Disclaimer : I do not own Fairy Tail nor do I profit from writing FanFiction.

Pairings : Natsu/Gray (main), NaLu, LyoRay, LoLu (so minor you won't even notice it)

Rating : M for smut.

Warnings : Yaoi, Shounen Ai, BL, whatever you call it. If you are triggered or disturbed by images of two guys kissing, I apologize and suggest you leave.

Natsu x Gray, established relationship. Unbeta-ed. Multi-chaptered.

Chapter 1 - Downfall

Gray yawned loudly and stretched as he dragged his feet across the pavement, on his way home.

Home. He liked the way it sounded.

When he reached the familiar door, his heartbeat started to increase. This would be the first time he entered this house, this home he shared with his adorable but idiot of a boyfriend with a different identity. This was also the day that marked the twelfth month they started dating. Today was special.

"I'm home", he whispered.

He stepped inside quietly, not wanting to wake his lover. Making his way up the stairs, he took special care to not step on the ones that creaked. Honestly, it surprised him how he knew the insides of Natsu's house like the back of his hand. Exhausted, he pulled off his shirt and prepared to get in the shower.

At the sight of the unwashed bed sheets crumpled on the washroom floor, he frowned. He really should start teaching Natsu to be neat, it wouldn't do if Gray did all the housework. Not that Gray didn't do them for him before he moved in, but still. Shaking his head in disapproval, he leaned down and picked the bed sheets up.

This smell.

His eyes widened. How did he not notice the stench the moment he stepped inside?

The sheets stunk of sex.

More accurately, it stunk of semen. Natsu's dried semen. A smell that Gray was all too familiar with.

His heart began to run a marathon, but he relaxed almost immediately. How ridiculous. As if Natsu would cheat on him and not have the sense to wash the bed sheets, leaving it out in the open for him to notice. Scratch that, Natsu would never cheat on him either way, he was too loyal a person.

Yes, Natsu must have gotten horny and masturbated on the bed, that's all.

That was all.

Having convinced and reassured himself,he showered and headed to his place on the bed - on Natsu's right side.

As he got under the covers, he heard Natsu mumbling incoherently. He chuckled, sleep talking had always been a trait of his. A trait that, like everything else about him, Gray fell in love with.

"Laff..." Gray strained his ears, what did he say? Natsu spoke again, this time more clearly, and Gray actually laughed out loud.

"Love... Love you..."

That bastard, who gave him the permission to be so cute? Gray could feel his ears reddening, but he felt so happy. When Natsu had accepted his confession exactly a year before, Gray had felt in bliss but at the same time, insecure. Since then, he had always wondered if Natsu only did so out of pity. Natsu had never showed any signs that he loved him before, after all.

What a pleasant surprise. Turns out all his worries were over nothing. Natsu loved him. Natsu had been the one to suggest he sell his house and move in. Natsu always remembered to tell him that he loved him, every day, without fail. Come to think of it, this must mean that Natsu knew he was insecure, how pathetic.

Gray gently stroked Natsu's hair, smiling. Only when Natsu was asleep or unconscious did Gray allow himself to act like this. He didn't want Natsu to know that he was utterly under his spell. The idiot would only use it to his advantage and ask for stuff when Gray didn't want to.

This idiot was his. This idiot loved him. Enough to profess his love in his dreams.

Suddenly Natsu's lips moved, and Gray stared at them, wanting to make out the words.

"Love you... So much..."

That was it. He didn't care if he woke him, Gray was going to give him the kiss of his life. He placed his hand on Natsu's cheek and leaned in.

But before he could do so, two last syllables were uttered in a loving tone.

A name.

Gray's name did not have two syllables.

The next morning, Natsu opened his eyes, feeling charged. Today was the day he would finally be together with the one he loved with all his heart. The one he had fallen in love with at the first sight. The one so beautiful everybody else paled in comparison.

Finally. Finally, she was single.

Whistling a joyful tune, he hopped out of bed, had a rushed breakfast and headed to the guild.

He didn't notice the lack of warmth beside him. He forgot.

"Lucy!" He shouted loudly, unable to keep the excitement from his voice. "I have something to tell you!"

Lucy stood up. "So have I. Just the two of us, okay?"

Natsu nodded and followed her out the guild door. Once alone, he pulled Lucy into an embrace.

"I missed you."

Lucy's body was rigid. She pushed him away, her expression serious.

