This chapter will have a tiny bit of M-rated action. There is, depending on how you look at it, some angst too... But not much. If you ask why it late, I change my mind so I rewrite all of it again! And because of that I hope all kids...if you below 18 get out please...my show is not suitable for you ^^
And I have to thanks xPrime for editing and lemon boost XD
Enjoy the show!
Disclaimer : I do not own D. Gray-Man if I did...Kanda and Allen will be faaaaaaaaar moooooore girlish than they did...
warning: OOCness and some lemon
Edited by xPrime
Chapter 2: Pleasure in panic
'What should I do?! What should I do!' Is the thought that dominated my mind the moment I heard that gentle voice. Pathetic really, the voice that always puts me at ease even in the worst situations in battlefield, is now sending me into a panic attack. I should calm down, okay…good girl…take a deep breath. Good…slow down that insane heartbeat…It's only Allen after all; he probably just wants a towel or something...asking for direction to his room...
...and the Earl may secretly be the Easter bunny.
"Okay, I can do this" I'm really starting to overdo it.
"Lenalee, are you okay?" I would've been a lot better if you hadn't decided to pay me a visit at this hour, Allen Walker! I almost jumped in panic again. It's a good thing I don't have my Dark Boots on. At my current panic levels, the new Dark Boots would react and take me halfway to the moon. Hey, that's not such a bad idea. I mean I'll be able to avoid Allen, maybe even meet Lavi's distant relatives (according to Kanda) But I'll also suffocate to death. What am I thinking?!
(note: Lenalee refers to Japanse fairytale where rabbits live in the moon with hammers to make mochi, I guess this is also why Kanda nicknamed Lavi as Baka Usagi)
"Yes…I'm o-okay! Everything is fine!" I half shouted, and to my utter horror my voice was trembling.
"Lenalee?" Oh crap! Allen surely noticed something wrong with my tone. Of all the times that he had to be sensitive, why now?! Why can't he stay clueless for a while? I quickly fixed my looks and straightened my clothes; my Chinese style shorts and shirt look horrible and wrinkled. Why do I care so much? I think I'm beginning to lose it.
"Co-coming" No! I mentally shouted. I haven't calmed down properly yet, but my body moved of its own accord. My hand opened the door for the musician waiting on the other side, and I pulled the corners of my mouth upwards in a horribly forced smile to conceal my nervousness. "Hi, Allen-kun, why are you here?" I said to my white-haired nakama, he wore a tight sleeveless turtleneck blue shirt and gray pants.
"Huh? I told you, I wanted to talk…" He said as my eyebrows shot up in confusion. Darn! He said that less than thirty seconds ago, when did I become this stupid? "Uhm…Lenalee?"
I realized I was spacing out in front of him, and his grey orbs were locked on my own violet ones. His bluish-gray eyes are really enchanting; for a long time I couldn't help but seize every opportunity to stare at them.
"You want to talk about what Allen-kun?" I said, regaining my calm at long last.
"Well…I think you know, Lenalee" Ha? What? Since when? Whenever he talks to me I find his eyes locked on mine. As if he was trying to pierce through them, and search for hints of sadness or grief. It was like a habit of his to always look for such emotions within me. "Can you tell me…why-"
"How rude of me! I forgot to let you in, come in Allen-kun!" I said as I stepped back, giving him enough space to enter my room.
"Err…" He had a look of utter confusion written all over his face, what did I do just now? My room wasn't the only place left in the Black Order for us to talk in, right? "Thanks…" he said uncertainly as he walked into my room. Oh crap! His gentlemanly behavior wouldn't let him refuse an offer from a lady, even though I am no lady. Lady…only a lady would be courted by a gentleman, right?
"Uhm, Lenalee…?" His voice startled me back to reality once again, how many times am I going to space out in front of him today?
"Yes…Allen-kun?"
"Are you alright? You looked troubled with something this morning" His voice was filled with concern, as he gazed at my eyes again.
