I track Jacob down to the reservation like I suspected. Once he gets one look at me he knows as Jacob often does that something is wrong. I am really upset he can tell. In the middle of his talk with Sam. He walks away and began to sprint over to me. his face full of panick.

" What's wrong Renesmee" he asked what's going on?

" what happened between you and my mother"?

"you mother"? he asked confused

" yes Bella Swan my mother don't make me ask again I am tired of all the secrets around here and I want to know what's going on"!

"I Don't know anything about all these secrets you are speaking of so I can't help you with that. if there are secrets I don't know about them. Why do you believe there are secrets. he ask's

"Well let's see the way you were acting this morning, the way my family stopped making a sound when I got home from school. and why my parents were fighting over you at the cottage. They must have argued all day otherwise they would have been there before or school after school, but that's not what I asked you there is one that you can help me with . what happned between you and my mother? I ask again. I want to know everything.

Jacob looked at the ground then back up at me do we really have to do this? he asked.

It was years ago and means nothing

Well it means everything to me I have a right to know

"can we take a walk down to the beach" he asked.

"fine"

so we walked to la push beach quietly. Once we got there he sit's on a piece of driftwood then pat's the seat next to him.

"okay remember the story I told you about what happened between Sam Emily and Leah"?

I nod but stay quiet letting what he said really sink in.

Well Its a similar situation. Jacob's fear painted all over his face.

I remember the story Sam and Leah were in love. High School sweetheart's .They were going to get married, then one summer Leah's cousin Emily came to visit and bam Sam imprinted on Emily and that was it. he didn't even have a choice he belonged to Emily for the rest of his life. though he said he would always love Leah and hated himself for breaking her heart.

"ya I know the story" I hissed. what does this have to do with you me and my mother.

but before I finished the sentence I knew it Jacob and my mother were in love at one time before me maybe still in love. I feal sick.

"you loved my Mother" I whisper.

"yes"

I let that sink in. Do I really want to know the answer to my next question?

"Do you still love my mother" ? I ask heasatently

" I will always love Bella , but now I love her the way I was always meant to as family.

its nothing more than that" Jacob look's at me with his big brown eye's and for the first time in a long time I want to cry.

This love for her it only changed when I came alone, because you imprinted on me otherwise you would still feel that way" I ask

" there is really no way of knowing that "

"You made a choice to love Bella you had no choice with me. I don't know how to feel about that I never really understood imprinting anyway"

I take a long breath before bracing myself for the next question.

" did anything ever happened between the two of you"?

Jacob gave out a long sigh than dove into the story of everything that happened between My father my Mother and him before I was born.

when he get's to the part of him kissing my mother I don't know what bothered me more how hard he tried to break my parent's up that he forced my mother to kiss him the first time or that my mother kissed him back the second time.

I stand up my head still swirling from everything I just learned about the boy I thought I knew better then anyone. The boy that I think I have fallen in love with.

I'm going to need some time to think this all over. I don't understand why the big secret, I mean our relationship has gotten confusing enough without this added bonus.

"what's confusing Jacob asked"

us how we feel about each other what's going on between us? I have felt a change with us Our relationship was always been so cut and dry easy you are my best friend always there for me but I have started to develope different feelings for you ,and I don't understand or know how to deal with them. I think some time away from each other will help to get my mind strate.

when I stood to go Jacob stood just as quickly

"Renesmee I am in love with you. you are right to have felt a change there is one. I think you are the most beautiful intelligent funny women I have ever known, and I can't imagine my life without you. I can't imagine going more than a couple of days without you. I have been scared to tell you for fear that you may not feel the same.

Jacob took a step towards me I instantly backed away.

" Jake that 's the problem, I do feel the same that's why this hurts me so that's why I need time away to figure out what all this mean for us.

My heart pained to see the look on Jacob's face like a piece of him was missing ,but I needed to get away I need to figure out what all this means if anything I also want to talk to my mother to get her side of what happened. so I turn away and left lapush not looking back.

when I got home my parents were out hunting. I asked my aunt Rosalie about my mother and Jacob's past but all she said was

" you should talk to your mother I can't really answer any of your questions sweetheart."

I went up to my room I wrote back to Nahou telling him about school how things were in south America and , what he has been up to, when I finished my letter . I did my homework then layed on my bed and listened to my favorite songs on my iPod my father gave me. Thinking over all this new information. I knew one thing for sure when my parents got back I would get all the answers I needed.

Just then I heard my Father dawn stairs I jumped up and ran down stairs. "dad where is mom" knowing that with my fathers abilities he already must know why I am looking for her.

" She is at the cottage" he told me

"Thanks" I say on my way out the back door. When I get to the cottage I walked in

"mom can we talk for a minute"?

of course sweetheart

we sat down in the living room in front of the fire-place it was a warm and comfortable enviroment.

" Mom I need to know about Jacob and well you?

what about us

"did you love him"?

Yes I did, but nothing like how I love your father. I told her the story Jacob told me and she told me that everything he told me was the truth.

"sweetheart what is really bothering you"?

I feel like Jacob's love for me is not inconsequential because he never chose me. don't you understand Mom Jacob chose you he fought for you and if I was never born he would still love you."

"So that's the problem that Jake did not choice you.

"Renesmee sweetheart you never chose who you fall in love with not really

?don't you see ?it choses you. Do you think I made the conscious choice to fall in love with your father"? There was a magnetic course that pulled us together. I couldn't stay away if I tried and it was the same way for your father he tried to stay away from me for my safety.

When I walked into my science class to sit next to him he gave me the darkest look everything in my conscious mind should have told me to run. to stay far away from him but I couldn't because we were meant to be simple as that. she smiles at me.

But you chose daddy over Jacob that was a choice. I say matter of fact no Renesmee there was never a choice to make. I loved Jacob the way the average person in this world felt love, but the love I felt , feel for your father is a one and a million kind of love True love that's what jake has for you

Renesmee what you need to do is take some time to see how you feel for Jacob. because lord knows he loves you more than you will ever know.

Thanks mom she gives me a hug.

one more thing what have you and dad been fighting about?

your father believed you should know about Jake's past feelings for me and our past all the things you wanted to know. he also likes Jacob but feels that you are young and..

"and"

just then my father walks in the room,

I think you should take your time not jump into a relationship.

Dad I'm not in a relationship I hive him a kiss on his cold cheek.

"dad" I ask can you tell me when Jacob's feelings began to change towards me?

My father looked embarrassed admitting that he picked Jacobs private thoughts about me is not something he wanted to talk about.

"about six months ago mid april why" he ask's

Just curious

Just then the door bell rang

I ran to the door hoping it was Jacob

There he stood Nahuel the first time I had seen him in almost seven years and wow was he handsome.

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