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I'm lying on my couch, hopelessly trying to watch the TV. The cold of the ice bag against my head supposed to sooth the bruises from slamming it against the wall too many times in celebration of my stupidity doesn't help me to focus. I flinch slightly in pain as I grab the remote once more to change the channel. It's already eleven, and surely she's still with him. Maybe they're in bed, making love like I'll never get the chance to do with her. God, I really have to stop this kind of thoughts! I'm sure I've proved many times that they're not healthy, and once again the pain on my head charges to remind me how much.
As I try to focus on the game that is now playing, I hear a knock on the door. Perplex on who it might be this late, I put the ice bag down on the coffee table and go to open the door. Saying that I'm surprised to find her on the other side would be an understatement. What is she doing here?
"Were you speaking of me?"
What? I must look dumb because she feels the need to elaborate.
"In my office, earlier, were you speaking of me?"
I panic, big time. What am I supposed to answer? I choose the safest option.
"Uh… No."
"Oh."
I can't say if she's disappointed or if it's just surprise.
"Well I'm sorry I disturbed you this late. I guess I'll see you on Monday."
She turns around to leave. I can't watch her leave and do nothing about it, not this time. I don't know why but my guts ache so hard I know I have to stop her.
"Wait!"
She turns around and looks at me. Once more, I can't say what she's thinking, nor if it's good or bad that I can't. But I need to know. Now.
"What if it were you?"
"What do you mean?"
"What if it were you I was speaking about? What if it were you I'm in love with?"
Her eyes are boring holes through me, as if they were trying to reach my soul. I'm sure she noticed that my heart has started to beat faster. Still she says nothing and comes inside my house. My heart stops when her bare arm brushes my chest. She makes a few steps inside, still quiet. She looks like she's lost in her thoughts. Suddenly she looks up at me, straight in the eyes.
"He proposed."
I'm ready to faint. My voice is caught in my throat as I try to ask her to repeat what I'm dreading I've heard, and I make a strangled noise. She catches the sign of it though.
"He asked me to marry him."
I can finally get myself to say something.
"Congratulations." I can't help my voice to sound as grim as I feel.
"There's nothing to congratulate me about, it's not going to happen."
Now I'm completely lost. I don't know if I feel happy, sad, sceptical, surprised or what. It's like everything left inside me. For once, I'm the one who doesn't know what that means.
"Why?"
She keeps quiet for a few second that seem like an eternity to me, her eyes focused on the floor. I can say she's trying to find the right words to explain.
"I realised he's not the one I want to spend my life with."
I don't dare answering anything to that statement, and wait for her to go on – for she HAS to elaborate that declaration! She raises her head and dives her eyes into mines, like she wants them to convey whatever is in her mind – or her heart for that matter – to me.
"I realised he's not the one I want to wake up next to every morning, nor the one I want to ask what we're going to have dinner to."
She makes a step toward me, and my breathing becomes shallow.
"Nor the one I want to make love to me – for the rest of my life."
One more step – I gulp.
"I realised he didn't know me well enough to know I didn't believe in marriage."
One more. I can feel the heat emanating from her, a sweet, warm feeling. Her voice is only a whisper now, and I know I wouldn't hear it if she wasn't that close to me – which only makes me more nervous.
"But most of all, I realised he definitely wasn't the one I wanted to talk me into believing in marriage."
She keeps on staring at me as I panic, for I don't know what I'm supposed to do now. Is she saying what I think she's saying? Or is she just informing me of her break up? I don't know Bones for being very subtle, so all the possibilities start running through my head and I begin to feel dizzy, when she feels the need to clarify:
"But you are."
My heart explodes, liberating the thousands of butterflies who were hiding there, and they fly freely all across my body. Though it was very clear to me when I was speaking with Cam earlier that night, I can't even start to form a coherent thought about why I shouldn't let her know my feelings for her. Bells are ringing in my head as I'm hearing the choirs of Hallelujah: Bones loves me. Bones loves me. Bones loves me. My body act on his own will and I wrap my arms around her, lower my head very slowly as she raises her own, and our lips meet halfway in an oh so gentle kiss. She shivers in my arms and moan against my mouth as I deepen the kiss, meeting her tongue in her hot, wet mouth. Very strangely, I know exactly what she's feeling, for it's like I'm cold from the emotion and hot from desire altogether. When I finally manage to release the sweetness of her mouth and open my eyes, I can't help but wonder:
"So, what do we do now?"
She chuckles, and it sounds like a cascade of glass bells to me.
"Well, now, you are going to gather me in your arms and take me to your bedroom. And there, you are going to take that dress off of me, and make love to me all night like no one ever did." Okay, that was a stupid question!
I'm more than eager to do as I'm told, and on my way to heaven, I can't help but feel triumphant: who's got the girl now? Ha! Gosh! Pathetic. But you know what? It has never made me that happy to be pathetic.
The End :)