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A/N: Thank you so much for your guys amazing reviews. Here is chapter 2, It's Renesmee's POV. My chapters aren't going to have a set length they will end when I feel they should, so some will me longer then others. If you notice spelling or grammer mistakes or maybe some inconsistencies PLEASE please please let me know and I will fix them Asap.
& Londonbreezy, I know exactly what you mean. I've read so many fan fic's were Jake is depressed and goes off on a pity party. Some were he even tries to commit suicide. No, I don't believe that's who Jake is. He's been through too much and there is no way Jake is a pansy like that. My Jake is one tough cookie and he fights for what he wants. Okay, I know you guys wanna know whats going on so I'm going to stop talking. Enjoy =]
Ch 2. Breaking Free
RPOV
Eight years I've been on this earth. Eight years my parents have been controlling my every move. Telling me what to do and who I should be. My father Edward is overly protective and the fact that he couldn't read my mind didn't help either, it annoyed him to no end. I had inherited my mothers mental shield which insured that my mind was a safe place. As well as my power of projection. My mother Bella while less over protective wasn't any easier to deal with she read me like a book and could see I wasn't happy. She kept trying to keep me busy, giving me books to read and errands to run, sending me off on shopping trips with Alice and Rosalie. One day a year ago, about 2 days before my seventh birthday when I reached full maturity I was sitting in my room staring out the window like I always do when my thoughts become stormy, thinking about what I wanted to do with the life my mother had literally died to give me. I wanted to go to school to learn everything I could. I wanted to see the world, discover a new species of animals, Hell, maybe even discover an ancient civilization no one ever even knew existed. So I decided that I was going to ask my parents if I could go to school. I was an adult, technically I was 7 years old but physically I was twenty one and mentally even older. It's official I would ask my parents on my birthday. That was the day that everything changed between me and my parents.
I can't believe it. I'm finally seven, I feel like I have been waiting for this day forever. Of course Alice had gone all out, because really what girl wouldn't celebrate her twenty first birthday in style. She woke me up at ten to start pampering me for my party which wasn't until 8 hours later.
For the past few days my dreams had been filled with the most beautiful man I had ever seen. He was huge maybe 6'9 and built like...like a God. His skin was the most beautiful russet color I have ever seen. It looked as though the sun had literally reached out and kissed him all over, He had a sort of other worldly glow about him. He had thick jet black hair down to his shoulders and big pools of the darkest brown eyes I have ever seen, they were almost black. His eyes were kind and loving, even more so when he would look at me. He was always shirtless, only wearing cut off sweats. He was amazing to behold. In my dream I could feel that there was something about him that pulled me to him. That awoke feelings in me I never knew I had possessed. Ever since the dreams had started I couldn't help but feel like a giant chunk of my heart was missing. I would give anything to find it. Too bad Dream boy was just a figment of my overly active imagination. The dreams were always the same, the only thing that ever changed was the scenery. This time I was on a beautiful beach, secluded from everything. The perfect place to clear your head. The sand was a pristine white, it almost sparkled in the soft glow of the setting sun. The water was an amazing turquoise color that you will only ever find on a tropical island.I was sitting in the sand just watching the waves crash and letting my mind wander when I heard a twig snap in the forest behind me, it startled me since I thought no one else knew about this spot. I turned around to see what made the noise, even though conscious me knew who it was and waited anxiously to finally see that beautiful face again, dream me wasn't so perceptive and as always had the same reaction as she always does when she sees our prince charming as I affectionately referred to to him as. She gasped as she took in his large half naked frame looking slowly from his bare feet to his beautifully sculpted calves to the sharp V shape that started right above the waist of his sweat pants to the abs that can only be described as a work of art, as if Micheal Angelo himself had carved this beautiful man just for me. She took in his pectorals and his biceps that looked like they wanted rip from the skin on his arms up to his perfectly symmetrical jaw line. The amazingly luscious lips that had a natural pout to them and then just like clock work she got to his eyes, his warm dark chocolate eyes that would make even the most ice cold of women melt. There was that look again the look of a man who has been lost in the dessert for weeks dying of starvation only to have a thanksgiving turkey set before him on the day he would have surely died. Like a man who has been blind his whole life only to wake up and discover he can now see for the first time. The look of a man who had found his missing piece. He walked slowly to me never taking his eyes from mine. When he was finally standing over me he was even bigger then I thought. He reached out his hand as if asking me to dance. I placed my hand in his and he swiftly pulled me up bringing my face inches away from his beautiful well defined chest. He put a finger under my chin and pulled my face up so I could meet his eyes. I knew what was coming I eagerly awaited this moment every night. He bent his head never breaking eye contact his lips were mere centimeters away from mine just as his lips were about to touch mine I heard the most annoying sound in the world.
