Almost There Chapter 2:Too little, Too late, a south of nowhere fanfic

Chapter 2: Too little, Too late

Ashley's POV

The last few weeks I've been feeling sick and not motivated to do anything. I hardly ate anything. I looked a mess. But I still went to school to graduate and pass all my classes and most of all to see Spencer. I can't help it. She's the one and I fucked it up with my ex. What was I thinking? Yeah, he and I have history but thats what screwed up my head. Because I thought our history was starting to feel like the present. But boy was I wrong. I got to first period just barely and I see Spencer staring out the window like she's dead to the world. I really fucked her up. But can't she see that I'm hurting too?And that I miss her so damn much. I barely got a proper eight hours of sleep. I always wake up in the middle of the night reaching out for Spencer. But she's never there. I bet her mom is happy she doesn't have to see me around anymore. That cow. She's probably grinning right now. Half hour passed and my stomach was acting up again and my head was feeling a little light. I began to stand up and then all I see is darkness.

Spencer's POV

I hardly paid any attention to anyone the last few weeks especially Ashley. I cry every fucking night and I try to stop. A few times my mom had come in and held me for some of the night. I didn't tell her anything but I'm sure she knows. She didn't question anything she just held me. But little did she know that I tried to cut my pain out of me for the last few weeks. I made sure I wore long sleeves or a small jacket to school. No one noticed or asked. But today in my first period class something felt wrong. I watched Ashely stand up from the corner of my eyes. I watched her wobble a bit. What was wrong with her? Then all of a sudden she passed out. I quickly jumped up and hurried by her side. The teacher called the nurses station as a few students gathered around Ash and I. I picked her head up and laid it in my lap as I stroked her hair. She was coming to.

"Spencer..?" She said barely in a whisper. I tried not to show too much emotion just enough to care about her well being.

"Shh..Ash. Be still. Ok?" She nodded and closed her eyes again. A few minutes later the school doctor picked her up and carried her to the nurses station. They asked if I wanted to go with her and I almost said 'No' but I nodded. I followed closely behind them as I felt my heart pick up. I hope she was going to be alright. She thinks I don't notice how sickely she's been looking lately. She has no one to take care of her and I walked out on her. Whoa..wait. What the hell am I saying, Carlin? Ashley screwed things up. I'm suppose to hate her. But I just can't.

Ashley's POV

I woke up looking around slowly at my surroundings. I didn't recognize this place at all. I sat up quickly..Too quickly because my head started spinning. I laid back down and I heard a voice coming towards me.

"Hi Miss Davies. How are you feeling?" the young nurse asked. Hmm..She's cute. I sit up more slowly this time and rub my temples.

"Like a bull dozer knocked me the hell out. What happened?" She looked at me as if it was my last day to live. I didn't like that. But then I notice blonde hair just behind her. Spencer? What is she doing here? Who cares. I'm just glad she's here. She still cares for me.

"Hey Ash. How are you?" Spencer asked with a small smile. I smiled lightly and made sure to make eye contact with her. God, I have so missed her blue eyes.

"I feel like shit. But the sweet nurse here was about to tell me my problem." I look back at the nurse. She fidgets a little and she sits down by my bed. I'm nervous even Spencer is nervous.

"Well erm..Miss Davies. You're erm...well..Pregnant." My eyes popped out of my head and I grabbed my head again. I felt like I was going to pass out.

"What?!" Both Spencer and I said together. I looked at her and she began to cry. I stood up a little too fast but I tried to go to her and she smacked my hand away.

"I truly hate you now.." She turns around and leaves. I try to go to her but I felt a little dizzy. The nurse caught me before I fell again. She helped me onto the bed and I looked up at her.

"Are you sure?" She looked at me sympathetically and nodded a 'Yes'. I sighed and curled up into a ball until I was fit to drive home and scream my lungs out.

Spencer's POV

"Well erm..Miss Davies. You're emr...well..Pregnant." My heart stopped and I had to catch my breath.

"What?!" She and I said together. She seems like her world turned even more upside down. I couldn't hold my tears in. I was lost...Before I knew it Ashely is coming near me and I was disgusted. I smacked her hand away and said the most cruelest words I never thought I'd say.

