chapter 2

skipping school, getting stoned

My first day back to school was brutel. i knew it would be. i knew i would have to put up with the stares and the wispers. i was depressed to go back to school. So i figured with my mood my clothes should match. i wore black jeans and a black sweat shirt. i wore my hair down so it would cover my face. i was pale and from not eating much i had lost weight. my eyes looked blank and i had bags under my eyes from lack of sleep.

i came down the stairs to find charlie at the table waiting for me. "Bella i know today will be tough but your a strong person". i just stared at him and nodded. i grabbed my bags and went out to my truck.

As i pulled into the parking lot i could see everyone standing there. i parked as far from everyone as i could. i got out and made my way into the school. as expected everyone was staring at me and wispering. i ignored it the best i could.

Mike came up to me first. "Your better off without Cullen bella". i just stared at him and walked away. next jessica and lauren came up to me. "Bella, u were never good enough for Edward" said jessica. "no wonder he left you, i mean come on look at you" said lauren. i wanted to punch them both out. instead i just nodded and wispered "I know". jessica and lauren walked away with smug smiles on there faces.

I think my teachers felt sorry for me. they looked at me like i was about to break. i guess with how i looked it was true. none of my teachers called on me for anything. i was gratefull for that. i really dont even know what most of them said. i just stared out the window while they talked. When the bell rang for lunch i knew i couldnt go inthe cafeteria. i wouldnt be able to face seeing there table. the ache in my chest was getting bigger and i knew i needed to get out of there before everything came crashing down again around me. i decided to sit in my truck during lunch. i wanted to be alone.

As i walking toward my truck i noticed 3 boys i hadnt seen before were standing near the tree's smoking. i have no idea why but i started to walk toward them wanting a smoke. i had snuck smokes a couple times with my friends when i was younger. i knew the taste and smell of them. As i got closer i realized it just wasnt cigerates that they were smoking. they were smoking a joint. as i got closer i could smell it. One of the boys happened to turn and seen me standing there. he smiled at me

"hey beautiful, want a toke, come chill with us". he looked about 6 foot and had black hair and grey eyes. he was also dressed in black. as were the other 2 boys. one had chains around his neck like a dog chain and the other was wearing a black trench coat and black boots. i walked over to them and nodded.

"i'm Jimmy, this is derek", he said pointing at dog chain boy, "and thats kyle" he said pointing at trench coat boy.

"im bella" i mumbled.

Jimmy took a drag of his joint and handed it to me. i had never smoked weed before so when i took a drag i took to much. the smoke invaded my lungs and i started coughing alot. i couldnt stop. jimmy and his friends started laughing at me.

"Havn't u ever smoked weed before" said jimmy.

I shook my head no still coughing.

"take a lil puff, your a newbie u got to get use to it". said Jimmy

i took another puff and i didnt cough this time. i felt light headed and i started to giggle.

kyle pulled out another one telling me i could finish the one i had. i noticed Jimmy smoking a cigerette and i asked him for one for later. he gave me two. after a few more puffs my body started to feel free. the pain was disappearing. my mind was blank. i sat down on the ground and the 3 boys did the same. jimmy looked over at me and frowned.

"why u so sad girly, whats got u down".

i told the boys the edited version of the last month and what happened. Kyle looked at me and said "ya u diffently need this today then".

"ignore them and dont let them get to you", said derek.

i finished the rest of the joint and i felt great. it didnt hurt to smile. i was about to light my smoke when the bell rang. derek and kyle got up to go back inside.

Are u going back in", jimmy asked.

i shook my head. "are you going in" i asked.

"naw im leaving need more green", he said laughing.

i dont know why i said it but next thing i did was ask him "Can i buy some off you"?

Jimmy looked surpised. i didnt care. i loved how i felt right now and i didnt want it to stop. the weed and nicotine going through my body made me feel alive. i knew if Edward or any of his family were around they would be screaming at me. i didnt care that i had promised edward that i would stay safe and not do anything stupid but the basterd told me he loved me and then left. screw promises.

