Disclaimer:
Me: La, la, la, la, laaaaa!
Bonnie: Uhm uhm, cough cough...
Me: Sorry, I was humming the tune to the new song for this chapter of: DESIRE LEAVES US HEARTBROKENNNNN!
Bonnie:Ohhhhh so new Rizzoli and Isles chapter...Geez why couldn't you just say that ya spazz?
Me:-sticks out tongue-
Bonnie: Real mature Aniesa real mature. Anyways you know the deal she owns nothing,but her ideas.
MPOV:
I stood and sobbed as she yelled at me. I couldn't even remember what had really started this line of fighting. "She said she was working late, but when you called to speak with her Korsak said she had left hours ago." the voice inside my mind said. And of course that was it, I had called the office to speak with her as she had said that was where she'd be. Then Korsak had answered her phone. And told me that Jane had left thirty minutes after I had, and that that'd been hours ago. So I sat on the couch and sttempted to read whil I waited for her, but of course that was impossible because I only wanted to know why she'd lied.
The moment she walked in the door I was on my feet with my arms crossed and tears brimming my eyes.
FLASHBACK: "How'd it go at the office?" I asked bitterly as the tears threatened to spill over. She had answered with a 'fine' and then turned to hang her coat in the closet at the intrance to my living room.
"I know you weren't there Jane. I called and Korsak said you had left hours ago, right after I did in fact. So where were you? Where could you have possibly gone that required you to lie to me?" I asked my voice shaking with the hurt filled tears now sliding slowly down my face.
"Maura..." Jane said in that slightly fearful tone she had. The tone that warned not to tread this subject any further and even though I knew that I should listen to that tone and stop i couldn't. The hurt that filled my chest was overwhelming and it was certainly controlling my brain at the moment.
"Don't Maura me. You lied Jane. You lied to me, and I deserve to know why. I deserve that much don't I?" I asked as the tears flowed more freely. I longed for things to go back to the way they used to be, back when we first got together, and the onyl thing either one of us cared about was each other. There were no lies no anything only each other, and I missed that. I missed her coming home after work and not at -I glanced over at the alarm clock- three in the morning.
"Maura what the hell do you want? I can't do this, I'm tired and you don't deserve anything, not from me or anyone else!" Jane yelled as I sobbed even more.
"W-why do you alw-ways do this? I l-love you Jane! I don't want anything to hurt you, but you hurt me so much!" I yelled back as the tears poured down my face.
"I... UGH! DON'T TALK TO ME ABOUT THAT! I can't even look at you right now!"She yelled angrily... END FLASHBACK
I just looked, as I sobbed, at what used to be the most important thing in my life, but now she looked at me with an expression that made me want to go drown myself.
She's starin' at me
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'
Mmmmmm
Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin' just turns into screamin'
Ohhh
And now is i'm yellin' over her, she's yellin' over me
All that that means
is neither of us is listening
[and what's even worse]
that we don't even remember why were fighting.
So both of us are mad for...
(HOOK)
Nothin' [fighting for]
Nothin' [crying for]
Nothin' [whooaaa]
But we wont let it go for nothin'
[no not for]
Nothin'
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got
Ohhh baby...
I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].
(CHORUS)
Girl, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
No, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
Ohhh no no no...
"I still love you! Doesn't that mean anything to you anymore? I have never cheated on awnyone especially not you, can you say that to me?" I asked in a whispering sob as I grabbed my purse and keys and left the house in a sobbing mess. I knew that only place had to go was hours away, but I didn't have any choice because the ony friends I really had were friends of Jane's and I knew that more likely than not they'd tell her where I was.
"Unless Frankie's wife might help me." I thought hopefully. They were only about thirty minutes as apposed to the 4 hour and 10 minute flight I'd have to take to get to J.J. in Norfolk. Not that I still won't be forced to resort to the 4 hours on the plane, but I preferred to stay in state until it was a decen hour both here and there. So drove to Frankie's house already asking for forgiveness for having to wake him up.
The moment I arrived in the younger Rizzoli's driveway, I cut the engine on my car and ran to the door I knocked carefully measuring how hard to hit the door, and soon the porch light was shining in my eyes. I blinked at the brightness, and tried to stop my tears, but it was in vain. Frankie and his wife Melody, answered the door sleepily, their faces soon contorting to concern as they took in the tears on my face.
Melody grabbed my arm and yanked me into the house as Frankie shut the door. She took me into the kitchen where she immediately put the kettle full of water onto the stove.
"Now," she said turning to look at me, "what happened to you?" she asked crossing her arms and leaning against the counter. Frankie stood in the doorway to the kitchen for whatever reason, and was also staring at me with those same chocolatey brown eyes fixed into the same examining expression Jane used at a crime scene. I fidgeted a bit as I quickly looked away form his expression.
"It's a long, story, I didn't want to wake you guys up, but I need somewhere to stay tonight, I'm sorry." I said hoping they wouldn't make me relive the fight with Jane. The less Frankie knew about why I was here the less likely he was to call his sister. I looked up at him hesitantly, and Melody caught on and told him to go back to bed that we'd have some coffee and then we'd also retire for the night. He yawned his consent before trudging up the stairs.
