PLEASE READ FIRST: So this chapter is in Lucas's POV…whew…
A little background: I am about to open up some personal experiences and memories through the eyes of Brooke and Lucas…like I said a lot of inspiration came to me to do this story and well it was my relationship with a guy of four struggling years of hell…so how Lucas is in this story is very similar to the love of my life who destroyed my heart…lol…but anyways so how Lucas's mind works when I write in his POV…is pretty much how my ex was….so I hope that clarifies his behavior and especially his thought process as how they are going to be two completely different things! So thanks guys!
A/N: WOW…the reviews are absolutely amazing! I wasn't going to post a second chapter yet so quickly but damn you guys are on top of it! So comments to your reviews!
D: I am so glad that you are excited about this story…guess what me too!
Brucas4Ever12: thanks….I think this will be a great one!
CaseyJr: YAY! I am so glad that you feel this will be a great story! I think I am going to have so much writing this one and trust me Chase will be back…because come on…we have to have Lucas play overprotective, crazy, jealous…I am going to kick your ass kind of guy ;)
BrucasEqlsluv: I agree with you on everything you said! I can not stand Brooke to be weak or extremely forgiving towards Lucas…he put her through so much on the show that I never make it easy for her (that's why it takes forever in my other stories sorry) BUT I am so glad that you are in love with this story. I love how I am writing Brooke she is the embodiment of vulnerable and feisty at the same time…it's great! And yes I am going to try and stay away mostly from the sappiness my other stories are bumming me out! But there will be lots of flashbacks to get us to oh so that's how it happened…rant all day if you need too..I love it!
dianehermans: yes Brooke will not make it easy for Lucas…the flashbacks will only get hotter as well as the present ;)
justgoldworthy: you know I didn't think about adding Clay into this story…but I did have Quinn in mind…but I'm not sure…I want to keep it at a minimal of characters but I would love to see some who is the bigger, badder, tougher man between Clay and Lucas…and yes a bond that Lucas and Haley have would be an interesting twist to develop between Clay and Brooke…hmmm..the gages are working in my brain! I'll get back to ya!
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sunshine: yes I immediately knew what I wanted the title to be! Classic Brucas. Yes I think I am MORE excited about writing Lucas as this hot dick/brooder. CMM was hot as Nick…loved him in that. Brooke I don't think is sad…I mean in a way yes….but haven't you ever just caved and knew it was wrong but you couldn't help yourself? I feel that, that is what Brooke did and a little secret…I am basing Brooke and Lucas sort of off me and my ex…so yes I was sad in giving into temptation! Lol…but I don't think that Lucas was using her and flashbacks as well as his thoughts will probably help that out in future chapters! And ah the Brachel relationship you'll love it in this story.
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craxygirl54: trust me when I say he is only going to get more incredibly sexy throughout the story and it is going to be so damn hard for Brooke to refuse him…and yes this story is a breath of fresh air from my two other sappy/angsty ones so thank you!
OTHCharmfan: Brooke will in no way forgive him easily or quickly…the banter will only continue…and oh Hales…she is one of my favorites to write! She will burst into Mom mode a lot as well as keeping Lucas in line
Alysef: This will be a good, fun read…or at least I think it will be. The relationship and banter between Brooke and Lucas will be fun! Rachel isn't really an ex, but she has had sex with Lucas…so yeah sometimes it might get a little awkward between Brooke, Rachel, and Lucas, but it's always going to be fun as this next chapter will play out! Lol
ENJOY!
Chapter 2: New Beginnings
I know how to keep my composure unlike the delicious Brooke Davis who stood in front of me for the first time in years. I really didn't care about the blonde twit next to me so I quickly dismissed her. Brooke was even more beautiful and sexy than I remembered. She transformed into this mature woman than from the girl she used to be. College and time away from me did her good.
