This part will have two different song lyrics in them. One is the revised version of show me how to live that I came up with from Audioslave. The second is a the chorus from the song pepper by a band who's name I can't say or type without LMAO, I'm gonna skip giving their name that's a big enough hint to help you. This will feature more of Sookie's existential crisis. I will also over more of the family vampire dynamic which will include Eric. We will see Godric's depression come back and the blow up that results from it in the form of our resident spitfire. This will be in past tense since I find it harder to write in present tense sorry if there is any confusion.

Responsible: You gave my life

I woke up to an empty bed and started to panic. I sat up in bed and looked around the room. I saw a folded note sitting on the bedside table like a pyramid. I opened the letter and it smelt of Godric. The penmanship of fancy curls and gently strokes made me a little jealous, because I could never write like that. The letter said:

Precious little one of my blood,

I was called to a meeting with Nan Flanagan of the AVL. I will be stepping down as sheriff most likely. I left Eric in charge of your care since you are the kind of child that sleeps in. Call his room. The number is 1001. I don't want you alone tonight.

Your Maker,

Godric An Bas of Gaul the Rominus line

I set the letter down and went to clean up. I dug through my bags and found my portable phone docker, so I can charge and play music. I turned up the volume and played Pepper. I sat on a chair with my back to the door and just let my depression about my tragic death lose. I started singing along to the music. I sung:

I don't mind the sun sometimes the images it shows

I can taste you on my lips and smell you in my clothes

Cinnamon and sugary and softly spoken lies

You never know just how you look through other people's eyes

I didn't know Eric had came in. My eyes were closed and I was in the moment. He walked right up to my chair and surprised me with a kiss. I gasped in surprise and he took advantage of it and slipped his tongue inside my mouth. I was overcome by my reaction. I wrapped my arms around Eric's neck. He picked me up out of the chair. I wrapped my legs around his waist. Eric's kiss was passionate and possessive while Godric's was seductive and lustful. I felt myself being moved to the bed and I freaked out a little. I broke out kiss and asked, "Wait. What are we doing? What are you doing to me?"

Eric stopped and held me up with hands under my ass. He looked at me with no perversion just concern. I am your brother and I felt your despair. As vampires we comfort each with showing our love through sex. I would meet the sun just to ensure you would never know any pain. I love you sister."

It was the sweetest thing I had ever heard in all of my life. I kissed Eric for loving me so much. This family vampire life was unlike anything I've ever experienced. Eric walked me over to the bed and slides his hand down my stomach and under my shorts. I arched at the overwhelming sensations of my climax. He broke our kissing and gently pulls down my pants and kisses my stomach. My eyes rolled into the back of my head. Eric hooked my legs over his shoulder as his tongue dive deeper into my most private parts. I honestly can't tell how much time passed. I do remember when we joined. He was hard and fast in his relentless love making. All the while him telling me how much I was loved and how much he loved me. Showing me how important I was in the only way a vampire can. I soaked up all the attention he gave like a water starved flower. When we climaxed it seemed to satisfy ever negative feeling I had before. Those thoughts just vanished.

I must of dozed off because I woke up to Godric's voice saying as he leaned down and lovingly kissed Eric, "It is good to see my children can take comfort in each other. I can be at ease knowing you two will always be there for each other."

Eric eagerly kissed Godric back with a hunger in his passion. It was like they had not be intimate for a long time. Eric asked hopeful, "Are you going to join us, Master?"

I saw a flash of an emotion that seem melancholy that Godric quickly hid and declined saying, "No my child you should enjoy your bonding with our Sookie. I am fine."

Eric's hopeful face fell and I was bothered by the way Godric said I am fine. It felt wrong. I was filled with fear he was leaving for some reason and said in a pout emphasizing the pout of my voice over the last syllable, "God-ric!" I reach my hand out for Godric. He gave a small smile and got on the bed on the other side of me. Godric took my hand and kissed the palm of my hand. Godric said as he laid next to me, "I came to check one you two before I left to feed. Then I was going to feed Sookie."

Eric laid his head on my stomach and suggested, "We could teach Sookie. I am curious to see how Sookie will feed."