"Natsu. Yesterday was a one-time-only fling. I needed to be with someone and you were there, you wanted me. There was nothing else to it. Don't misunderstand."

"You...You're lying." Natsu shook his head in denial.

"No, I'm not. I'm sorry, but I don't love you like that, Natsu." Her eyes softened. "Plus, you have Gray, remember? Gray's my nakama, I can't do this to him."

"Who cares about Gray?" Natsu blurted, not thinking straight. The words "don't love you" were resonating in his head like a bad dream. He wanted to wake up. "He's a big boy, he can deal with it. But Lucy, I..." In tears, he choked out, "I love you, Lucy. I have for a very long time."

Lucy smiled sadly. "I'm sorry," she repeated softly. And she turned, leaving him heartbroken and alone.

Natsu broke down then. He whimpered, tears streaming down his face. He knew that he was eternally internally broken. But he needed to be strong. If Lucy didn't love him, there was nothing he could do. He couldn't force her to date him, he loved her too much to make her unhappy. Thus he picked up the remnants of his heart and pasted them together clumsily.

Wiping away his tears, he re-entered the guild hall.

Unbeknownst to him, Gray was broken beyond repair behind him. Gray couldn't feel himself. He couldn't even cry. He felt that he was frozen rigid, and he wanted to escape like this. He didn't want to face the cruel reality.

"Who cares about Gray?"

He wrapped his arms around himself, shivering.

"He's a big boy, he can deal with it."

"Is that so?" He whispered.

That was their first anniversary. Simultaneously, the day that marked the eventual doom of their relationship.

Natsu searched for black hair and pale skin. He desperately needed a source of comfort. He knew that Gray would never leave him.

The moment he saw the figure huddled in a corner, he hurried over, immensely relieved.
When he noticed that Gray was unhealthily pale, his heart clenched with worry for a split second but he ignored it. Gray's problems could be dealt with later. He was sure that Gray would forgive his inconsideration. Because Gray always did.

"Gray, where were you?" He asked accusingly. "I've been looking all over for you."

So you noticed that I wasn't beside you when you woke up. Oddly, Gray felt just a bit better.

"I... noticed something. Natsu, I think we..."

Natsu cut him off. "Let's fuck."

Gray's eyes widened. "What?"

"Now. Please. I'm begging you, Gray."

Gray clenched his fist tightly. "I'm tired."

"It's too early to be tired. Please Gray, I need this. You're the only one that can do this for me."

"Fine." Gray paused. "But if we're fucking, we're fucking here."

"Here? What the hell, Gray?"

Gray took a deep breath and stood up. He wrapped his arms around Natsu and whispered in his ear, "Yes, right here, right now. Fuck me. Mark me for the world to see. Let everyone know that I am yours."

He withdrew. "I will always be yours." Then his eyes darkened for a second, "Even if you do not belong to me."

Natsu paid no heed to the last sentence. "You want it now? In the guild? In front of everyone?" He grinned. "Then don't complain when everyone sees you moaning like a bitch in heat."

With an animalistic growl, the dragon slayer tackled the ice Mage to the floor.

You finally smiled. Did Lucy's rejection affect you to that extent?

Natsu skipped foreplay, simply ridding them both of their clothing at high-speed and spreading Gray's legs as wide as they could go.

Gray could hear the uncomfortable exclaims of the guild members around them, but he ignored them. Soon, he heard shuffling of footsteps leaving the guild, the people complaining all the way. He didn't care. He wouldn't even care if they stayed and watched.

When Natsu plunged deep inside him at one go, Gray could feel nothing but pain. Despite so, he urged his lover to go faster, deeper.

Gray etched the pain into his memory.

The pain slowly faded into pleasure. And Gray could do nothing but howl Natsu's name to the high heavens as he was fucked hard and raw.

Their climaxes came fast. Gray shut his eyes and did his best to remember the feeling of Natsu's come filling his insides. This would be the last time.

Then Natsu pulled out and collapsed on top of him. A gentle hand lifted his chin.

"Why... Are you crying, Gray?" Natsu panted. "Was I too rough?"

He cares. He cares he cares he cares.

Gray buried his face into Natsu's chest.

"I'm sorry."

Confused, Natsu asked, "What? Why?"

"I can't."

Gray let his tears flow as proof of his failure.

I just can't. I can't let you go.

I'm sorry if the characters appear too OOC. It was necessary and will be explained in future chapters. Please leave a review! ;)

-Dreams