Disclaimer: I only wished that I owned Sailor Moon...but sadly I don't...(starts sobbing...'Why is the world so unfair?')
A/N: Despite being Sailor Moon, this is a yaoi! (So if offended, DON'T READ IT!) It takes place in the 30th century and is told from Helios' POV and sometimes it will be from an outside view. Occasionally there will be a break where we get a look at Chibi-Usa's diary. (Sorry if anyone is a little OOC!) Please R &R!
Chapter 2: The Walk
Later that afternoon I was walking with Chibi-Usa in the garden.
"Helios?" she asked me. "Do yo love me?" She had concern in her eyes.
When she arrived in the garden earlier I had been a little jumpy, due to the mornings events. It obviously made her unnerved.
"You know that I do." lying through my teeth. I hated lying, but I had to.
If I wanted to keep my love, then I had to.
"Why do you ask?" I questioned.
"No reason…" she laughed nervously.
"Don't worry though little one. I still love you." I told her. It was the truth, but not in that way anymore.
I knew something was wrong, but I didn't press anything. I spent the rest of the walk trying to stay calm.
xXxXx
Dear Diary,
I was worried this afternoon. This morning I went to visit Helios shortly after breakfast and I saw him and Papa kissing. I thought maybe he didn't love me, but when I asked him about it during our walk, he still said he did. He wasn't lying to me. He wouldn't lie to me, would he?
xXxXx
A table is shown. Sitting on one side if King Endymion. On his left is his wife and on his right is his daughter.
"So dear, how was your day?" Serenity asked her husband.
"Fine. How about you?" he replied.
"Same old, same old."
Chibi-Usa meanwhile was lost in thought.
Did he lie? Could he have? Why would he though?
These were the questions that ran through her mind.
As she thought about these questions, she could only guess at the events that were going to happen.
xXxXx
Three Days Later
Sometimes, I'll find myself daydreaming about him even though he's sitting right next to me, just like right now. What's funny is that I use to do the same thing to Chibi-Usa.
I still don't know how I'm going to solve that problem. All I know is that I want to keep him.
"What are you thinking about?" he asked me.
"You and our problem." I replied.
"What are we going to do about that?" he replied sounding apathetic.
"I don't really know. Maybe we could just run away. Although I don't know what that'll do." I told him. He looked at me solemnly and tightened his grip on my hand.
"Please don't talk about that now. Don't let that problem darken your pretty face." I hadn't been expecting it, but I didn't flush. I really do want to keep him and I don't know what I'd do without him.
xXxXx
Dear Diary,
Maybe I should just ask him about it. I will when we go for our walk later.
xXxXx
"Helios?" she asked me as we walked. "I need to ask you something."
"Sure little one, what is it?" After her question the other day, I was worried at what it might be.
"Well, the other day, I came down before breakfast to surprise you, and I saw you and Papa kissing. Please tell me I'm mistaken."
"You are little one." I replied, lying to her again. "Are you feeling well?" I asked, trying to change the subject.
"I'm fine." she replied starting to whine.
"Are you sure?" I put my hand to her forehead. She really did feel a little warm. The lie was becoming real. "You feel a little warm." I told her.
"Now that you mention it, I have felt a little tired for the last few days." She told me. "I think I'll go back to my room and lie down."
"I'll take you back." I offered.
"Thanks. I appreciate it." she told me.
We walked from the garden to her room and I opened the door for her. Before she walked in she leaned up and kissed me. I felt a slight tingle, like love, but not as strong as when I kissed her father.
"I really hope it's not true." she said as she stepped back. There were tears in her eyes.
"I'll go get you some water." I told her and walked away.
Instead of getting her the water I told a chamber maid to get her a pitcher and I told another servant to tell the king I wanted to see him in the garden.
No matter how much I wanted to keep him, I just couldn't do that to Chibi-Usa.
I walked back to garden and as I passed by one of the bushes I heard a rustling. My first thought was that Chibi-Usa knew about the affair and was following me, therefore hiding in the bushes. Instead a small rabbit hopped out from the bushes and I let out a sigh of relief. It wasn't her. I was just being paranoid. Although in a way a chibi-usa had followed me. (A/N: I wonder if anyone besides me will understand why that's funny...)
I continued to the bench and sat down to wait.
xXxXx
Dear Diary,
Helios answered no to my question of whether or not he was kissing Papa, but I just wanted to be certain so I followed him. Right now I'm sitting here hiding in a bush. Helios almost caught me cause a of a stupid little bunny. Anyway though, there's no one here right now, no wait, Papa's coming now. I'll write what I overhear later.
xXxXx
"Helios, you said you wanted to see me?" Endymion asked as he walked over to the bench and sat down next to me.
"Yes. No matter how much I love you, and no matter how much I want us to be together, I can't do this to Chibi-Usa. I can't be with you." Tears started to well up in my eyes as I slowly choked out the words.
"I see. I understand how you feel. I don't want to hurt her or Serenity either. But I can't let you go that easily. I have to go now, before Serenity becomes suspicious of where I went." He leaned over and kissed me for what should have been the last time, but I knew probably wouldn't be the last.
He got up and left, and I watched him as he walked away. Tears slowly started to fall and I stood up from the bench and walked to my own room.
xXxXx
Dear Diary,
Ok then, diary, I am back in my room and ready to report on what I saw and heard. To sum it up Helios did lie to me. He and Papa were together. Helios wanted to stop it cause he didn't want to hurt me, but Papa wouldn't let him. That's really it. Hopefully tomorrow everything will be back to normal.
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