"No, I wasn't"
"Really? From the way you're acting I can't agree with you Lenalee"
"Why not?" I pouted. Yes, I did. As much as I knew how childish it was to pout when talking to a younger nakama of yours, my thin string of patience was on the verge of breaking. I walked to my bed, ignoring his intense gaze.
Once I sat on my bed, he turned his gaze on me again, waiting for me to talk. I can swear the temperature in the room dropped more than a few degrees and I was fighting the urge to shiver.
I stared at my boring ceiling, and his eyes were darting around in frustration, clueless about the reason behind my strange behavior. "Why are you acting like this…?"
"Huh?" Why does he sound…hurt? I only hear that kind of pain in his voice when he talks to Akuma, he's usually never so outspoken with his pain. "A…Allen…kun?" In a flash, he was right in front of me, his face inches from mine. I backed away a little to put some distance between us. I don't want to get my mind all jumbled up again because of him repeating what happened this morning.
For some mysterious reason, with him so close to me the temperature was rising again fast. No kidding, I could feel the heat in waves going through my body. And perhaps it was just me, but all the private parts of my body were heating up even more than the rest of my body.
I realized I had my back against the wall now, so when he kept moved towards me I had nowhere to escape. I was practically cornered and my body refused to move, maybe the heat was making me dizzy, and I knew how stupid it was to be dizzy because of your own body's heat. I was arguing back and forth with myself in my own mind now. I must be going nuts.
What does this guy want to do to me??
Allen-kun will not do anything to me, right? (My innocent, 'I believe in my friends' side)
NO! Go away perverted thoughts!!! (My corrupt, perverted side, recently awakened no thanks to General Cloud's 'talk')
Crap…why does my body feel numb? And what's with the butterflies in my stomach? (current state description)
As Allen kept closing the distance between us, I desperately pushed my back against the wall harder, even though there was no more space left. My back slid down the wall, until I laid myself to the mattress. I felt relieved for a split-second for the increase in distance before I realized how stupid this move was as we were now in an even more awkward position with me laying down on the mattress and him on top of me. And my perverted body decided that this is a good time to act turned on and I can feel heat between my thighs.
I silently cursed, I don't know about my mind anymore, but I know that my body is eager for something… impatiently waiting for something. Something that can only come from the gentleman or patient wolf above me, and I was fighting down the blush creeping up at the thought.
"Lenalee" He cooed, I don't know what's on his mind. But his eyes haven't left mine from the moment he entered this room, and he was oblivious to the effect he was having on me.
Half of me was hoping against hope that all of this is just a dream. But the other half was silently praying for it to be real. His body hovered over mine, and it made me realize how small my body was compared to his. "Aaa…Allen-kun…what.."
"Are you hiding something from me?" He asked in a serious tone, and I just lay there looking as confused as ever.
"Huh?"
"Lenalee, answer me" He said, demanding an answer with his gaze. My 'huh' obviously wasn't the answer he wanted.
"No, I'm not" I kept my reply as short as possible; I trusted my voice to do nothing but crack and stutter.
"Lenalee, are you being honest now?" he asked, which only served to confuse me even more. What was that supposed to mean?
"Err…"
"Lenalee, answer me" Not again with that phrase.
"Did I ever lie to you?" I asked back, he wasn't the only one who had the right to ask questions here.
"No, you never did, does that mean that you are honest?"
"You can say so"
"Well then, did you see that nightmare again?" He asked. His intense glare now replaced by his usual gentle gaze. "Is that why you look worried and restless?"
"Nightmare?" I replied with another question, why did he mention that? It doesn't have anything to do with it. Is he acting clueless again?
"You told me about it that night. You were crying because of it…" He said, his tone reminded me of how he comforted me that night. For the first time since he came into my life, I showed how fragile I was to him. And I believe that he learned a lot, about my fragility and my world that night.
