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i just want to thank everyone for the reviews and for following it. As some of you have asked about the characters i will only bring them into the story if necessary other than that its mostly Klaroline and Stebekah for now.

As for this chapter i was having trouble writing it and this is what i came up with it.

It should have frightened her, but then again, nothing frightened her anymore. She was incapable of any emotion but pain. She was sitting in front of the fire place with a bottle of Jack Daniels. She was numb, wondering if this is what it felt to shut off her humanity.

It felt like someone had ripped out half of her and left her to bleed to death alone.

She looked down at herself seeing blood.

'Her mother's blood'

She was in shock again, the pain having turned into a numb sensation. It felt as if she was staring at herself in a limbo state .

She knew that she hadn't turned it off, this was a human reaction.

Strangely, she was glad. She couldn't turn it off. She couldn't turn into Elena.

She had to stay strong. For Her Mother. Her mother deserved her to make her proud by getting through it like the daughter she raised.

But for now she was going to mourn her mom. She sighed, lifted the bottle and chugged as much as she could. She could feel everyone's eyes on her, waiting for her to break down or something.

Stefan, Rebekah and Damon sat there hopeless, unable to comfort her. Stefan knew she would talk when she felt ready, but he still worried. He was wondering if asking for Klaus would be a good idea. Tyler's topic was still fresh to her. Damon didn't know what to say he knew anything he said she would ignore, given their history. Rebekah wanted to snap her out of the trance she was in , it actually pained her to see her so broken.

Klaus entered the living room and they all turned to him. His gaze only on the broken Angel in front of her. She looked fractured he light so dimmed it barely flickered. He felt something tug at his undead heart. It pained him seeing her like this. Klaus sighed because he hated seeing his ray of light so heartbroken. Her face was tear streaked and her eyeliner was beginning to smudge.

Walking towards her he stopped catching Rebekah's gaze in warning, she looked genuinely concerned. Stefan simply shook his head, Damon looked away in guilt. Ignoring them he walked over and sat next to her.

"Sweetheart" he said in the softest voice. Nothing. "Caroline love, lets get you rid of these clothes into something cleaner." She didn't move she simply stared at the fireplace. He sighed, he was just going to carry her to a room he though. He was kneeling next to her attempting to lift her.

"No." She said in a vacant emotionless voice. It was cracked like she had been screaming all day. He didn't want to give up so he simply sat in the arm chair closest to her.

They stayed there for what felt like hours.

Caroline feeling a moment of clarity , took the bottle and chugged the rest of it giving her the stinging in her throat.

She couldn't turn it off. She wouldn't.

'Because it's not like you.' She closed her eyes picturing her mother's sweet Motherly voice telling her.

Shakily getting up on her legs she swore to herself that she wouldn't turn it off, never, no matter what was to come.

In the long run she would be able to cope.

She wouldn't spoil the memory of her mom by turning into a monster. She watched herself take steps forward. She didn't even feel her legs. She was drunk.

Klaus was about to go to her when Rebekah stepped in giving him a 'I can handle it' look.

"Come now, we best get you into a shower clean you off and then you get some sleep" Rebekah said with a warm smile.

Caroline looked up at her with confusion and gratitude , and simply looked away and let her walk her up. While Rebekah helped her shower and get cleaned up. She walked into Stefan's bedroom and pulled a few things out of each drawer, making a pile for her on the bathroom counter. It wasn't exactly in Rebekah's nature to take care of someone. She had spent most of her formative years caring for Henrik, but that was many lifetimes ago. She was not a timid little girl anymore, but there was something so completely helpless about Caroline's current state that she couldn't resist. She knew all too well what it was like to lose her mother. She had done it too many times now, but the first had been the most painful and she had been about Caroline's age at the time. She knew no matter how prepared or well-versed in death one could be, losing a parent was a different experience altogether.

"Will someone let me know what in the bloody hell happened here, why would the doppelganger kill her best friend's mother? What happened tonight" Klaus asked turning towards Stefan.

"Tonight?" he scoffed, "try all today." He shook his head at his own stupidity. Surely today had been bad, but he didn't realize how bad it would end.

"During their cheerleading competition, Elena purposefully stepped back and didn't catch Caroline, after she was thrown. She probably broke something when she hit the ground" Stefan frowned and looked down, "god I'm an idiot," he murmured.

