Felicity holds Emily close to her chest as she checks herself into a room at a local motel. The man at the front desk shows her to her room and does not even bat an eyelid in her direction. Felicity is extremely grateful that the man did not recognize her, the last thing she needed was someone to know who she was so they could alert the press or worse the police. Stepping into the room she looks around, it is not exactly clean, she places Emily in her car seat and decides to give the room a good clean. Taking wipes out of the baby bag she begins to dust the room as best as she could. Once she is done, Felicity settles herself and Emily on the bed, she formulates a plan in her head and decides to stay in the motel for a few days until she can think of something more long term.
Once Emily is settled and fast asleep she heads to the door and pushes the large cupboard in front of it. She knows that she should consider herself safe, but she does not want to take any chances. She knows what kind of people stay in motels and she needs to make sure she and Emily are safe.
"Good night pretty girl, love you" she kisses her on the forehead and then snuggles up closely to her.
Oliver is sitting in the foundry at Felicity's computers going through traffic cameras. In the back of his mind he knows it is no use, he shouldn't be surprised that he is not finding anything on the cameras. After Felicity went missing he went home to check if she was there. He had noticed that some of her things had been missing and she had taken her tablet. When he realised she had taken her tablet he knew that he could search for her for days, but he would find nothing. She was the best at what she did there was no chance he could find her.
"You find her?" Diggle asks running down the stairs of the foundry spotting Oliver by the computers.
"No Diggle" Oliver rubs his face in annoyance. "If we don't find ... if I don't find her it will only make things worse, Digg, she could go to prison for this," Oliver growls and slams his palm on the table.
"It will be ok Oliver, we will find her ... why did she take the baby?" Diggle asks.
"She asked if we could look after her if she didn't have a family."
"And let me guess she had a family." Diggle receives his answer when Oliver nods. "Oliver ..." Diggle closes his eyes and then proceeds "She came back, back to work, back to the foundry and the first case she works on is this and …."
Oliver inhales deeply and rubs his palms on his legs. "Diggle I'm scared, with, with Felicity's skills ... she will make herself invisible we will never find her and ... I will lose her if this goes on for too long I will lose her, prison or ... Diggle." Oliver begins to cry as Diggle comes round and clamps him on the back.
"Hey, we will find her ok." Diggle tries to reassure him.
2 years Ago
"I am being serious Oliver, this war with the league, is over so … you either want to be with me or not, if not there are no more maybes no more … nothing, there will be nothing, I will leave and you will never see me again."
"Sounds like an ultimatum Felicity."
"I don't care what it sounds like, it hurts, it hurts to be around and not be with you, it hurts … so yes I am giving you an ultimatum."
Oliver recalls the words that they had shared when they got together, the ultimatum she gave him, all or nothing she said. Her words ring in his ears, she's been gone for a couple of hours, but he misses her already.
"Have you tried that new software she downloaded? Maybe she hasn't blocked the new program she installed it after …" Diggle starts to run the program to see if it can find her.
"No, I haven't, run it let me know if you find anything" Oliver stands and heads towards the stairs.
"And where are you going?"
"I am not just going to sit here and wait, I need to do something, drive around, and ask around maybe somebody has seen her," Oliver tells him.
"Do you think that is a good idea man? Oliver people know who you are, they know who she is, if you ask around, people will start asking questions, press making this far worse than it already is" Diggle warns him.
"I need to do something, I cannot just sit here Diggle" he runs up the stairs and leaves.
Taking the car he begins to drive around, hoping and praying he spots her, he can hear sirens and knows the police have sent out people to look for her.
Oliver drives for about an hour and does not find anything.
"Marry me."
"What?"
"You heard me marry me."
"Oliver we are having a bath together, you're proposing, now?"
"Yes, we have waited far too long, I don't want to wait any longer marry me Felicity Smoak."
"You're serious."
"Deadly, I love you I want you to be my wife."
"Yes."
"Yes?"
"Of course I will marry you."
"Hey, maybe we can be one of those couples where we take both of each other's surnames, Oliver and Felicity Smoak-Queen."
"Anything for you."
Oliver continues driving, but he keeps replaying and hearing the words Felicity and him had exchanged over the years.
The following morning Oliver is sitting at the precinct talking to Captain Lance. "This is bad Oliver, we need to find her" Lance urges.
"Don't you think I know that, I have tried everything I can think off" Oliver begins to lose his temper.
"I know Oliver, I know why she has done this but it is not right, you need to find her and soon."
"Mr Queen?" Mrs Jackson says as soon as Lance leaves.
"Mrs. Jackson" Oliver gives her a weak smile.
"Please call me Rachel, my husband will probably freak if he finds out I am talking to you" Rachel explains folding her arms across her chest.
"Call me Oliver, so why are you talking to me?"
"We are originally from California we have been searching for Emily for weeks following trails, then we get a call to say she is here" Rachel smiles, "I had no idea who you or your wife were, so I looked you up."
Oliver inhales and looks away. "You and your wife had a baby."
Oliver closes his eyes remembering his baby girl. He works as hard as he can to keep his emotions under control, he did not want to start crying in front of this stranger.
"Yes we did."
"I'm sorry, please tell me if I am speaking out of line" Rachel can see the shattered look in his eyes.
"No" Oliver shakes his head softly.
"I can relate to you and your wife, we thought Emily was dead too, I get why your wife has taken her, but please from one parent to another, please find your wife, I want my baby back" Rachel dries her eyes and stares at Oliver.
