Disclaimer-Stephanie Meyer owns all things Twilight related. This story will have detailed lemons and also deals with drug abuse, drinking and other things that someone under the age of 18 should not be reading. Thus this story will be rated M.
Song Rec-Stupid Girl by Cold and Country Song by Seether
Chapter 2-Stupid Girl
We were in front of the bar in less than five minutes. If I had not been specifically keeping an eye out for it, I never would have known it was there. A simple sign hung above the door, the only word on it was BAR. We lined up to get through the door, everyone pulled out ID's except for Edward when we got to man sitting on a bar stool next to the door.
I heard Edward greet the man, calling him Aro. Music was playing, not overly loud but loud enough to drown out any chit chatter that may have been going on. The place reminded me of a cross between an Irish Pub and someone's backyard. It had a homey, Cheers, feel to it. There was flash art on some of the walls and beer signs on the other walls, there was also a wall with picture frames.
We ordered our drinks at the bar, vodka tonic for me and the other two girls, the guys opted for Guinness and took a table near a pool table. There was a pretty big crowd, mostly younger college kids. A server stopped by, wearing ripped skin tight jeans and a Miller Lite shirt, which was also cut to expose the majority of her cleavage. I recognized her strawberry blonde hair and blue eyes, her name was Tanya Denali. She had been in Edward's Graduating class I sipped my drink, listening to Alice and Rose talk about a Halloween party she was throwing.
"Edward, can't stay away from the place huh?" Tanya asked him, leaning over so that he could hear her over the music. My ears perked and I tried to listen to his response but it was drowned out by the music. Whatever he said made her laugh and I felt my blood boil with jealousy. I gulped the rest of my drink down. I had no right to feel jealous. Edward could talk to anyone that he wanted to. I had no claim on him anymore.
Tanya said good bye to all of us and moved on to another table full of frat boys.
"Emmett, Jasper, how's the shop doing?" I asked, Emmett had brought a tattoo shop 4 years ago and Jasper went into the partnership with him.
"Good, you should come get some ink. I remember you saying you wanted one. " Jasper told me. I blushed. I actually had a tattoo, not that I had told anyone. I got it shortly after I left Forks to go back to Arizona. A bright purple Orchid on my lower hip. My plan had always been to have Emmett or Jasper tattoo me, with Edward present but that plan went out the window.
We bull shitted around for another hour, Edward didn't say much. I kept trying to sneak glances at him, whenever I did he was always staring right back. Tanya came back around and Edward whispered something into her ear. She smiled and sashayed to the bar. "Tramp." I muttered under my breath.
Tanya came back a few minutes later, holding a tray filled with shots and another round of drinks for everyone. Rose and Alice both made faces at the shot in front of them. It was clear with little gold flakes. Goldschläger. I didn't allow myself to think about why Edward might have ordered this particular cinnamon schnapps; instead I clanked my glass against the others and brought it to my lips, tilting my head back. Goldschläger was what I had been drinking the night I first slept with Edward and it was also what I had avoided drinking since that last night. Just because he ordered it didn't mean he remembered what it meant to me. I told myself.
Tanya flitted back around, collecting empty glasses. She stopped in front of Edward and leaned on his shoulder. "My car was acting funny when I drove it earlier, do you think you could take a look at it for me. I don't want to get stuck on the side of the road in the middle of the night."
I wanted to puke but I made myself listen to Edwards's response, taking a big drink of my vodka tonic.
"Sure, I'll take a look at it but I probably had too much to drink to do anything about it. If you want you can crash at my place tonight."
Tanya grinned and said "okay" before going back to the table of frat boys.
"So, what do you think?" he asked me after drinking some of his dark beer.
I couldn't help myself, blame it on the alcohol or hell blame it on me just acting like a 15 year old girl.
"It's okay, for a place that hires skanks." The words tumbled out of my mouth and 5 sets of eyes stared at me.
"What? I mean you saw Tanya, no way did the owner hire her for her serving skills." I replied defensively.
"Ah, Bella..." Alice began. But it was too late. Edwards's eyes turned almost black with anger and he leaned to me, I could smell cinnamon, tobacco and honey suckle.
"Why I hired Tanya is none of your concern." He said, his anger coming through his voice. Oh shit. Edward owned this place? It made sense now, everyone in the bar had waved to him, and he knew the door guy and after taking a look around the place screamed Edward.
"Yo…you own th…this place?" I stammered, willing my empty glass to magically fill back up on its own so I could have a distraction.
"Yes, I do, Miss Isabella Swan." He retorted, I could tell he wanted to say something else but he didn't. An awkward silence hung over the table and my face heated. Edward continued to glare at me and the others stared down at their drinks.
