Chapter 2.
The room filled with the sounds of her phone ringing. Amanda opened her eyes, trying to figure out where she was, her eyes adjusting to the light. She reached over and answered
"Rollins...yeh ok liv...I'll meet you there" they had a case. Liv needed her at the hospital. She turned and looked at nick still sleeping. She couldn't help think how handsome he looked as memories of the night before flooded her brain. His lips on hers, his hands,his tongue. She slipped out of the bed and quietly got dressed, being careful not to wake Nick as she searched for her clothes. She had to get out of here before he woke up, she couldn't think straight with him this clos and she needed to think about everything. Last night she hadn't planned on having sex with him but all the things he said to her in that moment she wanted him like crazy so she had pushed the thoughts about how wrong what they were doing was away and thrown herself at him. It was wrong, it was against the rules plus he had a wife...or ex-wife and kids but in that moment she didn't care she had to have him. She thought about everything he had said as she quietly slipped out the room and headed towards the front door. He hadn't meant what he said about his feelings for couldn't have, all they did was argue. No she thought, it hadn't meant anything it was a mistake she resolved as she slipped out his house and hailed a cab to her house before she changed for work.
Arriving at her apartment, she grimaced internally. Her apartment, with it's rather boring decorum was not a welcome place. It wore minimalism with the basics, she was still trying to get back to normal after her sister Kim had stolen all her stuff. Phone, TV that was never on, food that an astronaut would find too bland,beige painted walls, furniture without feeling or colour. Frannie bound towards her sending cushions flying everywhere from the sofa. She bent over and picked her bowl up as the dog let out a happy growl at the prospect of food. She quickly ran to her room and grabbed clothes taking them with her to the bathroom as she headed towards the shower. She glanced at herself in the mirror as she undressed and looked at the red marks on her breasts. She remembered him kissing and sucking her chest the night before. She felt a familiar feeling in her stomach as she thought about how good it had felt. How hot it was as he panted her name..."mmm Amanda". She pushed the thoughts away as she stepped under the hot stream of the shower. No she thought shaking her head it hadn't meant anything. She shook her head again trying to shake away the thoughts as she realised she was going to be late, that was all she needed right now especially as she was trying to earn back liv's trust.
She threw on her clothes, applied some light make up and towel dried her hair. She kissed Frannie goodbye, put some cash on the table for the dog walker and headed out the door to her car. It was just turning 8.30am as she pulled into the hospital car lot. She made her way to the victims room, just as liv was coming out.
"Hey liv sorry I'm late...i ...eh...had car trouble" she started hoping liv couldn't tell she was lying.
"Finally your here, we've got a Muslim girl raped in central park. The attackers told her to go back to India,Muslim bitch. So I'm thinking we have got a hate crime" she said ignoring Amanda's excuse.
"She attended a party at her brother's employers last night. I was headed there now to speak to them"
"Let's go" Amanda said walking towards the elevator.
As Nick walked into the squad room he looked for Amanda. Last night was amazing and everything he had been waiting so long for but he hadn't expected to wake up alone. He couldn't see her as he sat at his desk.
"Fin where's Rollins and Benson" he asked as he tried to play it cool
"They are at the hospital, we got a case, they should be heading back soon" Fin replied.
Nick busied himself with going over the CCTV near central park where their victim was found trying to shut off his brain. Why would she take off like that, surely she wasn't still angry with him. He had explained last night about that thing with Murphy. He was hoping last night would be the start of something for them, he hoped Amanda felt the same. As he thought about her screaming his name last night as she neared the edge, he felt himself stiffen slightly. He shook his head trying to concentrate on his work. He looked up just as she was walking into the squad room, their eyes met and he noticed her blushing. She looked beautiful her blonde curls resting on her shoulder's. He loved when she left her hair au natural. Amanda avoided his gaze as she suddenly felt flush and made her way to her desk.
"What's up guys" she said trying to act normal even though she could feel Nick's eye's boring into her. She could feel her temperature rising and tried to brush it off. Now was not the time she couldn't risk Benson or Fin figuring out something was up.