"Renesmee! Come on, get up. We have much work to do before your party." Alice screamed through my door.
"Go away! The sun is barely even up yet." I groaned. I never understood how someone so tiny could be so annoying.
"Renesmee I'm giving you ten minutes to get up and into the shower. If I come back and your still in bed, I'll let Emmet know that he can go ahead with his plan of dumping a bucket full of ice water on your head"
"Alright! I'm up."
"Awww Alice, you should have let her sleep, waking her up with the water would have been way more entertaining." I heard Emmet shout.
"Shut up" I grumbled as I finally opened my eyes. I swear Emmet had the mentality of a twelve year old. How Rose put up with him for eighty plus years I'll never understand, but he's my uncle and I love him. I got out of bed, cranky from being woken up when the best part of the dream was just about to happen.I climbed into the shower and was running on auto pilot while I let my thoughts trail off. I sighed. I wish Prince Charming existed outside of my imagination. Just like clockwork the nagging emptiness started to reappear. Everyone in my family had their other half. My grandparents Charlisle and Esme were so in love that they didn't even need to speak to one another, all they had to do was look in each others eyes and would know what the other wanted. Then there was my favorite aunt and uncle, Alice and Jasper. Alice was the bubbliest person I've ever known. and thats not saying much since I don't know many people. Alice was a vampire like the rest of my family but looking at her she fit the role of pixie better then she did vampire. Jasper was my favorite because of all the people I live with Jasper fully understands my thinking. He understands why I wanted to learn to protect myself physically when my dad thought it was unnecessary because I had my family to protect me.. Why i wanted to be treated like the adult that I was. He always answered any questions I had. Most of what I learned over my lifetime had been from him. Then there was Rosalie and Emmet. Rosalie, the most beautiful woman on the planet was like a second mother to me. She explained things my parents thought I was too young to know about, like the sex talk and what to expect when my body went through " my womanly changes" as dad referred to it as. Last but not least there were my parents who were in love beyond belief, the love they had was the epic, earth shattering, heartbreaking love that all the classic writers wrote about, only my parents love was so much better. They had both sacrificed to much for each other. My father was willing to kill himself at one time because he believed my mother to be dead and there was no way he would go on without her. My mother had gone to Italy to save him from the Volturi, this skinny girl, merely a human at the time stood in front of vampire royalty and offered herself in exchange for my fathers life. Aro, the leader of the Volturi was so taken aback buy a human willing to give her own life to save a vampire. He told them to leave under the condition that my mother be turned as soon as possible. My mother saved his life. She had given up her family, her home, and her best friend to love my father. As much as I appreciated all their happiness I couldn't help but feel jealous because I wanted my happy ending too and I knew i wouldn't find it here in Alaska. I was snapped out of my thoughts by a high soprano voice yelling at me.
"Renesmee, when you're done come to my room so we can get started on hair and make-up" Alice shouted to me. Well, More like sang because my family can yell all they want but their voices are so beautiful that it will only ever sound like the most talented symphony. I grudgingly climbed out of the hot shower and wrapped my bronze hair in a towel. Wow, it was already passed my butt, definitely time for a hair cut. I walked into Alice's room and into her bathroom which was the size of my room. Why would a vampire need a gold toilet? Go figure. I sat in the salon chair as Alice applied a moisturizing face mask on me. She unwrapped my hair and started brushing it out.
