Authors Note: This Beginning chapter is shorter then some, you'll see why. I hope you like it. I tried my hardest to keep it rated T.

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Chapter 7

A vampire in love with a Slayer. It's rather poetic don't you think… in a maudlin sort of way.

I remebered those words Giles had said so long ago. Angel is the first man I have ever loved, the only man I will ever love… and he is a vampire.

Angel slightly picked me up walking us towards the wall next to his bed. He leaned my body against the wall still kissing me passionately. His lips were so soft, so cold. I loved the way he moved his tongue in my mouth; slow and smooth.

I was breathing so hard, I only noticed because Angel didn't actually breath. His body was so firm and strong. He picked my body off the floor, I wrapped my legs around his waist, still kissing.

He ran both his hands down both sides of my stomach, then putting them up my shirt. To feel his hands on my body again was so amazing, I had almost forgot how good it felt. I put my hands above my head gesturing for him to remove my shirt. He pulled it up and off quickly, not wanting our mouths to part for more then a moment.

I wanted to badly to be close to him, to feel him. I grabbed at his shirt, ripping it as I torn it off him. For a moment he stopped and gazed into my eyes.

I put my hands behind my back, starting to undo my bra. He took that moment to again kiss my warm mouth. He tasted so good. Within moments I had unhooked my bra, he grasped it softly and threw it to the floor.

He started to step back, still holding me around his waist. The bed was just a few feet away. Why we hadn't made our way there yet I didn't know. I was just enjoying every moment with him.

As he laid me onto the bed he ran his hand down my neck, slightly carressing my breasts before completely covering me with his body ontop of mine.

Everything seemed to be moving so slow, yet we were moving fast. I don't know how to explain it. Our want for eachother was so intense it seemed even though we frantically groped each other the movements remained slow and sensual.

I struggled to remove his sweats, I could feel his large bulge pressing against me as he kissed my neck and carressed my body. I wanted him so badly.

He had a easier time with my pants, he practically ripped them off. The covers wrapped around us, his cold body awakening all my senses. I curved my back, pressing my body upward, letting him know how comfortable and ready I was.

This was really about to happen, I thought. We were going to make love. We were going to express our entire feelings for one another and at last nothing bad would happen afterwards.

The moments after that were ones I can't explain. He felt so good inside me. To finally know it was happening. The last and first time it happened was so amazing. But this time, all the waiting, the pain and sorrow we had to go through after the first time. This time meant more to me then he will ever know.

He made love to me so soft and gentle. Everywhere he touched, every time he…moved; he moved all the right ways, touched all the right places that drove my body crazy. My body ached for him. I made sure to pull him close, to move in all the ways a normal girl couldn't. The sounds he made were unexplainable, as were mine.

After hours of love making, after we both had finished, he moved slightly lying my head onto his chest, as we both drifted off to sleep. Before I drifted off completely he kissed my lips one more time. I gazed into his big brown eyes and touched his cheek softly. It was like I always wished it could be.

I like seeing you. The part at the end of the night where we say

Good-bye... It's getting harder.

I just remember tossing and turning that night; past memories flooding my dreams.

You almost went away today.

We both did.

Angel... I feel like I lost you...

You're right, though. We can't be sure of anything.

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I hated the girls back then; especially the noble women.

You did.

They were just incredibly dull. Simpering morons, the lot of them. I always wished I could meet someone... exciting…Interesting.

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I did a lot of thinking today. I really can't be around you. Because when I am...


Hey, no big. Water... over the bridge, under the bridge...


When I am all I can ever think about is how badly I want to kiss you.

Over the dam…Kiss me?

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You got a lot to learn about men, kiddo. Although I guess you proved that last night.

What are you saying?

Let's not make an issue out of it, okay? In fact, let's not talk about it at all. It happened.

I, I don't understand. Was it m-me? Was I not good?

You were great. Really, I thought you were a pro.

How can you say this to me?

Lighten up. It was a good time. It doesn't mean like we have to make a big deal.

It *is* a big deal!

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"No!" I yelled, still asleep.

Angel must have heard me because next thing I know he is jerking me awake.

"Buffy!" Angel slightly shouted.

I awoke that instant, not breathing hard, just the feeling like I was ready to cry. Angel still had his arms around me, looking at me with concern on his face. When my eyes adjusted to the glowing room I saw something I had least expected.