Chapter 2

Sunshine…Sunshine Who?

[Bailey's POV]

"I'm home is anyone else?" I called out as I walked in the front door. I forgot to check to see if my mom was there but most likely she isn't.

"In the kitchen!" I heard her yell back.

Well I guess she is here….

I walked into the kitchen to see her stirring something on the stove.

"Ummm what are you doing?"

She smiled. "I'm making some really good spaghetti!"

"For you?"

"No." She frowned. "For us."

"You." I pointed. "You are cooking dinner for us? As in for me and you? Like…I'm included?"

She frowned again. "Yes. It'll be ready soon. Go put your things away."

I turned to go to my room to put my bag down and get settled and before I knew it she was calling me to eat.

I walked into the dining room to see a bowl of food sat out on the table for me.

Wow….c'mon this has to be a dream…..

I watched as she came and sat down at the table as well.

"That's yours." She said pointing to the bowl. It looked delicious.

"Who taught you how to cook?" I Joked.

She made a face. "I just so happen to be the best in cook in L.A. I don't see why they won't just give me my own cooking show, but you know….whatever!" She said waving it off.

I sat down and took a bite.

It was delicious!

"Wow this is really good!"

She smiled confidently. "Well duh, I made it."

I stopped eating. "Why?" I asked.

"Because I wanted some and-"

"-no, why, why are you all of a sudden….being….like…sort of like…my…"

"-Mother?" She finished for me.

My eyes got a little wide as I nodded.

She sighed.

"I guess it scared me. You know, Sunshine."

"What do you mean?"

She looked down as she gave a long pause. "I guess it hit me….reality, that…tomorrow isn't promised. I witnessed the funeral of a little girl, the same age as mine and her mother wasn't even there you know? It had me thinking how in the world someone could not be there for their child and it hit me again."

She paused again as I stayed quiet waiting for her to say more.

"Bailey I'm sorry. I know I probably haven't been the best mom to you and I just want to make it up. I know I can't fix 16 years and I'm so sorry. Tori talked to me one night as well. She sort of opened my eyes a little bit but I didn't really listen to her until the incident. You're my daughter. My baby girl. I know you may not think it, but if I lost you…I really don't know what I'd do. I wouldn't be able to live with myself anymore."

"I want to start over. I know I'm late, but please give me a chance. No matter what I've said to you over the years, I do, I really do love you Bailey. I love you with all my heart, and I've never really shown it."

I watched as two tears from my mother's eyes. I didn't even know she knew how to cry!

"I'm so sorry Bailey."

Me being the sensitive girl that I am started crying. I never in a million years thought I would hear this. This is something I've waited and prayed for all my life and here it is. Here she is. This…this is my mother. Everyone makes mistakes. It's hard for me to hold a grudge against someone for their wrong doing because I wouldn't want someone holding one against me and of course I forgive her and I give her a chance. She will always have a chance.

I smiled.

I'm so excited to see what a mother I have and I hope to God she means what she said to me because if not, I would be heartbroken.

"I love you." Was all I managed to say before I threw myself onto her giving her a tight hug in which she hugged me back just as tight. I can't believe I'm even getting a hug from her right now, and it feels so good!

I don't think she realized that I wasn't 5 years old when she gave me a kiss on my lips but it didn't matter. If that's her way of showing me that she loves me and that she means it, it's fine.

There's no greater feeling then the feeling of having someone who loves you..

Someone like your own mother….

[Shiloh's & Roxy's Text]

Roxy: Shilloh?

Shiloh: What? And why do you have two L's in my name?

Roxy: Typo sorry. What are you doing Thursday since there's no school?

Shiloh: Sleeping.

Roxy: All day?

Shiloh: From dawn until dusk.

Roxy: Come to lunch with me?

Shiloh:…..why?

Roxy: Because I want to go somewhere Thursday and everyone is busy and did you not say that we could hang out anytime?

Shiloh: Did I tell you that…?

Roxy: You did.

Shiloh: I lied too quick….

Roxy: C'mon Shiloh, you should get out anyways.

Shiloh: I get out a lot thank you very much.

Roxy: So Thursday at 12:00pm?

Shiloh: No.

Roxy: Okay, I'll be there to pick you up.

Shiloh: I don't remember agreeing to this….?

Roxy: You just did.

Shiloh:…When?

Roxy:FWD: I don't remember agreeing to this….?

Shiloh: Lmao! Wow you did the most….alright since you made me laugh….

Roxy: So you will go?

Shiloh: Don't ask again or I'll change my mind…

Roxy: (smiling emoticon) it's a date.

Shiloh: Date?

Roxy: No…not a date-date, a date…shut up…

Shiloh: Hmmmm a dateeeeee

Roxy: (straight face emoticon)

Shiloh: We should go on a play date.

Roxy: Have you lost it?

Shiloh: I'll dress nice (winking emoticon)

Roxy: It's not a date.

Shiloh: Just play along…

Roxy: Shiloh it's not a date.

Shiloh: (smiling emoticon) Well I'll see you Thursday baby.

Roxy:….really Shiloh….chill.

Shiloh: Hope you're taking me some place nice for our first date.

Roxy: It's not a date! I just want lunch and didn't want to go alone!

Shiloh: Mhm…see you Thursday. (winking emoticon)

Roxy:…..what have I gotten myself into…..

[Tori's POV]

Tuesday Night

"Where the hell is she!?" Jade said as she paced back and forth in the living room. Shiloh's curfew is 9:00pm on a school night and the time now reads 1:08am.