"Just going over the CCTV from last night trying to figure out what happened to our Vic" Nick replied willing her to look at him.
"Anything" she said nonchalantly
"Actually check this out guys. Here's our Vic walking towards the park. She looks like she's already been attacked" he said.
" I'll go and tell liv and see what she wants to do" replied Amanda trying to find any excuse to get away from Nick. What have you done Amanda she thought as she walked towards Liv's office. How could you be so stupid to sleep with your co worker, like things weren't complicated enough.
The rest of the day had passed quickly. They had caught their suspects, the victims brothers boss's had raped her in their office. They had done their jobs. She had also successfully managed to avoid Nick the whole day. She had sneaked out while he was in the cribs on the phone...probably to maria. Stop it Amanda she said to herself as she got in her car, its none of your business. She turned the key in the Ignition as she decided to stop at her favorite bar before going home. It had been a long confusing day and she needed something to take the edge off.
As she walked into the bar, her lungs filled with the smell of smoke and alcohol. She took a seat at the bar and ordered a double whiskey. No sooner had the bartender laid the glass down she had picked it up and downed it. The amber liquid burning its way down her throat to her stomach.
"Another" she said slamming the glass on the bar. She lit a cigarette and slowly sipped the drink the bartender had poured. She took a long drag on her cigarette as she thought about the last 48 hours. So much had happened. Too much. First everything with Murphy then Nick. She had an overwhelming desire to gamble but she shook her head no she was stronger than that. Instead she finished her cigarette and downed the last of her drink. As she motioned towards the bartender for another she suddenly felt a hand on her waist the contact causing her to jump slightly.
"hey babe,long time no see" nate said sitting down next to her
"Nate...what are you doing here" she replied surprised. What did he want she thought. She had enough going on in her life without him turning up trying to string her along.
"Looking for you Amanda. How are you? I've missed you, not seen you at a meeting in a while"
" yeh I'm fine. Not needed a meeting for a while" she said taking a big swig of her drink. She looked at Nate and couldn't stop thinking about what nick had said about the thought of her with Nate. He hadn't meant it. He was just looking to get lucky she summarized. He didn't actually have feelings for her. She took another drink and lit another cigarette, taking a long drag trying to calm her thought's.
"Hey why don't we head back to your place? Its been so long...I've missed you babe" Nate tried rubbing his hand up her thigh.
She looked at his hand on her thigh, her eyes travelled to his face. Maybe she should she thought, it might help her take her mind off Nick.
"Yeh...I've missed you too" she lied reaching up to grab him in a kiss. He slipped his tongue in her mouth. His hands clasped her face. She had hoped this would take her mind off nick but all she could think was how much she wished it was nick she was kissing. There were no butterflies in her stomach like last night. She felt no desire for Nate. She pushed him away.
"I'm sorry I can't do this. I have to go" she said as she fled the bar and made her way to her car. She pushed Nick out of her mind she couldn't deal with that just now, didn't want to know what her feelings meant. She just had to get home.
She walked into her apartment greeted by a happy looking Frannie, she walked to her room and changed into her running gear. She returned to the kitchen and grabbed Frannie's lead. The cold air hit her hard as she ran along the street. Her mind drifted to nick again, to last night. He had told her he cared about her, that he had wanted her for so long...but he didn't mean it how could he. She was a screw up, a gambling addict, she had so many problems stemming from her childhood that she didn't know where to start. She had trust issues. How could he care bout her when he didn't even know the real her. He just felt sorry for her that was all and she did not need his pity. She had been so lost in her thoughts she didn't realise how far she had ran. She looked at her watch, it was late she should head home. Her stomach growled and she realised she hadn't eaten since lunch. She stopped for a pizza and headed towards her apartment.
As she stepped off of the elevator she froze...Nick. He was standing at her door with his back to her. She started panicking she thought about turning round and disappearing in the elevator but it was too late he had turned round and was staring at her, his eye's full of questions.
So chapter 2. There will be more rollaro in the next chapter. Let me know what you think? If you think there is anything missing feel free to comment.