I always enjoyed messing with her; it's what made our friendship back then so strong. She would keep me in line and I would try to bring out the wild child I knew she was, and I truly did love her. I don't believe in those types of feelings and when she told me she was in love with me, I nearly lost it. It scared the hell out of me. That's how I ended up in Peyton's bed. It was stupid, don't get me wrong, but if there was something I could do to make her hate me or not be in love with me anymore, I was going to do it, because I couldn't tell her that I didn't love her either or that I did love her. I couldn't say those words out loud because damn it I do love her. I'm an ass okay, but don't judge me. I don't understand why I wouldn't embrace those kinds of feelings, my mom taught me that love is one of the most important things in life, but after seeing her get destroyed by many men she attempted to be with, I realized that love doesn't exist and love is just a word, not a feeling, but damn that girl, she made me believe in love, but my ego is too big to allow her to love me and allow myself to love her.
Of course teasing her all day was fun and I love to watch her squirm but she was surprising me. She was playing back and trying to keep her composure, but I knew she was battling an inner demon that she was gradually losing against. Walking in on her while she was in the shower was a little much but having her hands on me when she grabbed me made me want her even more. Her body was ten times better than it used to be, her skin was so damn soft, and she almost seemed like a completely different person.
I desperately wanted to be the nice guy she truly believed I was or even could be, but I felt that I was always going to lose that battle with her.
"So because you wanted me you thought it would just be okay? Lucas, wow, you are more of an ass than I thought."
I didn't know what to say to that because I didn't want her thinking that I was using her because it wasn't like that but I knew I had made a mistake by taking it as far as I let it. I was going to say something, anything but we were interrupted by a siren I had missed all these years.
"Well, well, well…look what the cat dragged in." Her words were like ice, I grinned and turned to face her.
"Hmmm…if it isn't my favorite red." I walked over to her and pulled her into my arms.
I heard Brooke start cutting the potatoes pretty roughly and I knew it was getting to her. So I figured I would play it up a bit.
"So how is my sexy red doing?" I still had my arms around her waist. I could see Brooke looking out of the corner of her eye and she quickly turned back to her task.
"I'm great, dickhead, and you?" Rachel knew what I was doing so she decided to play along and threw her arms around my neck.
Being this close to her reminded me of just how amazing our sex used to be, and that was great because it was always just sex with us.
"I'm doing pretty well now."
"Rachel, why don't you start doing what you said you were going to do!" Brooke turned around and held out a bowl of cake batter from the fridge.
Rachel smirked and released herself from my grasp. Yes, it's working. Brooke is already eating all of it up.
"Okay okay, I was just catching up with an old lay."
"Hey, I would prefer for you to call me by name." I said sounding hurt. I walked over to the two girls and stood between them.
"Whatever." They both said and I couldn't help the huge smile on my face.
I started taking the salmon fillets from Brooke and she smacked my hand.
"Just go do something else. Haley, Rachel, and I got this." Brooke never once looked at me.
"Whatever you say pretty girl." I let it linger in her ear as I walked away.
"Damn it, stop calling me that!" She called out and I went into their common area and cut the TV on just in time for Nathan and Haley to come around the corner both with wet heads.
"I guess this is something I am going to have to get used to…again." Even though I was okay with them being together, knowing in the back of my mind that they were having sex just grossed me out. I still thought of Haley as like a sister so it was just weird, but ultimately I knew that Haley was being taken care of and as well as my brother.
"Have you seen the backyard yet?" Nathan asked me as Haley walked into the kitchen and said hello to Rachel.
"No, Brooke didn't let it get that far."
"You're a big boy Luke, you have two feet."
I rolled my eyes.
"God, I've missed you!" I said to her and I could feel her eye roll.
Nathan shook his head and we walked down the hallway by the stairs and out a backdoor that led to their backyard. I was impressed. You wouldn't expect this from the front of the house, but they had a pool and a small basketball court behind it.
"This is pretty impressive. Was this here when you moved in?" I pointed to the court.
"Ha, hell no, the pool was but with some of the inheritance money from Dan, I had the basketball court put in…it's nothing special, but it gets the job done." He ran over and grabbed a ball from the small storage shed off to the side. He tossed it to me.
"Do you miss it?" He asked me.
I instinctually reached my hand over my heart and gave him a crooked smile.
"Everyday." I bounced the ball once and shot for the goal, nothing but net.
"Nice." Nathan ran after the ball and began to dribble it.
"So…" He began.
I really didn't want to get into this.
