Thank you guys - I never really expected this would cause such a response. So, thank you!

You wanted me to continue. I had no idea where to go with that story, so I decided to pick a topic that was nagging on me .

Again, Lost Girl is not mine, the story is far away from the show and English isn't my native tongue. Please forgive me the mistakes (ALL OF THEM) and the poor language and everything else.

Lauren was working in her lab, as Bo walked in. Her lips tightly pressed together, trying carefully to hide the curiosity that burned beneath her skin.

"Heyyyyyyyy..." she greeted overwhelmingly and smiled as Lauren looked to her. The blonde walked over to her, pressed a sweet kiss on her lips. "Hello."

"Hi!" Bo kiss back. A wide grin grew on Laurens lips. "Hey..."

So they went on for a short period until Lauren noticed the unease in her lovers behavior. "What is it?" But Bo just played with the collar of Lauren's labcoat. "Uhmmm nothing... how was your date..."

"Date? It wasn't actually a date, Bo.." the doctor clarified and looked straight in her girlfriends face.

"You and that girl? A girl you obviously like a lot..."

"Bo..." Lauren pulled away from the succubus, but that didn't want her girlfriend get away too easily. "You cooked, invited her in your house.." She continued and watched her carefully for a hint of a memory flashed back.

"It's the Ash's house ..." Lauren corrected and tried to change the subject. She felt kind of uncomfortable with Bo digging in her privacy.

"Would you just stop interrupting me ..." The succubus teased her. "I had dinner with Dan..." Lauren wanted to finish this conversation. Bo was great and beautiful and gorgeous and generous and had the biggest heart of all times, but they never really had that kind of situation and she never really had to deal with her girlfriend in such a mood. Horny, needy, upset, immature but jealous?

"Sounds like a date for me.."

"Fine - whatever … Are you jealous...Bo?"

"Me.. no..." Lauren gave her an unconvinced look but returned to her work, leaving the succubus to herself and her thoughts. After a while, she thought Bo had already left, she noticed a body leaning next to her. "Did she stay ...here?"

"Pardon me?"

"Dan ... did she ... you ... have you guys ... I mean, it's not..." Bo breathed out. Wow - that was hard. "But you like her." For a moment, that felt like an eternity the doctor hold Bo's eyes. She felt disbelief, disappointment - anger, but she swallowed those feelings. "Yes." she said and walked out on her. Right now … Bo's closeness was unbearable.

"Yes? Yes What?" Bo asked.

"Do you insist to go on, Bo? Really?" Lauren now straightened her shoulders. "Because if so... let me ask you a question first... you sleeping with others is okay, but me doing this is not?" Lauren's eyes burned in anger. Anger about something Bo did - but Bo couldn't even remember what she did wrong.

"This is ridiculous, Lauren ... I need to feed..." Bo told her, as if Lauren wouldn't know, but for a reason the doctor seemed to forget this. "Because I can't satisfy you - is that what you want me to tell? You have to fuck around because I am not enough? So this is all my fault?"

"Lauren I never said this is anybodys fault ...but we know - as drastically it sounds - it's the truth ..." Well it was and Lauren hated this truth. "Yeah ... and it kind of hurts..." she replied, this time calmer. "Yeah ...I know, babe." soft fingers caressed the doctors skin on her chin. She smiled and walked over to another instrument.

"How is it, I don't know about that time in your life?"

"You never asked me..."

"You never told me ..."

"Every girl needs it's secrets..." Lauren said and returned to the microscop.

"I am not sure this is such kind of a secret that you should keep to yourself, Lauren. I think this is something you should want me to know."

"Bo... this was a long time ago ..."

"Don't give me the 'long time ago' excuse. I care about you. And we are talking about war... still, horrible. People die. People you cared about. I want to know such things."

"Such things or... just Dan?" She paused and hold Bo's eyes. Then she continued talking. "As you heard she is a shield of light - a protective fae. I met her in Afghanistan. She was my German shepherd. And until yesterday I didn't even know she was fae."

"You call her German shepherd... so she is German or what..?" But the doctor just turned on her heels, she wasn't exactly sure why Bo's digging was so annoying. She loved Bo, but there was something about her and this soldier she doesn't want to reveal to her. This was her past, her story something no one was allowed to take away. Not even Bo.

"Can we talk tonight? Please - there is a bunch of work for me ... so if you don't mind.." Bo gulped hard to get rid of the lump in her throat. "Sure, let's talk tonight. Let's say ... seven?"

"I don't know - I call you as soon I am done here ... okay?" She saw this sad smile on Lauren's face. What just happened? "Perfect..." Bo smiled, pecked her on her lips and walked to the door, stopped as she looked back and saw the strange expression on Lauren's face.

"Are we good?" she asked her and Lauren just nodded. They were not.

Bo watched the couple at the bar for about twenty minutes and checked the display of the cell phone every now and than. The clock told her it was nearly ten and Lauren haven't called yet. So she decided to call her instead.

After she heard the dialing sound the second time Lauren answered it. There was laughter in the background. And noise of people - talking. She saw the girl lifting a finger - telling her company to wait a minute.