"And no one cared to check?" Klaus asked appalled that no one had come to Caroline's aid when she was hurt. He leaned against the table and crossed his arms across his chest. He listened in upstairs as he heard the water start running. He looked back at Stefan who looked like he was beating himself up about this. Good, someone should've been there for Caroline. He really should've been beating himself up though. He was the one who was too busy trying to get answers out of Hayley today to check in on Caroline. But she couldn't really blame him for that, she had time and time again turned him down. Laughed or scoffed off his advances or attempts at romancing her.

"Elena was out of control, feeding on the competition and trying to prove she was still better than Caroline at everything" Stefan said grabbing the bottle of bourbon off the table, and pouring a generous amount into a glass. He raised the bottle to Klaus in offering.

Klaus shook his head no.

"Elena ran out of there and I ran after her, leaving Caroline to pick herself up again" Stefan stated, continuing to shake his head at his own stupidity.

"Why she remains loyal to you lot is beyond me, she seems to always be collateral damage," Klaus scoffed and then did grab the bottle Stefan had offered him. He ignored the glasses and drank straight from the bottle.

"I brought Elena back here to give a chance to calm down but all she did was invite everyone for a party, I called Caroline to shut it down but we ended up having fun and dancing, Elena came over saying how good we look together and she seemed not to like that, we then heard Elena and the sheriff arguing we tried to get there as fast as we could but we were to late." Stefan said grimly.

They heard someone walking down the stairs they both looked up to see Rebekah.

"How is she doing?" asked Stefan, remaining stoic. He had not been as close to Liz as Caroline, but the woman had allowed him to live there and treated him like her own child for the last month, even if he didn't always like it.

"Barely responsive," Rebekah said, folding her arms over her chest as she leaned into the nearby wall. "She's in the shower right now. She hasn't said two words that weren't prompted and coaxed out of her.

"She didn't need this. The loss of her father is still fresh." Stefan said.

"It sounds like she is out of the shower I let her know I was coming downstairs and if she wanted she could come down or if she preferred she could be left alone." She said.

"I think we should leave Nik, come back tomorrow she needs to be alone." Klaus nodded and followed Rebekah out.

Caroline heard them leave and walked downstairs and sat in the sofa, Stefan went to go sit with her.

"I want to go home" she told him "Okay ill stay with you just so you know someone is there with you and your not completely alone okay" Stefan smiled at her.

Down at the cellar Damon was watching Elena laugh at tonight's events.

"She thinks she's better than me because she has so much self control, shes pathetic"she laughed.

" I thought by teaching her a lesson she would shut up and mind her own business, will she never learn she's always going to be second best to me, Elena Gilbert. She's nothing but a shallow stupid blonde nothing else. That is how its been all our lives why would our undead life be any different." She was so consumed by her blabbing she didn't notice Damon there until he spoke up.

"You really have no remorse in what you did tonight Elena, you killed her mother, an innocent person" He said shocked.

"She was going to shut down the party, she got what I thought would be fit for her." she shrugged.

'What have I done' Damon thought to himself as he walked away.

When they arrived Stefan was preparing the sofa feeling like Dejavu expecting the sheriff to come home any minute. Caroline was in the arm chair staring at a picture of her mom her and her dad.

"I think I'm going to lay down," Caroline spoke quietly, standing from the couch. She headed up the stairs and took a right, walking past her own room and into her mother's room. She was trying to hold it together, but she wasn't sure what that meant. Most of the time Caroline was trying to be strong, trying to prove to the world that she wasn't that fragile little girl they tried to make her out to be, but she wasn't sure she knew how to be strong anymore. So she went where she felt safe. Like she used to when she was a little girl, she crawled into her mother's bed and pulled her pillow to her chest and fell asleep.

Stefan woke up with a knock. He got up and could see who it was.

"Morning Stefan, im here to see how Caroline is doing this morning, also Damon let me know he called Meredith to take care of Sheriff Forbes's body." Said Rebekah.

Stefan was shocked to see her here and was going to reply with a snarky remark but saw the genuine concern she was showing.

"Uhhh well thanks I'll go up and see if she's up already, come on in." he picked up the pillow and blankets and headed to Care's room.

"Care are you up" he knocked again. "Care I know you don't want to do this but there are things we need to prepare for your mom." He heard some movement in Liz's room and figured where Care was.

"Hey" her voice was hoarse and barely a whisper

"You don't have to worry about anything me and Rebekah could take care of everything just let me know what you want" That's the least he could do for her after everything she has done for him.