"No humans yet. I want to take my time feeding her. If you are so curious then you get to be our donor tonight." Godric said with a smirk.

Eric gave his classic horny smile and said, "I would be honored to provide for you both tonight since I have fed."

"Who do you want to go first Eric? I would suggest that I go first since Sookie is so young and very hungry." Godric asked as Eric laid back next to me.

"I think that would be the best Master. Besides I miss you bite Godric." Eric agreed and soften his voice when he said Godric's name. It was meant for emphasis as though he was pointing out that he missed Godric as a whole. Not just his bite.

Godric moved over and sat upon Eric's waist and said to me as he held Eric down with two fingers on his right hand, "Now listen carefully Sookie. Vampires are not dead. We have a heart beat. Our hearts beat twice a minute and 120 beats in one hour. Eric's heart should race at 20 beats per minute. One beat every three seconds. You will hear when it slows down to 6 beats per minute you should stop. The cue is the sudden drop in heartrate."

""This reminds me of fond memories Master." Eric said with a smile.

I listen and heard to very slow beat. I nodded to Godric to let him know I hear it. He smiles and turns his head as he opens his mouth and extends his fangs. I hold my breath as Godric bites into Eric's neck. Eric moans at the first pull. I saw Godric at his most hungry and restless, trying to get closer to Eric. Eric grabs onto Godric's ass and growls. I hear Eric's heart speed up and I hear Godric drink harder. Then I heard Eric's heart suddenly slow down as he moaned out. Godric broke his hold on Eric's neck and the wound healed. Godric sat back with not a drop of blood on his lips. I noticed the bulge in his pants.

As Godric moved off Eric, Eric's member sprang up being free of the weight holding it down. Godric captured my lips still full of passion. I admit I was horny too. Godric guided me to sit on Eric's waist as Eric said, "Come my sister. I am still ready for more."

I let my fangs go and lean over Eric to his neck. I can hear him sniffing at my hair. I take in his scent, I can smell icy northern waters and wood from boats. I can't smell the magic in him just power of his thousand years. When I bit into him, I could taste a sweetness to his blood like honey or maybe that mead stuff Vikings drank. I could hear Eric's heartbeat in my ears. I could feel in pulsing hard as I felt the ache build in my lower belly. I started to grind along the shaft of his member earning a hiss from him which was strangle out by Godric capturing his lips as he moved his body around my own as I feed from Eric. Eric's heart beats harder fueled by the attention of two vampires. I feel him slowing down and fight to break the hold. But my jaws are still locked. Godric feels my struggle and grabs be with one hand on my waist lifting me up slightly. Then with his other hand he reaches for Eric's member and lines him up and slides me down on it hard. He said to me as he played with my breast, "Let go. Focus on how good we are making you feel. Don't you want to let your voice go."

The overload was too much and I forgot all about feeding and released Eric's neck. I moaned as Eric grabbed my hips and thrust roughly into me. Godric smoothed his hand along my back leaving me tingling. I noticed Eric's horny smirk. Then softly and gently Godric's fingers massage around the ring of my back entrance. I hear Godric whisper throaty to me in need, "Relax for me precious."

At first it felt intrusive, but slowly I became use to the feeling and it became arousing. The feeling of both men giving me attention had me begging them for more. Eric pull me down on him so I was laying on his body as Godric loosen me enough to take him inside. I can't still explain the feeling. It was helpless to the feeling of them both moving in me. I just held onto Eric as he nodded to Godric to go ahead. I found out how passionate Godric can be as he set a merciless pace leaving both Eric and myself at his mercy.

I heard Eric say to Godric, "I'm close."

"I am as well." I said

Godric gripped tightly on my hips and growled out, "I am almost there hold yourselves." Then he did these long hard thrust into me, causing both of us to jar up and down. I felt us all come undone together. I then laid next to them as Godric was not done and set to work on Eric who moaned gently. It was entirely different from earlier. He was submissive as I am with Godric. Not taking control like Eric was with me earlier before Godric came back. I couldn't help but play with myself as I watch this private loving scene. Godric was not rough with Eric, he was loving him in a way. I understood what this was. This was I miss you. I love you. Eric looks at me and says to Godric, " I think she needs help. Maybe your tongue master."