"You thought that I would disappear when I stepped into the shadow, and when I asked…" That was right, after that I desperately hugged him. I was scared beyond words, Scared that he would disappear, for he was Allen Walker, the one who wouldn't hesitate to do the thing that I despise the most, sacrifice. He would sacrifice himself for any akuma or human, for this world, and it terrified me.
"Why are you so scared that I'll disappear" He asked lightly, as if it was so trivial. And before he knew what hit him, I pushed him away. Our positions was reversed, my small body hovered over his this time.
"What did you say just now, Allen Walker?!" I shouted. I don't care if anyone accidentally walked by the corridor and heard me. Miranda and General Cloud were both off on missions, so they weren't in their rooms now, and thanks to Komui-nii, only women are allowed rooms close to mine.
"I asked why you're so scared that-" He's no longer the one asking questions, it was my turn. I leaned down until my face was mere inches from his; all I want is to glare at those bluish gray eyes.
"Is that wrong? Is that stupid?" I was trying to stop myself from crying. Yet tears pooled in my eyes, threatening to fall anytime. "You know…you always…always…looked like you would be taken away!"
"Taken away? Lenalee, you're worrying too much again!" he said, that was the same thing he said back then. Back then, however, I thought he was right, I was just too worried, but he really did disappear.
"No! I am not!" I shouted at his face, my nails dug into the mattress in anger, and he looked like he was trapped by me. "Yes, it was a nightmare, and that's just my imagination! But do you know what really makes me think that you will disappear? Do you have any idea why?!"
"Because I suddenly disappeared in China?" He answered flatly, uncertainly. He was clueless, confusion written all over of his face.
"No, not just that" How clueless can he be? He can understand the pain of souls trapped in Akuma but he had no clue why I'm worried? "Do you know that in the battlefield, you always let yourself be taken away by Akuma. You jump to them with all your might to save them without thinking of yourself…of me. How do I know that you won't be taken away by those pitiful souls, or by your duty as exorcist, by this WAR?!" I could no longer hold back my tears, and they fell onto his face.
"Lenalee, I'm sorry" How nostalgic, I though sarcastically. He did the same thing after I saved him, and stopped him from killing himself.
"Don't be, I was being selfish here…"
"Selfish?"
"For not wanting to give up anyone to this cause, not Nii-san, or you" A moment later, I realized what I had just said meant something else. I never wanted anyone to die, I always wish for their happiness. But for the boy before me, what I wanted was… "Don't ever leave me. Don't let yourself get taken away from me…from my world." My tears kept falling as I spoke my selfish desire to him. I don't care how, I just don't want him to leave me or get taken away from me. "Don't leave me" My tone was now desperate and low.
"I'm here" He said as he caressed my left cheek with his gloved hand, the words calmed me, or perhaps it was his voice. He sat up, and then leaned his back against the wall. I just stared at him, and his arms caged me in an embrace. "I never wanted to leave you Lenalee"
I sat on his lap, with his hands on my waist and hair. He treated me like a newborn, gentle and full of love and concern. I snuggled closer, buried my face to his chest, desperately seeking for more of his warmth. "You never wanted to? But that doesn't mean you never will." Why was I acting this protective, almost like Nii-san's sister-complex when it comes to this boy? As if I want him all for myself, I don't want to share him, not even for this cause, or for saving the souls of the Akuma. But…
"I'm sorry…all I can promise you is that I will always be by your side as long as I can. And…as long as you allow me to be" He said softly, almost a whisper.
"If you could just see how selfless you are, Allen-kun. It's a shame I can't be like you" I replied, my face didn't leave its warm confines in his chest. I really loved the warmth that his muscular body emitted, and of course I can't show him how red my face is. "I am a selfish human, a selfish girl…that wants to and always will be by your side, even if you don't allow me to. One more parasite besides your innocence would be so annoying…"
He chuckled at the sarcastic comment. "How lucky I am if you become my parasite" He said, still chuckling lightly. "Well then…since you wanted to be my parasite, how about you sleep and I become your bed?"
