Shun M:
Okay. I know that this is supposed to be a one-shot, but, I changed my mind XD this would be the last part and I was wondering whether I should change the genre or stick with it. Meh, anyway, Enjoy the last part ^_^
SHOUTOUT FOR CUTE 27kirune12, I just wanted to thank you once again for your inspiring review, because of that, I got an idea for this last part, I don't know whether they should be back together or… arrrggh XD scratch that, I dedicate this to you, so… oh my gawd. I hope you'll like this *hugs
Disclaimer: I still don't own KNB *cries
Warning: Death and depression stuffs. Meh :3
*For my Beloved: Wrecked*
Weeks passed, and yet, Kise was still unresponsive to everyone even to Aomine. After the incident with Ryo, Kise was confined in the hospital and was advised to take rehabilitation seminars. Kise was so absent-minded that he just nodded his head but didn't actually went there.
The assigned doctor for Kise sighed exasperatedly. "Ryouta-san, please, drink your medicines, if you don't then you'll never get better. Do you want that?" he asked, Kise looked at him with such dead eyes. "Fuck that." Kise thought that it wouldn't be any better if he did get well but still be not loved by Aomine, like hell, Kise was beyond mad, he don't know what exactly Ryo has that he doesn't have.
"Pathetic little bitch." He would murmur at random times, his eyes would always glare at anyone and anything, he felt like the whole world was against him and his love for Aomine. Kise glanced at the medicines his doctor left earlier, there was a note saying that he should drink them and rest. "Die, old man." He whispered, he took the note and the medicine, threw it in the bin, picked the glass and threw it on the wall.
A loud crash was heard, and soon, two nurses where in his room asking about what happened and if he was injured. "Ryouta-san! Did you do that?" one of the nurses asked, Kise rolled his eyes and snorted. "No, it flew by itself woman." He replied sarcastically, the nurses sighed and cleaned Kise's mess; they left afterwards, telling him that he needs to rest.
Kise stood up and picked a shard of glass that was left. He was about to cut his skin with it but sighed. "No,no,no…I shouldn't be doing this to myself…" he said. He looked outside the window and grinned. "I should be doing this to that kid, Ryo." He added, and there was an evil intent in his eyes.
2 days later, Kise sneaked out of the hospital, the knife he used on the incident was still with him, and he also managed to get back his clothes. He went home first, forcing himself to eat, but after not eating for 4 days, he threw up and felt pain in his stomach, but then, Kise realized that it was fine, no, it was better, he thought that if he eat up and threw up afterwards, then, he'll never be fat, and if he's not fat, then he'll have a desirable body, and maybe, just maybe, Aomine would finally look at him and say that "You have the most beautiful body, Kise."
Weeks passed by, and the scenes were repetitive, Kise would eat, threw up, then pass out for a while, wake up and just dazed off. Looking at his body now, it was very much obvious that he's suffering from bulimia, his body was now a thin frame, like when wind blew hard on him, he'll fall down and break. Kise looked at the mirror, staring at his reflection, he traced his clavicle, loving the feeling that it was very much shown,his fingers slide down to his chest, to his rib cage, feeling his pronounced bones, his finger travelled further, his hope bones, his thighs till his feet, he smiled. "Daiki~" he moaned, even though the called person wasn't there. "Oh Daiki~, aren't I beautiful?" he asked with a giggle.
He continued to stare, but he started to see the past events, the mirror reflected it to him, Kise knew that he was hallucinating, but it felt real, all of it. Kise groaned and grabbed the nearest anything he can, it was his phone, and in a blink of an eye, he threw the phone, breaking the mirror, some of its pieces fell, Kise sighed heavily, walking slowly towards the mirror, he traced the tracks, not minding the blood that drips down his fingers. "Ryo Sakurai…I will….definitely kill you." He said and laughed menacingly. He bent down to pick up his phone; Kise felt numb, even the shards that tore the skin of his feet didn't affect him.
Fortunately, his phone was only scratched, he searched for Aomine's number and called. Aomine answered quickly. "Kise!? Kise where are you?!" Aomine asked, even though he was angry, there was a tint of worry in his voice. Kise touched himself, hearing Aomine's voice aroused him. "Daiki~" he moans. "Oh Daiki~, did you miss me?" he asked back, his body felt hot, even though there were cracks in the mirror he can see how his fingers left a trail of blood all over his body. "Kise you idiot! Why did you escape from the hospital?" Aomine asked again, this time, it was out of pure worry. "You empty-head! What if something happened to you?! Fuck! Do you know how worried I am?!" he shouted.
