BPOV

Physics was a class I was not looking forward to. I had taken this class a handful of times already, much like my other classes, it's just Physics bores me more than any of them. I was so intrigued at first, I took all I could to learn, and perhaps I burnt myself out on it.

What did bring interest in that classroom was the role call. Edward's name was on the list, though he wasn't in the class. I wondered if it was because of me, then I knew of course it was because of me. Talk about déjà vu .

I didn't say much for the remainder of the day. My family didn't bother me with questions, that I was grateful of. But on the ride home from school, Seth had broken his silence.

"Bella, I don't think you should go to school anymore."

"What?" I asked shocked.

"This guy" He paused before he said his name, "Edward, he made you… kill yourself. I don't think it's a good idea for you to see him or any of the Cullens."

Seth wasn't our pack leader, so to speak, but he was next in line. "Seth, you are biased to the Cullens, I-"

"Of course I am, Bella. What if Edward had changed you? Would you not be with them?"

"Yes, I would. But he didn't, Seth. You did. You are my family, you have been for almost a century. I belong with you all."

"She has said that a hundred times today, Seth," Jacey pointed out. "Let her be."

I had said it quite often today. I think I was trying to convince myself, rather than Seth of what I was saying. Thankfully Seth didn't bother me with any more questions or demands.

When we got home, I hurried inside and followed the sound of a violin to the music room. Iris was standing up, playing as beautifully as ever. I wrapped my arms around her and buried my face into her shoulder.

She put down her violin and returned the embrace. "What is it my darling?"

"I had a bad day at school."

"What happened?"

"Edward was there."

She tightened her arms around me. "Oh, Bella," she whispered. "I am so sorry. We will move at once."

I looked at her, her topaz eyes filled with concern. "I don't want everyone to do that. We'll only be here a few years. I can handle it."

"Darling, there is no reason for that. Everyone will feel much better when you are happy."

I clung on to my 28 year old adopted mother. "I don't want to run away from this. I did that one time already."

"Then perhaps you should go speak with Edward and the Cullens."

"I want to, I do, Iris. But I don't know if I can face them alone." I could face them alone, but I was afraid if I did, I would never come back to my family. I would be a Cullen again, and make sure Madison never touched Edward again.

"Would you like for me to go with you?"

"Would you?"

"Of course."

"Let me get dress."

Iris drove to their home. I didn't think I can handle the drive myself. When we pulled up, Alice was sitting on the steps leading to the front door. "That's Alice," I said.

Iris nodded as she put the car in park. "Ready, my dear?"

"Yes."

We both got out, and Alice ran to me. She embraced me in a hug. "I'm so glad you came! I still can't see your future."

I hugged her back, relieved to be here. "Have you asked Carlisle why?"

"He doesn't know either."

I pulled back from. "Alice, this is Iris, my Esme."

Alice hugged her as well. "Nice to meet you."

"And you dear," Iris smiled.

"Come inside, we are all waiting," Alice said as she grabbed my hand.

I held onto Iris' as we walked inside. Alice was right, they were all waiting, Madison included.

Esme walked to me, her face as beautiful and soft as ever. "Bella," she said softly.

"Esme," I greeted as I hugged her.

"You look ravishing."

"Thank you."

I pulled away. "Everyone, this is Iris." I placed my hand on hers. "Iris, this is Emmett, and Rosalie, you met Alice, this is Jasper." I looked at Carlisle. "This is the famous Carlisle and Esme." They both smiled at me. "Rosalie and Emmett." I paused before introducing Edward. "And this is Edward and Madison." I didn't look at either Edward or Madison as I introduced them to Iris. I had told Iris about Madison on the way to the Cullens, so she was not be surprised. "It's a pleasure to meet you all."

Carlisle shook Iris' hand. "You have raised her well."

Iris put one of her arms around me. "She is a treasure to our family."

EPOV

Why is she here? Madison thought. She is very pretty, but she looks nothing like me. How could Edward love us both when we are so different?

I tried to block out Madison's thoughts, but they were so loud, so desperate sounding. I focused on Bella. I could still not read her thoughts. But I didn't have to. She was obviously uncomfortable and I assumed it was because of Madison. Why did Bell bring Iris? Did she not think she could handle seeing everyone alone?

Bella looks so miserable. Esme thought. Seeing Edward with Madison must be extremely hard.

Rosalie was staring at Bella, though Bella refused to look at anyone but Iris or Esme. Why did she come back? This is only going to cause problems for our families. Edward, you better not hurt Madison. Rosalie shot a look at me. I mean it.