"Nate, I thought we weren't going to talk about this." I held my hands out for the ball and he tossed it over to me.
"Oh just like how we never talked about you and Brooke."
Ouch, but true. After what happened I refused to talk about it…but Nathan knew me better than anyone else and if I didn't want to talk about it, it was pretty serious to me and Nathan didn't talk to me for almost two months after I broke Brooke's heart.
"Whatever man, one of these days you are going to have to talk about these things whether it's to me, Haley…hell even Brooke."
I dribbled the ball a few times and when I looked back towards the house, I could see into the kitchen window and see the three girls in a heated argument….my money was on the topic of me. It's not because I wish to believe it's about me…I just know.
"Wow…you know I tried to believe it wasn't true, but you are beginning to prove me wrong."
"What?" I turned back to face him.
"Have you not been listening to a word I've been saying or are you too busy staring at Brooke?"
I threw the ball back at him hard.
"What the hell are you talking about?"
"You love her…it was obvious then…but you are just too much of a jackass to let someone as amazing as Brooke in…I mean do you really just like being alone?"
I furrowed my brow and pinched the bridge of my nose.
"I am not in love with her."
"Whoa…I didn't say in love…I just said you love her."
I shook my head.
"What the hell is the difference?"
He caught me…but I was never going to admit it.
"Wow…you've got issues." He tossed the ball into the goal and made it without even trying.
I didn't want to talk about this. I don't talk about my feelings and I wasn't going to start now especially here. We started a friendly game of horse as Nate wasn't going to allow me to play any rougher. Damn this stupid heart condition, damn Dan Scott to hell.
"BITCH!"
I dropped the ball as Nathan and I both looked towards the house.
"Should we?" Nathan questioned.
"Hell yes!"
We both hurried inside to see a full on cat fight break out between Brooke and Rachel as Haley attempted to break the two apart. We stood there and enjoyed every minute of it.
"Jesus, put your dicks away and help me break this up!" Haley shouted and Nathan and I exchanged looks.
I went for Brooke and Nathan tried to get Rachel. In one swift motion I wrapped my arms around Brooke's waist as she still had a handful of red hair clutched tightly in her hand.
"Brooke let go." I exclaimed.
"NEVER!" She screamed.
Rachel tried to pry Brooke's hand free from her hair but it was no use. Haley got in between them and was finally able to get Rachel's hair from Brooke's grasp. Nathan pulled Rachel as far away from Brooke as possible.
Brooke's head fell back against my chest and it felt so good to have her in my arms again. I brought my mouth to her ear.
"That was so sexy, pretty girl."
She scoffed and began to fight me as she turned in my arms and started pushing me away. I reluctantly let her go.
"What was that all about?" Nathan asked as he still felt it was not safe to let Rachel go.
"Should I tell them or should you!" Rachel spat out at Brooke.
"Don't!" Brooke and Haley said together.
Nathan and I exchanged a look and Brooke just walked away and hurried up the stairs.
"Rachel, I'll never understand you." Haley ran after Brooke and Rachel released herself from Nathan's arms.
"Rachel, what the hell did you do?" Nathan asked.
Rachel looked over at me, smirked and turned back to Nathan.
"Come on you guys, you know how me and Brookie are." She walked over to the fridge and pulled out a beer.
I motioned to her to get me one and she tossed me the one that was already in her hand.
"Come on red, what did you say to her?" I will not forget the first day Rachel made her presence known to Tree Hill.
I love cheerleaders. Nathan and I decided to hang out with Brooke and Peyton during the tryouts to give our opinions on the fresh, hot girl that could take the last slot on the squad.
"Sorry am I too late?"
All of our attention snapped to the fiery redhead that strode like she owned the place to the front of the table wearing nothing but a two piece that showed off every favorite part of a woman's body I enjoyed. She winked at me. I winked back.
"I'm Rachel by the way." She walked over to me and held out her hand for me to take.
"Pleasure's all mine." I said. She kinked her eyebrow and I wasn't about to give her my name that easily.
"Excuse me but you are not trying out for him. You are here for the cheerleading squad." Brooke snapped at her and I couldn't help but smirk.
