Introduction: Part Two
In that moment Meredith could not bear to see him…her…them…together.
It was in that moment that Meredith fully accepted that she and Derek were over for good.
He had found the partner that could give him what she could not.
Then so be it…
Meredith raised her head up straight and began to try her best to walk down the street without seeming drunk.
She was well aware that the couple behind her, coming her way, would be able to see her silhouette and back.
Hoping against hope that he would not recognise her, Meredith tried to speed up her walking but the world spun so fast that she had to resume back to walking slowly.
She could only manage a metre every few seconds just so she wouldn't go off balance and fall over.
But as she walked a wind suddenly blew and it carried the laughing voices from behind her.
As his laughing voice echoed in her ears that made Meredith stop walking instantly.
She listened intently as the door to Joe's opened and she heard Derek say in a charming tone, "Ladies first."
Meredith heard Rose laugh, charmed by Derek's rich voice.
The voice that she had considered only hers, but it was when she waiting for the door to shut heavily to signify they were both inside, his voice suddenly spoke to her.
It echoed in the wind as it blew gently in her ear, making it sound softer and more mysterious than she had ever thought possible.
"Meredith?"
His voice made her melt inside and her heart break all over again.
Without replying, Meredith shut her eyes and began walking again.
She just walked away slowly, knowing he was not going to come after her or speak to her again because it must have been obvious to both him and Rose that it had been her stumbling out of Joe's.
Pissed, as a skunk and probably smelling like a brewery.
Good one Meredith…now he knows I am a drunken sad sack who gets hammered to try and forget him…terrific.
Embarrassment flooded Meredith as she continued walking down the street, completely unaware as to where she was going but at least it was away from him and her.
As she walked past several buildings, Meredith heard the extremely faint sound of a door shutting far away and Meredith felt her heart close with it.
Quickly stopping and turning around, Meredith turned around and nearly fell over as her balance suddenly tipped itself off the normal scales.
There was no one standing in front of the door to Joe's bar.
With a small sob, Meredith turned away and continued walking.
"I have a thing for ferryboats…" Meredith mumbled absently as the world continued to look blurry and slightly shaky.
He had said that to her, but now she needed to go and see them for herself.
To go and see something that gave her some peace.
They would always remind her of him, but she had liked them before she met him so they were not tainted like everything else that was associated with him.
Meredith slowly made her way along through the streets not passing many people but those she did, did not give her a second glance. To them she had an aura of complete loss of hope, loss in one's self and in life. Someone whom had no meaning in the world anymore.
She did not pay attention to whomever she passed, and eventually she made her way to where she wanted to go.
At the ferry docks, Meredith looked around and saw no ferryboats.
Even though she had known there would be none at this late time, Meredith still couldn't help but feel sad.
"Hmmm…" she mumbled quietly, looking around for a place to sit for tiredness was slowly creeping through her body.
To her right was an empty park bench and Meredith smiled with relief as she quickly made her way and sat down on it.
Only when did she sit down did the world stop spinning and shaking.
Relaxing against the wood, Meredith sighed deeply as she felt her epic sadness wash over her. Mixed with her tiredness, the epic amount of tequila, her inner turmoil, heartbreak and loss of hope and giving up on life, it was a deadly concoction as Meredith lay herself down on the chair and curled up into a ball.
Covering herself up with her coat, Meredith felt warmth slowly flow through her and she shut her eyes.
Clasping her bag to her chest to protect it, Meredith sighed deeply and felt herself give in to the black numbness invading her head and body. Taking her over.
"I hope I never wake up tomorrow…" she mumbled before her body gave out and she finally passed out.
Meredith was beyond the call of being able to hear the thunder clouds rumble in the sky overhead, nor the deafening 'crack' when it finally started. She was beyond being able to see the blinding lighting flash in the sky, covering all of Seattle in a bright flash of light.
Meredith was beyond feeling when the rain started to fall heavily from the sky, soaking her through her clothes and drenching her skin.
She was completely unaware of the wind picking up and beginning to blow a gale, causing the normally calm sea to churn and create monster waves.
These waves crashed against the port with amazing ferocity, growing stronger and larger with every wave that slammed against the cement.
The waves slowly crept up closer and closer to Meredith's unconscious form on the bench and it was when a massive wave slammed directly onto her park bench that it sent Meredith's tiny frame tumbling into the rough ocean and disappearing out of sight.
The ocean claiming another victim.
Or to be more precise…welcoming her back to its watery depths.
A/N: Please review because I am not too sure about this story.