Hi folks! Glad to see you've continued reading my story :)

This is sort of a filler chapter, so there is not much action but, in my opinion, it is essential for the story.

Disclaimer: the queen J.K. Rowling owns everthing.

I still remember that day perfectly.

It had been a month since Albus and I had started our first year of Hogwarts and we had just started making new friends.

I had become friends with one of my roommates, Lea, a dark-skinned muggleborn with curly black hair and deep brown eyes. She had a petite frame and we had bonded over our shared love for books.

Basically we were both nerds.

Anyways, it was a lazy Sunday morning and I had gone to the Library to do a little research for my history project.

At the opposite side of the table I was sitting at, was none other than Scorpius Malfoy.

He had regular features, platinum blond hair and a set of icy blue eyes. You could already tell he was going to grow up into an attractive bloke.

I was trying hard to concentrate on my homework but the blond was annoyingly tapping his fingers on the table.

I really did try to ignore it, he was friends with Albus after all.

I had to be nice.

But he just wouldn't stop.

And I needed to study.

"Excuse me, could you stop that?"

He raised his gaze from the paper.

Goddammit those eyes were mesmerizing.

"What?" In his tone was a hint of annoyance.

"The tapping."

"I'm sorry is this light sound bothering you?" His voice dripping with sarcasm.

"Yes actually, it is."

"Fine then I'll stop." He replied, his face breaking into a smirk.

I smiled satisfied.

Victory.

"Thank you."

I was about to return to my paper and be done with that but apparently we were far from over.

"But could I ask you a favor?"

Oh Scorpius, you just had to respond.

You couldn't leave it there.

"Sure."

"Could you move a bit? The redness of your hair is blinding me."

I gasped.

He did not just go there.

"It is a Weasley trait!"

"Very charming." He mocked.

"It's still better than your granny hair."

He glared at me.

"Just because you can't come up with insults of your own doesn't mean you have to steal mine."

"I can to!" I retorted, very maturely. Hey no judging, I was eleven.

"Oh sure you can." He replied rolling his eyes.

"Is being a pompous arse a Malfoy trait or is it just you?"

He responded by tapping his fingers on the table hard.

"I swear I will hex your hands off."

He snorted.

"I'm certain that that hex doesn't exist."

I leaned in.

"Well then, I'll just go with the hexes I do know."

And that's the story of how me and Malfoy got kicked out of the Library.

From there it was just an uphill battle.

My thoughts are brutally interrupted by the sound of someone knocking on my door.

It's been almost an hour since I've apparated back to my flat and I have done absolutely nothing.

Mostly because the sense of guilt and disgust have been starting to hit me like a bitch.

Partly because I'm so bloody hungover.

Hard to believe I was head girl in Hogwarts right?

Ah the surprises that life brings.

The visitor knocks again. This time harder.

"I'm coming!" I yell.

Well, looks like I need to get my shit together.

As I open the door the familiar auburn haired girl flings her arms around my neck.

"Oh thank Merlin you're okay!" She says.

"Alive and well." I mumble.

And after the initial kindness comes the scold.

"Where the bloody hell have you been all morning?! It's 3 p.m. and I've been ringing you like crazy." She continues. "You were supposed to save me yesterday night. This chick I ended up with was an absolute nightmare."

"Oh well..." I stutter.

And after entering the room and throwing her coat on the couch, she heads straight to the kitchen to grab herself a snack.

You gotta love Lily.

I close the door and join her.

"You got me worried sick, love." She says taking one big bite out of an apple. "Now I know how you feel."

"Think about that next time." I warn her.

"But seriously though, I didn't think you had it in you. We really got wasted the other night."

I cringe at the memory.

Lily takes one good look at me and puts down her snack.

"Okay talk to me."

Maybe telling someone could actually help me.

"I... it's not something I'm proud of."

"Oh I doubt that. You're Rose freaking Weasley, licensed golden girl. In fourth year you cried for an hour straight when you couldn't turn that tea cup back to a rat."

"I've done something bad. I mean Umbridge bad."

Her eyes widen.

"Oh come on it can't be that bad."

"Okay maybe not Umbridge bad but..."

"I get the picture Rose." Says Lily cutting to the chase.

"Okay but promise you won't overreact."

"Promise."

"Pinky promise?"

"Rose!"

"Okay! I'll tell you."

I pause.

"I slept with someone."

She gasps.

"YOU?!"

I nodd.

"With someone other than..?"

I nodd again.

"WHAT?!"

So much for not overreacting.

"Well that explains why you look like shit."

Why did I think telling someone would make me feel better?

"Who is this person?"

"I don't really wanna tell..."

"I swear to Merlin," Lily starts and I roll my eyes, "if you don't tell me who it is I will-"

"It's Scorpius Malfoy."

"WHO?!" Her eyes open wide and she looks at me as if I were a crazy person.

I look down at my feet.

"How?! Why?! Merlin this is too much information to process." She leans back on the counter, visibly shocked.

"What does this mean?" She asks.

"It means nothing, zero, nada."

"So you don't have feelings for Scorpius?"

A look of disgust appears on my face.

"Oh Merlin no."

"Come on, even I admit he's handsome, regardless of how unattracted I am to his gender."

I stay silent.

"Was he at least good?"

"Lily!"

"What?! A girl's gotta ask."

She takes one big look at me.

"What's gonna happen with Julian? Are you going to tell him?" Lily adds.

"I don't know... We have plans this evening... I just know that I love him so much and I don't want to lose him." I feel my voice shaking.

I hold back the tears that are threatening to spill.

I don't think I've ever been so ashamed of myself.

"Oh come here Red." She says pulling me into a hug.

"Now I'm going to tell you what you're gonna do and you're going to tell me if it's okay, okay?"

I nodd.

"First of all you need to take a shower, get yourself all cleaned up, then we'll figure these things through."

"Okay."

I enter the bathroom, I had just finished assuring Lily that I was fine and I was doing better.

Which was of course a big fat lie.

But apparently that's the person I've become.

A lying betraying Rose.

Fantastic.

But it's time to face reality.

I'm going to see Julian in exactly an hour.

And I don't have a plan.

Well technically I do.

The plan is not to have a plan and go with my guts.

Fuck.

That's a terrible plan.

I glance into the mirror and take in my appearance.

Lily was right, I really needed that shower.

I kind of wish she were still here right now.

Merlin knows I need the support.

I tame my red curls with the no-frizz potion and I pat in a light layer of concealer to hide my dark circles, to make it look as if I hadn't had five hours of sleep.

Then I apply some blush on my cheeks so I don't look so dead inside, shame they don't do a blush for your soul, am I right?

Oh Merlin I sound depressing.

I stroke the mascara wand through my lashes to frame my hazel eyes and swipe on a rosy lipstick.

There.

Now I seem put together.

Sort of.

I'm still wearing a bathrobe.

I head to my room and my eyes immediately fall on the blue dress laying on my bed.

That damn blue dress.

I was wearing that dress the day Julian said he loved me for the first time.

And I was wearing that dress yesterday when Scorpius pulled it off and told me how beautiful I was.

I have to tell him the truth.

Julian deserves to know.

I just hope he will forgive me.

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