"Okay you are late and now I feel like you are wasting my time, so if you would rather make googly eyes at blondie over there rather than do your tryout, I have better things to do." Brooke snapped her book closed and I had to admit I enjoyed seeing this side of Brooke.
"I'm ready for my tryout." She placed her attention to Brooke and pulled out a CD.
"What is this?" Brooke asked.
"I brought my own music. It's how I play." Rachel placed her CD into the stereo and hit play.
"This should be interesting." Nathan whispered to me. I nodded as we both kept our eyes glued to the red in front of us.
I felt my pants become instantly too tight for my liking. That girl belonged on a pole not a high school cheerleading squad. She kept eye fucking the shit out of me and I only reciprocated it.
"Dude look at Brooke's face."
It was hard for me to take my eyes off the redhead in front of me but to see Brooke's face was priceless. Brooke realized that she met her match when it came to the battle of top dog in the school. Brooke's mouth dropped as Rachel dropped to her knees and began to grind slowly and Peyton laughed at Brooke whose mouth, if it was even possible, dropped lower.
The song was over as Rachel fell seductively into a split…I knew in that moment that I was going to find my way in between those legs.
Brooke held her hand over her mouth and shook her head. Rachel jumped up quickly.
"I'd like to thank you on behalf of myself and the group and I hope we passed the audition."
"I'm sorry, what?" Brooke let out harshly.
"John Lennon." Peyton chimed in. Peyton was impressed by the redhead which was hard to do. Brooke looked over at her confused, "The Let It Be album. Girl knows her music."
Rachel nodded towards Peyton and this chic was becoming hotter by the second.
"Too bad she was late, sorry Betty was it? We'll be in touch."
"It's Rachel and I hope so."
"Hey number 3, want to show me where my chemistry class is."
"My pleasure." I knocked knuckles with Nathan and winked at Brooke.
She huffed at me and I held two thumbs up at her to let her know she had to place her on the team.
I smirked over at Rachel as she closed the fridge and started drinking her beer.
"What did you do Rachel?" Nathan asked as he crossed his arms.
"Nothing. It was nothing." She placed her beer on the counter and started tearing the strings off the green beans.
Nathan shook his head and ran after the two girls who were doing God knows what upstairs. I walked over to her and stood beside her.
"Come on…it's just me and you. What did you say to upset Brooke?"
"Why do you care?" She bitterly asked as she continued messing with the beans.
"I've always cared…in one way or another." I found myself sometimes opening up to Rachel a little at a time and she understood and never opened her mouth about it to anyone.
"Wow, you have always had a great way of showing it." She scoffed at me and I rolled my eyes.
"Look I still don't even understand how you two became friends at all, but it's really weird." I drank more of my beer and she slapped me across the face.
"What the fuck was that for?" I hissed at her.
"You know I always knew you were an ass hole and Brooke, bless her, but she just couldn't help it. She actually believed that you could be someone better…but wishful thinking on her part, I guess and that was her mistake."
If I could slap a girl, I would have done it. She has no idea who the hell I am or what I am capable of, and for her to even think that I don't care at all, well maybe I had been wrong about her.
"You're just stupid and selfish. You may lie to her and hell even yourself but deep down you knew how she felt and you used her up until you got what you wanted from her. It must have been some conquest for you. You are just like every other guy. You want the poor, helpless, innocent virgin and you would do what it takes to get what you want and then toss it away."
I had never heard her speak to me like this before. Rachel and I were never close, but we were one in the same and I couldn't believe what I was hearing from her.
"You have no fucking idea what the hell you are talking about. You don't know me and you sure as hell don't know how I feel about Brooke either, so whatever it is you are telling her or what you believe, you are full of shit!" I spat out at her and walked away from her towards the door.
"Do what you do best, Scott, walk away…this time around try to stay away from best friends of Brooke…hell even bar sluts you are used to fucking."
I slammed the door behind me and started walking down the street. If there was one thing I hated about people was their judgment of me. Yes, I was an ass hole, yes I would sleep around a bit, but that doesn't mean anything about me. Did anyone ever take their time in getting to know me or try to see past that part of me? No, never, although I would never make it easy on anyone. That was one rule I always taught myself: never let your guard down. Make people fight for you, to earn your respect and gratitude. There were only a few people in the world that saw that in me and they were all in the house behind me, the only problem was I destroyed the only person who ever truly mattered in every way possible: my Brooke.
