Disclaimer: I do not own this, nor will I ever. I am not making any profit off of this story and am only using it in fun.
Rating: M for some sexual situation and bad language
Summary: Marauder's Era. Sirius Black tries to make up for bullying Severus Snape with his marauder buddies. Slash. SS/SB.
A/N: Thank you for reading. I decided that this one shot needed a little more and I will be added another chapter later.
A Lover's Discontent
Severus glared at the curtains surrounding his bed. He felt as if the whole world had crashed around him. No, he could not be that sentimental, that foolish; those attributes were for the Gryffindors and Hufflepuffs. He was better than that, better than this. His arm jerked angrily towards his wand. He needed to fix this, but how?
Nothing had turned out how he was told it would. He had joined the Death Eaters because he truly believed what they were trying to accomplish or what he thought they were. The separation of Muggles and magic should always take precedence. Muggles were too narrow-minded, too frightened of things they could control and too powerful. Even if he couldn't admit it to anyone else he knew that muggleborns were just, if not more in some cases as powerful as the most pure of bloods. With a twist he sat up, feet planted firmly on the rough carpet. He had nothing against Muggleborns, not really. How could he when Lily was the only friend he really had? But even Lily was so far behind when dealing with Wizard laws and morals that she couldn't live in the society completely. She and the others needed to be taught everything, needed to learn more about society, but Hogwarts made no effort to teach that aspect of Magic. Soon the entire culture would be lost because too many people had simply forgotten.
He shivered as the memories of the past meeting surfaced. That was not what he signed up for. Torture, rape, and murder. He was not able or willing to do that.
Lucius Malfoy was everything he thought he had wanted to become, a man of stature, a poised and intelligent pureblood who knew what needed to be done. Instead he had turned into a submissive idiot who couldn't think for himself and resorted to following a mad man with power. Bowing down and kissing the robes of the man who asked him to murder, Lucius was not the man he thought he was.
Most of all though he felt the gapping hole left from Sirius. As much as he hated the mutt, fought with him and generally disliked his manners and attitude he missed him. Their last meeting, in the library had been painful. He had wanted nothing more, after he had returned to his rooms and brooded over the incident, to run to the Gryffindor and beg forgiveness. He couldn't though and Sirius would never allow it. They had burned the bridges, everything was lost to him and he was falling into a deep pit of despair.
"Snape." He looked up and Rodolphus Lestrange stared down at him, face set in grim lines.
"What?" He doesn't try to be polite; it is not expected of him. Lestrange looks at him for a few moments, eyes narrowed and thoughtful looking.
"I know." The voice is soft but spoken with such conviction that at first Severus is confused.
"What?" His usual sharp tongue has alluded him all he can do is stare.
"I know what you have been getting up to."
"I don't know what you are talking about." He tried to push past the bigger Slytherin but was instead forced back towards his bed. "What do you want?"
"I want you to do something for me." Images of the last Death Eater meeting float through his mind before he could stop them. With a scowl his mind was carefully blank.
"You have no information on me. Go find Bellatrix and fuck her into a wall or something." Severus tried again to leave but found Lestrange's wand pressed against his throat.
"No speaking of Bellatrix again, you are not to even notice her. She is your superior in many different ways." Severus said nothing. "I know who you've been fucking." He sneered. "You can't have that information spread around the school now can you?"
"What do you want?" It was un-Slytherin of him, really but he couldn't help the blind panic that echoed through his body. He knew one day someone was going to find out about him and Black, the fucking mutt ruined everything. Lestrange smiled, a sight not generally seen by the public. Severus fought back a shudder. He couldn't be seen as weak, especially not now.
"Bring Black back into fold. He needs to remember his ancestry."
"How am I supposed to do that?" Lestrange smiled that smile again.
"How'd you get him the first time? Try that. Certain things are acceptable when in the service of the Dark Lord."
"Wouldn't my seducing Black be noticeable?" Severus was looking for any reason not to do this, he wanted it so badly his whole body ached with it but he couldn't win Sirius back on the Dark Lord's orders. Sirius would never trust him again.
"Are you questioning your orders?" Severus shook his head. "You wont have to worry about that. We'll take care of that. Is everything clear then?"
"Black too attached to those Gryffindors of his. He is a Gryffindor, he wont chose to leave them." Lestrange let out a soft chuckle.
