Everything is going to be ok.. Chapter 1 – Erens past
The world is not a nice place. She is cruel and Eren had to learn that very early in his life. The first time was as he was ten years old. As he was ten his father, a famous doctor, was murdered on the way home in a park. He was murdered with 29 stabs with a knife. The murder was captured very fast but the damage was done.
After his dad died his mother, Carla, began to ignore him. And it was worse as she met her new lover. A half year later we moved in with him. John, the lover of Erens mum, was a very nice man. He was a little too nice. But he didn't do anything until Eren was thirteen years old.
As Eren was thirteen years old Carla and John married. So he was now Eren step-father. Short after they married he began to touch Eren for the very fist time. It was at night. Eren was almost asleep as he came into Erens room and lay beside him and began to touch him on places were no parent or other people should touch him. As Eren noticed what his step-father doing to him he woke up and wanted to shout at him. But by the time he woke up his step-father was out of the room and closed the door. All Eren could see was a creepy smile from him.
On the next day Eren tried to tell his other about it but she just said angrily: "Just because you don't like him you don't have to tell lies." And so naïve how Eren was in the age of thirteen he thought that his mother would believe and help him.
After that his step-father began to touch him every time the both were more than five minutes alone. On the ass when Eren went past him, on his cock when he sat down on the sofa, every fucking time. So began everything. The life began to be hell.
On Erens fourteens birthday it was the first time that he done more than just touch. Eren would never forget what he felt at that time. Ashamed, despair, helpless Eren felt as his wrists were bound on the headboard of his bed and his step-father trusted inside him. He would never forget how he screamed and begged that he would stop. But he didn't stop.
Almost one year he raped Eren until his mother found out. But her reaction was different as what Eren wished. Eren was fifteen now. And instead of helping Eren she shouted at him. That he was a worthless piece of shit and that she hated how Eren had all the attention of her husband. Attention the Eren didn't want at all.
At the age of fifteen Eren had lost all of his friends. They all left him because they said that he acted weird and since he didn't say anything at all. How he couldn't act weird when his mother who was so a loving mother whom every child wanted turned into a monster that let her new husband rape his child. She even got so jealously that she began to hit me almost every time she saw me. Home was a living hell.
As Eren was sixteen he was under so much stress that he began to cut himself. He found a razorblade inside the bathroom and thought that he just should try that. His step-father never notices his cuts or he didn't want to notice them. At this time Eren didn't fight him anymore. What should he do? He was just a High school schooler and his step-father was a high ranked police detective. He was strong and Eren weak.
With seventeen Erens arms were full of scars. But not as many that he could say that they happed through an accident. As Eren was seventeen his stress level was higher than before. So he searched for an other and found something that was now normal in his life. Sex. He began to sleep with strangers and sometimes even for money. The money was for Erens good service. He didn't mind it that someone would call him whore or dirty slut. And he liked the money. It's not like its something new that some dick was down his ass.
In the age of eighteen Eren was done with High school. He graduated as one of the fifth best. He earned a scholarship on a Collage in Sina. This was good because Sina was far away from here. So that his step-father couldn't visit him very easily.
This was something that didn't amuse him. But Erens mother was very happy about it. Of course, now she had her husband all for herself. She helped Eren even with his things that he needed and to pack all his things. She even bought him to the train station. But Eren thought that she just want to make sure that he's gone.
That day was something that Eren would never forget ether. Because for the first time after eight fucking years in hell he could breath freely. He felt light like he could fly. But in his mind there would ever been the darkness in there he lived for eight years. And she could come out every time and every where. She is just sleeping.
Yeah, the world is a cruel place where everyone and everything could be dangerous. That's the same as with trust. Eren think he could never ever trust again after the betrayal of his mother and the death of his father. That was Eren thinks and believe because if you trust you are attackable and Eren didn't want to be attackable.
Eren wished that the collage life would be better as his last eight years. That's what he wished and thought. Yes he thought.
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