"I'll give you my cookie for that PB&J." I held my sandwich out to her and her face fell.
"I do like cookies, but I want to keep my sandwich." Her face fell a little bit and my friend Haley chimed into the conversation.
"I have an extra sandwich, Brookie. My sister didn't want it so you can have it."
I smiled at my friend and turned back to the girl sitting beside Haley.
"Okay, but only this once." She handed her sandwich over to me and I gave her my cookie that my mom made.
"Thanks! I'm Lucas." I smiled at her.
"Brooke Penelope Davis." She insisted on using her full name and I laughed at her.
"Well if you are Haley's friend then I guess you can be mine too. Nice to meet you." I used my manners that my mom had taught me and she smiled as these little indents on her cheeks appeared making me smile.
"Thanks." She said.
Even at thirteen years old, I knew that Brooke Davis was something special and I would spend every day protecting her from ass holes and jerks, only to allow myself to be that person I tried so hard to protect her from.
I sat on the curb outside their house and finished the one beer I had. I should have gotten more to help me forget…
I heard feet rustle behind me and I immediately knew who it was.
"So I am guessing Ray told you what happened?"
I shook my head forcefully.
"No, she was just a bitch as usual."
She laughed behind me as Rachel was not her favorite person but apparently she meant a lot to Brooke and that was all that mattered.
"Yeah…well that's Rachel but in the end she takes care of Brooke and always has her back."
We sat in silence for awhile and without looking at her I spoke.
"Is she okay?"
"Yes, Brooke is fine. Brooke and Rachel can get into these heated arguments that sometimes lead to physical fighting but they immediately get over it. It's like you and Nathan sometimes, it's really strange, but they always work it out and laugh it off." She giggled and let out a long sigh.
"Lucas, what's on your mind?" She started drawing circles on my back and I closed my eyes.
"Tell me what you think about what happened between me and Brooke. I know we never talked about it. So tell me what you think." I didn't want to see the disappointed look on her face. It was one of those looks that crushed me.
"I think you were both stupid, selfish, and naïve, but I think you knew better more than her. Lucas, you don't believe in love and for you to go after one of your best friends like that, and Brooke of all people, you knew better but you just couldn't help yourself."
My head fell and shit, yes, I did know better, and I don't know, I saw how Brooke could be with other guys, I mean it would always make my blood boil and my skin crawl when she would sit next to a guy and play footsie with them or run her fingers so gently over a guy's arm, I thought it would be harmless to get attention like that from her as well.
"I'm sorry." I said quietly.
"It's Brooke you should be apologizing too." She released her hand from my back.
"No, I am sorry for disappointing you Hales."
"You both disappointed me, but Brooke and I have had this talk too. I told her that if anything she teased you a little bit and we all know you can't help yourself in that way." She clasped her hands together and looked over at me and for the first time her sitting next to me I made eye contact.
"Really? You said that to her?" I grinned.
"Wipe that grin off your face Lucas. Brooke was always a major flirt and I mean I noticed things, Nathan even noticed things, but for you to go after one of your best friends like that…you just shouldn't have done it no matter how tempting it was for you."
We sat in silence for a little while longer. Haley and I sat out on the curb and just talked about the past few years. I only ever really spent time with her and Nathan on the holidays and they made a trip out to New York once for a basketball game. Brooke and I never crossed paths once. She was never in Tree Hill around the holidays. She would always visit my mom during the week or most weekends since Durham isn't that far from Tree Hill. Her holidays were spent luxuriously with her parents in California. So to avoid me, she would make sure she never got a chance to see me, and I never blamed her for that.
"Come on, Luke. I am sure dinner is almost ready especially if we left Nathan alone with those two."
I held my hand out for Haley and helped her up from her spot on the curb. We walked back into the house and seeing Rachel and Brooke laughing and having a good time almost made the fight earlier seem like a dream.
"We thought you two had gotten lost or something." Nathan walked over to Haley and pulled her into a kiss.