"Can everything be prepared by Saturday please?" she thought the sooner the better she could start mourning and trying to come to terms her mom is dead.

"Of course is there anything else you need to take care of ?" He was glad she was at least talking and letting him take care of things for her

"Yes actually, if you could call Bonnie's dad Major Lockwood had my Mother's will I'm guessing he might have it, can you have him come here please?" she wasn't going to let him do everything but she was glad she had him and she guessed Rebekah aswell.

"Ok I'll call you and let you know what time he will be here." He hugged her and went to get ready for the day.

After he left and called Bonnie's dad and let him know of the situation and called Caroline to let her know when to expect him.

"Why are you being nice to her, you guys never got along and you don't like that your brother has an interest for her." Stefan asked Rebekah

"I don't hate her, I hated what she had, Family, Friends, Love. Those are things I always wanted in life and never got and when I did we had to run and Nik made you forget me, so she just reminded me of all the things I was deprived of" She said.

"Oh" He didn't know what to say to that, he always felt something was missing even when he was with Elena, until Klaus gave him back his memory he felt a missing puzzle come to place but he always thought it was because he couldn't remember all of the 20's."Well she wasn't given what she had she worked for it Care is a perfectionist and an overachiever, and as for love it hasn't always been an easy path for her, what im trying to say is not everything is as it seems like." He wanted to tell her that she just had to work hard to get the things she wanted in life but now wasn't the time for that.

"Your right a lot of things are not what they seem like Stefan." She wondered if one day he might love her like he once did.

They got to the morgue and made preparations for the funeral that was being held on Saturday.

Meanwhile Caroline was at home signing some paperwork and letting the Mayor know the funeral will be held that Saturday.

"Was that everything that needed to be taken care of? Any other paperwork that I might need to sign or legal papers to go over? She asked the Lawyer while he was leaving

"No that pretty much covers everything, if anything comes up ill give you a ring, again I'm sorry for your loss." The lawyer said walking out the door.

She turned around and noticed Bonnie's dad was still in the living room.

"Caroline I'm truly sorry for what your going through Liz didn't deserve this, I know you have a lot going on but I have a letter here that I found in Bonnie's room directed to you." He told her handing her the sealed letter.

"What do you mean where is Bonnie?" She needed Bonnie more than ever and couldn't help but feel lonelier as time passed.

"I honestly have no clue, that professor has her trying to control her Expression but im afraid that something entirely different is going on, im worried for her." The Major confessed his worries for his daughter.

"I'm guessing it's spelled since it looks sealed, so it might be only for your eyes but im asking you that if she is in danger you let me know, I'll get going im sure you need time alone" He told her as he stood up walking towards the door.

"I will let you know as soon as possible if I need too, we haven't had the best communication lately with everything that's been happening." she assured him.

"I appreciate it Caroline and again I'm sorry about your mom" He said walking out her house.

She wasn't sure if she wanted to know what the letter said or not. What if was a goodbye letter, she couldn't handle anymore goodbyes right now. Getting over with she picked up the letter and it opened automatically.

Dear Care,

I do not have much time. But you must know that I am working with Silas. I can't stop it. Every day I feel less like myself. He has my mind. I can't help it. I feel I'm going insane. So I'm writing you this letter before I'm completely lost.

Silas is preparing the third and final massacre. It will happen 2 nights before prom. 12 witches will be necessary. And I will have enough power to neutralize them and make the sacrifice. I have access to the spirits, they said they can only do one thing on the other side to help me: achieve a gap in my powers during the sacrifice. It will be enough for you to do what is needed.

Caroline, I want you to kill me if its necessary. You need to prevent the sacrifice from happening. After you need to kill Silas he can get another witch to possess with Expression and drop the veil .Again you need to prevent the sacrifice, whatever it is you do i wont hold it against you.

The place is near that region we used to play as children in the woods.

p.s Please don't tell anyone until after the sacrifice has been prevented

I love you my dear friend, Bonnie

Caroline was sobbing, how could she kill Bonnie she couldn't do it. She wasn't Elena, she wasn't heartless. Bonnie is her best friend, they grew up together, their bond was bigger than it was with Elena.

Caroline needed to figure out what she was going to do. One thing was for sure she will not kill her friend.

i hope you enjoyed the chapter let me know what you think R&R, I still havent decided what im going to do with Bonnie but i already decided Caroline's decision. What do you think will happen?