"What?" Honestly. Does he think I was joking?
'A gentleman has another title…patient wolf!'
I don't know if that applies to Allen Walker or not, but dense wolf definitely fits him. W-wait…he wanted to become my what?
"Can you say that again?"
"Which one?" he said as he tilted his head in an adorable gesture.
"You wanted to be my…what?" I replied coldly.
"Your bed" He replied calmly, as if there was nothing wrong with the statement. If it was Lavi who said that, there was no way it would've meant the actual meaning where the girl slept on the guy as the mattress. But if we talk about Allen, maybe it meant that…"Maybe your pillow?" He giggled a bit. "I will stay here till you asleep or…as long as you don't mind me being here."
"I'm the one who asked for you to accompany me Allen-kun, so you can stay" I don't know what to say anymore, all I want now is sleep. I'm tired beyond words and knowing that he's staying and not leaving put me at ease. Forget how wrong our position is, I sat on his lap and leaned my head on his shoulder.
"Thank you Lenalee" That was the last thing I heard before sleep conquered me.
Tomorrow morning (5AM)
The first thing I want to know every time I wake up is 'What time is it now?' or 'Is this day going to be peaceful or full of war?' But not today. I'm awake earlier than usual I guess. The sky is still dark, with a hint of dawn on the horizon. The thing I want to know is why I feel something on my…
'Thigh?' I silently screamed. There was something warm moving up and down on my left thigh!
When I opened my eyes, I immediately looked for the source of that warmth. It was Allen Walker's hand, stated my mind calmly.
What? What is he doing? I was trying to deduce what was currently happening here. We're still in the same position from last night, the only exception being his hand wasn't on my waist anymore but moving up and down on my thigh in feather light caresses sending electric bolts of sensation throughout my body. And the most surprising thing is that his eyes are still shut. He was sleeping, oblivious of what he's doing to my body and mind with that hand. He murmured about cleaning something. Is he dreaming of his days working to pay General Cross's debts?
One thing was leading to another, my body was starting to feel like jelly and my muscles just won't listen. I bit my lower lip to suppress a moan as I felt wetness between my thighs, and my breath hitched each time he moved his hand upwards till it reached the hem of my shorts. Normally I would've kicked him or something, but since his hand was on my thigh I can't move it much. My legs are feeling weak because of the pleasure waves. Or maybe I'm just enjoying this?
I almost jumped and fell from his lap once I started to feel his hand moving up inside my shorts and stopping right beneath my underwear. I was feeling so helpless as I looked up to his face, this man has no idea that he's torturing me. Before I knew it I moved my face to his, ignoring how weak my legs were.
I was staring at his lips, pale red, looks so soft and perfect, they were parted a little. My curiosity was taking over me, and my tongue darted to lick the corner of his lips. The sweetness felt like a drug, lust almost took over my mind telling me to devour his lips right then and there. But instead of kissing him fully, I satisfied myself with the tip of his lips. My breath was coming short and ragged, almost forced.
It was so frustrating yet at the same time I was afraid I was going to beg for more. I don't want his hand to stop. If he woke up he would jerk away from me. But then when his hand made its way to my inner thigh beneath my shorts, I couldn't suppress my moan anymore. I moaned softly. It was startled, needy. I can feel a buzz between my thighs and I felt frustration. I brought my thighs a little closer and rubbed them together. I could feel the wetness between them and it made me feel hotter. I moaned again at the friction. This time it was harsher, and even needier. I had half a mind to guide his hand through my underwear to the wetness beneath it so that it can send more of these delicious sensations throughout my body. I quickly abandoned the idea when I saw that he woke up.
"Huh?"
