TITLE: Someone I used to know

SUMMARY: SasuSaku AU- Because I love you. It's dumb but it's true.

DISOWNER: I do not own Naruto. Just the plot. (:

- x ihatemarkers x-

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"Sasuke-kun."

"Hn."

"I love you."

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Chapter 2:

Ring. Ring. Ring.

'Hello?'

'Ino, hey. I need a ride. Can you pick me up here outside Port Cafe? Please?' My voiced sounded stressed enough. So stressed that I felt like fainting anytime. I know Ino would've asked me loads of questions by now. But I think she knows from the sound of my voice that it didn't go well.

'I'll be there. Give me five minutes.'

'Alright. Thanks.'

I hung up the phone.

'Because I am.'

'What? What's that supposed to mean?'

'Dad called earlier. He's in the States. And he said he wanted me to be there. He said he thinks I'm ready. So... Maybe after I graduate, I'm going.'

'Oh.' It sounded more hurt than I supposed. 'I-'

'Sakura, it's not like I'm going to be gone forever. Just three years. And I'll be here again. And maybe,' he held my cold hands with his warm ones,

'Maybe, what?'

'Maybe by that time, we could get to be together again. And I mean it in the marriage-kind-of way.'

He sounded so sure and at the same time, surreal. Marriage. He's asking me, to get married after three years.

But I'm pregnant. Now.

Clearly, I do not know what I should do. My feet are getting cold and so are my hands.

I can't breathe properly.

Should I tell him the truth?

Or just keep quiet and tell him to go.

Because I know how Sasuke wanted this so much- his father's approval. And I don't know if I could take it to see him crushing if he'd know about this.

'I need to go.' I stood up and he looked at me with a clearly worried face. 'I'm not mad. I just need some break.' I said in defense.

I walked away, enabling him to say anything to do anything.

But It's true, I am not mad. I am just feeling completely confused.

It' been five days since I've last spoken to Sasuke. Rephrasing, it's been five days since I haven't spoke a word to Sasuke. Because he's been constantly leaving me messages and I have been constantly avoiding it. I just left him one saying, 'Hey, it's me. Listen, my exams are coming up so you know the rule. I'll see you next week.' And in a bit tiny voice I said, 'I love you.'

The thought of Sasuke making an effort and doing his way of saying sorry is so adorable, that at times I tend to forget what I'm supposed to be remembering.

It would be a lie to say that I'm perfectly okay with everything. Because I'm not. I feel like I screwed up my tests. And I feel terribly screwed up inside out. I know I should tell some adult like say, my mom, but I don't know how. Or maybe, I do not know what's the right thing to do.

Or the wise thing to do.

I keep getting hungry a lot these days. So I shrugged off the deep thinking for a while and went to the kitchen and cooked some egg. I know I gained weight. And I should know this is pretty normal since I'm a med student. I'm not only feeding myself because I now have another person inside me.

Ino hasn't been home in a few days due to some rush projects she's doing with Sai. But she's been constantly calling me to check up on me. I smile every time she asks me if I already ate or tells me to get an early bed rest because back then, I've always been the mature one- the big sister one. And now with the baby, the blabber-mouth party-girl Ino is acting all mighty big sister. The thought just amused me.

I heard someone opened the door. That's probably her.

'Hey, Forehead.' She said as she sat down with me on the couch.

'Hi Pig, how's the project?' I smiled. I could see circles around her eyes.

'Haven't got any actual sleep for the past three days. But it's done. I'll let you see the pictures later of what we did. Seriously, with all fair glory judgment, it was awesome!' She said so excitedly.

'What were you doing again?' I narrowed my eyes. Ino had so many projects that needs for her to do some overnight at someone else's that I can't remember everything.

'We did a scale model of the Nakagin Capsule, stupid forehead.' She stuck her tongue out. 'I can't believe I mentioned that like, a hundred times, and you weren't even listening.'

'I suppose I'm sorry.' I laughed. And she did. Oh right, a scale model. Ino is an architecture student. One project of hers is on our cupboard- a scale model of Burj Al-Arab.

'So how're you holding up?' She asked and I saw her pretty blue eyes full of worries.

'Alright, I guess. Morning sickness getting worse, terribly gaining weight and always hungry, almost always.' I tried to lighten up the sullen mood. She just smiled, almost smiled.

