I sat staring at my hands. I couldn't look at him. I didn't know where to start. I had betrayed him, left him, for what he thought was probably forever.

I sat on the sofa waiting for him to say something. "Why Bells?" was all he could come up with. I looked up. He looked like something had died in him. His usual happy-go-lucky demeanour had disappeared. Would he ever trust me again?

I cleared my throat, the tears started again. "Jacob," I started, "I'm sorry." His face just fell. "Sorry Bella. You think sorry is going to make up for you leaving me and chasing after that filthy fucking leech," he yelled, "I trusted you Bella, I thought you were over him."

"I am," I mumbled under the hair curtaining my face, hiding my pain. He stood up and strode heavily towards the door, slamming it behind him. I crawled back up to my room, shaking, crying, broken. Again.

Charlie put his head through the door a while later, "He'll come around Bells, you hurt him so just let him blow off some steam." If only he knew, I'd abandoned my werewolf best friend to chase his mortal enemy, my ex- vampire-boyfriend, halfway across the globe. I missed our adventures in La Push, the bonfires, the boys and mainly Jacob's personality. I'd never seen him snap like he did today.

I decided it was best to stay away from La Push for awhile. I went back into robot mode, school, work, homework, cooking, sleeping. I hadn't heard from Jacob at all. I got home that afternoon to see a black Mercedes in the driveway. Alice. I was dinner for sure, she looked furious. "How could you Isabella?" she snapped, "my brother is gone, and it's your entire fault. Have you any idea what you have done, to Edward, to my family?" I turned my back to her, distraught that after all they had put me through they blamed me. "I don't care Alice," I snapped back, as Charlie pulled up next to the house. He saw Alice and glared. "Leave, NOW!" was all he said. I followed him inside; he put an arm around me. "It'll work out, I'm proud of you honey."

I went to see Emily the next day. She looked as disappointed as Jacob had, yet worried at the same time. "Bella," she nodded at me, "I think you have some explaining to do." I followed her into the lounge, and sat on the floor by the fire. I told her what had happened, before Alice whisked me away, when I saw Edward again, and what happened with Jake. She put a sympathetic hand on my shoulder as I cried through the pain of hurt Jake again. "You need to talk to him," she whispered, "tell him what you told me. He will always love you; you just broke his trust, and probably his heart" I nodded against her, "what if he doesn't listen?" I asked her. "Maybe writing it down might be easier, you like reading right?" she asked, I nodded again. "Explain it to him. It won't be easy, but don't give up." We sat in silence for awhile. I heard noise out the back, deciding that was my cue to leave. "Be strong Bella," Emily patted me on the shoulder.

I drove back to Forks, crying the whole way. I wrote Jacob a tear stained letter as soon as I got home, trying to explain everything in my head to him. I knew I had made the right decision, leaving Edward in Italy, but what if Jacob never forgives me. I finished the note, before putting it into a snap lock bag and driving back to La Push. I got out when I got there, walking into the garage. I knew Jake would have heard me arrive. He wasn't in the garage so I put the note on his toolbox and sat there for awhile, reminiscing, missing the old times, when it was easy, just Jake and Bella.