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The next morning, raven like usual was first to wake. Realizing she had fallen asleep with Beastboy she quickly got up, careful not to wake Beastboy. She felt angry with herself for letting her green friend cut himself for years. She couldn't believe she had never found out. Raven had watched him scratch, vaguely noticing, but noting all the same. She should have done something!
Raven shook her head as if dismissing her thoughts. It didn't matter that she hadn't done anything, she could still do something. Sipping her herbal tea, she thought she could sense something watching her. Looking to where Beastboy was still sleeping, she just shrugged it off.
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Unknown to Raven, there really was someone watching her. Slade turned away from the various cameras' looking into the titans tower, and put his fingers together, dramatically patting a white cat. (Lol not really)
"So Beastboy was hiding a secret all this time. He doesn't seem like a person who would…" Slade said to himself. He thought back to the time Beastboy turned into the beast, the his time finding the doom patrol, when he fought for terra, and when he lead the titans to stop the brotherhood of evil.
So far, Slade hadn't had any luck when it came to apprentices, but he desperately needed one to carry on in his footsteps. Beastboy was strong with his powers, but seemed emotionally weak. It would be easy to break him.
"Time for a plan" Slade said, chuckling wickedly.
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During the titans breakfast, Beastboy put on his normal routine. First getting into a 'tofu is better than meat' fight with Cyborg, trying Stars new cooking concoction and cracking jokes. It surprised raven how he could go from emotionally ruined to the happy-go-lucky Beastboy they all thought they knew.
"I mean how could you eat all that disgusting meat! I have been all those animals! Would you eat me?!" Beastboy yelled at Cyborg. "Duh of course not, who would eat green meat? Gross!" Cyborg yelled back, his mouth in a comically wide position. "That is besides the point!" Beastboy screamed back.
Raven looked up from her book. Beastboy may have been yelling but he was grinning happily. For all these years she thought that smile was genuine.
"Friends! Would you care to try my new zorknof gurluhsine?" Starfire asked, holding out a pot full of bubbling orange gloop. "Zork… zorknof gul… gurlgl… giggleshinzer?" Beastboy stuttered and Cyborg burst out laughing.
"Uh no thanks star," Raven muttered and buried herself back into her book. Starfire turned to robin then. "Boyfriend robin! Would you like to do the tasting?" she asked.
Robin took a sniff at what she produced and all the breakfast he had just been chewing almost spilled out of his mouth. Starfire looked dejected. "You do not like?" she asked.
"Uhh... No star! I do... its just… I just… I... ummm…" he fumbled over his words. Raven decided to step in. "robin is just a bit full from breakfast star, give some to silkie, he loves your food." She said.
Starfire brightened at this. "That is a glorious idea friend Raven!" she cried and went looking for silkie. Robin shot raven a thankful glance.
Raven turned away to see that Cyborg and Beastboy had resumed their banter. "That tofu stuff is disgusting though! No one should eat fake meat!" Cyborg told him. "But why would you kill animals just to eat them! That is disgusting!" Beastboy yelled and tried to force tofu into Cyborgs mouth.
Raven froze for a second. One word kept resinating in her head. Kill… kill… kill… Inside her head, Raven could her Timid shriek and happy was seizing up.
"Umm… Beastboy can I talk to you for a moment?" she asked, trying to keep her calm demeanour. Beastboy looked away from forcing tofu into Cyborg and followed Raven out.
Behind him Cyborg spat out the tofu and stuffed meat into his mouth to try and rid himself of the taste, until he found out eat was eating Beastboy's tofu hot dogs. He fainted.
Sitting down in Ravens room, Beastboy shivered. She had not redecorated. "So what do you want to talk about?" Beastboy asked. "I want to ask you a few questions. You have to answer them truthfully, but if you really don't want to you can skip the question. Ok?" she asked in a rush.
"Um… sure…" Beastboy replied, smile fading a bit. "Ok…" Raven started, keeping her voice steady.
"Why have you… you know?" she asked slowly, watching his smile fall. "You can pass if you want," she said softly. He answered anyway.
"Well… after my… parents… passes on, I did it a lot then, probably the most in my life. I also cut when i got my powers and was teased at school." He said stiffly. "Darn monkey," he muttered, half jokingly.
