A/N
Might be a lot of errors, I can't still cause it's early/late. Point them out and I'll change it.

Discalmer: I do not own FFXII or any of its characters.

In Sleep-Lissie

The room is dark, the only light coming from the crystal pillar holding up my former home. The temperature has raised to a comfortable;e climate, yet I still feel cold, freezing even. My mind is racing a mile a minute, but my body is completely still. I turn my head to look out the window, out at the pillar. 'Please just let me go to sleep' I begged my thoughts to rest, to sleep, to let me see her face again. I don't want to face the morning light without having said the words I could never voice face to face.

I hear the wood outside my door crack, as Serah's added weight headed towards her room, pausing for a moment by my door. Panic lit every nerve in my body at the thought of my sister seeing me this way. Serah saw me as her older sister, the provider, the work. Serah doesn;t know that, at night, Claire protests. Claire protests for Lightning to let her walls down, to let her mind rest.

But right now, it wasn't Claire nor Lightning, it was a lover missing her mate.

I let out the breath I wasn't aware I was holding. Taking one last glance at the crystal coffin, I close my eyes, finally able to feel sleep knocking on my door. I reach for the handle without a second thought, thankful to be relieved of the torture of consciousness.

The spring breeze blew the tall grass, creating a soft whistle. The sun was bright, forcing me to turn to escape its rays. Instead, I could feel the sun bore into the naked flesh of my back, warming me to the core. A small smile fell upon my lips, remembering the moment before and the one that follows.

"Awake already, Sunshin'?" The accented melody reached my ears, setting my body ablaze.

I turned to face the Pulsian beauty. Clad in only her black top and shorts, Fang sat at the base of a tree. She chuckled causing my eyebrows to raise curiously. "It's nothin' love, jus' trying to figure out why you keep dreaming of this place." She stood then, locking eyes with me as he made her way over. I sat up, using the makeshift blanket to cover myself, not like she hasn't seen me before. "Well, that's because this place reminds me of home." I answered as she took residence in the spot next to me.

I watched her as she rested back on her hands, looking up at the sky. "Or is it cause it's the first time we were together?" I heard Fang say through her smirk. I couldn't help but to roll my head forward to release the tension there. I hear Fang sigh, calling for my attention. "How long has-"

"Fang..."

"No Light, I need to know. How long?" Fang reached for my hands and looked in my eyes, begging. I took a deep breath, exhaling through my mouth.

"Two years."

She looked surprised. I looked away from her, taking my hands back and wrapping my arms around myself. Fang pulled me closer, placing a hand on my cheek. I glance at her lips, wanting to break the intensity of our stare. I felt my throat tightening, though no tears dare to fall, I knew she knew I was crying. I wrapped my arms around her neck, bringing her face just inches away from my own, feeling her breath on my lips from her parted ones. I can feel her heart racing, as much as I want this moment to last, we both know sleep will be over soon.

"But until then, let's make this moment last."

I laid there, wide awake, watching her chest raise and fall. I feel fresh tears land on my hand, like they do every time I watch Fang sleep. I force myself to stay awake, to stay with her. Please just stay awake a little longer. I think to myself. She stirs and turns to face me,

"Claire?" I open my mouth to speak, but it's futile. She slowly opens her eyes before speaking again,

"Claire, wake up."

I'm shocked. I flinch when her hand falls on my shoulder. "What? No. No, Fang, don't leave, you can't." I subconsciously curl into myself, like the fetal position. Fang starts to shake me, asking if I'm okay. I can't stop the tears from falling if I tried. I feel like I'm being choked, causing me to inhale sharply. I can't believe this. I think while shaking my head. "Don't leave me." I say, desperately.

"Claire, what's wrong?" She asks again, her voice filled with concern.

She continues to shake me as my body starts to grow numb. Dammit. My eye lids feel heavy. No matter how much I trained as a soldier, sleep is envitable, waking is envitable. "J-just don't leave me alone." I blink, slowly opening my eyes. I watch her smile, her eyes sparkle. "I'm only a dream away, Sunshin'."

I smile at that, knowing that it was true. I close my eyes, feeling a pull to resurface, to awake. I try to open my eyes but I can't.

"Please, not yet...J-just wait!"

"Wait for what, Claire?" I snap my eyes open instantly locking with identical crystal blue's.

"Serah?" I ask, hesitantly. I can see the concern written over her face.

"Claire, what's wrong? Why are you crying?" She reaches to wipe the tears away, the evidence of my pain.

I feel my walls crumble, as the tears start again. "I can't do this anymore." I choke out. She pulls me into a hug and I cry on her shoulder. I clinch the front of her shirt, sobs racking through my being. "I miss her so much." I say into her shoulder.

Serah rubs my head soothingly, just like our mother used to before she died. "Shh, shh. Light, It;s okay. You're okay. I feel anger seep through my blood. It's not okay. She's gone.

"She's gone..." I feel Serah tense at my words. I know she knows. Everyone knew. We stay like this until I feel my walls reconstruct, until Lightning returns.

"Claire?"

"Hm?"

"Tell me about her." I stiffen to her demand. Just like sleep, this was the envitable.

I lay back on the bed, Serah soon followed. I chuckle at the irony, "Where do I begin?" I turn towards her, smiling. I feel relieved, finally opening up to my sister. She looks at me, having a smile of her own. "The beginning would be nice." She says, hopefulness laced throughout her words.

I take a deep breath, reliving every moment, good or bad. Soon, I tell everything.

No.

Claire tells her everything.

From the glances to the last touch. We both sat there for hours, laughing and crying. I tell her everything I know about Fang, everything Fang told me. I tell her how much it hurts, her not being here. How selfish I want to be. How hopeless I feel.

I tell her how much I love her.

We're both curled on my bed, sleep overcoming my senses once again. "Claire?"

"Hm?" I nod my head, letting her know I'm listening.

"We'll find a way to get her out, don't worry; But, can you do something for me?"

"Yes?" I ask with wonder.

"Tell Fang thank you." I smile, knowing the meaning behind the message.

"I will, Serah. I will." I let sleep consume me, pulling me to an unseen world, to my memories, to my future.

Let sleep pull me to Oerba Yun Fang.