"Okay brother alert here! Don't do that in front of me…it's still too weird." As I was walking towards the fridge for another beer, Brooke was slightly walking backwards and didn't see me.
She would have dropped the entire contents of food she had in her hands if I didn't catch her from bumping into me. I felt her body jolt as my hands came in contact with her waist.
"You were going to bump into me. So I helped prevent you from dropping what looks like an amazing meal you've made tonight." I was going to ease up on the torture for awhile especially after hearing everything Rachel and Haley had to share.
"Thanks." She said as she looked over her shoulder quickly and then walked away from me.
"Okay who's drinking what?" I called out.
"Wine!" Rachel, Haley, and Brooke said together.
"Beer!" Nathan shouted.
I grinned and pulled out a few beers and the bottle of Chardonnay. I reached for three wine glasses and walked over to the dining room table. I poured each lady in my life a glass and they all thanked me. I somehow managed to get a seat next to Brooke with Nathan on my other side.
"Okay I want to say a few words!" Haley said and the rest of us groaned a little.
"Hey, HEY!" She snapped and there it was her mom mode.
"This is the first time since high school we are all here together."
"You're forgetting Peyton." Rachel said as she inhaled her entire glass of wine.
"Peyton doesn't count right now." Haley snapped back.
My face fell at the mention of Peyton and Brooke tensed up beside me. I didn't even realize what I was doing, but I slowly reached over and gave her thigh an apologetic squeeze. She brushed my hand away.
"Anyways everyone that matters is here and I just want to say that we are all different people now….well most of us."
We all knew she was specifically excluding Rachel. Rachel helped herself to another glass of wine.
"I just want to say to new beginnings!" She held her glass up and we all tipped our drinks together and started eating the food.
Casual conversations began to take place between the four in front of me. They were talking about college and how I should enroll in some of the writing classes Duke has to offer and I didn't think it was a bad idea. New York was something I was trying to forget right now and with my withdrawal from NYU, Duke would be something fresh.
"So Lukie why are you here and not in New York?" Rachel was on the verge of being drunk and I rolled my eyes at her.
"New York isn't what I want anymore." I quickly said and Nathan gave me a sad look.
Nathan was the only one who really knows why I left New York and it wasn't something I was ever going to share with the group.
"Sure it is." Rachel said as she killed the rest of her wine.
"Okay wine-o no more booze for you." Brooke took her glass away.
We began to clean up our dirty dishes and the kitchen.
"I'll drive her home." Haley stated.
"I am fine! I can walk."
"The hell you're not!" Nathan and I said together.
"Awe my boys! Wanting to take such good care of me."
Haley shot Nathan a look.
"Maybe I should go with you two before Haley decides to ditch your body in the ocean. We'll be back in a few guys!"
The three of them left and Brooke was attending to a pot she was scrubbing.
"So have you talked to her?" She asked quietly. I leaned against the kitchen island behind her with my arms crossed.
"Are you referring to Peyton?" I asked her.
She nodded and I could see her whole body tense from behind.
"No."
"So you don't talk to her at all?"
"I haven't seen or spoken to her since graduation." I walked over to stand next to her and I took the pot from her as she was near to scrubbing the Teflon off it.
"Why don't you go upstairs…do whatever girly thing you want. I think you've done enough hard work today."
She looked at me surprised and gave me a small-dimpled smile.
"Thanks." She began to walk away and stopped at the foot of the stairs.
"Lucas, what happened in New York?" She asked me so softly and the sound of her small voice gave me goose bumps.
"Goodnight Brooke."
"Goodnight Lucas."
I heard the disappointment in her voice. She walked up the stairs and I heard the faint close of a door.
My phone started buzzing in my pants and I reached for it.
Lana
It flashed across the screen and I ignored the call. I can't believe she had the nerve to call me after what happened. I went back to cleaning the rest of the dishes waiting for Nathan and Haley to return.
Thoughts? Dun dun duuunnn...
So a small crossover here if you don't know who this Lana person is I may be referring too...lol...I am using her because I absolutely loathed that character! And this secret that Lucas is keeping has nothing to do with the him being in love with Lana or anything but it is something important and Lucas took it very seriously...can any of you guess what his secret is?
Stay tuned!