'Now what?' Ino looked at me with just sympathizing eyes that makes me want to curdle and cry.

'I can't tell him, Ino.'

Tears are starting to rain from my eyes. My heart, it's crushed from thousands to millions of pieces. My head is spinning and I don't know what to think, don't know what to choose. My body is numb.

I feel helpless.

I don't know what hurts more- to see Sasuke crushed if he knows about the whole thing or to let him go and not even tell him that he's the father of the little thing in my womb.

Sasuke. He' always been feeling like he's the shadow of his brother. Itachi who had everything. Itachi who had always been smart and charismatic. Itachi who had always been their father's pride and joy.

I've always known how he's hurting by that. Though I know he's been hiding it good enough to others. But it wasn't good enough for me because I know that he also wanted to be acknowledge by his father. I know because I saw it when his eyes almost sparkled when he told me the big news. I know because when he said it, his voice was clearly excited.

So now, I think I know what should I do.

Whatever I choose, it would still hurt me. And the other option could hurt us both like hell. And...

I love Sasuke.

I love him and I don't know what might happen but I don't want to see his whole future crushed because of me. I can't be his disappointed. But I can't be his strength either. Because the next time I'm going to see him,

'I'm going to break up with him.' I told Ino and I felt her jaw dropped a bit. And I know it wasn't because she thought I was awesome or the whole idea itself.

'That's stupid, Forehead. And you know it!' Her voice now an octave higher.

'But it's the only thing I can do for him.' I cried. 'As much as it hurts, I don't want to be the one crushing his future!'

'Then what about yours? What about the baby's?'

'I-, We... We'll be fine.'

'Sakura. You know it's not fair for you and the child!'

'I know.. But Sasuke- this is something he's always wanted his whole life.'

'I don't like it.' Ino said darkly. And I've got a hunch that she' going to do something.

'Don't tell him, Ino. Please. Please...' I begged.

'Sak...'

'I know it's stupid. No, it's beyond stupidity.' I scoffed.

'But I love him, Ino.'

'And he loves you, too, right? So maybe, if you tell him-'

'Okay. We are not having this conversation anymore. I can't. I just can't. He wants this. And i want this for him. And I'm going to be fine. I will have the baby. And I'll finish Med school.'

'Then what?'

'I'm not sure. I don't know, yet.'

I heard my phone ringing. It's Sasuke.

'Take it.' Ino ordered. I agreed.

'Hey.'

'Sakura, can I talk to you?' His voice sounded so worried despite the cool demeanor. And at times like this, I've always found him really cute. Because I know he wants to make up.

'Sure.' I think I sounded normal. Thank Heavens.

'So can you open you're front door for me?' I signaled at Ino and mouthed, 'He's outside.' and she mouthed back, 'I'll leave when he comes in.'

I hung up the phone and hurriedly open the door.

'Ice cream and chocolates.' He handed it to me. I blushed and smiled at his cuteness. I almost forgot that today I'll break up with him.

'Come on in.' I continued to smile.

I heard Ino took her car keys and said, 'I think that is my cue. I'll see you later guys. Sakura, I'll be at Sai's place.'

'Okay.'

'Bye, Ino.'

And the door was shut.

'I don't want you to take this in a different way,' I said, 'but you do know that we are to see each other officially next week, right?'

'I don't know if I'm taking this in any way you want me to, but if you're asking me kindly to leave, I won't.' He backfired 'And besides, it's Friday.' He said with plainly. Not even one smirk. It's terrifying.

'Yeah, it's Friday.' I really got nothing to say to that.

'So,' He started. 'About the thing last time at Port Cafe where you just bailed out on me,' He black orbs were focused on my green ones, ' What was that all about?' he asked with a voice so scornfully confused.

'I... Just. I just felt really depressed about it, I guess.'

'Normally when you're depressed or upset over something that I've done, you'd babble about it the whole time until everything's out.'

I sat on the couch. He followed.

And my mind is spinning. That, Sasuke, was because I wanted to tell you that I'm pregnant and the only person with the highest probability to be the father of the baby in my womb right now, is you.

If only I could tell it to him like that. If only.

There was a long pause and I know he was waiting for me to say something.

'We need to break up.' I finally managed.

author's notes:

- Italicized words are flashbacks.

Yipee my first fanfic with a second chapter! Probably the first one as well with a third. :) reviews guys?

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