"Afraid he wont want you?" He eyes narrowed mouth slanted in cruel lines. "Just be the little whore you are, he'll come running."
"Right." His throat felt tight, the muscles in his belly clenched tightly. Lestrange stepped forward too quickly for Severus to react and his wand was pressed firmly against Severus' neck.
"Do not take that tone with me boy. I am your superior." Severus nodded sharply, mindful of the wand now pressed against his temple.
"Right. Excellent." The wand lowered Lestrange's smile now intact. "I expect progress by the end of the week." He turned to leave but twisted back at the last second. "You know the consequences."
The snitch's golden wings fluttered slightly against James Potter's hands. With a flick of his wrist the snitch went flying a foot away before being snatched back again. Sirius stared at the struggling snitch.
"Sirius? I was thinking." Sirius snorted.
"You do that?" James gave him a sneer.
"I was thinking that Lils would like to go to that new restaurant in town? Do you think?"
"How would I know?"
"Just thinking out loud."
"Then why did you ask me?" Peter gasped in delight as James once again caught the edge of the snitch before it escaped.
"Really Peter, how often does James mess with that? Shouldn't you be able to contain yourself?" Peter turned red but said nothing. "Its been almost two years since he nicked it."
"He always looks like he's about to cream his pants when James is around. He cant help it, he has a crush." Remus said as he plopped down next to Sirius who let out his signature bark of laughter. Peter shook his head, hands shaking.
"I do not."
"Fuck off Remy."
"James Potter, language." They jumped at the voice all thinking that McGonagall but instead Lily Evans stood hands on hips. "I need to talk to you, Sirius." She arched an eyebrow at him. "Now." Sirius looked to James for help but could see the puppy-love look all ready forming on his best friend's face.
"What if I don't want to?" She smiled at him, then pointed towards the Head Girl badge shinning on her chest. With a sigh he heaved himself up; Lily had enough dirt on him to make the rest of school a living nightmare. As they walked away Sirius just caught a glimpse of long black hair and Slytherin robes. He forced his eyes away from the sight and instead focused on the red haired girl beside him.
"Lily? What's this about? Are you leaving James for a wild and passionate affair with me?" She snorted.
"Why would I do that? We both know you wouldn't be able to perform."
"Right." His reputation as a sex machine was in doubt. He stepped closer intended to wrap his arms around the girl but she quickly stepped away with a shake of her finger.
"Now, none of that. I want to know what happened between you and Severus." He knew this conversation would happen eventually. Lily was far too attached to Severus to let something like this pass by without her input.
"Nothing. You know I love you. I'd never leave you, nor could I even think about cheating on you." He grinned at her; she shook her head, eyes narrowed.
"Don't lie to me, Sirius Black, I'm not one of the idiot girls you can charm." He sighed.
"I know." He ran a hand through his slightly greasy hair. "I really don't know what more I could have done. He wasn't… there just wasn't anything there to fix."
"Bullshit there wasn't." Lily fixed him with one of her patented glares. He stared back, eyes wide.
"What do you want me to do? He doesn't want me." Lily shook her head.
"We have to help him, Sirius. He's getting in deeper, I know it. We have to help him."
"Then you do something. Leave me alone I don't want anything else to do with him and he doesn't want anything to do with me." He turned to leave but she whipped her hand out and pulled him back.
"You are lying." She snarled. "Don't lie to me. I know you and him better then that." Sirius shook off the girl and offered her a scowl worthy of his ancestral name.
"Do not touch me. I will have nothing more to do with this. He does not want me, I don't want him. I don't." He left, pace forceful and angry. Lily stared at his retreating back.
"I told you." She whipped her head around towards the cynical voice.
"You are too blind. You can only see what you expect too see. He wants you, he just doesn't want to admit it, yet." Severus stared at her in that condescending you-are-stupid look he had perfected.
"Gryffindor sensibility." Lily smirked at him, eyes shinning.
"No, actually I'd say this one was a Hufflepuff trait. True love, star-crossed and the whole bit, wouldn't you say?" Severus lips narrowed to near white.
"I have work to do." He swept away, hands clenched.
"You know its true! Why else would you ask for my help?" He stopped body tense.
"I asked for your help because I… because…" Lily stared at him, never before having a conversation with the normally eloquent and composed Slytherin where he did not have a comeback or an explanation. "I just needed to talk with him, that's all. Its nothing important."