Chapter 2: Realization

"Lawliet? Why is that name so familiar to me?" I asked.

"Open and read the letter and you'll find out why" Roger answered.

I did just that, I sat back down onto the cold, wooden chair I was on before but this time I didn't take notice to how uncomfortable it was. I placed my thumb under the seal and opened it in a straight shot. I slowly pulled out the letter, it was only about a page long and it was handwritten. The letter was dated a month ago and I could feel my hand tremble slightly as I started to read:

Sage,

This is a letter I wish I didn't have to write. I decided to because I know my time is coming to an end and I wanted to reach out to you. There's so much you don't know and wouldn't understand, by the time this letter gets to you you'll only be around 12 or 13, you won't be able to comprehend your whole history as well as mine. I know it will all be confusing to you but in time you'll understand. Just know that whenever I saw your face when I came to visit you, whenever I would read to you until you fell asleep and whenever I was able to hold you and your tiny hand would consume just one of my fingers, those moments were the highlight of my life. I kept you in the dark for your protection and you will be kept in the dark for a little while longer. With all my heart I am sorry, I wish I could see you again before it all ends, I doubt I'll be able to but I know you'll be in good hands, just like I was and I know you'll be loved. One of the main reasons I continued with my detective work for was you, to make the world better for you so one day you and I would be able to live in it together without any secrets but that dream may not become a reality, at least not for me. I think of you often and I always had throughout my days since you were born, I hope you will realize my purpose and never doubt the fact that I loved you and will continue to love you until the end and beyond. Be safe my child.

Ryuzaki

As I tore my eyes away from the paper, I felt a small stream of fresh tears rolling down my cheeks. I always felt connected to L, even before I saw his face but could it be true? Could I be his daughter? In a way, it made sense, what other reason would he have to visit only me in person and insist it be kept a secret? My mind was overwhelmed as well as my heart. I always dreamed of having parents and L would be the best father I could ask for, but it killed me to know that I wouldn't have any more memories with him and that he would only be alive in my memory.

"Is it true?" I muttered as the tears slowed but still fell from my face. Roger simply nodded as he looked down. I leaned back in the chair as pieces of my dark hair started to stick to face that was wet with tears.

"You must continue to keep it secret as he said, you'll be in danger if it is made known that L had an heir of his own body" Roger stated.

I didn't respond, I couldn't, I didn't have any energy, I was purely and simply heartbroken. All I could muster was a simple nod, I then folded the letter and placed it in my pocket as I got up to leave to return to my room. Roger didn't try and stop me, he didn't ask any more questions, he knew that I needed to process this but the problem was that I didn't even know how I would live with it.

I exited the office and leaned against the opposite side of the door for a second, my head almost fell to the floor and I was hidden by my hair as the tears kept flowing silently, when I finally looked up I saw Near within walking distance from me. He didn't notice me, at least he didn't acknowledge that I was there, he was too busy lining up dominos and was surrounded by the other children who were laughing and playing. As I went to the staircase as quiet as possible not to be noticed I quickly bumped into Mello, I almost knocked him to the floor but he knew something was wrong when he stood back up. I tried my best not to make eye contact with him because I could feel that my face was flushed and my eyes would no doubt be red and swollen with tears.

He stood back up and adjusted his shirt and simply examined my face. "Sage?" He muttered quietly so no one else would hear. I had to fight the urge to face him and I continued to try to push passed him and he followed me up the stairs. "Wait, what's the matter?" He asked with genuine concern in his voice, I continued to ignore him as I finally got to my door.

Just as I was about to let myself in Mello grabbed me by my shoulders and spun me around and my back hit the door. I wasn't expecting him to do so, so when I finally came eye to eye with him I gasped and my hair was once again sticking to my face. When Mello got a full view of my face, he took immediate notice to my tears as they continued even as I stared into his eyes. He then withdrew his hands from me and said nothing else. After about another minute of simply staring into his eyes, I wanted so desperately to tell him what I was just told but I knew I couldn't so I turned, entered my room and slammed the door behind me.

I slid down to the floor with my back still glued to the door and I simply sat there for what felt like hours with my knees to my chest and my head buried. I just wanted to hide and I never wanted to be found. After I regained some of my composure I went to my bed, it was only around 5 o clock and the sun would soon be going down, and I planned on staying in my room for the rest of the night, I had no appetite or desire to look anyone in the eye.

The night drifted away slowly, it consisted of me staring out my large window and looking at the moon as well as the stars and I started to think. My tears had finally ceased but the weight in my heart and my grief would take much longer to ease, if it would ever. I was able to clear my mind and think, I sat on my bed in an upright position and brought my right thumbnail to my mouth once again and I let my thoughts take over in my head.

"Alright, I will keep it a secret, I can't say for how long but for now I will, I am too young to know what to do with this information and it is incredibly dangerous especially because Kira's rule grows more and more each day and apparently he won't hesitant to get rid of anyone who opposes him. In a few years time I hope they're will be others who will seek to oppose him and take him down and I also will be leaving Wammy's sooner then later. Mello has the right idea with wanting to leave but now knowing what I know, it's too painful to stay here longer then I have to. My mind is made up, I'm not sure where I'll go but I have more than enough time to figure it out, but before I make a move to go anywhere, I will need an alias..."

Authors note: Reviews are much appreciated. These few chapters are laying the ground work for where it will go. The main story will revolve around my OC as well as the main characters of the second half of death note with Mello and Near being the dominant ones over time. The story at times will be slow moving, I don't want to rush into anything and some chapters might be longer then others.

The ages of certain characters have been changed to fit the story as well as the timeline of certain months. I am not sure how many chapters this will consist of just yet but I plan to have it continue as well as possible. In the next chapter there will be a dream sequence and the five year time skip will happen.

thanks so much for reading xo