"Alice, Can you cut it?"
She gasped like I had just told her that Gucci was going out of sale.
"Renesmee that is the sickest thing I have ever heard, don't ever speak like that!"
I chuckled. "Alice, your so dramatic. I just want a trim, I'm not asking you to shave my head."
She seemed to think for a moment, Probably scanning the future for the most extravagant hair style she could put on me.
"Hmm...You know what? I think I have the perfect style. I get to make you look beautiful and you get to cut that glorious hair of yours"I caught a bit of annoyance in her voice.
"Thank you Alice.I know you'll blow me away with whatever you do" I said to appease her. It worked.
"Aww, Renesmee it only looks so good because my blank canvas is hardly blank. You give me so much to work with that I think I could send you out in a burlap sack and you'd steal the attention from every girl in the room. Not that I ever would. Even the thought makes me want to cry. Who would wear a burlap sack? That's just sick." I chuckled. Alice was Definitely my favorite aunt.
For five hours Alice Buffed and Fluffed me from head to toe. She hired a masseuse to come over for two hours and massage every muscle in my body. By the time he was done my body felt like jelly. She gave my a manicure and pedicure with intricate designs on each finger and toe. She then spent 90 minutes on my face alone. The way she did my make-up using the brushes like only the most skilled artist can. She didn't let me look in the mirror at all. She then called Rosalie in to do my hair. She cut and styled it never letting me see what she was doing.
"I can't believe your already 7, I remember holding you right after you were born. You were such a beautiful child, and you've grown into such a beautiful woman. I'm so proud of you." Rosalie said.
"Thank you so much Rose, I love you guys. I'm so blessed to have such an amazing family."
"No, Rensmee. We never even thought you were possible and then you came into our lives and everybody had something to look forward to, it took a beautiful little girl to show us all that even this life can be full of miricles."
"I love you Rose, Thank you for everything. I know you protected mom when she was pregnant with me. Maybe that's why you've always felt like a second mother to me." Her eyes shone with pure love and she hugged me tight.
"You don't know how much that means to me Renesmee." I'm sure if she could be crying she would be. "Now come on we have a party to get you ready for."
The time finally came to put on the dress. Alice gave me black lace pantyhose to put on with the dress. The dress was beautiful. An amazing royal blue strapless dress that stopped 3 inches above my knees. It had thick black ribbons lacing up from the point right above my butt up to my shoulder blades. She gave me my shoes and I almost cried when I saw them.
"Alice they're beautiful. I almost dont want to wear them, they're so perfect!"
They were royal blue suede Christian Louboutin peep toe banana pumps. They were five and a half inches. Unlike most human women I can wear heels painlessly and I've never been happier for that then in this moment. I put them on and my outfit was complete. I was standing with my back the mirror while Alice double checked her work to make sure that not even a skin cell was out of place. "Okay Honey, you can look." I turned around to look in the mirror and was shocked at what I saw. The girl- No, not girl...The woman looking back at me was timeless. I was shocked at how grown up I looked. My hair was in a low classic bun and I had a thick peice of my hair parted on the side and looped into an intricate design. There was a startlingly white lily in the bun that almost glowed against my bronze hair. My make-up was sophisticated and sexy. It was a silver and grey smokey cat eye. While my lips were a startling fire engine red. The colors of my attire contrasted against my rosy pale skin making me look like I was illuminated from the inside out.
My parents came in then to wish me a happy birthday since Alice hadn't allowed anyone to come in and interrupt her work. Of course Edward wasn't pleased with my outfit. "Alice don't you think that dress is a little inappropriate given her age?" There he goes again treating me like a child. Obviously I had the curves to fill out the dress beautifully, I don't think a child could wear this dress remotely as well.