To my disappointment, his eyes opened, I quickly shut my eyes again. Even if I can't see his face, I know he's looking at my red face. It must be chaotic in his mind seeing my sweaty face and ragged breathing. It was a very wrong picture to wake up to really. Me sitting on his lap, eyes closed and red-faced, and his right hand underneath my shorts, so close to my most private area. I almost moaned again, this time in disappointment, when I felt his hand slowly withdraw from my shorts. The silence told me he's frozen.
"Wha…wha-" He said in a very low whisper, he must be so confused and disbelieving. I was too. I don't know what to do. Should I open my eyes and say 'Ohayo' like an innocent girl who didn't notice anything? And I did…
"Ohayo…Allen-kun…" I said slowly the way half-awake people did, I covered my mouth and did a fake yawn. What I have become? A good liar, lovesick, lustful girl, obsessed over the younger boy before me?
"Uh….Lenalee I…"
"Thank you Allen-kun. Sorry to make you accompany me the whole night! Maybe I was just a bit stressed or something…" I cut off his sentence before he could say more. From what I know of him, he would probably confess what he had done and apologize for his sin.
"Err…you're welcome?" He replied in an unsure tone, and another good distraction came from his stomach. A familiar growl that indicated his need for a refill, and that was a good turn of events for me.
"Are you hungry Allen-kun?"
"I guess…" He said, flustered.
"Well then…" I kissed his cheek lightly, even though I was really tempted to kiss him full on the lips instead. "As thanks, I will cook something for you. Let's go to the cafeteria, Jerry's most likely not there yet."
"Le-Lenalee?" There was nothing more adorable than his blushing face right now. Maybe I was right he is more like a puppy than a wolf. "There is no need for you to…"
"But I want to!" I replied as I got off my bed, but before I could reach the door his hand held my shoulder firmly. I looked back, to be welcomed again by his intense gaze. My breath hitched once more as his face came closer to mine.
"Please" What? Is he begging for something now? "Can you please…do something for me?" His voice was husky, almost trembling.
"Yes, I'll cook for you now"
"It's not that…What I wanted you to do is" My breath hitched again and my heart was beating like crazy. Not because I was afraid but because I was being impatient. General Cloud was right after all. He was a patient wolf who has finally destroyed my own patience and self-control.
"Please don't tell Komui-san I was here since last night!" He said clapping his hands together, giving me the most adorable, vulnerable puppy dog pose I have seen.
"Huh?"
"He will kill me with an army of Komurins if he knew! Please…" As much as I hate to admit, I was disappointed, I could feel the lust from earlier hasn't left my system yet, in fact it has multiplied. But his puppy eyes made me forget my frustration. I swore I could almost see a cute pair of white puppy ears and a tail being wagged for sympathy.
"Okay" I replied shortly.
"Thank you Lenalee! You really are my hero. And sorry for making you have to save me from your brother so many times!" He said cheerfully, still in his puppy mode.
'You really make me lose my patience Allen-kun, patient wolf or not.' I silently thought. As for my title as his savior, 'I prefer to be your mistress instead just so you would stop messing with my patience –and body- like that'
As we walked to the cafeteria, I was silently planning to have a little talk with General Cloud. I really wanted to know…
'How to make a patient wolf lose his patience when he made me lose mine…'
Next chap: The most unpredictable, surprising, crazy reason ever to get a hickey
So...OMG xPrime thx! Actually my lemon is not as juicy as that you know. And about Lenalee...she is OOC no doubt! Because the real Lenalee would working on 'He is my nakama' problem first...and if I did that, this story would be so...slow. And Allen would be fainted when he know what he has done...
And next chap would Be General Claud Q&A again LOL and I really love next topic'How to make a patient wolf lose his patience when he made me lose mine…'
For some reason it's funny even though it can be referred as 'revenge declaration'?
And for next chap crazy experiment from science division will be involved (culprit) yeah...I know...not unusual to happen even in real manga, so maybe what would happen in next chap will make sense...
Reviews would be sooooooo appreciated, and for lemony scene I really hope some help. If you PM or write some on your review as suggestion, I will accept it (100%)