"I am doing all I can find her, and I will," Oliver tells her and squeezes her hand in support.
"I did not read the whole story, just the part where you lost your baby and the amount of security you had at her funeral because the press went wild."
"Her name was Lily" Oliver starts to tell her with a sad smile on his face.
14 Months Ago
"So time is up, let's take a look," Oliver says. They had just taken a pregnancy test, he had to admit he was terrified but knew with her by his side they could do this, together.
"Wait" She stops him from reaching the test. "You ok with this, if its positive" she questions him with a scared look on his face.
"I am terrified but if you are there is no one else I want to do this with, with you by my side, I'm not that scared."
Felicity and Oliver pick up the pregnancy test and turnover revealing the two lines. They both break out in smiles, laughter and tears.
"We're having a baby," Felicity says joyfully.
"We are I love you so much Felicity Queen."
"I love you too Oliver Queen" they kiss passionately as he lays his hands on her stomach and they stayed like that for the rest of the day.
5 Months Ago
"That's it baby push" Oliver holds her hand encouraging her on.
Felicity has been in labour for the last 13 hours, she had refused any drugs, not wanting her baby to come out high. The doctors had explained that, that would not happen, but she wanted to be drugless. Oliver had been so proud but hearing her screaming and crying he really wished she had taken something.
"One big last push Mrs Queen."
"You could do it ok" Oliver strokes her cheek.
"I can't, I can't" she cries, sweat dripping down her face.
"You can, hey" he continues to stroke her cheek, "One last push and we get to meet jellyfish" he smiles. They had wanted the sex to be a surprise and Felicity was tired of saying the baby or it or he/she, so they had agreed to call the baby jellyfish until the birth.
Felicity smiles and pushes. She feels it, the moment jellyfish is out, everything is quiet and they hear crying.
"You have a beautiful baby girl," the nurse says.
Oliver and Felicity stare at her mesmerised, tears streaming down both of their faces.
"Want to cut the cord dad?" the nurse asks him handing him the scissors.
Oliver's hands shake as he cuts the cord and the nurses bundle her up and hand her to Felicity.
"Hi pretty girl," Felicity says kissing her forehead. They both smile when big blue eyes look at them.
"She's beautiful, you did so good" Oliver tilts her chin and kisses her, then kissing his new baby girl's forehead.
A few hours later …
Oliver is sitting on the bed next to Felicity holding his baby girl in his strong and large arms.
"Thought of any names?" Felicity asks him, she is leaning over and holding her tiny hand in hers.
"I don't know, Chloe? Eva, Jasmin, Brittany" he throws a few names out there.
"Did you just list a whole bunch of girls you hooked up with" Felicity raises her eyebrows. "And Jasmin sounds like a stripper name so no" she shakes her head.
Oliver bites her lip but can't help the grin that graces his face. "Please do not tell me that the Jasmin you hooked up with was a stripper." His silence answers her question. "Ergh, you man whore" she mutters.
"Not anymore" he laughs kissing her.
"I like the name Lily, means innocence and purity" she meets his eyes.
"I love it."
23 days later …
Felicity just got off the phone with Oliver; he was at the lair and had just got back from a mission. He told her he was ok and was just going to get changed and come home. Felicity sat in her bedroom smiling, she had never been happier than she had ever been before. She looks at the time and knows she needs to feed Lily now otherwise she would kick up a fuss in the middle of the night.
She walks in the nursery and puts the phone down on top of the drawer sets. "Hey, pretty girl, time to wake up so mommy can feed you," Felicity says walking to the crib. She places her hands on Lily's stomach and strokes her. "Wake up now pretty girl" she whispers. Felicity's smile fades when Lily's is still, she does not see her chest rise or fall, she is not making any sound, and she usually makes small snoring sounds. Felicity shakes her gently, "wake up for mommy now baby."
Felicity smiles again, not letting her mind run to think the worst. "Pretty girl" Felicity strokes her cheek to find it cold. She gulps loudly, her body begins to shake, tears stream down her cheeks. "Lily?". Felicity picks her up and cradles her to her chest. "Lily? Wake up for mommy please, Lily." Felicity picked up her phone and dialled 911.
And that was what Oliver saw when he got home, a medic trying to revive his daughter. Felicity sitting in the corner holding Lily's stuffed bear in her arms sobbing.
"I am sorry, that … I wouldn't wish that on anyone sudden infant death syndrome, it really is unfair" Rachel wipes her tears after listening to the story.
Oliver nods and then leaves the hospital pulling out his phone dialling Felicity. "Please, please pick up …Felicity?" he says when she answers the phone.
"Oliver …"
"Where are you? Felicity please, please, please tell me where you are or come home baby please" he begs her.
"Oliver she's not gone, she's here we can be a family again."
Oliver closes his eyes, "Felicity that is not Lily ok, she's gone …"
"But she's not Oliver she's here."
"Lily is dead, dead alright, that is Emily, come back now Felicity and you may, you may just not face prison time."
"Oliver Lily …"
"No, No" he shouts and receives looks from passers by. "That is not Lily ok she is dead, come home now" he hopes the harsh approach will talk some sense into her and make her come back. Instead, Felicity hangs up. Oliver tries to call her back multiple times, but she does not answer.
Oliver goes to his car and gets in slamming his fists repeatedly against the stirring wheel and breaks down sobbing.
It was very emotional writing this, I hope I did not offend anyone and did in some way the story justice for that scene. This had been swirling in my head for some time.