They are such a nice family, Iris was thinking. I can see why Bella loved them so much. If she leaves our family for them, I would understand, though I'm afraid no one else would. She looked at Madison for a brief second. Bella wouldn't leave us, though. Especially now Edward has moved on. I wish Bella would, though Seth isn't quite right for her. I suddenly felt so guilty for listening. This wasn't right.

Jasper held Alice's hand. Alice loves Bella so much. I know Alice wants Bella to be a part of our family again, but that can't happen. That was a lifetime ago.

Alice smiled at Jasper but then quickly looked back at Bella and Iris, who was now talking to Esme and Carlisle about their move. I can't ask Bella to come back with us. She has a new family. Besides, I don't even know if Edward loves her anymore. He is to caught up with Madison. I love Madison, but she's not Bella.

"I still do," I blurted out to Alice. Everyone looked at me, except Bella. Alice couldn't help but to smile. How could Alice truly think that?

"What is it Edward?" Carlisle asked.

"Nothing, Carlisle." I paused. "I'll be right back."

BPOV

I watched Madison as she watched Edward walk up the stairs. She looked at him in a way that he use to look at me. I had a feeling of agony rush over me, I wanted to break down and not be seen by any of the Cullens ever again. Then suddenly the feeling stopped. I was calm and collect once again. I looked at Jasper. He smiled sweetly and I nodded at him, thanking him. At least I wasn't go to break down in front of everyone.

"Iris, would you like to see the house?" Esme asked.

"Oh, yes," she replied.

"Carlisle, would you mind showing the house with me?"

"Of course darling."

Iris squeezed my hand and smiled at me before the three of them walked into the kitchen.

"How have you been, Bella?" Emmett asked.

"Good."

"So you've been a vampire for how long?" Rosalie asked, though it wasn't a friendly question.

"75 years."

"75 years a week from yesterday," Edward corrected as he walked back into the room.

Rosalie walked to Madison and took her hand in hers. "Maddy and I are going to go for a walk."

Madison didn't object. It was obvious Rosalie accepted her as part of the family. The two walked outside, leaving only Emmett, Alice, Jasper, Edward, and I.

"Bella?"

I looked at Edward for the first time since I had gotten there. "Yes?"

"Can we talk?"

Jasper was about to protest, but Alice shook her head, so he remained silent. I almost wished he would have gone against Alice's wishes.

"Okay."

I followed Edward to his bedroom, the same bedroom. I looked for Madison's things, but I couldn't tell if she stayed in here with him. Of course she stayed in the same room with him, and of course Edward did things with her he thought I was once too fragile for.

"Bella," he started. "I had no idea what happened."

"Edward-"

"Please, let me finish."

I nodded.

"I left, Bella. A second time I left. I told you I never would, but I did." He paused. "I had to. You wanted to be turned into a vampire and I couldn't do that to you. I didn't want you to hate me for it. I would have stayed with you as a mortal until you died. But I knew you didn't want that. And it wasn't far for you. You needed someone who could give you a family, who could get old with you."

I couldn't hold my tongue any longer. "Edward! I never wanted that. I had family. I had you and Alice and Esme and Carlisle, and Jasper, and Emmett, and even Rosalie."

"Still, Bella, I couldn't live with you hating me for turning you."

"I hated Seth for years," I admitted.

"See, I couldn't handle you feeling that way towards me."

"I hated Seth for saving me. I wanted to die."

Edward looked away from me. "Bella…"

"I rather die than live without you. And I tried. But Seth didn't let me. Then I had to start this journey of eternity without you." I tried to keep my voice smooth. "Charlie never knew what happened to me," I whispered. "The Malones wouldn't let me see him." I paused, trying to collect myself. "He went mad. Ended up in a mental institution. He died there fifty years ago. Renee and Phil had a family of their own. Their great grand kids are still alive somewhere in Arizona." I don't know why I was spilling all this out, but I couldn't stop myself. Edward knew Charlie and Renee, he knew how much I loved them. And he listened.

"Bella, I am so sorry."

"Why couldn't you do it? Why couldn't you change me? Laken changed Kaden." Now I couldn't control my feelings. "Did you not love me enough?"

Edward stopped me by colliding his lips to mine. "I loved you more than life itself, Bella. And I still love you."

I wrapped my hands around his neck, pulling him into me. "I love you, Edward." Edward, my Edward still loved me. I haven't ever felt so happy before, not as a human or a vampire.