She won't answer her phone, she won't text back, her friends have no idea where she is and Jade is going crazy.

"Baby calm down-"

"-I'm not going to calm down Tori! Where the hell is my daughter! She's never been this late!"

I looked down. I have to admit I was scared too.

Jade goes crazy every time she doesn't hear from Shiloh for longer than 4 hours. She always has these theories of what might have happened to her, then she goes into this panic state where she starts calling all the hospitals and crying. This is something she's never done. It didn't start until we lost Sunshine.

KNOCK, KNOCK, KNOCK

Jade ran to the door and swung it open as I walked up behind her.

"She belong to you?" One of the two policemen said as they stood behind Shiloh.

"Thank God." Jade said as she grabbed Shiloh into a tight hug giving her a kiss on top of her head.

"What happened?" I asked as I took a step closer.

"Shiloh and some of her friends decided they wanted to egg cars that passed an alley off of Sunset. One happened to be an undercover police car." He said pointing outside to his car which was covered in raw eggs.

"Officer I am so, so sorry about her. We lost a family member recently and it's taking a toll on her."

He nodded. "I understand. Don't let it happen again. You all have a nice night."

"You too. I am sorry again." I said as they walked off the porch.

I closed the door to turn around and see Jade change from her her motherly panic stage into a pit of rage one.

"What the hell were you thinking!?" Jade said threw gritted teeth.

Shiloh sighed and rolled her eyes in which Jade grabbed her face and yanked it towards her. "I asked you a question!"

"I don't know!" Shiloh yelled back as she yanked her face from Jade's hand.

Jade stared at her for a good moment before she spoke.

"You lose your car."

"What!? How will I get to school!"

"I will take you. There and home! That's it!"

"But that's not fair!"

"Life's not fair! Get upstairs and go to bed right now!"

"-But"

"NOW!"

Shiloh stared at Jade as if she were deciding whether or not to talk back.

"Fuck you." She said as she turned to walk away.

"Wait..wait…excuse me?" Jade said as she grabbed her arm.

"-Jade…" I said to calm her because I knew what was to come next.

"-Tori shut up!" Jade yelled at me as she pointed a finger as if I were a child.

I lifted a brow and crossed my arms.

She turned back to Shiloh. "What did you say!? Say it again! I dare you!"

Shiloh swallowed but kept quiet.

Within a second Jade brought her hand back and back slapped Shiloh on the side of her face causing her to fall onto the floor.

"Jade!" I scream out.

"Bet you won't say it again. Go. To. Bed. Now!" She said as I watched Shiloh's stand up in rage and speed upstairs to her room with a slam of her door.

"Was that necessary!?" I yelled at her.

"Tori when will you fucking learn!? I'm not going to let her keep doing shit like this and get away with it anymore!"

"I don't even think she knows what she is doing Jade! She's clearly not in her right mind! She just lost someone! I think she's lost! She doesn't know what to do with herself. Maybe if you talk to her instead of smack her around all the damn time things wouldn't be as bad as they are!"

"Fine you go talk to her then! I'm done!" She said as she used her hands to make the done signal.

"Done with what Jade!? Being the mother of your daughter!? Everything is all about discipline to you isn't it? She needs you Jade, because she won't listen to me! She'll listen to you, but all you do is….this. I'm so disappointed in you."

Jade's faced cleared as if something I said hit a soft spot and god I hope it did.

"I need to think." She said as she grabbed her jacket and her keys by the door.

"Oh so you are going to pull this again? You're just going to leave me?"

"Tori no….No." She said softer as she walked up to me and pulled me into a hug. She pulled out of the hug before she placed a hard kiss on my lips. "I love you. It's not you. I just need to…I don't know. Think. I'll be back okay." She gave me another kiss softer this time before she turned to leave closing the front door roughly behind her.

[Shiloh's POV]

I sat on my bed as tears filled my eyes but I would be damned if I let them fall. I'm not going to cry, fuck crying.

I took a deep breath as I held everything in and my eyes finally dried without a single tear to escape.

KNOCK, KNOCK, KNOCK

Ughhhhhh!

"What!"

"Can I come in?" I heard Tori's soft voice from the other side of the door.

"No!"

"Please?"

"I said no! Everybody leave me alone!"

"Jade doesn't mean to hurt you Shiloh."

"I don't care! Leave!"

"Will you talk to me please?"

"Talk about what!?"

"Anything you want."

"How about we talk about you leaving the outside of my door!"

I heard her give a sigh. "I love you Shiloh. I'll see you in the morning."

With that I heard her footsteps walking away before I threw my back down on my bed.

I turned my head to see a pink bear. Sunshine's pink bear with Ke'Mo knitted to its stomach.

I grabbed the bear before I punched it and threw it across the room.

The bear is the only thing that had kept out after I packed up every little thing down to Sunshine's toothbrush into a box and put it in the basement.

I didn't want to have anything to do with her. I just want to forget any and everything that ever happened. I want to pretend I never met her. Then I won't have to feel it. I won't have to feel that pain, that pain that eats me from the inside out every time someone mentions her name.

I can't help the old memories that creep into my mind from time to time and I hate when they do. I just want to be brain washed. Get amnesia. I don't want to remember. I don't want to hurt.

So that's what I do.

I don't remember Sunshine and I won't.

Sunshine…..Sunshine who?

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