"Edward, lighten up. She's not a child if you can't tell, she's all grown up now. Maybe it's time that you start living in the now instead of 117 years ago." She said. That right there is why she's my best friend.
My dad growled in response, "I'm perfectly aware of that Alice, thank you. I just think she should be covering up a little more." Obviously he wasn't going to be accepting the fact that I'm an adult anytime soon, which worried me a little since I was going to ask them if I could go to school.
"Edward, this is 2016. We're not living in the 1900's anymore. Times have changed and you need to accept that." My mother said while giving me a tight hug and wishing me a happy birthday then left to go downstairs with my father in tow. I heard her saying something along the lines of "If you don't stop your going to lose her a lot sooner then you thought." I was about to eavesdrop but Alice interrupted that plan pretty quick.
"Honey, I know your planning on asking your parents to go to school. I'm not sure that's such a good idea. I can see that your dad wont be happy but I can't see his answer since you make my vision hazy. Your mom on the other hand will be happy to make you happy, that shouldn't be a surprise though, that's always been Bella"
"But Alice, I can't take this anymore, he thinks I'm a child, I need freedom, I need to choose my own path in life instead of following my fathers. I'm seven years old. Fully mature, I understand that he feels like he's losing me but he's not. I'm always going to be his little girl but I need to do this for me, I'll lower my shield so he can see why I need to do this. Maybe that will sway his decision." I said.
" I hope your right. I agree that you need to be allowed to see life outside of our family."
"Thanks Alice, I love you. Thank you for all of this." I said, gesturing to myself.
"I love you too, now come on we have a birthday to celebrate." She grabbed my arm and we made our was downstairs.
The party was at the Cullen manor as I had come to think of it. We now lived in Anchorage, Alaska. we'd moved from my real home - Forks, Washington when I was only two. Alice had really outdone herself. The house was covered from ceiling to floor in lilies, freesias, orchids and roses. It smelled like a fairy tale. There were twinkling lights covering the banister and running along the ceiling. There was a massive amount of food though it was a little ridiculous seeing as how only I was actually going to be eating. The cake was beautiful, a massive seven tier chocolate raspberry cake. It was was black with blood red roses going all around it and at the top sat a huge white lily. My father later told me that the black fondant on the cake represented the darkness that they lived in before me, the roses represent each of my family members and the white lily at the very top represented me and the miracle I brought to our family. That's just awesome. Here I am trying to find my own way in life, trying to go off on my own and my dad is telling me that I am indeed the miracle that brought my family even closer. This isn't going to end well.
My cousins from Denali were there, the only other vegetarian coven that existed. Carmen with her husband Elazear who used to be part of the Volturi he was a gifted vampire as well, he senses other vampire's gifts. He is how my mother discovered her gift of shielding, which I inherited. Then there was Irina, Kate, and Tanya, they are sisters by blood. They're mother was changed and then came back and changed them, their mother then changed a child breaking one of the only vampire laws any vampie that created an immortal child was ripped apart and burned, the Volturi killed their mother but spared them because Aro believed they were innocent. It was kind of awkward when they first met me, they were so scared Irina had to be restrained from going to the Volturi, but once I was allowed to touch them I showed them everything from the day I was born to the time they arrived and they soon calmed down. As soon as Carmen saw me come down the stairs she came running right up to me.
"Exquisito! My dear child, you have grown into such a beautiful woman. Dare I say even Rosalie must be jealous of you. Am I correct Rosalie?" She turned to look in Rosalie's direction with a smirk. I have to say I was a little nervous of Rosalie's reaction to that statement, but she just looked at me with a twinkle in her eye. "If there's anyone on earth I could be jealous of then obviously it would be Renesmee, she is the most beautiful woman" she said while clearly narrowing her eyes at my father, he growled, probably in response to something she was thinking. "I have ever seen, it's only fitting that she be my niece."