"I truly hate you now.." I see her eyes full of pain and lonliness. I had to leave. And I turned and walked away..again. I walked to Glen's car and got in. I cried and cried. Until I couldn't cry anymore. I searched in my pockets for the spare key Glen gave me a few weeks ago. He knew I was in pain and sometimes I needed to leave school during lunchtime so he'd let me drive the car around for awhile. I put the key in the ignition and drove to the beach. The same beach Ashley took me when we first cut school together. I sat under the pier and stared out into the ocean remembering all the times we'd come up here together to get away.

Flashback

"Spence..?"

"Yeah?"

"I just want you to know that I will never stop loving you, no matter what." I smiled at her and I could tell she was alittle nervous. Ash is so cute when she's nervous, I took her hand in mine and intertwined my fingers in hers. I kissed her softly and pulled away slowly.

"I'll never stop loving you too, Ash. No matter what." She smiled at me and we kissed each other tenderly letting our lips take control.

End of Flashback

Ashley's POV

I arrive home and I just sit in my car replaying the events that happened a few weeks ago and today. My world is crumbling every second. And now I'm pregnant. I already know who did this to me. He did it before. Maybe this is a second chance for someone to love me for just me. I place my hand on my stomach and I just sigh.

I turn the radio on and a song began to play.

Well I still recall the day you walked away.
It wasn't what I had in mind.
And it was the hardest thing to let you go.
Because I know you could have loved me if you tried.

(Chorus)
And we were almost there,
Yes we were almost there,
And we were almost there.

Well keeping track of you is a painful thing.
How I hate to see you fall.
And how I die inside when you can't see
That I'd love to be there with you thru it all.

(Chorus)

Come away with me my love!
We almost had a good thing going.
Come back! Come back!
Come away with me my love!
Come back! Come back!
Come away with me my love!

You go ahead and do what you have to do.
I hope and pray you change your mind.
But if you come back, could you remember to brin my heart
I'll stay right here so I'm not hard to find

(Chorus)

That song was meant for me right now. I begin to cry as I laid my head on my steering wheel. She has my heart. I never will feel whole unless she's in my arms again. I look up and I see a familiar car pull up behind me in my drive way.

Spencer's POV

I have time to stay and remember things but I'm just tired of remembering. I get in the car and I began to drive towards home. I flicked on the radio and rock music began to play. Nickelback. I like them but I don't want to listen to them right now. I flipped through the channels and it's the soft rock channel. I leave it there. Maybe something nice will come on.

Radio DJ: "Jessica requested Delta Goodrem "Lost Without You". Well Jessica I do hope you and your boyfriend work things out. Sometimes things happen for a reason. Even if it hurts so much. You just have to stay strong. Ok here it is..."Lost Without You"

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes (I say)
A little righteous and too proud
I just wanna find a way to compromise
Cause I believe we can work things out

I thought that I had all the answers
never givin in
but baby since you've gone
I admit I was wrong

All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
how am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side
if we ever say we'd never be together
in the end you wave goodbye
dunno what I'd do
im lost without you

I keep trying to find my way
and all I know is im lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you

How am I ever gonna get rid of these blurs
baby I'm so lonely all the time
everywhere I go I get so confused
your the only thing thats on my mind

On my bed so cold at night
I miss you more each day
only you can make it right
no I'm not too proud to say

I keep trying to find my way
and all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you

If I could only hold you now
make the pain just go away
can't stop the tears from running down my face (ho)

I keep trying to find my way
and all I know is im lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
an all I know is
I'm lost without your love
I keep trying to find my way
and all I know is
I'm lost without you (ho)
I'm lost without you

I couldn't keep the tears in. I pulled over to the side of the road and just let it out. I was so angry I began to hit the steering wheel hard, yelling and screaming letting all the pain out. I didn't want to go back to her because I don't want to be hurt again. But I need to be with her. She's the only one. I have to see her.

I pull up behind Ashley's car. It looks like she's just sitting there. I get out and then her car door open and we stand there looking at one another. I wanted to touch her and hold her but I held back. She looked like hell. Like me. She moved closer to me.

"You want to come in?"