N.
That day at the beach.Just the two of us, together. It was sunset, and we were laughing. I love your laugh- it's as smooth as hot chocolate and seems to melt into my ears. We're sitting in the sand with the tide lapping at our bare feet, washing sand up over them and then dragging it back again. It looks like my feet are sinking. It's an empty beach and the sands are white, almost as pure and clean as your skin.
Almost.
You take my hand in yours, weaving your fingers between mine. You raise it to your lips and kiss it and the skin tingles like it's just waking up. You look into my eyes, your own blacker than black. So dark they feel like they could suck in your soul. Suck In who you are. Black hole black.
You stand up and help me to my feet. You pull me close to you and carry the backpack with both our clothes in it. I carry the camera.
And we walk home. Back to your place, but home all the same.
Because that's where you are.
You weren't there when I woke up.
At first I think there's a reason for it. That you're in the house somewhere. But then I realise how early it is. Three AM. I've only been asleep for two hours. You're never awake this early for anything.
The window's open. That's strange. You never leave the window open.
I'm starting to get worried now. I throw the blanket off of me and jump out of bed, wearing only a pair of boxer shorts. I pull on a pair of black jeans and one of your T-shirts from your wardrobe. It's gonna get creased, but I know you won't care. I'm careful not to choose one of the shirts with an Uchiha symbol- I'm not that brave.
I run barefoot to the door, my feet slapping against the cold hardwood floor. I call your name as loud as I can. "Suki! Suki!?" But there's no answer. "Sasuke!!!" I holler.
But I get no reply.
I run down the stairs and into the kitchen, hoping against hope you're making a midnight snack or a drink or you've fallen asleep in the fridge or anything- just so I can know where you are, but you're not there.
And that's when I hear the sirens, and I already know what's happened.
You've left.
S.
I hear the sirens but don't care. They won't catch me.
I'm sitting on the gigantic stone head of the first hokage at the valley of the end, my bag at my side. I'm crying. I know it's irrational- I've made my choices and regardless of whether they were good ones my path has been decided. There is no turning back. I've planned this moment for so long. Running away. I anticipated it all, I've already mourned my losses before they happened, I even allowed myself one more night with you...
But it hurts dammit! It hurts to leave you. To break the promises I only just made. Just the sound of your voice when you asked me to stay with you forever... I couldn't say no. Even though I knew leaving would break your heart, I didn't want to have to see the pain in your eyes. To see you cry...
I stand up, wiping my eyes with my arm. It's too late to cry. Crying won't bring you back.
N.
I can see you! I ran until my heart pumped battery acid and my lungs burnt and my muscles were made of lead, and I see you! "Sasuke!" I holler.
I haven't brought much with me. My camera, some clothes, and that's it. I don't know where you're going, just that I need to be there too.
You turn to my, and I expect to see eyes filled with rage. But instead I see eyes filled with relief. You open your arms and I run at you.
I punch you in the face. You don't flinch. Instead you grab my arms- softly, yet forcefully. I struggle.
"Why?"
I get free of your arms and beat my fists against your chest. I'm crying. "You said you'd never leave me. You promised."
"...I'm sorry."
"That doesn't change anything" I sob. "I love you. More than anything else in the world. And you're willing to just throw all of that away!"
"..."
"...At least you should have told me. Dumped me normally instead of just running off in the middle of the night."
"I'm not dumping you, Naru-kun. I love you."
I rest my head against your chest, by hands curled into fist on either side of my face.
"I'm coming with you."
You look surprised. "What?"
"I'm coming with you. I know I can't convince you to stay. You're important to me. I need to be with you."
"I can't let you do that."
"But you can let me die inside by leaving me?"
"Naruto... you can't be with me. Everyone I care about dies. I don't want to see you dead by the hands of Itachi or anyone else!" You spit the words with at me like sour milk.
"If you leave me, then you're pretty much doing the job yourself." I sigh. "If you leave now, I'll follow you. You may as well just let me leae with you now and save me the trouble."
You sigh, resigned, but I can feel your heartbeat hasten.
"Are you sure about this?"
"More sure than about anything else in the world, Sasu-chan. I love you."
"...I love you too."
You kiss me on the head, then take my hand in yours.
"Let's go, then." You say. And we jump over the chasm to the other side and run into the forest on the other side, hand in hand, as if the fires of hell were chasing us.
In honour of Donegal who is 19 today!!!!!
I don't own Naruto or I miss you (Last chappie)
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