"Now, tell me what happened. It's obviously enough to bring you here against your better judgement, because it's clear that whatever happened you don't want Frankie to know, so spill." she said as she crossed her arms yet again.
And it gets me upset, girl
when your constantly accusing.
[askin' questions like you've already known]
We're fighting this war, baby
when both of us are losing.
[This ain't the way that love is supposed to go].
Whoahhhh...
[what happened to workin' it out]
We've fall into this place
where you ain't backin' down and i ain't backin' down
so what the hell do we do now...
It's all for..
(HOOK)
Nothin' [fighting for]
Nothin' [crying for]
Nothin' [whooaaa]
but we won't let it go for
nothin'...
[no not for]
Nothin'
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got
Ohhh baby...
I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].
(CHORUS)
Girl, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
No, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
Ohhh no no no...
(BRIDGE)
Oh, baby this love ain't gonna be perfect
[perfect, perfect, ohh ohh]
and just how good it's gonna be
we can fuss and we can fight long as everythings allright between us...
before we go to sleep.
Baby, we're gonna be happy.
Baby I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].
(CHORUS)
Girl, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
No, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
Ohhh no no no...
I had calmed the sobs into nothing but silent tears running down my face, but as I started trying to explain, I broke into sobs again. As I sobbed and choked on tears I explained everything about Jane working late, and my phone call to the office only to have Korsak tell me she'd left hours before; right after I'd left. Then I told her about the fight and about Jane telling me I didn't deserve anything from anyone.
By the end of my admissions, I was almost incoherent and she genty rubbed my back as I cried. Soon there was another knock at the door, and I froze; afraid that I already knew who it was knocking on their front door. I loooked up at Melody, who just sighed as she walked to the door. I went to the doorway of the kitchen and leaned my head out to look at the front door as Melody silently opened it. The porch light shone on Jane as she talked quietly, but waving her arms frantically as she explained her reasons for being here to Melody. "Quietly, so as not to wake Frankie." I thought dryly.
But in the split second my mind had wondered from the front door had convinced a reluctant Melody to allow her access to the house. "And me." I thought moving away from the doorway and deeper into the kitchen. My attempts failed though because Melody pointed to the kitchen and Jane ran through the door. I tried to run, but Melody blocked the only other exit.
"Maura listen to me." Jane started, but was interrupted by my saying "Why should I? I tried earlier and you just yelled and told me I didn't deserve anything from anyone!" I whispered angrily as tears ran down my face in angry swells.
"I know, and I am sorry. That was mean and wrong and I was a b.."
"Jane language."
"I was a I am so so so sorry. Just please let me explain." she said throwing a desperate look at Melody who nodded.
"Everything? Even why you lied to me?" I asked quietly.
"Yes, everything. I swear. Just sit down, please." she said in a desperate voice. I complied and sat gently on the bar stool behind me.
"I never wanted to lie to you Maura, but I had to go do something, and you couldn't find out until it was time. I never meant for you to find out that I wasn't at work form Korsak, and I am so sorry. And I never should've yelled at you, but I had just been in a fight and I was so exhausted that I just couldn't take it, and you never should have had to leave your own house. I am sorry Maura, and then I was watching the news and there was a car crash and it was your car. Down to the color and everything Maura, and I freaked. I was terrified that it had been you and that you were dead because of a stupid fight, and I tried to call you but you didn't answer and then I hoped to God that you were here because if you weren't I don't know if I'd ever have found you. Please forgive me Maura." she said in a rush as she put her hands on the sides of my arms.
"But where were you Jane? I was so mad, and sad, and hurt when Korsak said that you were gone. I didn't know if you'd been hurt, or if you'd purposefully lied to me, or what and I just sat and stared at the book I was trying to read, my mind flashing and seeing you with other people, instead of me. And even though you've told me before that you love me I just trusted the images flashing through my head, that you'd found someone better than me..." I said quietly still crying.
"I was hoping to do this a little um more romantically, but you have to see that this is all a HUGE misunderstanding." she said as she slid onto one of her knees in front of me.
"Maura, I love you. I mean I can honestly say this to you without feeling like I need to say it just because you said it to me. For once in my life I was the first person in a relationship to say it, and I wouldn't have it any other way because I know that with you it's true. And I was gone because for the past few months I have been trying to get a jewler to fix my grandmother's old engagement ring that my parents gave to me. I've been trying to get it fixed so that I could get down on one knee as I am right now and say this: Maura, I love you. And I don't ever want you to kiss or hold hands with or touch another person so long as I am alive. And I don't want to do any of those things to anyone but you, so will you Maura Eos Isles marry me?" she said as I shook my head yes.
She jumped up and put the ring on my finger before pulling me in for a heated kiss.
"I love you" she said placing her forehead on mine.
"As I love you." I whispered back.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Maura's middle name Eos, is the Greek Goddess of dawn and hope. I thought that it was sort of cute if that were Maura's middle name... So Yay! PLEASE REVIEW! I'LL UPDATE SOOON!