I wanted to just sink into the ground. Hello foot, meet mouth. I may not have seen Alice in 3 years but I would have thought this would have come up in one of our weekly conversation, or daily texts.
"Scuse me, I'm going to go check out the rest of my skanks and then smoke." He walked over to the bar, speaking with a woman who was pouring a row of what looked to be Vegas Bombs.
"Geez Bella, way to break a guy's dream." Emmett said.
"Geez Emmett way to let a girl walk through a land mine." I repeated part of his words back to him. "You all could have warned me." I whined.
"Sorry Bells, we kinda thought Alice had already told you." Rose said. I glared at Alice who put her hands up in the air.
"I was going to but then we just got caught up in talking about other stuff. I'm sorry." She looked at me with puppy dog eyes and I took a hold of her hand, swinging it upwards and then back down.
"Sure, I mean I should have kept my mouth shut anyway."
Rose jabbed Alice in the shoulder and winked at me, "Yeah Bella if we didn't know any better we would thought you were a jealous girlfriend."
I sucked in a breath and glared at the two of them, Emmett and Jasper were quietly watching. I had nothing to say to that. I had been acting like a jealous girlfriend and I had no right to be that way.
Emmett put a large tattooed arm around my shoulder, "Go talk to him, and at least apologize." The others nodded their agreement and I swallowed the rest of my vodka tonic down, standing up-a little wobbly- I made my way across the room. Ignoring the catcalls from a group of guys near the entrance, I pushed the door open and found him Edward off to the side, almost in the alley, taking a drag off a cigarette. He was kicking at a rock on the ground, shooting it between his feet as if it were a soccer ball.
I cleared my throat but he didn't turn around. I took a step closer to him and he whirled around.
"I'm sorry Edward; I really didn't mean anything by it. The bar seems great and I can tell your family is proud of you." I said. "I'm proud of you." I added softly. I was, after all that happened he had managed to make something of his self. We had been together 2 years when things went south, I knew Edward was smart and driven and I was glad that he was able to overcome what had happened.
I couldn't read his face in the dark but I could see the cherry from the cigarette as he took a drag and then blew the smoke out. My arms wrapped around my chest-I had forgotten to grab a jacket when we left and since it was October in Washington State the night air was cold.
"Bella, I asked one thing of you, that you leave before I could hurt you more then I already had. Now your back and I don't care anymore. Fuck Bella. You have no idea what you leaving did to me. I thought I could play it cool, seeing you again, but I still want you. I want to touch you, want to take you and taste you." He chucked his cigarette to the ground and stomped on it. "I'm not sure I can stay away from you Bella. What am I supposed to do now?" He pleaded to me but all I felt was anger. Was he seriously blaming his fucked up outlook on me?
His words rang in my head, he was much closer now, and I could feel his warm breath on my face. I took a deep breath and let it out in a whoosh. My skin prickled and I bit my lower lip, tasting copper. The cold air had started to sober me up and I was grateful. If I didn't regain control of myself soon I would find myself in his arms. Strong arms that at the moment were reaching for my hips.
"I…you told me to leave Edward. I never wanted to go. I wanted to be here for you." I pushed my hand to his chest, forcing him to step back. If he did touch me I would melt. "You told me YOU were garbage and that YOU were a monster. I knew that wasn't the truth, but I did as YOU asked, and I won't feel guilty for coming back now." I punctuated my words and when I was done I spun on my heels and walked back into the bar, leaving Edward out in the cold. Just like he had left me the night he had told me to leave.
Tears were threatening to fall and I was ready to go home. Alice and Jasper were making out when I got back to the table so I turned to Emmett and Rose. "Take me home please."
"Are you okay Bella?" Rose asked me, pulling back a strand of my hair that had escaped the messy bun atop my head. I just nodded, scared that if I spoke I would start to cry. I reached for my purse and pointed to Alice and Jasper.
"Edward can take them home, well get your car tomorrow. Emmett can pick you up in the morning and take you to work. "Rosalie said softly. The three of us were walking out the door when Edward came in. I avoided looking at him but Emmett glared at him and told him what was going on. "You take Alice and Jasper home, were taking Bella home, cleaning up your mess again."
I hung onto Rose as we walked back to the restaurant and when we reached the cars I climbed into Emmett's jeep. "What did he say to you Bella?" Emmett asked.
"Nothing, I just had too much to drink, and I'm ready to go home." At least I wasn't completely lying but I didn't want to cause trouble between Emmett and Edward. I knew Emmett would not stand for his brother's bullshit again.
"Yeah right." He muttered.
