Heyy! This is the second chapter to Beautiful? Enjoy remember to R&R! If you don't know what that means it stands for Read and Review.

I'm standing in front of the mirror. It's been forever since I've had a decent meal. The feeling of control is great. I know that I can do this now. Carlisle has been worried though. He said I looked at little skinny. Ha, I look fucking FAN-Tastic. I go over to my scale and see it sitting there mocking me, I glare at it. I slowly make my weigh on top of it. I close my eyes.

105

105

105

I look down into the horrid scale. I smirk at it. 102. HA. I beat my goal. I kept my promise. The only thing I've had to eat over these past days, or was it weeks, wait months? Oh, who cares? Anyway, all I've had to eat was a piece of cheese if I felt like I was going to pass out. It was hard the first couple days. I was dying to eat. Literally. Ha. Then I was searching online for tips and found websites were girls can talk and post updates on there weights and stuff. It helps a lot. Knowing that other girls out there are going through the same struggle. I go to bed happy, I succeeded.

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"Rosalie!" Alice said as she bounded into my room. "It's SUMMER!"

Great the most horrid season. Bathing suit season.

"We have to go bathing suit shopping!" Alice said if reading my mind.

"Great." I said as if it wasn't great at all. Alice then proceeds to pout. Yay.

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"ROSE!! Hurry up let me see you!!!" Alice said for the millionth time while I was changing. As I look at myself I could make out the outlines of my ribs. Hmm, I don't really want to show anyone my progress till it's finished.

"Alice, these bikinis are hugging my chest and hips weird can I try a tankini instead?" I said.

"Ya sure, I be right back." I could hear Alice dashing out of the dressing room like the energizing bunny. "Ok here!" she said while chucking the new suits over. The tankini's show a lot of my back and I don't really like it. Ah, Alice I love you. I dig through the suits to fins the perfect one. It's a monokini, or a one piece. It's plaid and cover's yet shows. It's perfect. (Pic on my profile.)

"ALICE I LOVE THIS ONE!" I said coming out of the dressing room and turning for her.

"I knew you would." She said with a smirk on her face. That pixie.

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"So do you want to grab some lunch?" Alice said as we were passing the food court. Oh. Well, I did beat my goal. Maybe a snack wouldn't hurt.

"Sure." I said walking towards all the fast food places.

"Uh, I'll have 2 soft tacos, and a small coke." Alice said then turning to me.

"I'll have the taco salad." I said. Well, I could at least eat healthy. We go over to our table and sit down. Alice starts on her tacos. I pick up my fork and take a bite of my salad. I want to scarf down the entire thing so bad but all I hear is the voice in my head screaming at me to stop and to run to the bathroom. NO! Don't eat it! Do you want to be a fat pig? I take another bite and gag. Alice notices.

"What's wrong with it?" She asked worried. Oh, no what should I say. Thank god, I became pretty good at coming up with lies at this point.

"EWW! I just ate a hair!" I said while gagging.

"Are you sure it wasn't one of our hairs?" She asked.

"Yes it was long and red. Eww. I'm not really hungry anymore." I said while pushing my plate away. "I'll eat at home."

"Not blaming you." She said.

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When I got home that night I threw up the little I had. I can't go back to my old weight, I can't. This is pretty, this is skinny.

I lay in my bed and stare at the celling, I drift off to sleep with one last thought

What if I can be skinner?