Another songfic for Jack and Lizzie. The song is Evil Angel by Breaking Benjamin. Set after Curse of the Black Pearl. Please enjoy.
Chapter 2: Evil Angel
Elizabeth Swann was miserable. She hated being trapped in the confines of upper class society. She couldn't be herself. She felt like she was drowning, just like on the day of Commodore Norrington's promotion ceremony. But this time Jack wouldn't save her.
Every time he spoke to her, it was a lie. Why should he believe the look in his eyes that said "I will come back for you?" He had never done anything but lie to her.
Peas in a pod he had called them. If they were birds of a feather, then they were flying with crooked wings.
But she still had some faith that he would come back.
Hold it together, birds of a feather
Nothing but lies and crooked wings
I have the answer spreading the cancer
You are the faith inside me
She was praying that he would come and rescue her from the restrictions of her society. She had never tried to hide her love of pirates, but she had hidden her desire to become one. When Jack had first come into her life and given her a taste of the life she yearned for, she had been loath to part with it, but she knew her place was beside Will. Now she was regretting her decision to stay. She hated being tied down, caged in, unable to speak her mind and do what she wanted when she wanted it.
Even after all he had done to her, she still wanted him to help her breath in this corset of her life. She was being constricted and wanted him to cut her free again. She didn't want to die here.
No, don't leave me to die here
Help me survive here alone
No, don't remember, remember
She wanted to sleep. She wanted her angel to help her sleep. Her evil angel was probably more accurate, for no pirate could truly be an angel. But no matter what shewanted to call him, her evil angel was not coming for her. Her angel on sparrows' wings. He just needed to open his wings and fly to her.
"Open you wings my evil angel," she begged quietly. "Rescue me."
Put me to sleep, evil angel
Open your wings, evil angel
She believed in him and nothing could be worse than waiting for a miracle that would not come. She had started to imagine him in places where he could not be. She had to hide her hearts betrayal from her fiancé, and every time he was brought up, the nail was driven deeper into her shredded heart. She was doing nothing, just hoping to find a savior. Her savior.
I'm a believer, nothing could be worse
All these imaginary friends
Hiding betrayal, driving the nail
Hoping to find a savior
As time dragged on, her hope that a savior would come for her was diminishing. She had resigned herself to the life of a blacksmiths wide. She would be dead inside, but she would survive. Alone. Without help. Her evil angel wasn't going to come.
She was going to live the life that she loathed to make Will happy. She was never one to surrender, but now she was going to have to.
"Don't surrender," she muttered. "Never surrender."
No, don't leave me to die here
Help me survive here alone
Don't surrender, surrender
All of her hope of being able to be free was destroyed when Will proposed. Her evil angel would never come. She was doomed to be a good wife and mother, not the pirate she longed to be. She wanted to sleep, never to wake again. She wanted her angel to open his wings and fly over her and put her to sleep.
But most of all she wanted him to tell her why she couldn't breathe when he wasn't there.
Put me to sleep, evil angel Put me to sleep, evil angel
Open your wings, evil angel
Fly over me, evil angel
Why can't I breathe, evil angel?
Open your wings, evil angel
Fly over me, evil angel
Why can't I breathe, evil angel?
Well I'm not overly pleased with this, but I'm going to put it up anyway. This song was really hard to write to, with all of its double meanings and tricky wording, but I think the description of an evil angel really fits Jack, so I went with it. Please review! I need them like a hobo needs his cardboard box!