We were in front of my building and they offered to walk me in but I brushed them off, instead telling them that I would flick my light when I got inside. I climbed the stairs two at a time, and when I got into my apartment I flicked the light twice before leaving it on and heading for the kitchen. I threw my purse somewhere in the living room along the way. I grabbed a glass of water and then made my way to my bedroom. I didn't bother with pajama's, settling for just removing my jeans, sweater and bar before sliding in under the covers. The tears were falling now and somehow I could smell him. I was half tempted to leave my apartment window open, not that it would matter, I no longer lived with Charlie, and Edward had no idea where I lived now. Not to mention that fact that we were both adults, who no longer had to sneak around like we had when we were teenagers.
"Asshole" I screeched out into the dark room. My mind flashed back to the night my heart was shattered.
I had gone to Edwards's house after shopping with Rose and Alice. I was excited to see Edward, the last 6 months he had been depressed, cancelling dates, acting distant and irritable. I had talked to him on the phone that morning, for the first time in a week, it had been almost twice that long since I had seen him, he sounded happy and just like it had been when I had first met him and when we were first together. It was the Edward Cullen I had fallen in love with.
It was about three in the afternoon when we got there. I heard System of a Down coming from his bedroom and I ran up the stairs, stubbing toe on the last step. I had cursed out loud but continued to Edward's room. I didn't bother to knock, maybe I should have. I walked into the darkened room, Edward was lying back in his bed, and at first I thought he was asleep. I walked closer to him and his eyes popped open. The look in them was horrific. He didn't smile or even acknowledge that I was there. Instead he just stared straight ahead.
It was then that I noticed the needle beside his thigh, and that his socks and shoes were off. When I glanced at his feet he quickly moved them. Still never saying a word.
"Edward, what the fuck is going on? Why do you have a needle on your bed?" I had asked the question, but I already knew the answer, I was a cop's daughter after all and had seen enough after school specials. He smirked at me.
"You should try it love, it will make all your pain go away." He spoke softly and calmly.
I shook my head back and forth" What the fuck?" I had yelled. "How long have you been doing this?" I was backing towards the door now. I was confused and didn't know what to do.
He was by my side now, his hands gripped my wrists. "Perfect Isabella Swan, never has a problem in her perfect fucking life." He was still calm but the words were filled with venom. I was struggling to get away from him. I had never been so scared in my life. He held onto me tighter, pushing me against the wall.
"Your a fucking bitch Bella, no one can have fun when you're around." He was up against me now and I wondered when the last time he showered was.
"Let me go Edward, you're hurting me." I whispered. No emotion showed in his eyes, they were just dilated orbs.
He pressed harder against me, "Fine leave, I don't fucking need you anyway." But he didn't let me go. I let out the scream I had been holding in. It didn't faze him. I screamed again and tried to get him to release me.
I could hear pounding on his bedroom door and then it flung wide open, Emmett and Jasper were standing there.
"Jesus Christ. What the hell bro?" Emmett said taking in my face and Edwards grip. "Let Bella go." Edward made no move to do as Emmett asked and that was when Emmett reached for him, by the back of his shirt and tried to pull him away but Edwards had too tight a hold on me.
I was crying, and screaming, pleading with Edward to let me go. Emmett and Jasper both ran towards Edwards then, causing the hold to break and knocking me to the ground with them. I stood up and ran out into the hallway, smack into Alice. She helped me downstairs and we sat at the huge kitchen island with Rose. We all could hear the yelling and occasional thumps from upstairs.
I debated on calling Charlie but Edward told me she had called their dad, Carlisle who was on the way. I rubbed at my raw wrists. I was still not sure what had happened and what would happen next. It was plain to see that Edward was using something, how could I have missed that?
The rest of the day had flew by-with Carlisle finding out that Edward had been using Heroin and this time he got a "bad batch". Emmett had a broken nose and Jasper had some bruises on his face that were starting to make an appearance.
Edward was asleep; I think Carlisle had given him something. They all told me to go home. Get some rest but I couldn't leave. It was close to two in the morning when I heard Edward walk downstairs. He appeared sober. His skin was paler then normal and his eyes were a little red.
"Bella can I talk to you?"
I nodded, wiping at the tears on my face. I stood up and smoothed out the shirt I was wearing. Emmett followed us. We walked outside, and I wanted to kiss him, let him know that even with everything that had happened I wanted to be there for him.
"Leave, I don't care where you go just stay away from me. I'm not good for you, I'm a monster Bella." He said-the words sounded forced- or at least that was what I wanted to believe.
"Edward, I love, I want to help you. We can make it through this." I pleaded and reached for his hand. He took a step back.
"I don't love you Bella." With those words he walked back inside his house. Emmett drove me home. Just like that it was over. The next day Alice told me Edward had entered a rehab center, but still did not want to talk to me. I was on a plane 3 days later to Phoenix.
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