~Bonnie~
I woke up in the bathroom and noticed broken pieces of mirror everywhere. I felt so confused, because I couldn't remember much of what happened. Then standing up I looked around a bit more. It all came back quickly. Damon coming here, the cutting, the mirror everything. I only wished to forget it all. That's all I wanted to do to everything.
Walking back into my room I grabbed a set of clothes and a towel and headed back into the bathroom to get a shower. Shedding each article of clothing numbly I climbed into the steamy shower. The hot water rushed over my shoulders and for a moment it felt as if it would wash the pain of the weight of the world away. But it was too much to hope anymore. Afterwards I got dressed. I didn't bother with make up at all. I didn't see the point in putting on. It was supposed to get a guys attention and say "hey I'm beautiful" but it didn't. No guy ever saw me they only saw Elena. I grabbed my dark blue hoodie off of my computer chair and headed downstairs.
Mary was in the kitchen cooking up breakfast.
"You're up early." She said
"Is it a problem?" I asked
I wouldn't have minded going back to sleep. I would take what I could get even if sleeping only brought on pain.
"Uh no umm please eat." She said
"I-" I started
Instead of finishing I just took a piece of toast and headed toward the door.
"Where are you going?" she asked worriedly
"Out." I replied as I put on my sandals
She didn't say anything, but the look on her face looked a little scared as if she thought I was going to run away. As a matter of fact that's exactly what she thought. I grabbed my cell phone off of the small table by the door and put it in my pocket as I walked out.
I wasn't entirely sure as to where I was going, but I figured getting out of my bedroom was a start. It was cold and grey outside. Then again with the lack of energy, food, and etc. in me it's no wonder it was cold. But it wasn't so bad. After a bit it just numbed me over. Before I realized it I had begun wandering around in the Old Wood.
I stepped out into the familiar clearing where we'd killed Klaus. Even that night haunted me, but it wasn't the only thing that haunted me from that time. Damon's cold kiss also haunted me. I knew it didn't mean anything and I should've known that the second time. But my heart always wondered. That's all it ever did on that subject because he never brought up what had happened and I just figured I should pretend it didn't happen either.
"A lonely heart is a broken heart." I muttered to myself as I sat back in the wet grass.
As I laid there it seemed that time just went by without me. And oddly enough this place which held such a dark memory was peaceful. That's when I heard it. Klaus's voice iced over me. I was on my feet in an instant to see him in front of me. He wasn't the only one though. The others were here too. It was playing right in front of me all over again. A manifestation of that night.
"Not real." I mumbled
But it kept going.
"No. Just go away."
"Go away?" Klaus said
I looked up terrified. He was looking dead at me and walking closer. He saw me.
"Why would I do that? It's not so bad being like me you know. There's no rules. No broken hearts. And you can kill whoever or whatever doesn't like you. Just knock out the competition." He said
I just shook my head no. he wasn't real. It was all just a figment of my imagination playing with me.
"Not real." I said
"If I weren't real could I do this?" he snarled
Next thing I knew he grabbed a chunk of my hair and yanked my head to the side roughly and bit down hard leaving me screaming. I closed my eyes hoping that when I opened them he would be gone. When I opened them I was on my knees crying alone in the clearing. The only other thing that was terrified was the birds which flew away. It was getting harder to tell what was real and what wasn't.
Then I saw something walk into the clearing. At first I couldn't tell who it was but as it got closer I saw it was Matt. Wait, Matt? What would he be doing out here? Then it changed into Meredith.
I scrambled to my feet as I saw it change right before my eyes. It wasn't human.
Don't be afraid Bonnie. I heard from him.
His voice seemed gentle, but I had every reason to be as afraid as I was at that moment. I just backed away as he got closer.
"Who are you?" I stammered
I am whoever you want me to be.
"Get out of my head!" I yelled as I grabbed at my head
His voice just echoed there.
"If that is your wish." He or she or whatever gender it was said
Then as he got closer I saw him change into Elena. I don't know why but looking at her just made me angry right now. There she was with everything she could ever dream of and here I was feeling like I was ready to drop dead from it all. I wonder when she asks if I'm okay or when she says that she's sorry if she means it. A deep impulse took over me in the next instant as I hit the cloned Elena across the face.
More tears had streaked down my face as I fell to the ground. but the person caught me before I hit the ground.
"Don't worry. You won't hurt anymore precious."
I looked up into the ice blue eyes of Damon. He caressed my cheek and then all of the sudden everything went black. Of all times i decided to faint.
~Elena~
"I don't know. She could be saying that just so you would go away." I said
"Whatever, I did what you asked and she said she was fine. So now if you don't mind I'm going to get something to eat. Because apparently humans are hungry in the morning." Damon said then walked off
Bonnie had pulled away a lot since we returned from the dark dimension. It was like her worst nightmare come true, hell, it was everyone's. I just wished she would let us help her somehow. She was becoming more and more lifeless. She stopped coming over, stopped answering our calls, the she just stopped answering everything altogether. Was it so bad? I'm not a witch so I can't say I understand but maybe if she talked to us. It would be like her own personal shrink.
"You okay?" Stefan asked breaking my train of thought
"Sure." I answered
"Sure implies that you're not really okay." He said
I just shrugged.
"I'm really concerned about Bonnie is all. I hate to say it but it seems like she is giving up."
"I don't think-"
"You haven't seen her Stefan. Last time I heard about her from her sister she said that she looks like she is dying on the inside." I said interrupting him
"I take you would like me to check in on her?" I asked
"Yeah, because at least with you I know you'll actually attempt to make sure everything will be okay with her and stuff." I said
"Alright. I'll check on her this evening after I've hunted." He said
I kissed him deeply in thanks. As I was I could feel a set of sharp eyes on me coming from the kitchen. It was a set of eyes I had become all too used to even though Stefan hated it. Especially since he thought that Damon had the advantage of being human now. I couldn't deal with that right now though I just couldn't mainly because there were missing gaps between him and I.