Kurai Yume's note- Finally an update ^-^ This chapter is for all those who
reviewed! Well the song in here is not mine, it belongs to Luther Vandross
"Dance with my father" See you at the bottom!
~*~ A Gloomy Morning~*~
"Fay, honey, are you ready?" came Lei Fang's voice.
"Almost Mommy," the little girl replied as she slipped on her black school shoes and admired them. "Okay, all done." Lei Fang smiled at her little girl as she fixed her pigtails. "Come on Mommy, we're going to be late," the young Chinese girl urged as she put on her little backpack.
"Okay, okay, let's go birthday girl," Lei Fang picked up Fay and placed her in the car. "First thing?"
"Umm, seatbelts," Fay answered, buckling hers together. Lei Fang started the car and pulled out of the driveway. As usual Fay turned the radio to her favorite station and sang along with whatever song that was on as they droved down the couple of blocks to her school. An unexpected song came on the radio, Lei Fang never heard of it, but Fay knew all the words to it as if she was making it up on her own. Lei Fang drove listening to her little girl sing as the melody commence.
"Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance
With my mother and me and then
Spin me around 'til I fell asleep
Then up the stair he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved"
"If I can get another chance, another walk
Another dance with him
I would play a song that would never, ever end
How'd I would love, love, love
To dance with my father again"
"When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He'd made me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
He left a dollar on my sheet
Never dreamed he would be gone from me"
"If I could steal one final glance, one final step,
One final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again"
"Sometime I'd listen outside her door
And I hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more then me
I pray for her even more then me."
"I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But lord she's dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream..."
Lei Fang parked the car as the song ended. Her eyes were building up tears, she looked at the steering wheel, as she blinked them back. Fay's eyes were elsewhere. She stared out of the window, watching other kids walking with their moms and dads as her window slowly fogged up.
"Mommy...? Why do other kids have moms and dads?" She looked down to her lap then to her mother. "Where's mine?" her voice came out frail as a saddened glaze of tears gleamed in the corner of her brown eyes. Lei Fang looked at her daughter, not knowing what to tell her as they sat in silence.
"Your daddy..." Lei Fang began, "H-he died...a few months right after you were born," she explained as she found herself lost in lies. Lei Fang watched helplessly as the tears overflowed her daughter's eyes.
"That's not fair, why did it have to happen...to mine?" her words came out in a squeak. Lei Fang leaned over and embrace her daughter.
"Shh... It's okay sweetie.it's okay. I'm sure that...daddy is watching over you and he...misses you a lot," Lei Fang whispered to her daughter. She revealed her daughter's sadden angelic face as she lifted Fay's chin with her index finger. Fay's teary eyes and lips quivered as the river of tears continued down her cheeks. "Come on honey.today is your special day..." Lei Fang reassured her daughter, but she still continued crying. Lei Fang held her daughter's face gently with her hands. "Don't cry...daddy won't like it to see you sad...be strong for daddy...he would want you to be happy," Lei Fang wiped the tears from Fay's eyes with her thumbs. After a few minutes pasted by, her sobs died down along with her tears.
"I will be strong for daddy," Fay whispered back.
"Your class is about to start." Lei Fang slowly changed the subject, "Today you will have to ride the bus home, okay?"
"Okay Mommy," she turned to the door. Lei Fang grabbed her daughter's hand.
"Before you go, can you give me a smile?" Lei Fang smiled at her daughter, hoping for Fay to return one, but she stared blankly at her mother and only let out a weak smile. "Come on, I know you can do better then that!" Lei Fang lifted her daughter as she tickled her, forcing her to laugh uncontrollably.
"Okay Mommy." Fay's words were lost in her laugh, "Here," Fay giggled as she surrendered her greatest smile. "Can I go now?" Fay beamed.
"Yeah, you can go," Lei Fang hugged her little girl and kissed her on the cheek.
"Bye Mommy!" Fay waved as she dashed to class. Lei Fang watched as her daughter disappeared behind the doors.
Everything seemed to be all right again, but her heart still throbbed with pain. She breathed in slowly as her heart sunk. 'What have I done...why did I tell her all of these lies.how am I suppose to explain to her the truth when she's older?" Lei Fang thought solemnly, as her heart began to fill with guilt and her eyes with tears and bits of anger.
Kurai Yume's note- Konnichiwa again! Well sorry for the long wait and for a short chapter, but I'm almost done with the next chappy already. So I'll be up with another chapter in a week or so. Please review, I appreciate them, they motivate me to update quicker. Here's the people I wanna thank:
Masked Rider Black - Thank you so much! You were my first reviewer and I'm sorry I stopped on your favorite scene ^^
Cookie6 - I'm glad you like it! Thanks for reviewing.
Death Angels -You said that you really wanted an update and here it was, how did you like it?
Agony of Separation - Heylo Utada, you're the best! And thanks for all the help! Ai shiteru! Congrats on your pregnancy!
kimetara- Thank you so much to beta read this chapter in a such short notice, since my other beta reader is busy right now. . I mite need you for my other chapters. Thank you again!! Ai shiteru!
