"I know this isn't what I wanted, I never thought it come this far, Just thinking back to where we started and how we lost all that we are."
I stared at the ocean, it looked so peaceful at this time of morning. It was 7 am and everyone else were sleeping but I couldn't sleep anymore. Every time I closed my eyes I would see his face, and every time I saw his face I remembered how it felt like to kiss his soft lips.
This weekend was supposed to be fun and cozy get together for me and my friends. We were supposed to have amazing time and forget all the school work and other life while we were here. I guess most of my friends did do that, but they were clueless to what happened between me and Nick.
If I could, I'd go back in time and never do those things. I was scared, because I didn't know what I was feeling, I suppose I didn't want to find out, I was afraid of what might be there.
I wish I could just leave now, I don't want to feel this bad. I want to get away from them, all of them. To bad I was stuck here with them for the rest of the day.
Our Life Is Not A Movie, Or Maybe?
School had started the last week and we all wanted to get away from it, it was the senior year for a few of us, so this would be the last weekend of crazy, careless fun, before the finals.
I was in the car with my friends. Jake was driving and Demi sat in the front seat, me and Ashley were back, goofing around and taking stupid pictures. Ashley and Demi were my new friends, we didn't know each other so well, but we could already tell we had a lot in common. Oh yeah and there was the thing that Ashley and I used to date the same guy, that's why we weren't friends before, but all that was past us now.
The car was slowing down as a sign that we had arrived. I gazed outside to see this amazing old wood house. It looked perfect, something that you would see in a movie. It was our friends summerhouse, which his parents kindly let us use this weekend. Little did his parents know how much partying would go down there.
We got out of the car and started to carry our bags and food inside. We chose our rooms and changed some clothes, before starting to party. I chose to wear black skinny jeans and grey hoodie. I didn't put any makeup on, because after all it was only my friends here and I didn't have any guy to look good for.
"Oh here you are babes!" Demi smiled and walked in to our room with Ashley. They sat down to Demi's bed and gossiped about something nonspecific.
"So Miley, do you feel awkward?" Ashley asked me and I wasn't sure what she was talking about.
"Ehm, why would I?" I smiled at her with my confused smile.
"Well because you know, Joe, Oliver and Pete are all here? And it's not a secret that they all fancy you." Ashley laughed.
"Ughh, it's so annoying. I mean I love Joe, but just as friend, he's like a brother to me. And let's not even talk about Oliver and Pete!" I threw a pillow at Ashley.
"Dude, chill." Demi said and got up from the bed and walked to the window. Our friend were sitting there, drinking already. "I hate how lovey dovey Nick and Selena are, I mean c'mon people, you don't have to eat each others faces everytime you see each other!" Demi snapped.
She had a point, ever since they started to date each other last year they were always together and seemed like the worlds happiest couple, sometimes I wished I could have something like that. Nick was one of my best guy friends, he used to date my best friend and I had always liked him as a friend, he just is one of the good guys. Though I hardly ever see him without Selena these days.
"Talk about chilling.." Ashley laughed at her friends antics. "So what about we head downstairs, because well.. it seriously isn't party without us." The girls laughed, and agreed to join other downstairs.
Our Life Is Not A Movie, Or Maybe?
The night was fun, at first we spent time at the beach, but when it got cold we moved inside. I sat with Nick and joked about something stupid, as we always did. Suddenly hugged me and whispered to my ear how happy he was to have me as a friend. I smiled at him and agreed, we were perfectly comfortable with each other. It was one of those friendships where you didn't need to try at all, everything just came naturally.
As Selena walked to the room Nick let me go, obviously because he didn't want Selena getting jealous about us. Well that'd be just stupid if you asked me, because we were just friends.
Demi was choosing the song so I was getting ready to dance, that was our thing. Our friends didn't really do dancing, or it took a while to get them dance. The song coming from the speakers was Shakira's Waka Waka and I got excited and started to dance. Soon everyone was dancing and I found myself dancing with Oliver. At first it was awkward, but it got more awkward every second going and I hoped someone would save me from the situation.
Then someone pulled me from my hand and turned my to face them, it was Nick. She pulled me really close to him. I smiled and reached to whisper to his ear 'thanks'.
Our Life Is Not A Movie, Or Maybe?
I woke up the next day, feeling a bit hangover. I saw Demi still sleeping at her bed, but saw Ashley nowhere. Her bed looked untouched, so I thought she must have slept somewhere else.
I walked downstairs and saw Nick, Jake and Ashley drinking coffee and talking about something. I greeted them and took myself a cup of coffee, wishing it would take my hangover away.
"Oh babe, you look horrible!" Jake laughed at me and I pouted at him.
"Shut up Jake, I can't help it if I'm not a morning person." I smiled
"Don't worry Miles, you look as beautiful as ever, obviously Jake doesn't know what horrible means." Nick comforted me and once again I thought what did I do to deserve a friend like him, he was awesome, he always made me happy.
Our Life Is Not A Movie, Or Maybe?
As they day went on, we made lunch for everyone and just spent a fun day, playing games, talking, sleeping, just relaxing. Some of us were getting ready to start partying again, as it was 7 pm already and I started to make me a drink as well.
It was an interesting night. First everyone were just starting, then a few guys were getting really drunk, so they passed out quite early. At some point it started to rain as crazy and Demi got this crazy idea to to dancing in the rain half naked. And we all joined her, it was so much fun.
At 2 am some guys and Selena were sleeping, but rest of us were still listening to music and talking. We listened to some old songs and everyone just had memories from those songs and people were getting really soppy.
I looked at my friends, once again I was happy to have them around me, but I also was feeling quite down. Nick looked at me with a look that asked if I wanted to talk, and we went outside to talk. We sat down and leaned to this big rock that was blocking the view, so our friends didn't see us from where they were.
"Do you remember, like three years ago, when everything was so easy?" Nick asked me suddenly.
"Easy? What do you mean with that?" I didn't quite understand what he meant.
"Well when it was just me, you, Mandy and Joe? Everything felt so easy back then, I knew exactly what I felt and I didn't need to question myself so often.."
"Those were the times.. how do you question yourself now? I thought you had all figured out?"
"I do, most of the time. But this weekend, I don't know.. It's just that every time I look at you I feel this stupid urge to hug you and I don't know.. Ugh, never mind." He looked away from me as I started to wonder what he just said. I intertwined our hand and smiled at him. My hand tingled from where his hand was touching mine, something that had never happened before. I looked at our hands, trying to figure out why it did that now.
"Nick, you really are one of my best friends, I don't want to ever lose you." I pecked his cheek and started to get up. He got up as well and we looked at each other a while. As I was turning around he took my hand and pulled me close to him, just like yesterday when he saved me from Oliver.
This time was different though, this time I felt him closed. I was able to feel his breath, and I smelled his perfume. He pressed his soft lips against mine. Our lips were perfectly made for each other, we moved in the same pace and he used just the amount of tongue that I liked. As I started to pull away he looked at me, and I saw the quilt in his eyes.
The guilt in his eyes made me realize, that I just kissed my friend, my friend who happened to have his girlfriend in the building next to us, sleeping peacefully. I looked at him, fighting the tears and ran away. I didn't went to the other anymore, I just climbed back to my room and straight to bed. When I was safely there, under the covers I finally let myself cry.
AN: okay so there you go, chapter two. remember to review :) xx love Aino