Now in the
White flames of burning flags
We found a world worth dying for, yeah
We've been battered so hard that
We don't feel anymore
Rise Against-Worth Dying For

I'm sure everyone has felt pain. Some people have even been hit by 100 ton trucks.

But have you ever hade you atom rearranged? Have you ever been morphed into something so evil it makes you feel every bit of the pain that's ripping every ounce of your being apart? Have you ever felt the numbness it brings after the pain? A numbness so terrifying that you want the pain back. You want it back because pain means you alive, and anything is better than lying in the numbing darkness of Limbo.

Bet you've never felt the panic of knowing it's starting all over again when you feel yourself falling apart? You feel yourself being torn apart from the inside then put back together again as something completely different. And this time when the pain stops, there is no numbness to help the soreness of the aftermath.

Have you ever felt that? No? Well it hurts.

When I felt like I could move again I sat up to see I was lying in front of the Arrancars in Las Noches. And I was completely naked, great.

"How do you feel Kurosaki-san?" It sounded like Aizen's voice I didn't turn my head to find out, I was too tired to care.

"Like all my atoms were rearranged…oh wait." I replied as a female Arrancar with purple hair offered me a white outfit. I said thanks and took it from her hands.

"We have recently lost our number tenth Espada so you will take his place." Aizen said as I dressed into my new white clothing. I fingered the edge of the hole that was now in the middle of my stomach as I pulled my jacket on; it was long sleeved and turtlenecked but only went down right below my ribcage where a number 10 lay above my heart.

"So Ichi, how does it feel to be one of us?" I looked over my shoulder with a foolish grin on my face as I heard my lover.

"Not nearly as amazing as it feels to see you again." I whispered as Grimm embraced me for the first time since the transformation. I drank in his musky scent of spices and catnip. I was home.

In the moonlight
Your face it glows
Like a thousand diamonds
I suppose
And your hair flows like
The ocean breeze
Not a million fights
Could make me hate you
You're invincible
Yeah, It's true
It's in your eyes
Where I find peace

Broken-Secondhand Serenade

I moaned in ecstasy and bucked my hips as I reached my long awaited climax. Grimmjow pulled and collapsed next to me. I stroked Grimms bony mask as we panted in sync.

"Damn Ichichi-" his other pet name for me "-this is so much easier when I don't have to worry about breaking your fragile human body." I rolled my eyes at his absurd suggestion that I used to be weak. Aw c'mon don't give me that face I was just kiddin'! Ichiiiiii." I rolled over and pretended to ignore him. But the consistent little bugger just nuzzled his face into the crook of my neck. I shivered at the vibrations his calling my name was creating.

Soon I couldn't hold it in anymore and began to giggle like a teenage girl. I flipped back over and straddled my little kitty. I moaned as his lust filled eyes roamed over my body, his hands roaming my bare and sweat covered chest. I made a show of throwing my head back and moaning even louder, knowing it would turn him on even more. I screamed as he sat up and bit down on my nipple, drawing blood.

And we were right back where we started. Rough sex and high pitched screams of pleasure.

Grimm didn't bother stretching me but instead flipped me over on my hands and knee's and just impaled me. My arms folded in and my head collapsed onto the pillow.

"Fuck Grimm, that hurt" I moaned into my pillow but Grimm didn't answer he just kept going.

"Ichichi." Grimmjow whispered into my ear as we almost reached our climax. "Scream for me." I let out a scream as we finished and fully collapsed onto the bed. Grimmjow fell next to me and pulled me into his arms "I love you." He whispered.

I moved closer and whispered back, "I love you more." I did love him, more than anything else in this fucked up world and I knew that by his side was where I always want to be, I will never want anyone else. And I could only hope he felt the same.

"Ichigo, my strawberry, I'd die for you."