~*~ A Gloomy Morning~*~
"Fay, honey, are you ready?" came Lei Fang's voice.
"Almost Mommy," the little girl replied as she slipped on her black school shoes and admired them. "Okay, all done." Lei Fang smiled at her little girl as she fixed her pigtails. "Come on Mommy, we're going to be late," the young Chinese girl urged as she put on her little backpack.
"Okay, okay, let's go birthday girl," Lei Fang picked up Fay and placed her in the car. "First thing?"
"Umm, seatbelts," Fay answered, buckling hers together. Lei Fang started the car and pulled out of the driveway. As usual Fay turned the radio to her favorite station and sang along with whatever song that was on as they droved down the couple of blocks to her school. An unexpected song came on the radio, Lei Fang never heard of it, but Fay knew all the words to it as if she was making it up on her own. Lei Fang drove listening to her little girl sing as the melody commence.
"Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance
With my mother and me and then
Spin me around 'til I fell asleep
Then up the stair he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved"
"If I can get another chance, another walk
Another dance with him
I would play a song that would never, ever end
How'd I would love, love, love
To dance with my father again"
"When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He'd made me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
He left a dollar on my sheet
Never dreamed he would be gone from me"
"If I could steal one final glance, one final step,
One final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again"
"Sometime I'd listen outside her door
And I hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more then me
I pray for her even more then me."
"I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But lord she's dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream..."
Lei Fang parked the car as the song ended. Her eyes were building up tears, she looked at the steering wheel, as she blinked them back. Fay's eyes were elsewhere. She stared out of the window, watching other kids walking with their moms and dads as her window slowly fogged up.
"Mommy...? Why do other kids have moms and dads?" She looked down to her lap then to her mother. "Where's mine?" her voice came out frail as a saddened glaze of tears gleamed in the corner of her brown eyes. Lei Fang looked at her daughter, not knowing what to tell her as they sat in silence.
"Your daddy..." Lei Fang began, "H-he died...a few months right after you were born," she explained as she found herself lost in lies. Lei Fang watched helplessly as the tears overflowed her daughter's eyes.
"That's not fair, why did it have to happen...to mine?" her words came out in a squeak. Lei Fang leaned over and embrace her daughter.
"Shh... It's okay sweetie.it's okay. I'm sure that...daddy is watching over you and he...misses you a lot," Lei Fang whispered to her daughter. She revealed her daughter's sadden angelic face as she lifted Fay's chin with her index finger. Fay's teary eyes and lips quivered as the river of tears continued down her cheeks. "Come on honey.today is your special day..." Lei Fang reassured her daughter, but she still continued crying. Lei Fang held her daughter's face gently with her hands. "Don't cry...daddy won't like it to see you sad...be strong for daddy...he would want you to be happy," Lei Fang wiped the tears from Fay's eyes with her thumbs. After a few minutes pasted by, her sobs died down along with her tears.
"I will be strong for daddy," Fay whispered back.
"Your class is about to start." Lei Fang slowly changed the subject, "Today you will have to ride the bus home, okay?"
"Okay Mommy," she turned to the door. Lei Fang grabbed her daughter's hand.
"Before you go, can you give me a smile?" Lei Fang smiled at her daughter, hoping for Fay to return one, but she stared blankly at her mother and only let out a weak smile. "Come on, I know you can do better then that!" Lei Fang lifted her daughter as she tickled her, forcing her to laugh uncontrollably.
"Okay Mommy." Fay's words were lost in her laugh, "Here," Fay giggled as she surrendered her greatest smile. "Can I go now?" Fay beamed.
"Yeah, you can go," Lei Fang hugged her little girl and kissed her on the cheek.
"Bye Mommy!" Fay waved as she dashed to class. Lei Fang watched as her daughter disappeared behind the doors.
Everything seemed to be all right again, but her heart still throbbed with pain. She breathed in slowly as her heart sunk. 'What have I done...why did I tell her all of these lies.how am I suppose to explain to her the truth when she's older?" Lei Fang thought solemnly, as her heart began to fill with guilt and her eyes with tears and bits of anger.
Kurai Yume's note- Konnichiwa again! Well sorry for the long wait and for a short chapter, but I'm almost done with the next chappy already. So I'll be up with another chapter in a week or so. Please review, I appreciate them, they motivate me to update quicker. Here's the people I wanna thank:
Masked Rider Black - Thank you so much! You were my first reviewer and I'm sorry I stopped on your favorite scene ^^
Cookie6 - I'm glad you like it! Thanks for reviewing.
Death Angels -You said that you really wanted an update and here it was, how did you like it?
Agony of Separation - Heylo Utada, you're the best! And thanks for all the help! Ai shiteru! Congrats on your pregnancy!
kimetara- Thank you so much to beta read this chapter in a such short notice, since my other beta reader is busy right now. . I mite need you for my other chapters. Thank you again!! Ai shiteru!