"Thank you so much, but you guys are going to give me a giant head." I said while hugging Carmen. " Rosalie already has you there Ren." Jasper said. Mom and Dad had their hand over their mouths to stifle their giggles. Rosalie hissed at him.
"Children! This is Renesmee's day stop it right now." Esme scolded, always the mother.
"Sorry, mom." Jasper whispered.
"Renesmee, Honey you look absolutely stunning, Happy Birthday this is from Kate, Irina, and I." Tanya said while handing me a small red velvet box simply wrapped with a Burgundy ribbon. I unwrapped it and opened the box. It held a beautiful ring. It had a slim gold band with a heart shaped sapphire with two smaller heart shaped diamonds on either side. I slipped it on my right ring finger, it fit perfectly.
"It's beautiful! Thank you so much!" I said while hugging all three of them.
"It was our mothers beautiful Renesmee, She gave it to us and now we want you to have it" Irina said.
"Thank you so much, but are you sure?" "Yes of course honey, it fits you perfectly it is yours" Kate said.
Alice came in then and handed me a box wrapped in red with silver ribbon. It looked like a shoe box, so I tore into it. When I pulled the lid off the box it was almost as if the angels in heaven had descended to sing as the lid came off. They were gorgeous, I don't even think they were on sale yet, but Alice had her connections. They were white satin Christian Louboutin pumps with a 5 ½ inch heel, the heel and the platform were covered in white Swarovski crystals and there was a black satin bow on the toe with a big white crystal in the middle. They were absolutely beautiful, I didn't even know what to say.
"It's okay Renesmee you can breathe, I knew you'd love them!" Alice was literally bouncing with excitement.
" Alice, these are perfect I can't even explain how much I love them!"
" I knew you would and I can't wait to see you in them." She chirped. " And I can't wait to be in them!" I exclaimed.
"Later Honey, It's time for our present." Rosalie said as she handed me a big box wrapped in pink paper and white ribbon. I swear Esme loved the gift wrapping more then actually giving the present. I unwrapped the box and gasped. They got me a brand new laptop with a web cam built in.
"Thank you aunt Rose! Its exactly what I needed and the web cam is perfect."
"I had a feeling you'd be needing it soon." she said with a wink. I wonder what she meant by that.
"Here is ours sweetie." Esme said while handing me a box wrapped with blue paper and black ribbon. I opened it to find a first edition " Complete works of William Shakespeare" It was amazing and it looked centuries old.
"How did you get this, it has to be beyond rare." I said.
" Honey, I've been around close to 400 years, I know how to get what I need." Grandpa said with a wink. "Well, I love it thank you so much grandpa." I said while hugging him.
"Our turn sweetie. We have two gifts for you the first is from your father." My mom took me by the hand and led me outside. Everyone followed us out, there was nothing outside and my father was no where to be seen. Suddenly I heard an engine pulling into our drive, not just any engine a Porshe engine? No! A Lamborghini engine!
"He didn't! No way!" I shrieked as my dad pulled up in a lime green Lamborghini Gallardo Spyder with matching black and lime green rims. I was speechless, it was the most beautiful machine i have ever seen. My father walked up to me and handed me the keys. "Happy Birthday my beautiful daughter, I thought it would be better in your favorite color, what do you think honey?" My father was looking at me with worried eyes. I realized I've been holding my breath.
"I LOVE IT!, Thank you so much! I love it I love it I love it!" I screamed. My father laughed.
"Anything for you Renesmee, now how about a test drive?" he asked. Of course I said yes, I drove down the highway pressing the gas pedal as far as it could go, it was amazing. I never wanted to leave, but sadly I had a party to get back to. We arrived back at the house were everybody was waiting for me.
"Renesmee, Come with me, I'd like to give you my gift now." My mother led me up the stairs to my parents went through a few of her drawers and finally got what she was looking for, she handed me a large black velvet box. I opened it and I heard my breath hitch. It was gorgeous. A thin gold chain with an angel pendent, it had a diamond halo and was holding a heart high above her head on the back there was an inscription, "plus que ma propre vie, what does it mean, mom?"