Edward gently nibbled on my bottom lip as he layed me on his bed. I wrapped my legs around his waist as he crawled on top of me. "I'm so sorry," he whispered between kisses. "I've miss you. You are my life."

I pulled his hair, making him moan softly. "I've missed you. Don't leave me this time."

"Never."

I took his shirt off and stared at his chest. It was perfect, everything about Edward was perfect. He held himself up with his hands, looking down at me. I pulled him back down on top of me, embracing him in a kiss. His hands wondered to my shirt and ripped it off. I clung so strongly at that moment. I hadn't touched him in over 75 years.

Butterflies fluttered in my stomach. I was about to make love with the man I've loved for almost a century. I was going to lose my virginity to him once and for all. Edward removed my pants and began to gently kiss my inner thighs, making my back arch. I ran my hands through his hair as he crawled up to kiss my lips.

"Edward," I moaned into his mouth.

"What is it love?"

"We're finally going to do this," I smiled.

He grinned, that same crooked grin, that use to make my heart stop. "It was worth the wait." He ran one of his hands over my breast as he kissed me.

"I'm so glad I waited for you. I always hoped we would-"

He stopped and looked at me. "You waited for me?"

I suddenly felt exposed and stupid. "Yes."

"You're a virgin?"

"Yes." Of course he wasn't.

He sat up, not taking his eyes off me. "Oh, Bella."

"It's okay, Edward. It would have been absurd for you to wait. You all thought I was dead."

"No, I did wait. I waited up until last night."

I felt sick to my stomach. He and Madison had sex last night, here on this bed. I stood up, covering my chest. "Why did you wait so long?"

"I would have waited forever, but being back here, in Forks, in this house, in this room, it wasn't far to Madison. She loves me and I love her, Bella. But it's you I'm in love with you, do not forget that."

"I need a shirt." I didn't know what else to say. I didn't want to leave, but when I realized they were here, on this bed, not even 24 hours ago, I couldn't be in this room.
Edward stood up and walked to his dresser drawer. "Come, please."
I walked to him as he opened the top drawer. These were all my clothes from when I was Isabella Swan. "How?"
"After you died, I went back to your house to see if it was true. Then Charlie was admitted, and I couldn't just leave your things there."

I pulled out a blue sweater, the same one Edward had loved when I wore. I pulled it over my head. "Maybe we missed our time."

Edward looked at me, his expression pained. "Maybe."

"We should keep this to ourselves."

He nodded. "Unless Alice already saw this happening."

"She won't say anything." I watched as Hayden put on his shirt. "I need to get back to my family."

Edward looked at me. "Bella…"

"Yes?"

"I love you."

I kissed him on his cheek. "And I love you." I walked out of that room, feeling so overwhelmed and miserable. But I couldn't turn back, I couldn't go back in there and tell him I was willing to start over. I couldn't and I wouldn't

EPOV

I watched as she walked out of my room. I could feel her pain because I felt the same way. I sat down on my bed, not sure why. This acting human was starting to become to natural. I loved Bella, always have, from the moment I met her. I can't believe she went through all of this alone. No, she didn't go through this alone. She has her family. A family that doesn't include me.

Alice walked in. Her face was glum and his voice was softened. "Bella left."

"I know." I was staring at my hands.

"I saw what happened. But you changed your mind at the last part. It was going to lead to something else."

"I know." I looked at her. "Did I do the right thing?"

She sat down beside me and rested her head on my shoulder. "I think you did. You are Bella were a lifetime ago. But you have Madison know. We all have Madison now. And Bella has
Seth and the rest of the Malones. They love her."

"Bella was never with Seth," I whispered. "She waited for me."

"I know," was Alice's soft reply. I would love to have Bella back. Sorry Edward.

Madison walked into the room, her face was soft and though she was threatened by Bella in her thoughts, she never voiced them to me. I suppose she knew she didn't have to.

Alice stood up. "I'm going to see what Jasper is doing."

Madison sat down next to me. You kissed her.

I looked at her, she knowing I had. "No." I lied.

Her face lit up. "Really?"

"Really." I forced a smile. Is that what Bella truly wanted?

I thought you had. Bella was wearing a different shirt.

"I was her favorite shirt from when she was human. Alice had given it to her."

"How do you feel about Bella, Edward?" That, she did voice.

"I love her, Maddy. But you are my present and my future." I paused. "Bella is my past."