"Babe.. I am sorry ..." Lauren sounded calmer, easier, happier.

"Lauren ... where are you.." she asked back.

" ... I am at the Dal ... I was just finished with my stuff and wanted to call you in for a drink...You're coming?"

"Really, well ...yeah, yeah...why not..." Bo felt the smile of her girlfriend.

"Great! We're waiting..."

"We?"

"Oh, ehm... yeah...Dan is with me...That's a problem?"

"Dan ... so ...she's still in the town?"

"Bo..." she felt the change in her mood immediately. "I thought we were good."

"Well - I guess I am not ..." With that she ended the call. She lifted the head and saw the girl being touched by her company's fingers.

"BO!" Lauren yelled in the device and then sighed loudly.

"What's the matter with the little succubus?" Dan asked laying her hand on her's.

"She thinks ... " Lauren breathed in a huge amount of air. "we're having a thing..."

"A thing ... "

"...yeah... like me betraying her..." she explained to the short-haired woman.

There was a small smile forming around Dan's lips and she scratched her nose. "Do you?"

"You've been there..." Lauren stated and looked in her blue eyes.

"C'mon Lauren. That's not the point, she is a succubus, sex means nothing... it's her daily business!"

"It's in her system ... I know."

"Exactely. It's feeding ..." The fae tilted her head, waited a moment to give Lauren the time to get out of her thoughts. "This isn't about sleeping or not sleeping with me, Lauren, this is about love. Do you betray her?"

"I love her." the human clarified and she listened to the small "Okay..." from the woman before her. "But I also ... feel amazing in your company. You make me feel amazing. It's not that I love you, well I do … just not the way I love her ... " Lauren felt sorry for what she just said, but it was true. Lauren breathed heavily in. "Sometimes it's so incredibly complicated with her, her world, her friends, her being a succubus, and being this unwritten page in the fae's history book. She is loved by so many and they all expect her to bring the great change. It hurts I have to share her and being just the human lover at her side, that's not trustworthy." She frowned slightly and bit her lip. "At that point this was more than I could handle. And then you show up, being this wonderful easy going creature that you are, filling my system with that love and those memories and everything falls in place and I am wondering 'Why now?' and I know we'll never find out... " Lauren closed her eyes just to open them again, because they started to burn. "You are the only thing that belongs to me, and me alone. You are the very last piece of my life, the last piece of my sanity, you know that? That's why I love you so much, even though you are fae - I love the human you are." Dan smiled, reached for Laurens fingers to interlace them, but it was on Lauren to talk. "I am tired Shep, tired of nearly everything. And even though Bo is exactly who I always wanted to be with, right now, I feel alone. And I feel this urgency to just kiss you and fall asleep next to you as I did in Afghanistan and you just hold me, ONLY me. And tomorrow everything will be just fine! And then I know it won't because Bo will find out and this will destroy her and this I can't or want to do to her... so all I want is this drink with you. And that kiss - do I ask for too much?" She has finished and she felt better. She closed her eyes and savoured the lingering touch of the fingertips on her skin.

"No. You don't..." they heard a well known voice behind them and turned to face the beauty.

Lauren froze. "Bo... I was rambling..."

"I know, Lauren. But you are right..." Bo replied bravely, but it doesn't help to abandon the sadness from her face. "I love you Bo, you know that? I ... we haven't done anything wrong, don't just ..." Too much. The succubus needed some air. "Bo! Stop! For the god's sake .. and look at me. Please!" Lauren just hopped off the stool and followed her lover. "You are angry? Okay, got that. I set you up, I am sorry, I never intended to. But Bo - I had a life before the fae. Before you and Dan happened to be a part of it. The Ash forced me to give up my past, my life... She is one good thing from my former life, okay? You right, I like her a lot, yes there was a time I wanted her to be more. I am sorry you noticed that. You don't like her? Well, she saved my life, it is her why we can have this conversation, Bo.. So, if you need to be angry and jealous just be... I understand this, but please remember one thing - I deeply truly madly love you. Right here and now - it's just you."

"I know. And I love you too, I just think I forget sometimes how lucky I am ..."

"So you are not breaking up?"

"No ... no... you thought I ... would? NO!"

"Why are you here?"

"I saw you leaving your apartment with her and I decided that I had to learn more about that girl - Dan. " The succubus looked over to the woman, that was so completely different. But she saw this calmness in her, like an oasis, a spot where she could imagine Lauren, finding some rest… at least for now. "You like her and I guess if you do so, she is probably something special." Bo spoke. "Otherwise you wouldn't like her. At least that's what I always told myself. That I am not that bad as long someone like you could love a monster like me. So ... "

"Bo you're not a ..." Lauren wanted to assure her but Bo just laid her pointer on Laurens lips and smiled. "It seems I am not as strong as I thought I am ... I can't really handle this, because I see ... you kind of want her and she is totally responding..."

"I promise... I won't.." but Bo just kissed her silent. "Don't promise ... and ...don't tell me either..."

Her eyes met those of the soldier, but she just didn't say anything. She couldn't. She didn't know what or how to say. To feel. And she swore this was the hardest thing she ever did in her life…