I ran back to Bella's house, nothing more then a blur of color and a gust of cold wind to any by-standing human. I ran back through the woods, my subconscious screaming at me, tormenting me.
'This is wrong Edward, you have to leave her, go now, it will be easier then going back and having to say goodbye again. Don't do this to her Edward, your wrong for her, your bad, a demon, a killer, you said it yourself!'
The voices kept repeating themselves, and I tried to push them all away, but as I neared the street, they were quickly replaced by a jumble of unfamiliar voices.
'I wonder what mom is making for dinner tonight.'
'If my wife finds out about this, im dead...'
'What happened to the rest of my money?'
'He's hot, wouldn't mind giving him a ride..'
The worst part about being able to read minds, was when I didn't want to hear people, their thoughts still entered my overstimulated brain. The thoughts of humans were petty, especially the females thoughts. Everyone of them that laid eyes on him, stared, that minds wondering with curiosity and lust. It was repulsing, I despised the thoughts they had referring to having a sexual interest in me. They didn't even know me, woman always accused men of using women as toys, but secretly the women were worse, they kept there sneaky thoughts in there minds.
I crossed the street and ran up to Bella's window, scrambling up to the open hole in the wall. I pulled myself with ease through the window, finding Bella laying on her bed, her headphones blasting an unrecognizable song into her ears. My fatherly instincts kicked in again and I sat on the bed, reaching for the CD plays next to her and lowering the volume back to a much more reasonable level before removing one of the headphones from her ear so she could hear me speak.
"Bella, love, you can't blast the music that loud, you are going to hurt your ears that way." She nodded and rolled her eyes and I smiled.
"Yes daddy, anything you say." When she called me that, the feelings I had before erupted all over my body. Fire pulsated in my groin, and I let out a low quiet hiss from between my tightly clenched teeth, why now when I had a lot of explaining to do about our earlier conversation, the whole reason I was here. The hiss worried her and she reached for my face.
"Edward, what's wrong?" I ignored her question and tried to compose my face with little success. It worried her more and she slide to her knees in front of me, moving closer and kissing my neck.
"Edward, please tell me baby, what's wrong?" Did she just call me baby? I never heard her call me that before.
"It's nothing Bella, I'm fine..."
"No Edward, your in pain, drop the whole tough-vampire act and tell me what's wrong with you." Her stern voice made me smile and I looked up to look into her large brown eyes.
"I'm not in pain Bella, don't worry love." I felt extremely awkward, more so then ever before.
"The what is it Edward?" I looked away from her eyes, how did I tell her? Just blurt out, I'm horny? I'm hard? No, that's not how I was supposed to tell her.
"Edward, your scaring me, I love you, you can tell me anything." I sighed, letting my eyes fall to look at my lap, hoping she would get the picture without me actually having to tell her. Her eyes followed mine down and I heard her breathe catch.
"Oh...That's nothing to be embarrassed about..." Her cheeks flushed a rosy pink and I reached my hand up to gently touch her warm face with my freezing cold hand, the warmth made my skin tingle.
"Please just forget it Bella, I am sorry..." She was shaking her head before I could even finish my sentence.
"No Edward, what do you want?"
"I want you to forget about it..." I looked down again but her hands forced me to look back up and I gave no resistance.
"Edward, what do you want?" I looked deep into her eyes, she was completely serious. I took a deep breathe before continuing.
"I want you to...touch me..." There, I said it, was she happy now? Sure enough she grinned from ear to ear and pushed her mouth to mine and I instinctively wrapped my arms around her, holding her to me. Her mouth broke from mine and her mouth reached for my neck, sucking on it gently, it felt more then amazing.
Her warm hands were pulling my shirt of my head, then they returned to my chest. I shuddered at her warmth, at her closeness, I wanted her closer but I resisted. Her hands moved all the way down my chest and her mouth moved closer to my ear.
"What is it that you want again?" She was going to make me say it? I could only talk in a muted whisper, it was the most embarrassing moment of my existence.
"I want you to touch me..." She grinned at her achievement, she won and got what she wanted, but she wasn't done yet.
"How bad do you want me to touch you?"
"Bad..." I hated this, her smile widened.
Her hand moved down then, stroking me through my jeans, which were feeling to tight to be comfortable right now. Her hand froze suddenly and I opened my eyes to look up at her.
"Am I doing this right..?" I chuckled, my dear sweet Bella.
"I don't think there is a right or wrong way, Bella, but it feels so good..." Her hand still didn't move and I sighed, closing my eyes again and taking her hand in mine, moving her fingers to touch where I wanted them to, where I knew it felt the best.Her fingers felt so amazing, massaging and pushing on me. It wasn't nearly as awkward as I thought it would be, doing this with Bella, it almost felt natural.
Suddenly her hand grasped me hard and I couldn't contain the gasp that I let out, Bella smiled Shly at me. She started moving faster and harder, squeezing, massaging, and rubbing. I knew we couldn't take it any father, even though I wanted to feel her skin on mine, I didn't even think I would last that long for her to get her hand actually in my pants. Lava erupted all over my body, it felt good, the best experience in my life. I didn't even notice how hard I was breathing.
When I could finally open my eyes again, I was looking straight into Bella's eyes, an angels eyes. She smiled innocently, as if she did nothing to provoke the situation in anyway.
"Did that feel good?"
"It felt better then any experience I have ever had, nothing can compare to that." And I wasn't kidding.
"Except for actually having sex, that is."
"Yes, I guess actually having sex would feel even better then this, but I never had sex, so this was the best feeling of my existence."
"Can we top that?" Her voice was mysterious, seductive.
"Not tonight, Bella, one step at a time." She frowned, the most adorable pout forming on her beautiful pink lips, and I couldn't help but kiss them quickly.
"I'm sorry love, but I don't want to push it, I could hurt you, its to dang-."
"Yes Edward, I know, its to dangerous, I will get hurt, blah blah blah, sometimes I think that's an excuse so that we don't have to, so that we don't even have to try." I chuckled.
"Silly, beautiful, sexy, loving, adorable, sweet, seductive, interesting, ticklish-." I moved my cold hands to her stomach, right under her ribs and tickled her gently.
"-Amazing, attractive, funny, exotic, Bella."
I kept tickling her until her giggles turned to gasps and she collapsed against my chest, panting.
"That's not funny, Edward." I grinned at her and she grinned back at me.
"Are you ticklish?" She asked with plan curiosity in her voice.
"I don't think so..I don't think I can be, I think my skin is a little to tough." She tried anyway, and sure enough, it felt good more then it tickled.
"Hmm.."
"What are you thinking about Bella?"
"What else can and can't you do? What else does and doesn't affect you? I wonder if any human food tastes good to you, not everyone likes every kind of food, maybe there is one that you like." I made a face, sticking out my tongue.
"You want me to eat that retched, vile garbage you humans eat?" She grinned and I forced a fake, playful frown.
"It's like a little kid that won't eat there vegetables, they don't know they might like them until they eat them."
"Your comparing me to a stubborn five year old child that refuses to allow their parents to lead them into a healthy lifestyle?"
"In many fewer words, yes."
"For you, my Bella, I will take your tests, whatever you want me to do, I will."
"My own vampire guinea pig, can I name you Butterscotch? Butterscotch was the name of my guinea pig about ten years ago"
"Actually, I prefer to be called Edward over Butterscotch, sorry love."She play pouted again and I smiled at her, making her smile, too.
"Come on, Butterscotch, my sexy vampire-guinea pig lover, its chow time." I winced at the thoughts of the vile taste of human food, but followed her down the stairs and into the kitchen anyway, anything for Bella.