"I dont have any on me but if u want to go with me to buy some ill take you" said jimmy.

"Ok", i said.

"Can u give me a ride there", he asked.

I nodded. "got to stop at the bank first, i need money" i said to him. i put my smoke out and went to stand up. i had a head rush and fell back over laughing. this should be fun i thought. im clumsy as hell when im sober so this could get interesting.

jimmy started laughing at me. i looked up at him. "glad i could amuse u"i said giggling. he helped me up and grabbed me around the waste.

"maybe you shouldnt drive", said jimmy laughing again.

he grabbed my keys and we started walking toward my truck.

"Wont u get in trouble for skipping by mister chief of police when he finds out u skipped" asked jimmy.

"I'm 18 thankyou very much. nothing he can do about it or the school" i said. "the school cant call him so he wont know".

"right on girly, nothing they can do to me either", said jimmy laughing.

jimmy helped me into my truck and shut the door. "geesh girl get with times and drive something that goes more then 50" said jimmy jokingly.

"hey, dont be hating on my truck" i said "its all kinds of cool".

"ya maybe 20 years ago"joked jimmy.

"whatever, just drive". i said.

when we got to the bank i was able to walk alil bit better then before. I pulled out 300 dollers and handed it to him. jimmy's eyes went wide then he laughed.

"damn girl. u just started smoking an hour ago and u want to buy a shit load", said jimmy laughing.

"ya is that ok", i asked.

"Yup lets go", said jimmy putting his and my money in his wallet.

We got back in the truck and he started driving toward the outskirts of town. at this point any normal person would b questioning why i was allowing some strange guy i had just meet to take me to buy drugs. i didnt care. i wanted to get stoned again. i wanted to feel free. Jimmy must of sensed this and pulled out a joint. he lite it and passes it to me. i took a couple puffs and startng giggling again.

we passed it back and forth till we got to a place in the middle of no where. if u didnt know it was there u would never of seen it. just like Edward's place. it looked alil run down and there was pieces of cars around the property.

We went it to the house and i walked into the biggest cloud of pot smoke ever. i had to sit down. there were 4 other guys in the living room. they smiled at me. one turned to jimmy.

"who's your friend".

"this is bell, she's depressed and hates life right now and wants green" he said handing the guy the money.

the guy took the money and nodded and went into the back room.

"while he's getting that, lets spark another one". the guy said.

as the joint went around the guy came back into the room and handed me a sandwich bag full of green.

" umm thanks", i mumbled staring at the bag. "crap i dont know how to roll", i thought

"do u want me to roll some for you" asked jimmy seeing me the eye the bag

i could barely move and or talk. i just nodded. i must of fell asleep. when i woke up it was a couple hours later. i had never felt better. the best sleep ever.

"hey sleeping beauty woke up" said one guy.

i looked around to see jimmy walk back in. he handed me about 20 good size joints and i still had green left.

"I got to get home", i said to jimmy.

i gave the guy a joint for smoking with me and said my good bye's. the guy called out to me.

"hey if u ever need more u know where u can get it" he said.

i nodded and went out the door. i drove jimmy back into town and dropped him off at a store. i handed him 3 joints.

"hey jimmy, can u go in the store and get me some smokes" i asked.

"yup be right back" he said taking my money. he came back out and gave them to me.

"Thankyou so much for today, u had no idea how much i needed that" i said smiling.

"no problem, but if u get cought with that on u, you dont know me or those guys" he said seriously.

" Im not a snitch" i said.

"Ok see u tomorrow bells".

i raced home. Charlie wasnt home yet. i made dinner for charlie and ran up stairs. i opened my window and leaned out lighting a joint. i started feeling good again right away. i could handle this i thought. right now i could get through anything as long as i was stoned. i could pretend to care as long as i was stoned. and so it begins i thought.

A/N this is my first fan fic. i appeciate any advice. im going to write the next couple months of this story in one chapter. i really want to see a human edward and bella's reaction. lmao. i dont know how long this story will be but i hope it will be good. No bella doesnt date jimmy or anyone else. they are just friends.