"Oh Daiki~ you were worried~ I feel so happy~" Kise purred, he heard a "tch" on the other end. "Shut up and tell me where you are, I'm going there." Aomine replied. Kise smiled wider. "I'm home Daiki~ hurry~ I want to see you~" Kise giggled, hanged up and threw his phone at the corner; he plopped down the floor, not minding if it hurt his head. "Aaah~ Daiki, you'll be mine now." Kise whispered, his face was flustered, his eyes glistening with lust.
Not long after, Aomine came barging in, only to see a naked Kise, sprawled on the floor, unconscious and dirtied with blood. Aomine rushed to his side, cradled him and slightly patted his cheeks. "Kise! Oi Kise!" he called, Aomine's heartbeat was fast. "Kise! Kise!" he called out again. The blonde slightly stirred and slowly opened his eyes. "Hmm…Daiki~?" he called the other one.
"I'm here, Kise, what happened to you?" Aomine asked as he caressed the blonde's face. "Mnn, I just wanted to look at myself in the mirror." Kise replied, sitting up. Kise looked at Aomine and cupped hi face. "Neh~ Daiki, am I beautiful now?" he asked, it surprised Aomine a bit. "W-what do you mean?" he asked back. Kise guided one of Aomine's hands to his body, making Aomine touch his small frame, his bones that are ready to show out of his skin. "Kise, why did you do this?" Aomine asked sadly. "You were beautiful, but what have you done? "he added.
Kise's mood changed and he glared at Aomine. "I did this so I can be beautiful! So that all of your attention will be mine! So that you'll fall for me and you'll want me and only me!" he shouted, grabbing the knife from the table, he pointed it towards Aomine. "Tell me Daiki, am I not enough?" he asked, tears started to fall down. Aomine felt Kise's desperation, but no matter what he does, he just can't love Kise in that way, for him, he was more of a younger brother, not a lover.
"I'm sorry Kise…" Aomine whispered, Kise cried harder, his fingers scratched his chest. "Why! I'm the one you need Daiki! Are you really that in love with Ryo?!" he asked, Aomine looked down, nodded his slowly, and when he looked back at Kise, he was crying. He grabbed Kise and hugged him tight.
"I tried to love you Kise, I really did!" Aomine cried, Kise felt light, his tears fell non-stop but he didn't care, he breathes heavily and slightly pushed Aomine. "You really love him?" he asked. Aomine nodded his head. "I love Ryo, Kise, I love him." He said with a small smile.
Kise was hurt, oh how he knew that even if he tries his hardest, the result would always be the same. He thought that maybe God hates him and that's why he makes him suffer over and over again. Kise tightens his hold on the knife and smiled at Aomine. "Daiki~ I have one last wish…." He said. Aomine was confused but he nodded his head. "Can you…tell me you love me? Even if it's only a lie?" Kise asked, his smile showing that he was defeated.
Aomine's eyes widen and cupped Kise's cheeks. "I don't need to lie Kise! I love you and you know that." He said seriously, he was too focused on Kise's eyes that he didn't notice that the blonde stabbed himself. "Daiki~ I love you…" Kise whispered weakly. Blood drip down from the corner of his mouth, Aomine gasped and pulled out the knife from Kise's chest.
"No, no, no Kise! No! why?" Aomine cried and hugged Kise tightly. "I love you Daiki…always have and always will…"Kise whispered as he touched Aomine's cheek for the last time. Kise regretted nothing. If he was not the one that Aomine loves, if he was not the one that will gain all of his attention then it would be of no use, he was being possessive, yes, but it didn't matter now anyway, he accepted the truth even if it hurt him.
But he was satisfied to hear that Aomine loves him even if it's not the same love Kise has for him.
1 YEAR LATER.
Aomine was put into jail, accused of murdering Kise, even though he didn't, Aomine didn't say anything, and accepted it. He thought that this was his punishment for everything, he thought that he really loved Ryo, but since the death of Kise, there was no one in his mind but him. When Aomine confessed his feelings to Ryo, he was politely turned down, and only after that, he realized that he don't care about Ryo not loving him back.
It hurts him even more now, knowing that whatever he do, there wouldn't be a second chance for him to love Kise, to have him in his arms, there would be no second chance for him to say that yes, he loves him too, he was just too blind to not notice it.
And every night he would cry to his sleep, remembering clearly on how Kise looked when he told him he loved him, his face was of pure happiness, and now, Aomine wanted to see it again, but there would be no way to see it again, he cried. Oh how cruel the world could be.
Oh how he loves him too.
END
Shun M:
I DON'T KNOOOOWWWWWWWW. THE STORY WENT ON BY ITSELF. HAHAHAHAHAHAHU =( I felt sad for them, why oh why, *cries
They didn't end up together, should I change the genre? :3
Anyway, reviews are highly appreciated =)
P.S
I have other works that you might want to read, feel free to check them out =)