"I agree. I haven't yet had the pleasure of tasting her." Godric said as he looked me at me while still thrusting inside Eric. I swallowed hard and Eric laughed and said to Godric openly without fear, "I missed you Master."

"I know my child." Godric said

We slept together as in one heaping mess in the covers. Sometime in day Godric got up. I mumbled to Eric, "Where's Godric going?"

Eric hugged me to his chest and said, "Our father is very depressed. He wonders like this, some days. I worry about him. But, he never tells me anything. Just go to sleep before the bleeds start."

I could feel the despair coming off Godric as I drifted by to sleep. My sleep was restless until he returned to bed. Then I turned and laid my head on his chest. I last remember him stroking my hair. I just wanted him to understand how much we need him. I need him. You never want your parent to die. I already live through that. I held onto him like he would disappear, because he just might.

The next days were a shock. Eric finally told me the list of dead. Bill was on the list. Jason was recovering in the hospital, it seemed Bill covered Jason from serious damage and died from wooden bullets. When I was human that would have hurt. However my human brother surviving was the most important. I guess it was the questions his death left unanswered that leaves me numb. I still struggle to except I am not human but not dead either. So what am I?

As the days stretch on, while we wait for Jason to be released, I notice Godric growing more distant. I reach for Godric's arm while he walks by me in the hotel suite, He looks at me before I can touch him and says, "I am fine precious little one." I was hurt by him rebuffing my concerns. As I watch him pass me by as he walked of to the steel shutters and walked out onto the balcony. Eric came up behind me and I asked, "Why did he save me?"

"Sookie." Eric started to say upset.

I interrupted saying, "No. If he won't let me near him now. And, he keeps us at a distance then why did he save me. I wanted to not die in that church. I didn't say I didn't want to die. That place was tainted. Now I'm whatever this is. A vampire, neither alive or dead. And for what? To just brush me aside? It hurts and I don't understand him."

Eric hugged me and said, "I don't know. Godric hasn't wanted to make another for a long time. He has slowly changed since the black plague. I know something is wrong."

"I think I know." I said as I looked up at Eric.

"What are you up to?" Eric asked me.

"I am going to disobey Godric and demand that he tells me the truth. I have been feeling despair from him. Are you coming?" I said as I turned and head for the balcony.

"I now know what it would have been like to grow up with you. You must have gotten Jason in a lot of trouble." Eric remarked with amusement as he followed me.

"Can he give me to you as a child? Like willing his maker status over to you?" I asked.

"Yes, but it is unheard of in this age. I don't like where you're going with this subject." Eric said concerned as he walked quicker behind me. I found that Godric had been crying on the balcony. He quickly turned his head towards us and said, "I thought I told you to leave me."

"Are you planning on committing suicide?" I asked.

"I thought I could wait until you're older, but two thousand years is enough." Godric said and I started to cry.

Eric got angry and said, "This is insanity. You can't do this to us."

"You have each other it is perfect this way. I will give my status to you so you can care for Sookie. I was not meant to be a vampire it is against the nature I was born to be. I must end this." Godric reasoned.

I blew my stack and said, "Am I dead or am I created? You gave me my life. Now show me how to live."

"Precious little one of my blood, you feel the oddness of this. I thought it would wear off like it did with Eric." Godric said as he looked me. He acted like he knew why I felt this way.

"This is the hand I was given. I may not know the reason but it is my fate. You promised me. You said you would take care of me. How can you do that when you are dust. I can't do this without you." I cried out.

"Master this is wrong. This doesn't feel right. Sookie is right you can't leave us." Eric pleaded.

Godric bowed his head and said, "Two crying children against one parent is unfair odds. What am I to do?"

"Love us. Let that be enough to live. I lost parents I don't want to see that again. Stay with us. You promised me." I said still crying. Godric came up to us and we hugged him. I heard him say, "You are right precious little one of my blood, I promised you. Now I promise both of you, that I will never leave you. So stop crying."