" It means " more than my own life" that's how much I love you, my beautiful daughter." she said while running her hand along the side of my face.
"I love it mom thank you, I'll never take it off" I said while clasping it around my neck. Well I guess it's now or never.
"Mom can you call dad up here, I have to talk to you guys." Of course as soon as the words left my mouth my father was up here. " Is everything okay Rensemee?" He asked.
" Yes dad, I just wanted to talk to you and mom about going to college... Away from Alaska." I whispered hoping he wouldn't catch the last part, but I'm not that lucky so of course he heard.
"Absolutely not! Renesmee you have never been around humans for more then five minutes, you don;t know how to act around them, not to mention that you have never been on your own." He said. Why does he have to be so impossible?
"Honey, you have all eternity to go to school, why now? You just turned 7, give it a few years." Mom said trying to make me feel better.
"That's just it though, in a few years it will be the same thing. I just want to find my place in the world. I want to live my life the way I see fit. I may be only 7 but I am an adult and I want to be aknowledged as one." I explained. That's when I let down my shield and ran through every reason and thought of why I wanted to go out on my own.
"I understand your reasoning Renesmee but it's still no. I'm sorry but you'll just have to wait a few years. You still have a lot of growing and learning to do before you can be on your own." He answered. I knew it.I knew he wasn't going to let this happen.
"I've learned everything I could here, there's nothing left for me here, I wont grow here. I'll just be stuck here hating you for not letting me live my life, Look, dad why can't you understand that I need to do this for me, so I can be happy with this never ending existance."
"I said no Renesmee and thats final, We can discuss this again in a couple of years." He answered while narrowing his eyes at me. With that he abruptly left the room.
"I'm sorry honey, I know how much this means to you but you have to understand how your father feels. Your his little girl. The only one he will ever have, accepting that your growing up is going to be really hard on him." Mom said.
"I don't understand it at all, I'm sorry mom I just need to be alone right now." I said. I walked up to my room thinking about everything that happened that night.
When I walked into my room Alice was sitting on my bed with one of those big yellow envelopes in her hand. "Shield Me" she mouthed to me. I caught that familiar rubber band in the back of my head and tugged it around Alice and I. She handed me the envelope to open. I looked inside and saw a birth certificate, drivers license, and social security card all under the name Vanessa Brandon.
"What is this Alice?"
"I saw that you might be needing this soon, you'll know what to do with it." With that she turned and danced out of my room.
So here I am siting in my room seven months later staring at the very envelope that Alice had given me. I know what I have to do. I can't keep letting my father control my life. I quickly packed my clothes and laptop with the web cam, huh. I guess Alice and Rosalie knew what I was going to do before the thought even came to me. I wrote 4 letters one for each of my aunts and uncles, one for my gran parents, and one for my parents and left it in their rooms.I went into one of the secret compartments in my house and took a few bundles of cash. No one would miss it anyway, I dropped it in my bag and quickly bolted for the door before my parents came back from hunting. I grabbed the keys to my car. When my hand was inches away from the door knob Alice's wind chime voice stopped me.
"Going somewhere honey?" she asked with a smirk.
"Just to the mall Alice, need anything?" I asked, trying to make myself look as innocent as possible.
"No, Just take care of yourself and Don't forget to call me, my number is programmed in your phone." She said while disappearing up the stairs.
She definitely knew I wasn't coming back or else she would have jumped at the opportunity to go to the mall with me. I jumped in the car and drove to Seattle airport so that they wouldn't be able to track me, once I got there there were 3 planes leaving within the hour. One to Los Angeles, CA, one to Phoenix, AZ, and one to Maui, HA. I bought all three tickets and threw out the other two, that way if they try to find me the have 3 places to choose from. I paid for my car to be shipped there to meet me and soon I was on my way to Maui, because for some reason my gut was telling me that Maui was were I needed to be.