JJ felt tears immediately form in her eyes and she snapped her hand away from her fiancée's stomach. She felt sick and moved to the other side of the bed. The blonde couldn't touch her. She felt her stomach lurch at the thought that someone else had touched the brunette. Touched her in intimate places and had created a life with her; a life housed in the place she had just been stroking affectionately. JJ clamped her eyes closed to the images of some unknown male touching her fiancée, kissing her fiancée, sleeping with her fiancée. She felt a hand on her arm and pulled it away violently. "I hate you," the blonde screamed hitting Emily's chest and any part of her body she could find.
Emily moved forward quickly grabbing the blonde's wrists tightly. "Jennifer," the brunette exclaimed trying to fight her off. "Jennifer stop!" she gasped as the blonde hit her in the stomach in her wildness.
JJ wasn't even looking or thinking, she just kept waving her arms out and hitting the woman who had broken her heart. She heard the profiler keep talking but the words were lost to her. She was hitting enough to cause any serious injuries; even though she was crushed she could never physically hurt her, never. "You wouldn't be with me. You wouldn't be with me because you were too scared. Too scared I would hurt you; that it would go wrong; that you'd get hurt and all along you," she pointed at the brunette sobbing, "You were the one that broke me!"
"Listen to me," Emily exclaimed grabbing the sobbing woman in front of her. She cupped both hands in her cheeks and lifted her head so JJ had no choice but look in her eyes. "I didn't cheat on you Jennifer. I didn't!"
The blonde continued to sob shaking her head in her fiancée's hands, "It takes a certain part to make a baby Emily. I don't have that part."
"Not physically," Emily stated quickly. "It's yours Jen."
The blonde profiler looked at her in shock, "It's mine?"
The brunette nodded, tears pouring down her own eyes at the drama that had just taken place. She never wanted it to happen like that.
"I-It's m-mine?" JJ stuttered out.
Emily knew it had come out the wrong way but still her fiancée thinking she had cheated on her; she understood but it still hurt. "Yes," she said bowing her head, "I would never cheat on you, never!"
The blonde moved so her body was close to Emily's, "I know," she said kissing her lips, "I know, I'm sorry...I just, when you said that...we're having a baby?" her voice full of shock and surprise.
"I've been feeling nauseous, my breasts are tender, I'm exhausted...and I took twenty five pregnancy tests this morning and they all came back positive," she whispered.
JJ sat there trying to let it all sink in. It seemed so unreal, so impossible, like a dream. "The coffee," she said softly lost in her thoughts of the day, sudden realisation to the odd behaviour.
"I can't drink it anymore. Well supposedly one a day is ok, but I think I'll just cut it out completely," Emily said lying back down on the bed watching her fiancée try to process her thoughts. She looked on as JJ moved her line of sight to look at her stomach as the biggest smile she had ever seen graced her face.
Slowly the blonde profiler moved forward and hovered over the brunette, "I love you," she whispered before leaning down to kiss her heatedly. She pulled back suddenly, "Did I hurt you? I mean...did I hit...," she panicked.
Emily rubbed her stomach, "You didn't hurt me...you weren't hitting hard," she said softly leaning up to kiss her fiancée to remove her worry.
"But it was negative...you had your period," her brow still furrowed in confusion.
"I bled a little, not like a normal period, I just assumed," Emily tried to explain. "I thought it was negative too, you know I did. Apparently it happens with some pregnancies."
This just worried JJ more, "We need to get you checked out. If something's wrong..." she trailed off.
Emily reached up and stroked her cheek lightly, "I'm not bleeding anymore and according to an entire pharmacy pregnancy section I'm pregnant...but yes we'll check it out when we get home." It was now the brunette's turn to panic, "You want it...I mean we stopped for a reason...we," she trailed off when a pair of soft lips found hers.
"Em, I tried to knock you up once for a reason. We both want kids. Just when it was negative we both realised we were rushing things and going too fast," she laughed lightly, "Apparently though this baby is just as stubborn as you and wasn't going anywhere and I have never been more grateful of that fact!"
"We don't even live together...It's still too fast. We stopped for a reason," Emily worried.
JJ kissed her forehead, nose, cheeks and lips, "We love each other. I want a mini you and you want a mini you. We're getting a mini you...the rest we can work out." She moved slowly down the brunette's body lifted up her t-shirt. She looked down at it. She leaned down to kiss her scar; the place where Ian Doyle had stabbed and nearly taken the love of her life away permanently. It wasn't unknown to the team that Emily had nearly died. She surprised them all revealing that fact very nonchalantly while on a case.
JJ looked further down. Right next to something that represented a near loss of life was a new life being made. A life housed safely in her fiancée. She felt overwhelmed by love for something that was out of sight and that she had only known about for a short time. It was her baby. It still didn't feel real. She kissed her skin again just thinking about their baby growing happily in there, "Hi little one," she said softly. "It's your Mommy here. I'm sorry for all the shouting. I promise you we're not normally like that and I love your Mama so, so much and I love you. I can't wait to meet you. I can't wait to see you growing and feel you moving, so you have to promise me to be good in there and I'll make sure your Mama looks after you. If you want a certain food, just let your Mama know and I'll get it...at any hour of the day..." she kissed her stomach again.
Emily burst out laughing, "Really?"
The blonde lifted her head up to look at her fiancée, "What?"
"You're even spoiling it from inside the womb!" she laughed playing with JJ's long, golden locks.
"Damn right I am," the blonde smiled widely. She rubbed her stomach, "That's my baby in there and I'm going to look after my baby! Bean gets whatever he or she wants!"
Emily's smile matched her fiancee's. She loved how much JJ was already overprotective and in love with their baby. "Within reason," the brunette stated.
JJ nodded, "Within reason...spoilt within reason," she chuckled. "Maybe not from Garcia though, reason tends to go out the window when she gets excited."
"That's exactly why I'll be in another place when you tell her," Emily teased, pouting when her wife hit her playfully.
"Oh Emily Elizabeth Prentiss, you should know by now I wear the pants in this relationship," she laughed leaning down to kiss her. "You're not leaving my side, even telling Pen." She looked at her fiancee and smirked, "You said your breasts are sensitive...how sensitive?" She said grinning as she slid her hand up from her stomach towards her chest.