"I ran away from school too, I cut then… I ran into some scientists…" he said trailing off, but calmed himself and picked up again. "They did lots of experiments with my powers. It was exhausting and it hurt. I cut then because it would focus my attention on that pain and away from the other injuries." His eyes were surprisingly normal, but Ravens had clouded.
"I escaped and met the doom patrol. I didn't cut until a few days when I was deciding whether to stay or not." He said, putting an arm around Raven when he noticed her misty eyes.
"What about in your time with the titans?" she asked breathlessly. He hesitated before replying. "Yes, a few times…" he admitted. Raven nodded, her shoulders starting to shake.
"Can I have a look at… them again?" she asked softly. "Um ok, but I don't know why you want to, I never do." He said hesitantly. She took his arm and rolled up the sleeve. Carefully studying all his cuts. Some were new-ish and some were older. There was one and the top of his arm that looked very old and grotesque. Raven didn't think Beastboy had done that one.
"What is that one?" she asked. Beastboy's eyes grew cold and when he replied his voice was hard. "You know how i told you about the scientists that did experiments on me?" he asked. She nodded.
"And do you know that starfish can regrow their arms?" he said coldly. Raven nodded once again at this very random question. "Well that's want I did when they cut my arm off. I turned into a starfish and regrew it." He said harshly.
Raven gasped in horror and she let a few tears go. Beastboy warmed up a bit, lost the coldness in his eyes and pulled her to him in comfort. After she calmed down a bit she thought about the next question.
"What was so bad to drive you to the idea of cutting in the first place?" she asked. Beastboy thought for a while before replying. "I think I will pass on this one," He said. She nodded sharply.
"Am I the only one who knows?" Raven asked. "No, Rita knows." He answered. "How did she find out?" she said, genuinely interested. "Noticed the scratching, like you." He said shortly.
Raven braced herself. She was going to ask the question all this had been leading up to. She felt one hot tear slide down her cheek and angrily she brushed it away. "Have… Beastboy have you… ever tried to kill yourself?" she asked slowly, as if that would make it less hard. It didn't.
Beastboy didn't hesitate. "Pass." He said. His eyes were glazed now. "No Beastboy! I need you to answer this one. I need to know if there is even the smallest possibility I could come back from a mission and find you dead!" she spat the words out like they were venom.
Another hot tear trickled down her face. This time Beastboy brushed it away. "Yes…" he whispered softly. Raven didn't even try to stop the tears from pouring out. Her powers threw books everywhere and a vase smashed onto the ground.
"Please Raven! It was ages ago! Before the titans, I wouldn't let it happen again!" he cried, trying to stop her powers. Calming down a bit Raven's powers stopped, but the tears kept flowing.
How could I have let this been happening to him! All his life!? She mentally screamed at herself.
Robin, Cyborg and Starfire burst into the room. "We heard the smashing of the vases! Friends what is wrong?" Starfire said as she swooped into the room. Robin made his way forward but stopped when he saw Raven. Cyborg stepped up. "Raven what happened?" he asked gently.
"I… No its…" she blundered. Robin cut her off as he turned to the only other person that had been in the room with her. "Beastboy… did you do this?" he asked sternly, pointing to Raven.
"Well… yes but…" Beastboy said but was cut off by Robin's angry glares. "No it's not in the way you think!" he said, putting up his hands as if in an attempt to deflect Robins anger. Raven joined in. "Yeah… I mean… wasn't… Beastboy's fault!" she added.
Starfire was comforting Raven and Cyborg was just looking at her. Had Beastboy made Raven cry? Why, and how would… could he? He thought.
But he knew one thing for sure. Raven was like his little sister, and no one touches Cyborgs little sister. He knew though, that Beastboy would never really do this though. 'He wouldn't' Cyborg confirmed in his head.
Before robin could tear Beastboy's head off, and probably Ravens too, in the process, the titan's crime alarm went off. Robin glared at Beastboy, and then ran out of the room. Starfire Hesitantly followed and Raven wiped her eyes before leaving too.
Cyborg stood in front of Beastboy, who had kind of spaced out. He ruffled his green friends hair. "Saved by the bell grass stain," he chuckled.
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