Alice was babysitting me; my day was full with makeovers and everything I detested. I was hoping to at least get a few hours to myself.

"Alice if its okay with you I'm going for a walk I'll only be an hour or so, is it safe enough to go out in the snow. I'm not going to get hit by a car or anything? "I asked curiously.

"Let me think about that," she paused for a second thinking "no, your fine, go and enjoy yourself, you don't want me to come do you?"

I knew what she was thinking. Edward would be mad if he knew Alice had let me out of the house by myself, but he didn't need to know.

"No, I think I'll be fine. Don't tell Edward though, "I knew Alice wouldn't tell, I trusted her enough.

I grabbed my jacket and headed for the door. The stairs down from the porch were particularly icy, so I walked down slowly since I didn't have Edward to catch me if I fell.Since moving to forks, I'd began to like the outside a little more and had become more accustomed to the weather. Yes' I probably preferred the sunshine but I would give anything up to be with Edward.

The snow was particularly thick as I struggled to make my way out of the Cullen's drive way. It made it quite hard to see the road ahead of me so taking small steps at a time I made it to the end of the road without any injuries. The hardest part was over I thought to myself. I started to wonder what had possed me to come on this walk after all my track history of walking on a flat surface wasn't that great. At least the snow wasn't as thick on the main road.

I stilled missed Jake badly; I think that was one of the reasons why I'd gone on this walk, to think clearly about what had happened over the last few months. I still don't think I'd come to terms with saying my final goodbye to Jake forever.

He'd been the light at the end of the tunnel when Edward had left me and now I had left and him in the same state Edward had left me .I know I had chosen Edward over Jake but I still loved him it's not like i had a choice ,it was just something that happened. Thinking about this brought tears to my eyes, I tried blinking them away but it was no use, lost in thought I stopped walking and realised I didn't have a clue where I was. I looked around me trying to gather my bearings, when I heard the screeching of brakes and a flashing of lights coming towards me at full speed.