Let Me Be Your Armor(assemblage 23)
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Let me take the fall
Let me take the blame
Let me carry you from hell
To home again.
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You should see him sometime's...The way he look's at me is heart-wrenching, the boy's eyes filled with lonelyness I wish to fill if only for my own selfish reasons. Do you think I am beeing irrational? Probably, but to see Aoi for who he is, is to be in heaven.
Aoi's skin is so pale, soft like a porcline doll...with these deep colored eye's watching the world with hate and disapointment...is he disapointed in me too?
I want to help him, to hold him gently and sheild him from the world.I saw him once...at the Vocational Aid Center.They had him attached to machines with wire's through his body, he looked like a monster. I had to take him away with me.To keep him safe here...to protect him.
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Let me walk for you
When your legs are weak
Let me find the words for you
When you can't speak
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She took me away, one day she insited it was within my best's intrists and the doctors had to agree.I wasn't going to get better anytime soon.It hurt's sometimes...to lay in bed and feel myself slipping away into something I do not understand.I don't want to leave her, I dont want to be alone anymore Motoko...
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Let me be your armor
Let me be your shield
Let me take away the pain you feel
Let me be the light
That guides your way through darkest night
Let me be your armor.
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In all of her coldness, I see something warm and gentle. When she took me away, let me stay here with her, I felt love. Something so pure I was afraid it was fake. Motoko doesn't know how to be fake though, she's my armor, she keep's me warm at night when I am sick and cannot sleep. When I feel weak and scared and sick of all the lie's she will stay with me...telling me kind thing's untill i fall asleep.In return I stay here, watching her as if she where my own to keep..
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Let me take the blows
That were meant for you
Let me help you the trials
You're going through
Let me keep you safe
From the world outside
Let me wipe away the tears
That fill your eyes
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"...Motoko?" I hate to surprise her like this...but I cannot sleep, my head spin's and my body ache's.
"It's late, and little midget's such as yourself are to be sleeping" I tease him relentlessly about his height, even though he's growing taller each year, I belive no matter how big he will grow it will be me holding him always.
Aoi let off a soft blush, shifting on the soles of his feet, standing in his pajama's that seemed to big for his slender frame."I am not a midget...and I cannot sleep again.."
There was the silence between them, when Aoi looked nervous and afraid...fragile and broken, and when Motoko moved to his side to put her hand on his back and guide him back into his bedroom.
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Let me be your armor
Let me be your shield
Let me take away the pain you feel (your armor)
Let me be the light
That guides your way through darkest night
Let me be your armor.
Let me keep you from
Experience you need
Let me bind you with my selfishness
And greed
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"You hardly ever do..." Her voice wasn't harsh or upset, but gentle and almost concerned.
"I know, it's hard to when I dont feel well..."
"Or when you worry your pretty little head off"She sat up against the pillows over the sheets, letting Aoi crawl benith the thick blankets beside her.
"I am not pretty"
Motoko just smiled to herself, knowing the boy was to stuborn to argue, she watched him settle in under the warmth of the convorter.
I dont' know how she does it...as soon as she is here..I am tired and warm. I feel so safe
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Let me stifle you
Let me have control
Let me smother
Every aspect of your soul
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He's really rather stuborn, insisting he isn't lovely, he isn't smart and is perfectly ok...when I know it's all a lie. The moment I touch his head, the boy's body calms and he curls up against me. Aoi let's me have him this way you know, just to keep him calm and safe. I dont know why, but I like to touch him...almost to make sure he's real. I stroke his hair away from his face, moving down his neck over his arm and to his hands...just making sure he's real.
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Let me be your armor
Let me be your shield
Let me take away the pain you feel
Let me be the light
That guides your way through darkest night
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Aoi
Motoko
Let me be your armor.