DISCLAIMER: I OWN NOTHING AFFILIATED WITH GREY'S ANATOMY...this is the disclaimer for the whole story

His trumpet is gone. His cd collection is gone. His grandma's picture is gone. He's not coming back. Cristina woke up, realizing that none of this was the bad dream she was hoping it was. It was reality. Burke was gone and not coming back. How was she supposed to work with him? She helped him hide his tremors, she risked her medical liscense to keep it a secret, she learned all the procedures to help him, she was the best damn thing that every happened to him. And he left her. Sure, Meredith learned to work with Derek after his McWife came back, but deep down she knew she wasn't as strong as Meredith. Meredith could do it, but she won't be able to. Life seems so unfair. She should've just stepped out of the relationship when she wanted to; life would be so much easier then. She looked at the clock. It was 4:58. She had to be there for rounds in about an hour, but she didn't want to go. She didn't wanted to be the freak show. She knew everyone would be talking about her. No longer would she be the best of the best, dating and engaged to one of the people highest on the food chain, no…she'd the be the girl who got left at the alter. He doesn't love her. She's never been hurt by anything really before, but him telling her that he basically didn't love her, well, that hurts. She knew she would have to face the music sometime, so she literally pulled herself out of bed, and gets ready for her new residency.

She arrived at work, seeing everyone's eyes upon her as she entered the building and never went away. Even Izzie was giving her those kinds of looks.

"Stop it! I'm fine okay? Just stop pitying me! I'm fine!" she said.

"You know that everyone who says they're fine, really aren't." Izzie said.

"Oh shut up," Alex said. "Give her a break. She's a hard chick…this won't phase her."

"Yeah, Alex, cause Cristina doesn't love, right? She doesn't have feelings? She's not a machine," Izzie shot back.

"If Cristina wasn't alright, she wouldn't be here today. So just leave her alone," Meredith said, causing everyone to shut up. "Hey, where's George?"

"I don't know," Cristina said. They all looked at izzie.

"Don't look at me. Go ask his wife; the mother of his not yet conceived child."

"Gee, jealous much?" Alex said, causing Izzie to whip around.

"What?!" she said, nervously. "Jealous? Why would I be jealous? Haha."

"He was just kidding Iz, he didn't mean anything by it," Meredith said.

"Okay everyone; here are the lists for your assigned interns. I am still your resident, so if there are any problems, come to me. You are only one step higher than an intern, so don't start letting this newly found, short supply power go to your head. Now Go!" Bailey said, handing the lists to the new residents. "Yang, can I have a word with you?"

"Sure Dr. Bailey, is there something you need me to do?"

"Yes, go home."

"Go home? But why? I'm here, I'm fine, I'm ready to teach."

"You're hiding. You remember what happened when you had your miscarriage? How long did you hold it in before you broke down? The longer you wait, the worse the break down is going to be. Take time off; I've already talked to the chief. He agrees that you need some time off."
"No I don't, I'm fine. I have to go talk to my interns now," Cristina said walking away.

"You left her Preston," Addison said.

"I don't love her; not the real her. I love the woman I was trying to make her become. I can't do that to anyone," Burke said, looking away.

"Burke, you fell in love with the real her. What? Did you just fall out of love with that Cristina?" Derek said, outraged.

"I began to love the Cristina I was trying to make more than the real one. I couldn't live with that. And the more I think about it, the more I am sure I'm not really in love with her."

"You are unbelievable!" Meredith suddenly shouted. "She gave up her anti-marriage beliefs for you. She wore a dress for you. She was going to have a big wedding for you. Your mother took her eyebrows and make her wear an uncomfortable necklace and a dress that was too tight ALL FOR YOU! And you're trying to say you don't love her? Screw you! Screw you screw you screw you. Go to Hell."

"Yeah…I kinda agree with her," Addison said, walking away.

"I never thought I'd here Addison say that about Meredith," Burke said.

"Yeah, well you have to give props where props are due," Derek said..

"What?"

"Mer's right," Derek said, as he heard Cristina yell.
"Meredith look out!"

Derek and Burke, along with everyone else on the floor heard the gun shot ring, and they took off running down the hall.